Agreeing to meet Puck, Quinn, Beth and Brittany for dinner the next night, Santana and Tina returned home to their apartment with their groceries. Santana flopped down onto the couch and exhaled a breath. What would the chances that they would already run into the only people they know in the city?
Tina looked at her friend who looked broken on the couch. Convincing Santana to move here had been a struggle. They both knew that this was bound to happen eventually and that had been one of the main problems. Santana wasn't ready to face Rachel and her new life. It wasn't going to be easy for her to watch Rachel move on, not like it was to watch Rachel up there on stage. Which Santana has seen 49 times in the past 6 months. To say that she was lucky to have a huge trust fund was an understatement.
Tina had seen the email confirming that Santana had bought a season pass to Rachel's show. And she also saw the email's that Santana received whenever she booked a weekend ticket to New York. Santana had begun to work herself day and night to make sure that every other weekend, she would have the 2 days free and would be able to make it to New York to see a show or two. After a concerned phone call one evening from Felix Lopez, questioning Tina if she knew why Santana was making so many trips to New York, she confronted the Latina.
They had talked, cried and laughed it out. Santana decided that she would no longer continue this madness and no longer travel across the country to see anymore shows. She had tried to play it off to Tina that it had just been a state of madness and that she was done now. She was moving on with her life and Rachel would no longer have this magical hold over her and she would be fine without hearing the girl sing or seeing the girl at all.
The agreement had been made on Thursday. Santana said that she would cancel her ticket to NYC that she had booked for Saturday. And true to her word, Santana was home for the entire weekend. And she was still even there on Monday, smiling, coping and 'continuing on with her life'. But Tina woke up on Tuesday to an empty dorm room and a note placed on her night stand.
The weekend was hard. I would have been gone yesterday but there were no shows.
Be back tomorrow. I'm sorry.
But I need my star
San x
When Santana returned the following night, with her tail between her legs and a look of guilt on her face, she was met with apartment listings and college brochures in New York
"San. We need this. You need this. You're not going to last if you continue on like this and I honestly think that your dad would cut you off iswell" Tina said laughing, trying to lighten the mood and maybe make convincing the girl an easier job.
After taking the rest of week thinking about the move and then applying to schools, the girls were packed up and ready to take the cross county trip to their new life in new york.
Sure it wasn't healthy for Santana to feel such a need to see Rachel on stage, but Tina could see how miserable she was when it had been awhile between her seeing shows.
So here they were. Both sitting on their newly bought couch, in their new apartment, in their new life. Which now already included 4 new people... or old people?
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The next night, Puck and Quinn sat at the table, starring at one another in silence. Beth and Brittany were in the bathroom and Santana and Tina should be there any minute.
Finally, Puck broke the silence. "Quinn, what are we going to do about Rachel? We're safe for now since she's in Lima for Christmas with her dad's, but Beth and Brit aren't gonna keep quiet about this"
"I don't know Puck. We need to ask Santana what she wants to do" Quinn said leaning back into her chair.
"Ask me what?" Santana said as she sat appeared next to Quinn, followed by Tina who hugged Puck. Quinn stood up and hugged Santana and then turned to Tina while the other two were hugging. When the four of them were seated, Quinn looked at Santana who was across the round table from her.
"We were talking about what we were going to do about" Quinn stopped for a moment, unsure whether to say the girls name or not.
"We wanna know if we can tell Rach that you guys are in the city. She's in Lima for the holidays, but she'll be back in 2 weeks and we all know that Brit can't keep her mouth closed. And now that Beth is speaking, she's going to be a flight risk. She's already outed me for drinking out of the orange juice carton" Puck huffed, remembering the scolding he'd received from Quinn when Beth had blurted it out on the cab ride to the restaurant.
