Title: Love Always Find A Way
Chapter10
Author: Kija
Email: kija@silveryroses.com
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon, Naoko Takeuchi, Kodansha,
Toei Animation, etc.. do.
Author's Notes: Okay, I know there's no excuse for the long delay;
all I want to say is that I'm sorry and I honestly couldn't publish what
I had before.. so here are the last chapters of my story, revised and
Hopefully to you liking.
Love Always Finds A Way
Chapter10
Lying on his stomach he looked out of the bedroom window from his
comfortable place on the large bed mindlessly staring at the passing
clouds.
It was already late and Kazuo had been sound asleep for the last 2
hours.. why couldn't he find any rest?
He surely was exhausted enough, he had almost fallen asleep in work
that day.
How he hated lab work! It was a good job he had to admit but still it
wasn't what he had always wanted to do.
But that was not what was on his mind. Mamoru simply didn't know
what kept his mind so busy that night.
He turned around so he was now lying on his back looking up at the
white ceiling.
He tried to imagine hat it was like to sleep beside a warm body.. to
know someone was there.
It seemed to him such a long time ago that he had held his wife's body
close to his and knew she felt the same warmth as him.
Not wanting to think about this any longer Mamoru shut his eyes
tightly not wanting to be reminded of his situation.. not wanting to
admit that he was lonely...
He woke up the next morning with both arms tightly wrapped around
the fluffy pillow. He sighed dejectedly and turned to look at his alarm..
6:30
"Half an hour of sleep left. I could stay in bed for the next hundred
years." He grumbled before turning around again and falling into a
blissful deep slumber.. that is until the alarm ripped him from his
sweet dreams half an hour later.
Groaning he slapped a lazy hand onto the alarm clock successfully
turning it off and buried his head even deeper under his pillow.
When he heard a small whimper he practically jumped up and dashed
towards the baby's room only to find his son still sound asleep but
obviously dreaming.
He smiled before yawning and running a slender hand through his
ruffled black locks.
Casting a groggy look at the Mickey Mouse clock on one of Kazuo's
walls he turned around with a shrug and went back into his room and
let himself fall back into the still warm covers and closed his eyes once
more.
"It won't kill them if I call in sick today.." he mumbled before drifting
off into dream land once more.
But only half an hour later his sleep was interrupted again. Mindlessly
he tried to turn off the sound by pushing the stupid button on the
alarm clock but he soon had to find out that this didn't work.. so the
noise had to come from somewhere else.
Opening his eyes so he could at least see a little he looked at the clock
and a bright 8:00 greeted him.
Again the ringing startled him and he looked around disorientated for a
moment before he realized it was the door bell which was ringing.
Swinging his legs over the edge of the bed he lazily got up and
stretched before walking on wobbly legs towards the entrance.
"Who's there?" he asked through the closed door and a few seconds
later he could make out the muffled words "Usagi.. who else?"
He raised his eyebrows surprised for a moment before realizing that
she was here to baby-sit Kazuo while he was at work.. but he wasn't
at work.. and wouldn't go there today anyway.
He really should have called her.. but then again he thought she
wouldn't have been up at that time anyway.
Sighing he opened the door to reveal a red cheeked Usagi who was
trying to regain her breath from having obviously run to his place.
At that moment he felt awfully guilty for having made the poor girl
come over in vain.
She looked up at him wide eyed. Never had she seen him like this.. he
was all rumpled and messy. His hair sticking out into every direction
and his eyes still tired from sleep. To her it seemed as if he would fall
over every second and fall asleep at her feet. She giggled softly and
noticed the blank look in his eyes and just made a little dismissing
move of her hand to signal him to forget it.
He shrugged and stepped aside to let her in.
"Haven't you slept at all Mamoru-san?" she inquired while taking off
her shoes.
He looked at her still with quite blank eyes and rested his head on the
doorframe for it seemed to heavy to hold up.
"I guess I was more exhausted than I had thought and now it all
comes crashing down on me. I should have called you and told you I
wouldn't go to work today.. sorry you had to make the way over to my
place for nothing." He tried to excuse himself while slowly dragging
himself over to the couch for he thought his legs would give in any
second.
"I don't think it was for nothing." Mamoru looked at her surprised and
when he saw that small sweet smile on her face it warmed his soul. He
honestly didn't know why it had this effect on him but he offered her
an equally warm but double as tired smile.
"You go back to bed now and sleep.. I'll take care of Kazuo in the
meantime.. he should be up soon."
