I felt exhausted after fighting with Gibbs. Pretty much everything tired me those days but arguing has always been harder to me than athletics. I sat in the conference room and stared at a new can of Coke I got myself from the beverage dispenser. I did not remember Gibbs being that mean to anybody and when i last met him he has certainly been nicer to the surviving dependants than he has been to me. I was curious about the reason but couldn't find an explanation. There were too many possibilities. I didn not like the military. I did not care about honor or heroism. I did not turn to him because I trusted him- I did it because I knew what happened to him. My concerns weren't really about him. I went to him because of what happened and I understood why this might not be that pleasant. Otherwise he could not know. So maybe I was just not that much of an appealing figure to him.
My cell rang again as Carry called me again. Since I didn't answer her first call she texted me a couple of times and left several messages on my mailbox. I couldn't let her wait for a response any longer. She was seriously worried about me.
"Hey Carry", I answered the call and tried to let my voice not sound as scared as I felt.
"Jesse, where have you been? The whole team was waiting for you like half an hour. There's the game-"
"I'm sorry, Carry", apologized and honestly felt that way, "I forgot there is track today."
"Never mind. Anyway - where have you been? I called at your house but someone yelled at me, I think it was your grandmother. I don't know what she said.. are you in trouble? Do you need any help?"
"I'm.. I'm fine, Carry. I'm at NCIS right now and-"
"What?"
"I need to tell you. Listen, I need to talk to you in person as quick as possible. I'm sorry for not answering your calls. I was just.. I'm okay. But everything else is somehow.. not at all."
"Can I come see you?"
"I don't know ifb they let you and I don't think they'll let me go outside all alone. I'll just come by as soon as possible, I promise."
"Can.. I do anything for you?", she asked, almost whispered. I barely understood what she said, "I can try get in there. I could call my dad and he'll help you in there. I'm not sure if a JAG lawyer can do this bus if it's possible.. you know, he always like you to be my friend. He'd do everything to help you, you're almost like a daughter to him."
"No. But, Carry, thanks a lot for offering that."
"How is James?"
I faltered. Tears came into my eyes for the thousandth time of the day. I blanketed a sob.
"This is about James", I explained and expected to be suffocated by the words."
"Is he-?"
"Yes. I wanted to tell it you face to face. Not like that. My parents are dead, too. It's.. I don't know what to do, Carry. I got the message of my parents' death this morning. I went here to tell the Agents that something's gong on but they didn't believe me. I went home and.. I found him there. He was already dead and.. I'm still here."
I heared her loud, rampant and desperate weepning through the cell and it hurt me to hear her break down like this without being there to hold her. Carry lost her mother two years ago and I've been there for her. When my mom got that badly injured and I was afraid she might die she's been there for me. And now we both suffered any we both were all alone. That was not how it was supposed to be. That was as wrong as possible.
"I'm sorry, Jesse", she said and I could hear how she tried to choke back her tears, "I shouldn't.. he's your brother and they are your parents and.. You.. I am very sorry for your loss. Whenever you need me to help you or be there.. I'll be there. Every time of day and night. You know - sister.""I met him when I was five and a half years old. We already were friends then. He was your brother, too." I sobed a little and then suddenly paused as a hurtful thought occured to me.
Carry was my sister.
Shoot!
"You know, there is something you could do", I quickly said, "stay in your house. Please. Lock the door at night. I know it's not likely there're criminals on the base but someone has been there for James."
I hang up and jumped on my feet and left the room running as quick as I could. I had to find one of the agents. Fast.