"I um... Yeah. Yeah you can tell her. I'll, I'll leave it up to her okay? You can tell her when she get's back. She should enjoy her holiday with the Berry's. Kenzie and Megan were bouncing off the walls last time I saw them cause they were going to Lima for the holidays. " Santana laughed at the memory of the twins excitement when their mother surprised both of them with tickets to Lima even though they weren't planning to go this year. But that was before Shelby had been offered a different teaching position in Europe and the girls agreed to go with her, each delaying college for another year. Santana had already Skyped with the family twice this week.
"But Quinn, not a word about the hospital" Santana warned. "I don't want her to know..."
"Know what?" Puck asked, even though he DID already know what she was talking about.
"Dumbass I know that you know. I don't want her to know that I remember her, okay?" Santana said as she looked down into her lap. "I don't want to mess up her life anymore then I already have" She mumbled.
"But San, she -" Puck began, but squeals cut him off.
"SSSSSS!"
"SANNNNYYYYYYY"
Two blondes ran towards the table when they spotted the Latina.
"When they get over here, you better act like a ray of fucking sunshine Lopez. They haven't shut up about you since we left the store yesterday" Quinn warned.
"B, LITTLE B" Santana exclaimed, after she nodded at Quinn.
Both girls jumped into hugs with Santana and she held them both tight.
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In Lima, Rachel was waiting in the arrival terminal for the Twins. Bored, she decided to call Quinn and see how she was.
"Hey Q" Rachel said as Quinn answered the phone.
"Rachel hold on a second" Quinn said, and then covered the mouth piece with her hand.
"Beth, Aunty Rachel is on the phone. Don't tell her that Tina or Santana are here okay?" Quinn said to her daughter.
"But why?" Beth questioned, tilting her head to the side. Quinn almost died of adorableness.
"We're gonna surprise her when she's comes home after Christmas okay?" Beth nodded.
"Wachel"
"Who is this?" Rachel questioned, confused.
"Beth silly" Beth squealed into the phone. Quinn had her ear next to the phone and was listening incase Beth mentioned Santana.
"Beth? Omg you're speaking?" Rachel squealed into the phone, excited.
"Yes? Can you hear me?" Beth joked.
"Oh honey! You're speaking! How are you sweet heart? Are you having a good time?"
"Yeah. I went to the gwocery store yesterday and we saw hbjvfhvdvbf" Beth's conversation was ended, when Quinn placed her hand over Beth's mouth.
"Hey Rach, we gotta go. We're out to dinner and the waiter wants our order. Say bye Beth" Quinn said, handing her daughter the phone once more.
"Bye Beth" Beth said into the phone, laughing. Quinn rolled her eyes, while Puck smirked at his daughters humor.
"Bye sweetie" Rachel laughed.
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"So how're you guys settling in?" Quinn asked as she tied back Beth's hair in a pony tail.
"We're good. Just trying to get used to classes and stuff. Tina's no help when it comes to the apartment" Santana said laughing when Tina heard her and stopped making faces at Beth and instead made them at Santana.
"Excuse me, but I am plenty help! I'm great at supervising!" Santana rolled her eyes as everyone else laughed.
They were interrupted when the waiter began placing food down on the table infront of them.
"Ewww San. What's that stuff next to your salad?" Brittany asked, wrinkling her nose in disgust.
"It's tofu Britt. Wanna try some?" Santana asked as she held some out to Brittany who shook her head in disgust. "No ewwy"
"I wanna try! Me! Me! Sanny I wanna try" Beth eagerly said as she ran around the table, almost crashing into the waiter as he placed her kids plate of Spaghetti and Meatballs on the table.
Santana lifted the little girl onto her lap and then let Beth take a bite of her tofu pieces on her side plate.
"Hmmmmmmm" Beth said as she chewed and smiling, she rubbed her tummy, showing how much she liked it. "Mama, doesn't wachel eat dis?" Beth asked, leaning forward and taking another piece off of the fork that Santana was about to put into her mouth.