Now his smile turned into a grin and he stood up slowly walking over
to where she still stood in the doorway and hugged her gently her
before clumsily making his way into his bedroom again where he fell
onto his bed and was asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow.
Opening one eye Mamoru stared at the brightly glowing red numbers
of his alarm clock.
Closing it once more he grabbed his pillow and buried his face in it...
then he sighed and with a groan swung his feet over the edge of the
bed and grudgingly made his way into his bathroom.
Usagi watched amusedly as Mamoru walked past her without even
noticing her and disappeared in the bathroom. She then looked over at
Kazuo who looked back at her with big curious eyes.
The blonde just laughed and picked the child up continuing to feed it.
Squinting his eyes a little to block the bright glow of the mirror's
attached lights Mamoru dared a glance at his reflection.
Just as he had expected two tired and red eyes looked back at him, his
hair sticking into all directions not looking like it wanted to be tamed.
He sighed heavily and stepped under the steaming shower luxuriating
in the relaxing feeling of the warm drops caressing and massaging his
sore muscles.
Fifteen minutes later the young woman and child who were
comfortably sitting on the plush carpet playing with little blocks
watched a still looking tired raven haired man wander back into his
bedroom only to reemerge 10 minutes later in a jogging suit ready to
leave the house.
Usagi raised a questioning eyebrow at him and he just smiled back
coming closer to pick up his son.
"I'm going to make my morning jog and am going to take Kazuo with
me."
The baby happily bounced up and down in his father's arms as
Mamoru tried to place him in the stroller.
Usagi watched as father and son left the apartment and immediately
started with her preparations.
Too bad she hadn't known in advance that he was at home.. this made
it all more complicated for her.
Rolling up her sleeve the girl opened the big bag she had brought with
her to take out the things she needed.
"Perfect." She breathed and admired her finished work 15 minutes
later. She couldn't remember when she had last worked faster.
She double checked if everything was there and in place. Pleased she
made herself comfortable on the huge couch ,waiting.
The sound of a key in the lock woke her up from her little nap and she
looked wide eyed at her surroundings, not knowing for a second where
she was but when she heard the familiar voice of her brother in law
she relaxed and slowly got up.
"It's unbelievable! Just unbelievable!"
The blonde raised one delicate eyebrow at the disheveled man. He
seemed more out of breath than usually she mused.
"I'm never going to take Kazuo on my jog again! These women are like
harpies!!"
Totally scandalized he took the baby out of his stroller before rambling
on about these women which he liked to prefer referring to as vultures
as he went on, never taking his eyes from the baby.
"There I am.. in the middle of the park, making a little break to check
on Kazuo, when this snobbish woman comes up to me, leans down
coos something into his ear and then looks at me batting her
eyelashes and can you believe it... she checks me ou.."
His eyes widened as he looked around the room. Not only was it all
cleaned up but there was also a large banner placed above his couch
with the bright words... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!.. written on it, and on the
small couch table was a cake with a burning candle and a little
wrapped package.
Usagi giggled softly at the puzzled look on the handsome man's face.
Walking towards him she took his hand leading towards his presents.
His eyes wandered from the stunning blonde to the flickering candle,
not believing what he was seeing. Had she really done this for him?
And how did she know?
"How..?"
Flashing him a dazzling smile she took out a small brown book from
her pocket; Rei's diary.
"Now blow out the candle and open your present!"
Smiling back at her he proceeded to do what he was told.
Taking the pink package he looked at her with an arched eyebrow.
"I didn't have another one.. so just open it!!!"
Carefully opening his presents his eyes widened and then filled with
tears as he held the small golden frame in his hands.
There he was with his little son, in the Rose gardens of his parent's
mansion.
He was holding Kazuo up above his head both laughing in the sun.
Mamoru averted his eyes from the scene to look at Usagi beside him.
"How?...When?" he was too touched to speak; it was the very first
picture of his son and himself he had ever seen and for the first time
he saw how much alike they were.
"When I saw you two standing there I just had to take this picture..
and since I knew there didn't exist a picture of the both of you, yet, I
thought it was the perfect idea."
Stormy dark blue eyes turned towards her and before the petite
blonde knew it she was pulled into a tight hug. Her eyes widened in
surprise but soon she returned the embrace. She could feel his tears
drop down onto her own cheeks and she couldn't help but had to cry
as well.
She could feel Mamoru's inner turmoil, he was feeling happiness but
also great sorrow which was still buried deep inside of him. The
healing process was slow, but one day, she was sure, he would live a
happy life again.. one day.
