So that's how I ended up here. At Roxas's place. I'm living in the same apartment as him. Of course, I was too ashamed so I couldn't tell anyone about this...maybe Kyojin. I went onto my laptop and checked my email. There were several unread messages. They were all sent while I was kidnapped. I then remember that Kyojin was supposed to come over yesterday. He must have sent these to check up on me. Damn, I feel guilty. I began typing a reply.
Sorry bout yesterday. I was out of the house...if you want, you can come over today, but I'm living with my neighbor now so you'll have to go the apartment next to mine.
A instant reply.
Sure! Alright, I'm at Twilight Town right now and Destiny Islands is a bit far. Expect in me in a while.
I closed the window. Alright, Kyojin's coming again! I smiled think about how Kyojin might look like. She could be a pretty woman with long braided brown hair or maybe she have long straight black hair. I couldn't get a good image in my mind. My thoughts were interrupted by Roxas.
"Hey, Nam, what do you want to eat?" he asked, popping into the room.
"Are you cooking?" I asked.
"Yeah."
"Then I'm not hungry."
Roxas then threw a fit, claiming he could cook like Picasso (which led me to ask him if he knew who Picasso was and getting the answer 'some dude who cooked, right?'). I giggled and Roxas huffed. Roxas then decided to leave the room to go cook some fish or something. I nodded slowly.
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"So she rejected you?" Kairi asked, bluntly.
"Pretty much," I said with a sigh.
"She likes Roxas, doesn't she?" Kairi asked.
"Well, duh. Everybody could practically see that. It really makes me sad though. She used to like me and once we broke up, she was always with Roxas. Of course she'd fall for him," I grumbled.
Kairi giggled. We were talking on the phone again, like we always would.
"Don't worry about it. As the 'friend-who-tries-to find-hope-even-when-it's-not-there' friend, I say that once Roxas loses his temper like he always does. She'll get so scared that she'll be crawling back to you. I mean, Roxas needs better control of his emotions. He's always turning to anger when he doesn't know what to do. However as the 'honest-friend' friend, I say that she's sticking with Roxas, even though he has those bad sides of him. You have to live with it," Kairi said, trying to be reassuring, I think.
"I'm sort of wishing the first scenario happens," I said a bit jokingly.
Kairi laughed. Once Namine came back, I completely forgot what Kairi and I were arguing about earlier.
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"This is actually...good," I said. I was extremely surprised, especially for someone who didn't know who Picasso was.
"What do you mean by 'actually'?!" Roxas said, glaring at me.
I giggled. We then began talking more.
"So, what do you usually cook?" Roxas asked.
"Uh...I don't. My mom does," I lied.
"Liar."
Damn it. He saw right through me.
"How come you live alone?" he asked.
I bit my lip. Well, I might as well tell him. I can trust Roxas. I can trust Key. So I told him.
"I got into a fight with my parents when I was thirteen. You know how thirteen-year-olds are. We talk big when we're not. So I said 'I hate living with you people! I'd rather live on my own!'. So my mom and dad agreed that they would send me to live on my own. Really, it was shocker. What kind of parents were they? I was sent to here with a hundred dollars in tens. I then realized I had to take care of myself. So I learned how to cook. I learned how to clean. I learn everything on my own. Of course, since I have no job, I eventually ran out of money.
"After a week of no food, I found a envelope in the mail with another hundred in tens. It read 'Hope you're having fun, Namine'. I continued my life, thinking if I became even more responsible, they'd take me back. However, each letter that came, the shorter it was. You know my last one said 'To Natasha'. My parents don't even remember my name. Because they sent me off to live on my own, I've become pretty independent. Therefore, I lived a life of solitude. Olette found me, but she moved away right afterward."
I felt hand on my hand. I looked up to see it was none other than Roxas's.
"Why are you...?" I asked softly.
"You looked like you're about to cry. I don't want you to cry," he mumbled.
"Then I won't cry," I replied with a smile.
Roxas let go of my hand after I said that. Fuka then joined us. She sat down and started eating. Roxas gave her a look, and she sighed.