"Yeah baby. Aunty Rachel eats it because she's a vegan" Quinn answered, laughing at the two girls smiling at each other, one trying to eat all the tofu on the plate, the other watching and smiling.
"Are you a began Sanny?" Beth asked, reaching out to take another piece of tofu, but her hand was patted away by Brittany, who placed Beth's Spaghetti and Meatballs on the table infront of her. Shrugging, Beth took Santana's fork out of her hand and began to eat her own meal, leaving everyone at the table in fits of laughter while Santana starred at the little girl, mouth wide open. Beth turned around to look at Santana, squealed and laughed.
"It's Vegan little B and no, I just like vegan food aswell as normal food" Santana replied, smiling as the little girl looked up at her with a face full of spaghetti sauce.
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Looking around the table, Santana took in her surroundings as the group settled down for coffee's and desert for Beth. Brittany and Quinn were in the middle of a 'cute' moment. Quinn was whispering into Brittany's ear and kissing her neck every so often while Brittany was blushing and giggling. Puck and Tina were talking about how hot the waitress on the next table was and how they hope she'd 'serve' them. And Beth was busy stuffing her face with her ice cream and moving her fork and spoon from her meal around like superheroes flying through the sky.
"and owwhhhh aunty Rachel. you're falling'' Beth said, making the spoon begin the fall towards the abandoned plate of spaghetti and meatballs, but was saved when the fork came flying down and 'caught' the spoon. "Aunty Sanny, you saved her" Beth whispered, as she continued to make the utensils fly through the air together. Santana smiled and lifted her coffee to her lips.
It was when Beth made the spoon and fork kiss and then she whispered "I'll always love you Sanny bear", that Santana began to choke on her coffee. Quinn was quick to stand up and rub circles on Santana's back to help her breathe. She had been keeping an ear open to hear what Beth had been saying and had been prepared for Santana to have such a strong reaction.
"San, you okay?" Tina questioned when she saw Santana's eyes watering alot more then they should have from just coughing.
"Yeah, I'm fine" Santana squeaked out, looking down to smile at Beth who was still sitting on her lap. The 4 other adults at the table, all looked at each other, not knowing how to react.
"Hey Beth, get your coat on. We gotta head back. You have your last day of daycare before the holidays in the morning" Brittany said, lifting the little girl off of Santana to allow her to run over to Puck who was waiting with the coat.
"Hey guys, we were wondering if maybe you wanted to spend Christmas with us? No gifts needed, just bring yourselves" Puck said as he lifted a suddenly sleepy Beth up into his arms.
The two girls looked at each other, both silently asking the other if it would be okay. Turning back to Puck, they both nodded and smiled.
"Hear that baby. Tina and S are gonna be there when Santa Claus comes!" Brittany said as she bounced up and down, excited.
"Please tell me that someone has finally told her the truth" Santana whispered into Quinn's ear when she pulled her into a goodbye hug.
"Nope. I tried last year but I felt like I was about to kick a puppy. Then both Puck and Rach gave it a shot. Puck came out of the room almost crying, upset that he had been so close to take away her innocence! And her parents flat out refused" Quinn said, pulling back from Santana.
"Well I guess we can get Beth to tell her once she's old enough" Santana answered, laughing. She was the only one out of the New Directions that knew that Brittany knows about Santa Claus since they were 8 and they watched Felix Lopez lay out Santana's gifts on Christmas night. But Brittany always received the best gifts from her parents since they thought she still believed and now she still receive's whatever she wants that she wrote down on her 'list'.
"You're Evil B. You've got poor Quinn wrapped around your finger with the Santa Claus thing" Santana whispered into the girls ear.
"Yeah well, I'm worth it. Plus I got her the Tiffany Tennis bracelet that she's been wanting FOREVER! I dipped into my savings to get it for her" Brittany said, pulling back and then placing a small kiss on Santana's cheek before she moved onto Tina, sending Santana a wink.