And strangely enough she felt warm and protected in his arms; as if
she was meant to be there....
Later that day she lay at home on her bed, Rei's diary in hand; she
slowly came towards the end.
Her sister described her happiness but also her fear that something
might go wrong. But every third sentence was about her beloved
husband..
Sighing Usagi turned the last written page and after reading it closed it
and attempted to put it onto her nightstand table, when it suddenly
slipped her fingers and landed with a muffled thud on the carpeted
floor, revealing a letter addressed to her on the last page.
Picking the book up carefully Usagi turned onto her stomach to read
what her sister had written down for her.
'Dear Usa,
I'm writing this letter on the last page of this diary, because
I know that once I die.. and you are not dead before me, you'll get this
book.
Nobody knows when their time on earth is over.. neither do I; but this
is something I have to tell you, no matter when I have to go.
Ever since your father and my mother married, you were the best
friend I ever had and it really hurt when your mother took you with
her to the U.S.-but still you remained the most loyal companion I ever
had. And over the years you became even more.. a real sister.
That's what I have always wished for..
Then when I was grown up, I met the most wonderful man on earth...
and he wanted to marry me.
Now we are going to have a child.. which I hope won't be the only one.
I know.. life is short, and it might be that I one day have to leave my
family behind, leaving for a better place, although I couldn't imagine a
better place than at my family's side.
I honestly hope I'll be old and have tons of grandchildren when I die,
so that my Mamoru won't be alone..
But everything can happen.. who knows.. maybe I'll get some illness
and die at the age of 50... and my husband would be on his own.
Please don't misunderstand me now, you know how possessive I'm of
Mamoru, and honestly I don't want him to be with another woman
after my death; again I know how selfish I am..
So I'm asking you for a favor, Usa.. promise me you'll take care of
Mamoru and my children if I'm not here anymore?
I know this is much I'm asking of you, but I don't know another person
I would ever trust with this.
Please, Usa.. this means the world to me.. to know that my family is in
good hands and have someone I loved and who I know will love them
too.
They will need someone and you are the only person able to give them
hope again.
Oh Usagi, you're the only person I know who can light up a room with
just a smile.
I trust you, please don't let me down..
Love always,
Rei'
.... To be continued
Chapter10
Author: Kija
Email: kija@silveryroses.com
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon, Naoko Takeuchi, Kodansha,
Toei Animation, etc.. do.
Author's Notes: Okay, I know there's no excuse for the long delay;
all I want to say is that I'm sorry and I honestly couldn't publish what
I had before.. so here are the last chapters of my story, revised and
Hopefully to you liking.
Love Always Finds A Way
Chapter10
Lying on his stomach he looked out of the bedroom window from his
comfortable place on the large bed mindlessly staring at the passing
clouds.
It was already late and Kazuo had been sound asleep for the last 2
hours.. why couldn't he find any rest?
He surely was exhausted enough, he had almost fallen asleep in work
that day.
How he hated lab work! It was a good job he had to admit but still it
wasn't what he had always wanted to do.
But that was not what was on his mind. Mamoru simply didn't know
what kept his mind so busy that night.
He turned around so he was now lying on his back looking up at the
white ceiling.
He tried to imagine hat it was like to sleep beside a warm body.. to
know someone was there.
It seemed to him such a long time ago that he had held his wife's body
close to his and knew she felt the same warmth as him.
Not wanting to think about this any longer Mamoru shut his eyes
tightly not wanting to be reminded of his situation.. not wanting to
admit that he was lonely...
He woke up the next morning with both arms tightly wrapped around
the fluffy pillow. He sighed dejectedly and turned to look at his alarm..
6:30
"Half an hour of sleep left. I could stay in bed for the next hundred
years." He grumbled before turning around again and falling into a
blissful deep slumber.. that is until the alarm ripped him from his
sweet dreams half an hour later.
Groaning he slapped a lazy hand onto the alarm clock successfully
turning it off and buried his head even deeper under his pillow.
When he heard a small whimper he practically jumped up and dashed
towards the baby's room only to find his son still sound asleep but
obviously dreaming.
He smiled before yawning and running a slender hand through his
ruffled black locks.
Casting a groggy look at the Mickey Mouse clock on one of Kazuo's
walls he turned around with a shrug and went back into his room and
let himself fall back into the still warm covers and closed his eyes once
more.
"It won't kill them if I call in sick today.." he mumbled before drifting
off into dream land once more.
