The Pain That Kills

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Flashback

Kawaii... Ryoma thought.

Sakuno then took a deep breath and then…

End of Flashback

RING!!!

The bell rang just when Sakuno was about to sing the first word. The bell really had to destroy the moment that Ryoma was waiting for.

'Stupid bell' Ryoma thought while frowning. Then he sighed while thinking that there's always tomorrow.

Sakuno then ran to the door and went to her next class.

'The bell has bad timing.' Sakuno thought.

Tomorrow

"Ohayoo, Tomo-chan!" Sakuno greeted cheerfully to her best friend.

"Ohayoo, Saku-chan!" Tomoka said.

Then they walked to their classroom while chatting.

Lunch

Sakuno did her usual routine, she went to the rooftop. After eating Sakuno said giggling a bit, "Hmm… what song should I sing that relates to my feelings… but I don't like someone."

Ryoma, who was hiding like the last time, was shocked. He thought Sakuno has a crush on him. Maybe that's why she didn't went to tennis practices anymore. Ryoma felt a knife stabbing his heart continuously. Regret came over him. Did he do something wrong? Yes he did but he never knew it would hurt her so much.

'Wait…why is it so painful that it's like killing me? It's her choice if she wanted to go to tennis practice, anyway. But still it hurts… it hurts so much… why, why?'

he thought.

"I know!" Sakuno said which brought back Ryoma to reality. "I would sing a song that relates to my past feelings."

Ryoma listened carefully to see how much she liked him when he heard the word 'past feelings'.

"Hmm… but what song? I got it!" Sakuno said happily. Then she started to sing.

I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head


(Cause) I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah


If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What's on my mind
If ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

Yes I'm wishing my life away with these things I'll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never say

Ryoma could have relaxed because of her soothing voice but he was regretting on hurting her. He never knew she like him as much as he likes her. She liked him more than he ever imagined. The knife was still stabbing him on the heart but only deeper and harder.

"It feels so good to release your stress. It's all because of him that I feel bad nowadays." she said frowning because of remembering of what he did to her. "At least it opened my eyes and let me stop hoping that he will notice me he will never will. Hahaha…" her voice fading away.

"You're wrong." Ryoma whispered.

"Huh? Did I just her someone say 'you're wrong'? Maybe it's just my imagination." Sakuno said. Then she left to go to her next class.

When Ryoma knew that she was gone already, he let out all of his stress. He was clenching his fist and banging the floor because his was angry, really angry. He was angry at himself. He couldn't take the pain anymore and because of that he let out a single tear out of his cat-like eyes. He felt as if everything was taken away from him even his very own precious life.

Hey everyone! Sorry for the very, very, very, very late update. It was because of exams, our Family Day and our MusiCLE. Maybe some or most of you already forgot my story. This is my longest chapter so far. Thanks for those who are reading and reviewing! Ja ne!

With lots of love and apologies,

Nix