Disclaimer: Tokyo Babylon is by Clamp
You drive me crazy
By Miyamoto Yui
Day 4 ½: Nai...ienai. (Nothing...I can't say anything.)
I stared at him unable to move. I felt like my heart had been crushed under his palm once again like a sakura petal.
It feels exactly like the boy in my dream who said, "Did you know that dead people are buried under the sakura trees?"
His fingers seemed as if they were bleeding when he crushed the petals in his hands.
And all I could do was look at Seishirou with a pale face.
Why? H-how do you know about this grave?
"Good afternoon...Sakurazuka-_kun_." Adri had cleared her throat and caught back the calm that had escaped her for the moment.
She walked on without me as she started to talk to Seishirou-san. I turned around to get more water to fill my bucket.
Maybe I am a coward. I couldn't go up there and ask what had happened. Why does he know about Ian's grave?
How does he know it's under that sakura tree when there is no marker?
Others walk to the fake one in another cemetery. But how does he know about the real one?
What are you hiding from me again Seishirou?
I poured the water in the bucket but my hands were shaking from shock.
Let's think of this logically, Subaru. Maybe he was there because he knew her too. And he just came to commemorate her death like we had.
There is no special meaning as to why he's here.
Doki doki doki doki doki...
But why is my heart beating so fast?
And Adri knows him? This makes absolutely no sense to me.
What's worse is that he is also of a clan. If he knows about Adri and I knowing each other...
He may be able to use this to his advantage.
What the hell are you _thinking_ Subaru?!
"Just act, Subaru," Adri said telepathetically. "You must lie. I'm sorry."
The noon sun was high above us and I watched our shadows on the ground become invisibly wet with the water I had spilled earlier.
Now, I stood before them with an unnatural smile on my face.
"Sumeragi-san, why did you drop the bucket?" Adri asked me. "Sometimes you are so clumsy."
She laughed as she patted me on the head.
I shook my head. "I'm sorry about that. I just didn't expect to see you here, Seishirou-san."
Great. You're so stupid for saying that Subaru. You really _are_ a bad liar.
"Oh, you know one another?" Adri asked surprised as she looked at both of us.
"I'm getting married to Subaru-kun!" Seishirou laughed as he took a hold of my shoulder while I turned bright red almost wanting to elbow him in the ribs.
Adri laughed as she put her hand over her mouth.
But I knew she was sad somewhat by this comment also...
"You always made me laugh, Sakurazuka-kun." Adri commented as she patted his shoulder. "You never change."
They exchanged a certain knowing look. Seishirou broke this as he smirked and adjusted his glasses with his index finger.
Then, he let go of me and tilted his head as he turned around to face the sakura tree.
"How do you know, Seishirou-san?" I asked Adri.
"I was Ms. Kurosawa's student a long time ago," Seishirou answered instead of Adri.
The wind blew at that moment and my heart felt sad.
No matter how hard I tried to break free from Seishirou...
Somehow I will always be connected to him. Whether I like it or not.
I poured the water over the roots of the sakura. We then bowed our heads and lit incense in a little can that we placed in between the crevices of the roots showing.
Adri went first and I made Seishirou go after her. When it was my turn, I kneeled also and started to talk to Ian in silence:
"Hello again, Ian. You know I was never good at things like this, but I know you always understand.
I just wanted to say hello again to another year without you. It seems that this will always be a cloud that will dwell within me. Maybe I could have prevented something so that you wouldn't have died. But you never told me anything.
You were so set. "It is what I saw when I touched a certain man," you had answered me.
And here is Seishirou-san. He knew you. You taught him? I wonder how was he? I'm pretty sure he did very well in school...but...
It will never erase inside of my heart. Today, I mean. How we are all connected.
Again, you have kept another secret from me. I wonder how you and Seishirou can do this so easily to me? Like Seki...
Did you know that Seki wanted to take Shi-chan away from us?
No. I can't have that.
Not one more to die for this family.
Maybe I'll stain my hands also someday. I will have no choice then.
But thank you for giving birth to Shi-chan. He is doing well, but he doesn't talk. He's like a mute, but he says only one thing: Su.
My name.
I will visit you again next year.
Till then, as a dear friend, I love you and please take care of us as you always have."
I got up and we all walked out. But my heart had not stopped beating quickly as it had earlier. It got a bit worse.
It wasn't from nervousness, it was because of the secret kept from me.
"So, where are you going now, Seishirou-san?" I asked as we were walking on the sidewalk.
"Going back to work." He smiled at me as he winked and waved goodbye to avoid us. "See you later!"
Adri and I waved back as we started to walk back to her home. This home that held our discussions and so many other things that are kept in memories away from pictures and clothes.
As always, we didn't know what to say and so we walked on silently with our minds turning inside out.
That's how it will always be with us.
Too many questions, so many answers...
But in the end, everyone has their own secrets that that keep. No matter what you do, you will never be able to penetrate the heart they try to hide.
Inwardly, I was sighing. I wanted to shout to Seishirou, "You have to tell me why you were there!"
But the same question would bounce back to me, wouldn't it? And it's going to slap me like the time I rejected Adri...
He'd ask me, "Why were you there?"
And I'd have nothing to say.
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Author's notes: Sorry about the last chapter being something like a bomb that I dropped. I wanted to try something different and also, I wanted to surprise and confuse you. @_@ Almost worked too well. * ahem * Sorry about that. I must ever improve my story skills. ;_; I hope I can be better...anyway...
Things will be a bit clearer in the next chapter or two. But, I am saying now that I am keeping a lot of things up to the imagination and what they may imply. Why? That's also a trait of Tokyo Babylon that drove me nuts. But don't worry, if Sei and Su have a 'scene', you'll be sure to read it. I'm still thinking. ^_~ Till next chapter!