But only half an hour later his sleep was interrupted again. Mindlessly
he tried to turn off the sound by pushing the stupid button on the
alarm clock but he soon had to find out that this didn't work.. so the
noise had to come from somewhere else.
Opening his eyes so he could at least see a little he looked at the clock
and a bright 8:00 greeted him.
Again the ringing startled him and he looked around disorientated for a
moment before he realized it was the door bell which was ringing.
Swinging his legs over the edge of the bed he lazily got up and
stretched before walking on wobbly legs towards the entrance.
"Who's there?" he asked through the closed door and a few seconds
later he could make out the muffled words "Usagi.. who else?"
He raised his eyebrows surprised for a moment before realizing that
she was here to baby-sit Kazuo while he was at work.. but he wasn't
at work.. and wouldn't go there today anyway.
He really should have called her.. but then again he thought she
wouldn't have been up at that time anyway.
Sighing he opened the door to reveal a red cheeked Usagi who was
trying to regain her breath from having obviously run to his place.
At that moment he felt awfully guilty for having made the poor girl
come over in vain.
She looked up at him wide eyed. Never had she seen him like this.. he
was all rumpled and messy. His hair sticking out into every direction
and his eyes still tired from sleep. To her it seemed as if he would fall
over every second and fall asleep at her feet. She giggled softly and
noticed the blank look in his eyes and just made a little dismissing
move of her hand to signal him to forget it.
He shrugged and stepped aside to let her in.
"Haven't you slept at all Mamoru-san?" she inquired while taking off
her shoes.
He looked at her still with quite blank eyes and rested his head on the
doorframe for it seemed to heavy to hold up.
"I guess I was more exhausted than I had thought and now it all
comes crashing down on me. I should have called you and told you I
wouldn't go to work today.. sorry you had to make the way over to my
place for nothing." He tried to excuse himself while slowly dragging
himself over to the couch for he thought his legs would give in any
second.
"I don't think it was for nothing." Mamoru looked at her surprised and
when he saw that small sweet smile on her face it warmed his soul. He
honestly didn't know why it had this effect on him but he offered her
an equally warm but double as tired smile.
"You go back to bed now and sleep.. I'll take care of Kazuo in the
meantime.. he should be up soon."
Now his smile turned into a grin and he stood up slowly walking over
to where she still stood in the doorway and hugged her gently her
before clumsily making his way into his bedroom again where he fell
onto his bed and was asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow.
Opening one eye Mamoru stared at the brightly glowing red numbers
of his alarm clock.
Closing it once more he grabbed his pillow and buried his face in it...
then he sighed and with a groan swung his feet over the edge of the
bed and grudgingly made his way into his bathroom.
Usagi watched amusedly as Mamoru walked past her without even
noticing her and disappeared in the bathroom. She then looked over at
Kazuo who looked back at her with big curious eyes.
The blonde just laughed and picked the child up continuing to feed it.
Squinting his eyes a little to block the bright glow of the mirror's
attached lights Mamoru dared a glance at his reflection.
Just as he had expected two tired and red eyes looked back at him, his
hair sticking into all directions not looking like it wanted to be tamed.
He sighed heavily and stepped under the steaming shower luxuriating
in the relaxing feeling of the warm drops caressing and massaging his
sore muscles.
Fifteen minutes later the young woman and child who were
comfortably sitting on the plush carpet playing with little blocks
watched a still looking tired raven haired man wander back into his
bedroom only to reemerge 10 minutes later in a jogging suit ready to
leave the house.
Usagi raised a questioning eyebrow at him and he just smiled back
coming closer to pick up his son.
"I'm going to make my morning jog and am going to take Kazuo with
me."
The baby happily bounced up and down in his father's arms as
Mamoru tried to place him in the stroller.
Usagi watched as father and son left the apartment and immediately
started with her preparations.
Too bad she hadn't known in advance that he was at home.. this made
it all more complicated for her.
Rolling up her sleeve the girl opened the big bag she had brought with
her to take out the things she needed.
"Perfect." She breathed and admired her finished work 15 minutes
later. She couldn't remember when she had last worked faster.
She double checked if everything was there and in place. Pleased she
made herself comfortable on the huge couch ,waiting.
The sound of a key in the lock woke her up from her little nap and she
looked wide eyed at her surroundings, not knowing for a second where
she was but when she heard the familiar voice of her brother in law
she relaxed and slowly got up.
"It's unbelievable! Just unbelievable!"
