Chapter 11 – Revelations
Hope shivers and hugs herself awaiting the results of her DNA test. She drove all the way to Los Angeles to do the test – again, not wanting to arouse suspicion. As she waits, Gina has decided to take a rest, and she's just Little Hope Williams Brady, anxiously waiting...
"It's no wonder Gina always refers to me being "little", I feel like a frightened little girl." Hope sighs. Of all the times for Gina's bravado to disappear...
The fact that she's feeling this way is also one of the reasons she's so scared. It creates even more questions. Is all this Gina-behavior and memories just a side-affect from the shock? Is it over now? Has she gone through all this trouble and agony over nothing? Well it can't be for nothing, apart from the memories, their has been a lot more suspicious events. Suppose Gina's memories didn't come back, would she even have noticed all these strange events? Or is this just something she will have to get used to? A couple of days, skulking around as Gina, then a couple of days again, feeling out of sorts as Hope, or will the two personalities eventually integrate with one another, creating a totally new person. Hopefully a well balanced person? What if all Stefano's manoeuvrings end with her losing her sanity, and him succeeding in destroying her, if not the Brady's, as his wish had been for years...
She sighs again, then goes out for a smoke – Hope or Gina, it doesn't really matter, her body is now addicted to the damn things, and they do end up calming her – a little.
She thinks back to her ronde vue in Shawn's cupboard with John, and starts feeling the familiar pangs of passion. How is all this going to end? He turns her on, but she does still love Bo - in fact she would've given anything to be able to tell him the truth, and to have him at her side, holding and consoling her, as she waits for the DNA test. And the DNA test, how will this affect her life? If she was born Hope, will she be able to stay true and loyal to Bo, with all these conflicting emotions regarding these memories and John. And if she was born as Princess Gina, what then? Will she be able to stay with Bo, living a lie the rest of her life? Granted in that case she has been living a lie for quite a number of years now, but a lie is only a lie once you know about it yourself... And John, if she truly is Gina, will she be able to stay away from him, or would they get back together? How long will it take for her to figure out who she wants to be with, and if she was to tell the truth, would she be given a choice, or will Bo throw her out of his life, or God forbid, even arrest for Lily's art thefts? And who will she be? Biologically, she doesn't have a choice, but who will she be inside? Gina, Hope, a mix of both? Morality is a big burden to carry, but so is covering your tracks, if you want to take the other alternative...
She stabs out the cigarette.
"How long still!?"
Five hours later, the lab assistant comes to call her, where she is smoking yet another cigarette outside. She slips her golden lighter into the packet as she follows her inside. There is plenty of space as she nearly finished the pack, there is only one cigarette left of a packet bought only seven hours ago. Stress. Stress is a packet of cigarettes.
The professor, wearing a white lab coat, and odd looking goggles, hands her a file. Shaking, she opens the folder to look inside. Her eyes go over the page, then she skims again, then very much confused, she looks up. She expected a little chart, saying positive or negative, or a color, something simple, like a home pregnancy test.
"I'm sorry, It doesn't make sense, I have no idea what I am looking at here." She peers down at the chart again, the whole page is filled with medical jargon and percentages and little blocks with spots inside looking like equalizers.
"It is a chart of the comparison between your DNA and the sample you brought in. Basically, it says that on a maternity level, you are not a match for this Sample of..."he takes of the goggles and looks over onto the file, "...Shawn Douglas Brady, however you are related."
"Related, but I'm not his mother?" Gina/Hope looks shocked.
"I'm sorry, but I do not see how that is possible!"
"Well, I have no idea of your family history, however, it is possible, science says it is possible."
He shakes her hand, and the nurse shows her out. She climbs into the car, dumbfounded.
She opens the pack of cigarettes and light up the last one.
The definition of stress: A pack of cigarettes.