"Thanks for the meal," she said halfheartedly as she clapped her hands together.
Roxas smiled and nodded. She then began to eat like a pig. It was pretty scary. Roxas seemed used to it of course.
When he was finished, he stood up and told us he had to go buy some more food. We nodded and Roxas headed out the door. Once he was gone, Fuka then turned to me with a smile on her face.
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I walked down to the market to pick up some fruits. I suddenly heard "Passion" playing. Somebody was calling me. I picked it up, not even bothering to check what was the number. I was surprised to hear this voice. It was even more surprising she called without him around.
"Hi. What's up?" I asked.
"Roxas, how's Namine?" she asked quietly.
"You always ask this...she's fine. We ran into some trouble but that's all better now."
"T-trouble? Roxas! You said you were protecting her!"
"I'm trying! Geez. You act like you're my mother."
"Well, I am a mother."
"FOR TWO MONTHS! Two months!"
"Just check up on Namine!"
I sighed, "Fine. Okay? But first, can you please just call Namine for once? I don't even think she knows you're in town."
"I don't want Namine to be disappointed in me..."
"She won't be. Can you just call her up? If it makes you feel any better, I'm going back right now."
"Fine. But not this week, okay?"
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"Sora?"
I looked up to see Kairi. I sat at my front porch, locked out. I would do what I did to Kairi's house to get in, but my dad has been having money troubles so I think he'd be pissed to see a broken window in our house. Kairi had just come by.
"Hey," I said absentmindedly.
Kairi sat down next to me. She bit her lip.
Silence.
"Do you know what's going on with Namine and Roxas these days?" I asked.
"I don't know," Kairi answered quickly, trying to avoid talking about Namine.
More silence.
"You jealous?" I brought up.
"Of...?"
"Namine."
Kairi bought her knees to her chin.
"This may sound selfish, but Namine has always been a nobody at school. I've always been a somebody. I'm more well-known around school and have more friends. I socialize, get good grades, and everything. I'd always hang out with you, even before I started liking you. But you were always staring at the corner. The corner where that certain blonde would be. All alone. I knew you felt bad for her. I did try to pay more attention of Namine because of you.
"I worked so hard to get your attention, but just Namine sitting there alone grabbed all of it. You guys eventually started going out before I knew it. Then you fall in love with her. I tried so hard to be in her place. I didn't take any action because I wanted you and Namine to be happy. I became better friends with Namine, you know. Because you really like her . I thought it would only be fair if I were to become her friend so I felt less jealous. Namine tells me how she always feels invisible. So she changed that. We got her in a more sociable group. She's getting better grades after studying with you and Roxas. She's even known by the entire school. Everyone loves her. She tells me she's invisible, but I don't think she realizes how lucky she is. However, after doing all that for her, I feel like the invisible one. I know. I sound super selfish and horrible and all, but I can't help being jealous of her. I try so hard to be the one who would capture your heart, but you gave it to Namine before I could even see it coming. Sometimes, I feel like the nobody and she's the somebody," Kairi began sniffling.
I looked at her with pity. I never knew that she felt like this. I slowly put my arm around her.
"It's ok. You'll always be my somebody," I said.
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"So who are you choosing?" Fuka asked.
"HUH?"
"Don't play dumb with me. I can see that you give Roxas and his cousin a certain look."
I looked down to my feet.
"Roxas really cares about you, Namine..." Fuka began.
I looked up at her.
"He...when he was younger, around six or seven, I divorced with my husband. Roxas...he didn't take it too well. My husband began blaming Roxas that our marriage was ending. Roxas locked himself in his room for a few days. He skipped school a lot more too. And then, I went to check up on him, and I found him on the computer crying. I ran over and hugged him, asking what was wrong. I saw what you wrote to him and smiled. He was so happy. He just became hooked onto your blog. When he started high school, Roxas told me he found you. He was too scared and nervous to confront you though, Plus, Sora had developed a crush on you.