"Bye Lil B" Santana said as she walked over to Puck and Beth. The little girl's burst of energy had finally run out and she was fighting to keep her eyes open. She reached out for Santana to take her.
"Sanny. Aunty wachel gets really sad. And she has bad dreams like me but her ones aren't of the monster in my closet that momma Brittany is afraid of too. Wachels dreams are bout you and a car and forgetting. I don't want wachel to be sad anymore, so i asked Santa to make you remember what you forgot so wachel will be happy again. Do you think he'll get it for me?" Beth asked as she laid her head on Santana's shoulder.
Santana closed her eyes, fighting off tears that were already threatening to escape. She took a deep breath before replying. "I think Santa is going to bring you loads of gifts and he's going to make you a very happy little girl"
"But what about you member what you forgot?" Beth asked innocently.
"I already remember what I forgot. I remember" Santana replied, smiling.
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"Well Hello there, stranger" A male voice said to Santana as she walked through the theater lobby door. She was here to catch the early show. Today was Rachel's first day back in New York City and she had a show straight away. Turing around, she was met with a familiar face that she hadn't seen since Graduation, when he had ran from the group of graduates after seeing Blaine and Kurt hugging.
"Holy shit. Is that you Karofsky?" Santana said, taking in the boys appearance. He had defiantly matured. He seemed to have lost all that babyfat that he was still carting around in high school, which now seemed to be replaced with muscles, but he was slimmer. But there was defiantly something different about the boy. He seemed... happy.
"It sure is! I never thought I'd see big bad ass Lopez outside of Lima. Didn't think I'd make it out either to be honest with you" He said smiling at Santana as he moved closer to her.
"What are you doing here? And yeah... I didn't expect half of our graduating class to get out of there"
"Well, I guess I have Rachel to thank. I don't know whether you are aware or not, but I'm gay" He said, still smiling. Which shocked Santana the most.
"You? Gay... " Santana said in disbelief. Dave Karofsky is gay. One of the most homophobic people I've ever met in my entire life, right behind Russell Fabray... is gay? All the shit he put Rachel through and then he tried with me until I beat him up... And all the shit with Kurt and the bullying and chasing him out of school to be with Blaine -
"Wait a minute! Kurt?" Santana questioned. Karofsky she would put it together that fast he thought, still smiling.
"Yeah Kurt. I had a thing for him." he said rubbing the back of his neck, still smiling "And after Graduation and I saw him and that private school guy together, I hid away in the gym. I .. I was thinking some messed up things. Like really messed up. I wanted to hurt myself, I couldn't deal with it. I had just graduated and I had no one. The guy I wanted was happy with someone else and was leaving Lima. Leaving me there to hide in the closet for the rest of my life. But then Rachel found me. She was upset aswell. And I guess we just opened up to each other. And she really understood me, you know? And then she suggested that I get out of Lima. That I could come to New York with her and start over. But I just... I couldn't you know? I couldn't just 'come out' that easily." Santana nodded, allowing him to continue.
"Rachel came back to Lima for a couple of days to get some of her stuff. By then, I had already been drunk for around two weeks straight and was on my last chance before my dad was gonna kick me out for getting in trouble with the cops. And I had continued to have the thoughts... bad thoughts. Rachel sat down with me and my dad, helped me tell him that the reason why I was so upset. And he actually understood" Karofsky said, still smiling but he had tears in his eyes.
"He understood and then Rachel convinced him to send me here to New York. Puck got me a job at the bar he works at and I helped them do up their apartment. I started going to therapy and AA meetings. Rachel helped me get my life together and helped me talk to Kurt, who now calls weekly to check up on me. Strictly as friend's though, him and Blaine have been separated a year but still, I wouldn't push Kurt to do anything. When Rachel got her role, she got the theater to hire me as a security guard/ body guard for her" To this, Santana raised a questioning eyebrow.
