I stared down at a photo of the man I love. He's been in a coma for over six years and I didn't think he'd ever come out of it. I took up my role that he wanted of me but ever since the Sound Five were slaughtered I haven't been as confident in my role as a leader. Now even as I sit here a war is raging and until he awakens I'm powerless in saving the village. No one wants to hear their leader has fallen but I have indeed fallen without the love of the only man I ever felt anything more than simple lust for. Everything that has happened to him has been my fault, if anything I am the reason for my own injuries, not him.
"Ugh, Ka-Kakashi?" I looked up from my position and saw Orochimaru leaning against the doorframe for support. I rushed to his side; knocking over paperwork on my way. I could see he couldn't stay up much longer so when I saw him fall I instinctively caught him.
"Why? Why am I alive, Kakashi?" I looked down at him in my arms and a few tears fell from my eyes. I held onto him tighter and closed my eyes to prevent anymore tears falling. I felt Orochimaru wipe away the tears that had rolled down my face and I opened my eyes. He looked hurt as he watched me breakdown in front of him and tried to get up again.
"I-I couldn't save them Orochimaru, I couldn't lead this village, I failed everything." Orochimaru stood above me and looked down towards me. He grabbed my arm and lifted me up from the floor, I could see the struggle in his body as the muscles he hadn't used in almost six years suddenly had new movement to them.
"Kakashi, who couldn't you save?" I looked up into his eyes before looking away; I was ashamed that he ever tried to protect such a weak ninja.
"Everyone. The Sound Four, Kimmimaro, and Karin. They're all dead. They all died protecting me from the people I thought were my friends. I couldn't fight the people I once cared so dearly for and I failed you Orochimaru. I couldn't do this on my own, I couldn't let you die for my sake, and I just couldn't lose the only man I long for." Orochimaru dropped down by my side after he dropped me and took a deep breath.
"How long since their deaths? How long have I even been asleep?" I hesitated before gathering the courage to answer him.
"The sound four have been dead for about four years, Kimmimaro died of a natural cause around the time you went into a coma, and Karin's been dead about two months. And…I got rid of him. That day you were pronounced dead for about ten minutes, it caused the curse mark to disappear since I hadn't undergone the ritual yet. With the curse mark being gone so was he." Orochimaru didn't look at me, in fact he tried everything in his power to look at anything but me. I felt so ashamed, Orochimaru put all his faith in me and I couldn't stand up to his expectations. I don't know what happened to me over these few years but I've become so incredibly pathetic. Orochimaru stood up and this time didn't seem to have as much trouble. He grabbed me by my throat and lifted me up onto the desk. I looked into his eyes with the assumption he was going to kill me for failing, he surprised me by climbing on top of me and kissing me.
"Kakashi, I wasn't supposed to live, but now that I have I won't leave again. I will take over being the Kage again and I want you at my side. Do you understand?" I nodded and threw my arms around his neck, pulling him down for another kiss. He chuckled before kissing back and lifted me into his arms. He sat upright on the desk and I was in his arms with my face buried into his body as I took in his scent. He rubbed the back on my head but stopped when he noticed something.
"Why haven't you been eating, Kakashi?" I stiffened and looked up at him.
"I thought I was going to have to let you go, you weren't waking up and all the medical ninja were telling me it was time, but I couldn't do it. The idea of the fact you would never wake up drove me insane." My voice cracked at the end and he pulled me a little close.
"I woke up, that means it's time for you to eat Kakashi." He stood up and gently let me stand up before we both headed to the kitchen. Anyone who saw Orochimaru looked as though they saw a ghost then when they realized he was actually back they sighed in relief. Even they knew I couldn't do this by myself. Orochimaru went about preparing a big breakfast dinner as I watched him I sighed in relief. I wouldn't be alone anymore now that he was back, and maybe by watching him one day I can become the true kage but right now I wasn't strong enough, nor was I brave enough, to run a whole village. Who knows, maybe we'll eventually get married?