A/N: You know, I realized that I like updating, I really do! When I write something I'm proud of, I get this really excited feeling when I put it up. Sharing writing is difficult for me, because it's all about experimentation and discovery, which is very personal for me. It's a lot easier to do this online, and I realize that this is getting all sappy and stuff, so I'll just wrap this up. This is just a little bit of Lily reflecting on Severus, so enjoy!
Courage is a Kind of Salvation
Our salvation is in striving to achieve what we know we'll never achieve.
Ryszard Kapuscinski
It was hard. It really was, to stare into the depths of his almost vacant black eyes, and turn away. The last time Lily ever looked at Severus was at the Portrait hole, and it was difficult. Because she knew that where they were going, it wasn't together, and friendship was not about walking in separate directions.
He was a great man, she tried to console herself. No, that wasn't right. He was a great boy, an intelligent and courageous youth, but Lily wasn't sure at all of what kind of man he was. Her best friend, Sev, the young buy who taught her magic, escape and happiness was gone, replaced with Severus, a young man with strong, dark undertones that scared her.
Years on, she revisited that moment in her mind, that moment where their eyes met, and she forced herself to be cold. To stiffen her muscles, and stare resolutely. That moment was their end. And she still wondered where he was, what he was doing. Did he really become the man she was afraid of?
She hoped, hoped against hope, that he had not.
And somehow, somehow, Severus had found salvation, he found salvation in her warm, reassuring emerald eyes.
Sometimes saving a little bit of someone else means knowing that you're saving yourself.
A/N: I'm pretty excited about this one, and so I really do hope you enjoyed it! I really CAN NOT stress how much reviews matter, because they really do! You can celebrate story traffic, and hit counts, but if no one provides feedback, it feels like a lot of people read it, and didn't like it, which really sucks! So people, press the button! Tell me what you are thinking, because it helps me so much when I know that there are some people that actually do read it because they enjoy it.
And to all the people who have reviewed so far, thank you so much, because they help me write!