"Oh, Well Jew Fro... He sorta followed Rachel around for awhile after high school. Became her stalker. More of a stalker than he already was, i guess. It got a little extreme when he followed her home one night. Good thing she was staying in a hotel since Beth had the chickenpox and Rachel hasn't had them yet. Jew Fro actually had bench warrants out for his arrest all over the country and He's escaped twice from prison since he was arrested for breaking the Restraining Order that Rachel's dad got for her. Now I bring her home at night after a show or if Puck can, he does"
"Wow...So you've been threw alot. I guess that explains why you're here then" Santana smiled at the boy... or rather he was a man now.
"Yeah but why are you here? Rachel didn't mention you today when I brought her here from the airport" Karofsky answered.
Santana's eyes went wide. She didn't have an explanation for why she was here ... And Rachel still didn't know that she was even in the city "Well.. I - I.. Um" Santana stuttered out.
"Hey Santana!" Luke said as he came up behind the 2 of them.
"Wait, you two know each other?" David (Karofsky) asked, looking between the two.
"Yeah! Santana's our biggest and my favorite customer! How many times have you seen the show now?" Luke asked the blushing Latina. David eyed the girl as she looked towards the floor.
Santana mumbled an answer. "Hmm?" Luke asked.
"I said... 49" Santana said, looking u and meeting David's eyes, which were now wide with surprise.
The lights in the theater flashed indicating that the show was about to start. "Well, um.. I better get in there" Santana said slowly turning from the two men and heading towards the door.
"Wait, Santana! " David said, running after the girl. When he caught up to her, he pulled her to the side out of the crowd that was pushing their way through the doors. "You remember her don't you? You remember Rachel. That's why you've been to so many shows."
Santana kept her eyes on the floor when she nodded, a tear sliding down her cheek. "I.. I'm living in New York now. I've seen Quinn, Beth, Brittany and Puck. They are going to tell her tonight that I'm back. I want to have a friendship with her. But I just.. I can't let her know. I can't let her know that I remember. I just.. I can't. Karofsky, you can't tell her!" Santana pleaded with the man.
"I won't Santana, but you need to be the person to tell her that you're here. That you're here in the city and that you want to be in her life. You owe her that much" He said, still with a grip on her arms, starring her in the eyes directly. She could tell that he cared for the girl. Obviously. She was the one who made him admit to himself and his father that he's gay and then saved him from himself.
"After the show. I'll be right here. In this very spot. I have to help Rachel get home. If you're here, then you can see her. But if you're not here Lopez, and I hear that you chickened out and let Puck and Quinn tell Rachel, then I'm going to make sure that you are completely banned from the theater. Obviously you enjoy seeing her sing as much as others, but since this is your 50th show, I guess that means you like it just that littlebit more" he said, with an almost smug look on his face. Shit, he's got me. Santana thought, accepting defeat.
"I'll... I'll be here. No wait. Bring her to the cafe at the corner of the block. I'll be in there. Just.. Just don't tell her until I see her, okay?" Santana asked. She was already starting to panic.
"Fine. But Lopez, you know that this is the right thing to do" David replied. Santana nodded again and turned to enter the theater where the lights were beginning to dim.
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"You did good tonight, kid" David said as he met Rachel at her dressing room once she was changed and all of her makeup had been removed.
"Thank You David. Its so good to be back in the city and on stage, I really needed that two weeks. But I do good every night" Rachel replied, winking at the boy, causing him to giggle.
"You ready Freddy? I gotta little surprise for you" He said as he took her purse from her to carry.
"Ooohhh a surprise! What is it?" Rachel asked, giddy.
"Ms. Berry. I think I should have bought you a dictionary for Christmas because you obviously do not know the meaning of a surprise" He replied laughing as they made their way out of the back stage door, in the direction of the cafe.
"So... you're buying me coffee? Great surprise David" Rachel said as she walked in the door that David was holding open for her. He looked around and when he met Santana's eyes, he nodded at her.