You drive me crazy
By Miyamoto Yui
Day 4 ½: Nai...ienai. (Nothing...I can't say anything.)
I stared at him unable to move. I felt like my heart had been crushed under his palm once again like a sakura petal.
It feels exactly like the boy in my dream who said, "Did you know that dead people are buried under the sakura trees?"
His fingers seemed as if they were bleeding when he crushed the petals in his hands.
And all I could do was look at Seishirou with a pale face.
Why? H-how do you know about this grave?
"Good afternoon...Sakurazuka-_kun_." Adri had cleared her throat and caught back the calm that had escaped her for the moment.
She walked on without me as she started to talk to Seishirou-san. I turned around to get more water to fill my bucket.
Maybe I am a coward. I couldn't go up there and ask what had happened. Why does he know about Ian's grave?
How does he know it's under that sakura tree when there is no marker?
Others walk to the fake one in another cemetery. But how does he know about the real one?
What are you hiding from me again Seishirou?
I poured the water in the bucket but my hands were shaking from shock.
Let's think of this logically, Subaru. Maybe he was there because he knew her too. And he just came to commemorate her death like we had.
There is no special meaning as to why he's here.
Doki doki doki doki doki...
But why is my heart beating so fast?
And Adri knows him? This makes absolutely no sense to me.
What's worse is that he is also of a clan. If he knows about Adri and I knowing each other...
He may be able to use this to his advantage.
What the hell are you _thinking_ Subaru?!
"Just act, Subaru," Adri said telepathetically. "You must lie. I'm sorry."
The noon sun was high above us and I watched our shadows on the ground become invisibly wet with the water I had spilled earlier.
Now, I stood before them with an unnatural smile on my face.
"Sumeragi-san, why did you drop the bucket?" Adri asked me. "Sometimes you are so clumsy."
She laughed as she patted me on the head.
I shook my head. "I'm sorry about that. I just didn't expect to see you here, Seishirou-san."
Great. You're so stupid for saying that Subaru. You really _are_ a bad liar.
"Oh, you know one another?" Adri asked surprised as she looked at both of us.
"I'm getting married to Subaru-kun!" Seishirou laughed as he took a hold of my shoulder while I turned bright red almost wanting to elbow him in the ribs.
Adri laughed as she put her hand over her mouth.
But I knew she was sad somewhat by this comment also...
"You always made me laugh, Sakurazuka-kun." Adri commented as she patted his shoulder. "You never change."
They exchanged a certain knowing look. Seishirou broke this as he smirked and adjusted his glasses with his index finger.
Then, he let go of me and tilted his head as he turned around to face the sakura tree.
"How do you know, Seishirou-san?" I asked Adri.
"I was Ms. Kurosawa's student a long time ago," Seishirou answered instead of Adri.
The wind blew at that moment and my heart felt sad.
No matter how hard I tried to break free from Seishirou...
Somehow I will always be connected to him. Whether I like it or not.
I poured the water over the roots of the sakura. We then bowed our heads and lit incense in a little can that we placed in between the crevices of the roots showing.
Adri went first and I made Seishirou go after her. When it was my turn, I kneeled also and started to talk to Ian in silence:
"Hello again, Ian. You know I was never good at things like this, but I know you always understand.
I just wanted to say hello again to another year without you. It seems that this will always be a cloud that will dwell within me. Maybe I could have prevented something so that you wouldn't have died. But you never told me anything.
You were so set. "It is what I saw when I touched a certain man," you had answered me.
And here is Seishirou-san. He knew you. You taught him? I wonder how was he? I'm pretty sure he did very well in school...but...
It will never erase inside of my heart. Today, I mean. How we are all connected.
Again, you have kept another secret from me. I wonder how you and Seishirou can do this so easily to me? Like Seki...
Did you know that Seki wanted to take Shi-chan away from us?
No. I can't have that.
Not one more to die for this family.
Maybe I'll stain my hands also someday. I will have no choice then.
But thank you for giving birth to Shi-chan. He is doing well, but he doesn't talk. He's like a mute, but he says only one thing: Su.
My name.
I will visit you again next year.
Till then, as a dear friend, I love you and please take care of us as you always have."
I got up and we all walked out. But my heart had not stopped beating quickly as it had earlier. It got a bit worse.
It wasn't from nervousness, it was because of the secret kept from me.
"So, where are you going now, Seishirou-san?" I asked as we were walking on the sidewalk.
"Going back to work." He smiled at me as he winked and waved goodbye to avoid us. "See you later!"
Adri and I waved back as we started to walk back to her home. This home that held our discussions and so many other things that are kept in memories away from pictures and clothes.
As always, we didn't know what to say and so we walked on silently with our minds turning inside out.
That's how it will always be with us.
Too many questions, so many answers...
But in the end, everyone has their own secrets that that keep. No matter what you do, you will never be able to penetrate the heart they try to hide.
Inwardly, I was sighing. I wanted to shout to Seishirou, "You have to tell me why you were there!"
But the same question would bounce back to me, wouldn't it? And it's going to slap me like the time I rejected Adri...
He'd ask me, "Why were you there?"
And I'd have nothing to say.
--
Author's notes: Sorry about the last chapter being something like a bomb that I dropped. I wanted to try something different and also, I wanted to surprise and confuse you. @_@ Almost worked too well. * ahem * Sorry about that. I must ever improve my story skills. ;_; I hope I can be better...anyway...
Things will be a bit clearer in the next chapter or two. But, I am saying now that I am keeping a lot of things up to the imagination and what they may imply. Why? That's also a trait of Tokyo Babylon that drove me nuts. But don't worry, if Sei and Su have a 'scene', you'll be sure to read it. I'm still thinking. ^_~ Till next chapter!