"Yet, Roxas still continued to watch over you. He talked about you all the time. Meeting you online was the thing that helped him. He became happier. He became brighter. He went to school everyday. You changed him, Namine. I didn't tell Roxas to walk you home everyday. He did so on his own. I've never seen him so protective of someone. He obviously cares about you more than me or his father. It's like you were his light, and he's too afraid to let go of you because it'll be dark again."
Fuka smiled at me. I blushed. Roxas...he was really like that? And message? What did I say in that again? It must have been something powerful to bring him to tears. Fuka then told me more about Roxas's past. Apparently, Roxas and Axel were best friends, but they stopped seeing each other once Roxas found out Axel was gay for him (saw that coming). Roxas was also part of gang for a while but quit. I learned so much about him. Roxas...he's deeper than I thought. Fuka then stood up and left to go to the nearest bar. I tried to protest, but she won. She was out the door. I sighed. Roxas is going to be mad that I let Fuka go.
I suddenly heard a knock at the door. I went to open it. I think it's Kyojin! I can't wait to meet her. I imagined a beautiful lady with short brown hair now. However, when I answered the door, I found someone else.
"Hello, MemoryWitch. I'm Yuga_naru_Kyojin."
It was a tall man with pink hair. He had green eyes and a grin on his face. He wore a black cloak too. Similar to Axel's. Was this why Axel tried to take me with him? To protect me from Kyojin?
The man walked into the room, closing the door. He then pushed me to the ground. I grew scared and tried to get up, but he pinned me down.
"You know, you shouldn't trust what people say on the internet, Memz. It's easy to fake an age, a gender, a name," he said laughing.
"But you were my friend. You gave me words of advice. You...You can't be Kyojin!" I choked out.
"None of us wants to be suspicious of a comrade. Really. Most of the time, I wasn't even talking. It was a buddy of mine. Axel. We shared that account."
"Axel?"
The man began pulling down my pants. Oh no. I screamed. I tried to push him off, but I was too weak. My jeans were off, and now he was pulling down my underwear.
"Stop it, Kyojin!" I screamed, shutting my eyes.
Suddenly, I heard the door slam open and a smacking sound. I opened them to see Roxas standing there punching Kyojin. Roxas seemed furious. He turned to me and his gaze hardened. I touched my face and found tears. Roxas turned back to Kyojin and grabbed him by the collar.
"Marluxia, you son of a bitch! You fucking pedo! If you dare touch Namine ever again — no — you'll never touch her again! You got that! Rot in hell along with the others who used to be in the organization! You fucking bastard!" Roxas yelled as he wrapped his hands around Kyojin's throat.
Roxas began strangling Kyojin. It was a scary sight. I fell to my knees. I backed up against the wall, watching in horror. Here I was, eyes widened, wearing a shirt and no pants and my underwear's slipping off.
"You're scaring her, Roxas..." Marluxia choked out.
Roxas let go of his grip and looked my way. His gaze softened. Marluxia scrambled to his feet and ran out. That left me and Roxas in silence. Roxas began crawling to me. I hid my face, so I wouldn't have to look at Roxas. If I did, I would think of his expression earlier. It was scary.
That expression made me realize something. No matter how much someone could tell me about Roxas, I don't know him completely. There's a whole other side of him I've never seen. I never want to see it. Because it's not my Roxas anymore. He's not the Roxas I know. An organization? A gang? A gay best friend?
"Namine...Namine...are you okay?" he asked softly.
I nodded slowly, wiping my tears.
"Stop crying, Namine. I...I don't know what came over me. Namine, look at me!"
I didn't.
"I'm sorry," I sobbed.
"For what?" he sounded confused.
"For letting Fuka leave me. For trusting Kyojin. For causing so much trouble. For..."
His arms wrapped around me. I then finally looked up.
"I promised I would protect you, but I keep coming too late. I...I won't hesistate anymore. Screw Sora. Screw Marluxia. Screw everyone else. You have helped me so much. You've never been trouble for me. I don't know what I would do without you. You've scared me to death twice already. I could have lost you or you could have been seriously hurt. It can't wait anymore. I'm sure. I'm in love with you, Namine Hoshiko."
A/N: ....:D...Longest chapter so far, I think. (Edit:// Fixed a few errors)