The blonde raised one delicate eyebrow at the disheveled man. He
seemed more out of breath than usually she mused.
"I'm never going to take Kazuo on my jog again! These women are like
harpies!!"
Totally scandalized he took the baby out of his stroller before rambling
on about these women which he liked to prefer referring to as vultures
as he went on, never taking his eyes from the baby.
"There I am.. in the middle of the park, making a little break to check
on Kazuo, when this snobbish woman comes up to me, leans down
coos something into his ear and then looks at me batting her
eyelashes and can you believe it... she checks me ou.."
His eyes widened as he looked around the room. Not only was it all
cleaned up but there was also a large banner placed above his couch
with the bright words... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!.. written on it, and on the
small couch table was a cake with a burning candle and a little
wrapped package.
Usagi giggled softly at the puzzled look on the handsome man's face.
Walking towards him she took his hand leading towards his presents.
His eyes wandered from the stunning blonde to the flickering candle,
not believing what he was seeing. Had she really done this for him?
And how did she know?
"How..?"
Flashing him a dazzling smile she took out a small brown book from
her pocket; Rei's diary.
"Now blow out the candle and open your present!"
Smiling back at her he proceeded to do what he was told.
Taking the pink package he looked at her with an arched eyebrow.
"I didn't have another one.. so just open it!!!"
Carefully opening his presents his eyes widened and then filled with
tears as he held the small golden frame in his hands.
There he was with his little son, in the Rose gardens of his parent's
mansion.
He was holding Kazuo up above his head both laughing in the sun.
Mamoru averted his eyes from the scene to look at Usagi beside him.
"How?...When?" he was too touched to speak; it was the very first
picture of his son and himself he had ever seen and for the first time
he saw how much alike they were.
"When I saw you two standing there I just had to take this picture..
and since I knew there didn't exist a picture of the both of you, yet, I
thought it was the perfect idea."
Stormy dark blue eyes turned towards her and before the petite
blonde knew it she was pulled into a tight hug. Her eyes widened in
surprise but soon she returned the embrace. She could feel his tears
drop down onto her own cheeks and she couldn't help but had to cry
as well.
She could feel Mamoru's inner turmoil, he was feeling happiness but
also great sorrow which was still buried deep inside of him. The
healing process was slow, but one day, she was sure, he would live a
happy life again.. one day.
And strangely enough she felt warm and protected in his arms; as if
she was meant to be there....
Later that day she lay at home on her bed, Rei's diary in hand; she
slowly came towards the end.
Her sister described her happiness but also her fear that something
might go wrong. But every third sentence was about her beloved
husband..
Sighing Usagi turned the last written page and after reading it closed it
and attempted to put it onto her nightstand table, when it suddenly
slipped her fingers and landed with a muffled thud on the carpeted
floor, revealing a letter addressed to her on the last page.
Picking the book up carefully Usagi turned onto her stomach to read
what her sister had written down for her.
'Dear Usa,
I'm writing this letter on the last page of this diary, because
I know that once I die.. and you are not dead before me, you'll get this
book.
Nobody knows when their time on earth is over.. neither do I; but this
is something I have to tell you, no matter when I have to go.
Ever since your father and my mother married, you were the best
friend I ever had and it really hurt when your mother took you with
her to the U.S.-but still you remained the most loyal companion I ever
had. And over the years you became even more.. a real sister.
That's what I have always wished for..
Then when I was grown up, I met the most wonderful man on earth...
and he wanted to marry me.
Now we are going to have a child.. which I hope won't be the only one.
I know.. life is short, and it might be that I one day have to leave my
family behind, leaving for a better place, although I couldn't imagine a
better place than at my family's side.
I honestly hope I'll be old and have tons of grandchildren when I die,
so that my Mamoru won't be alone..
But everything can happen.. who knows.. maybe I'll get some illness
and die at the age of 50... and my husband would be on his own.
Please don't misunderstand me now, you know how possessive I'm of
Mamoru, and honestly I don't want him to be with another woman
after my death; again I know how selfish I am..
So I'm asking you for a favor, Usa.. promise me you'll take care of
Mamoru and my children if I'm not here anymore?
I know this is much I'm asking of you, but I don't know another person
I would ever trust with this.
Please, Usa.. this means the world to me.. to know that my family is in
good hands and have someone I loved and who I know will love them
too.
They will need someone and you are the only person able to give them
hope again.
Oh Usagi, you're the only person I know who can light up a room with
just a smile.
I trust you, please don't let me down..
Love always,
Rei'
.... To be continued