"Nothing get's passed you, does it Rach?" Santana said from behind the girl, who jumped the moment she heard the familiar voice. Turning around, Rachel was met with what might aswell be a ghost.
"Sa... Sa... Santana?" Rachel gasped right before her body went limp and David caught her before she hit the floor.
###
"Shit shit shit Rachel" Santana said, running towards Rachel who was laying on the floor where David had laid her out.
"Rach. Rachel wake. Come on baby, wake up" Santana said as she ran her fingers through Rachel's hair and leaned down to kiss her forehead.
"Should we call someone?" David asked, looking up concerned at Santana.
"Yeah Quinn. I'll call Quinn" Santana said quickly, already pulling out her phone.
"Quinn. I need your help. Rachel passed out. I don't know what to do. What do I do?" Santana asked frantically into the phone.
"Is she breathing?" Quinn asked, even more worried about Rachel.
"Yeah but she saw me and then she fainted"
"Did she hit her head?"
"No, Karofsky's here with me, he caught her" Santana replied.
"Well it sounds like she's in shock. Bring her home and let her sleep it off until she wakes up" Quinn answered. "Oh wait... shit she doesn't have the key. Ask David if he has his?"
"Dude, you got your key to Quinn's?"
Searching his pockets, they came up empty. "Shit... left them in the apartment when I dropped off Rachel's bags from the airport. I'd bring her to mine, but I have work in the bar until closing"
"He doesn't have his and he's working tonight. What about Puck and Brittany?"
"No. They're gone to long island for the weekend to visit Pucks aunt"
"Maybe.. maybe I can bring her to mine?" Santana said as she bent down to feel Rachel's forehead.
"Are you sure?" Quinn asked.
"Yeah. It was going to happen eventually I guess. Well not her fainting, but the being face to face thing." Santana answered, now realizing what they were talking about. Rachel would be in her apartment.
"Okay San. Take care of her. And I'll be by in the morning once my shift ends" Quinn said before she hung up.
"I guess she's coming back to mine then" Santana said looking up at David.
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"Bring her through there and put her in my bed. I'll crash on the couch" Santana said as she kicked open her front door, her hands full with her stuff and Rachel's, while David carried the diva through. When he appeared back out in the the kitchen where Santana was placing her bag on the kitchen table, he noticed the uncomfortable look on her face.
"Hey Lopez, you okay?" He asked, approaching her as she quickly turned her back to him and hunched over. Coming around to face her, he saw her break down. Tears began to spill down her cheeks and her body started to shake. He wrapped his arms in her and 'shushed' her, in comfort.
"I .. I can't do this. It's iiit's not meant to be like this" She sobbed against his chest. "What if I hurt her? What if I break her heart again?" Santana questioned the man, looking up into his eyes, pleading for him to answer her questions. "She doesn't need me. I shouldn't have agreed to this. I can't come back into her life. I can't... I CAN'T hurt her. " She sobbed again into his chest. "I WON'T HURT HER" She said, rising her voice, pulling away from David in rage.
"Santana. Santana calm down" David said when he grabbed her wrists to prevent her gripping her hair any tighter on her scalp, in fear that she would end up pulling it out. "Santana, listen to me. Listen" He said forcefully, moving her head so that their eyes would meet. "Listen to me. You are not going to hurt her. You can't hurt her again, you won't let yourself hurt her. Do you hear me? All you need to do is be there for her. Be her friend. Okay?" he said nodding his head. Santana copied agreeing, nodding her head.
"But what if-" Santana began in a small broken whisper, but David cut her off again. "You won't. Believe me when I say that right now, you being back in her life is the best thing. Santana she's been so strong. So strong because she's kept faith. You know Rachel" he said smiling. "When that little diva put's her mind to something, she'll stick with it. Just like she did with me when she wanted to help me." He said smiling, trying to lighten the mood and reassure the girl.
"She knew that one day, you'd come back into her life. And she wants it. She wants you back in her life even though she knows that you cant remember her" Santana pulled back her head slightly, looking up at the man. "But she doesn't know that you remember her" he said, a tear dripping down his own cheek when reality set in on the situation. "Santana, she still loves you. She's never going to stop loving you. But she knows. And shes' prepared herself for the possibility that you would come back and she'd have to deal with her feelings towards you." he said, as Santana took a seat on one of the kitchen chairs.
David kneeled down infront of her. "Santana, don't you see what you have here? An opportunity. You have been given another chance to be in Rachel's life. We both know that you want this, otherwise you wouldn't have attended your 50th show tonight just to see her. You love her and I understand. I get it, you can't just come straight out and return to normal" He said, looking up into her eyes.
"I know you. Me and you, aren't all that different. We built ourselves up in high school on fear and we built our walls. Mine with being gay, you when all the confusion hit after your accident. I get it. You're afraid" A new wave of tears began to fall from Santana's eyes. "You're afraid of what's going to happen, when those walls come down because since your accident, you haven't been able to remember what it was like, without walls"
"I don't want to hurt her again. I can't" She whispered.
"And you won't. You are not going to hurt her. Because that women in there" He said, pointing towards Santana's bedroom, his own voice breaking. "She's amazing. You know that, I know that. So many people know that. She's amazing. She accepted me and helped me when I was at my lowest. And you know that because you got to be loved by her and you loved her. And then that was taken away from you."
Santana mumbled a response.
"What sweetie?" he asked pushing her hair back from her face.
"Love... You said that I loved her. Love. I love her" Santana said as she laid her head on David's chest and let the man wrap his arms around her while she cried.
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After he was able to calm her down, David reassured her that everything was going to be okay. He knew that Rachel was strong enough to have Santana back in her life as a friend... for now. He didn't know how long it would last, even if it did last at all. Both of those girls were still crazy about each other. He knew that. Puck and Quinn know that. But neither of them know it about one another, and he couldn't do anything about that.
Santana is afraid of rejection if she put's herself out there. And Rachel is still under the illusion that Santana has no memory of her and what they had.
He understood why Santana wasn't letting Rachel know about her memory. She was afraid. She had found the love of her life and then it suddenly disappeared. She had been left abandoned, even if it was HER memory that was gone. Abandoned,jut like when her own mother had abandoned. He knew what that was like. His own mother had died from an accidental medication overdose. Even if it was an accident, he still felt abandoned. And he felt sorry for Santana. From what he gathered, her mother had committed suicide when she had been young.
Santana was afraid to put her heart out there again only for it to be once again, abandoned.
As David grabbed a cab from outside Santana's apartment, leaving the Latina passed out on the couch asleep, he dreaded the drama to come.
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Rachel woke up, slowly opening her eyes to unfamiliar surroundings, but a very familiar scent. But her eye's did not stay closed for long when she remembered what had happened last night after the show.
Santana...
Rachel took in her surrounds in more detail. Yeah... this is Santana's room alright... She thought as she observed the lined up shoes and the clothing she could see from the he walk in wardrobe. Only Santana could be so neat, but have such a variety of bright/happy and dark/depressing clothing all mixed in together. Plus the photo's on her drawer's were a give away.
Kenzie? Megan?... MOM? Rachel thought as she picked up the picture frames that she found sitting on the drawers. Her mother, Santana and both her sisters. Picture's that look to have been taken recently.
"What the fuck?" Rachel said, starring down at the picture's in her hands. A knock came from the bedroom door. Rachel looked towards it and saw it open slight, Santana's head popping in. Santana
"I see that you're awake. How're you feeling?" She asked, moving into the room slowly, not meeting Rachel's questioning eyes.
"I.. I'm fine. Santana, what the hell is going on? How'd I get here? What are you doing here? And why the hell do you have picture's of my family?" Rachel asked, holding up the picture's she had found.
Santana looked up, biting her lip.