Chapter 11: Death and Memories Forgotten

Day where the sun never shines, sing and laugh, which was the Fairy Tail's current state. Today was the funeral of Natsu Dragneel where everyone had decided to bury him under the cherry blossom tree which will remind them about their Dragon Slayer, Natsu Dragneel.

Everyone who had known him came to his funeral. Friends, rivals, acquaintance and many more, almost the whole people of Fiore might say came to say their final farewell.

Lucy the most hurt from this moment kept on crying in Leo or Loki's chest, the way she does that was like her life depends on it. The only thing Loki can do was give comfort to his owner, friend and family. He understand how she feels, seeing the love of her life die in her arms and gave his farewell, how much it pains her.

Gray put down his pride and kept crying like many others. He was so mad that were pointing to him and himself. He's mad at Natsu because he passed away and left them while he's mad at himself because in the end, he didn't able to save the Flamebrain's life. He failed to save his rival and friend. Juvia was crying beside him, wanting to cry beside him because Natsu was someone she became close and much she called as best friend. She can't believe the fact he's gone.

Erza was same as she embraced Jellal with no minding about what others say. Jellal return the embrace, hoping it would comfort her even for a bit, he knew how Erza's pain at this moment and so was himself. For her, Natsu was like her own little brother, having him die was something she doesn't want to imagine over her entire life, especially now the fact she hated the most is in front of her. Jellal on the other hand see Natsu as his light because the one who had awakened him from the darkness was him and Erza. He cried beside her, it was indeed painful to lose someone important to you, your friend.

Wendy was crying like no tomorrow, Carla was there beside her and crying too. Romeo was bit far from her because he was being comforted by his father. He cries a lot louder like Wendy, still can't believe the fact he's gone.

Gajeel was punching the nearest tree, clenching his fist as tight as his tears were flowing down. He can't believe it, his fellow Salamander and rival was gone. He had remembered their last fight which he never thought it would be his last against him. He wanted a payback, he wanted to get even stronger to catch up with him for his lost, but now it will never happen, because he's gone and never will return. Levy happen to beside him and trying to stop him on punching the poor tree with Lily. The two understand why he's doing that, knowing their fellow Nakama had died, still, they don't want him to injure himself for this.

Everyone else were giving tears for their lost Nakama and Family, no one dared to talk or comfort each other, knowing everyone felt the same way. Soon enough, they gave their last words for their Dragon Slayer, before they could bury him down under the cherry blossom. The last who gave the last message for Natsu Dragneel was Lucy, heavy and nonstop tears was still flowing down as she talked about Natsu, how she fell so happy for the man until she learned she's already had fallen in love. Wanting to tell the real reason of his death, she can't. She had promise that she will never tell anyone, even if it was painful, she will keep the reason to herself. The pain on how he had kept such huge burden and truth, she wants to carry the same burden as him, this will be the reminder of her love and pain, for Natsu.

Soon they had buried his coffin to the ground and little by little, people were leaving. Each of them gave their condolence to Fairy Tail and mostly Lucy before leaving. Few more hours and Member of Fairy Tail decide to go home, not all at ones but little by little. Lucy was the only one who haven't move from her spot. Wendy, Carla and Erza were convincing her to come home too but it seems she can't hear anything. Her eyes were focus in one thing and that's her beloved's grave.

More time passed and finally they had convinced her to come home. Loki was the one who led her the way, knowing she's in no condition to think things.

Arriving home, Lucy again remembered Natsu because this home… Natsu built this home for them, the two of them. Loki knew this house was again reminded her about Natsu but he can't blame it, knowing its natural. Loki escorted her to her room. Lucy sat on the bed, still crying in pain.

Loki gave a sigh before speaking, "I know you need time to recover Lucy so… call me when you need someone to talk to, I'll be here for you, okay?" Lucy didn't answer but nodded which he was glad because she heard him. "Never hesitate Lucy, your friends in both guild and Celestial Spirits are with you."

Loki disappeared. Lucy took the pillow beside her and hugged it tightly as she cry, still want to release all the pain to her chest.

Lucy woke up, surprise that she had fallen asleep because of her endless crying. She looked around and realizing it's already night. She looked down on her spot and turn up when she saw a photo on their nightstand, a photo of her and Natsu when they finally start dating.

Lucy slowly sat up from her sit and took the photo, staring the beloved person who passed away.

"Natsu" She whispered. Her hand went to the photo of Natsu, tears again came out to her eyes. "Natsu… Even if I already knew this day will come, I still can't believe you're gone. I also knew you don't regret anything but… do you truly not regret anything? Natsu please speak with me."

Even if she say that, she knew it will be impossible for he's already gone. Suddenly, she noticed something from a photo. There's a small note stick from behind the photo. She took it and read it, saying 'Letter inside the drawer'.

The handwriting, it was Natsu's. She immediately went to their drawer and opened it, seeing there is one letters and two white envelop. She took them and saw the letter saying, 'Open me First' while in the envelop, there are 'Yes' and 'No'.

She turned the lights on and went back on the bed and sit. She first open the one saying 'Open me first' and the letter is for her, from Natsu.

To Lucy,

Lucy if ever your reading this, that only means I passed away right? Well I won't be surprising for that fact because I knew it would certainly happen… this is the price I had paid and I have no regrets. I wrote this late so I hope my writings aren't that bad, well I wrote this because I knew when I'm gone, you'll be in too much pain more than anyone else because you alone knew the real truth. I still appreciate if you don't tell anyone because again, I don't regret my action.

Lucy… I'm very sorry. I'm sure you know this but still I will say it. Knowing my faith will come, I can't help but think about you. What will happen to you when I'm gone? Will you continue to cry? Will you continue to suffer because of me? Lucy I don't want those things happen to you. That is why… please… Lucy, forget about me in both mind and heart. I knew already that I could never give happiness like I truly wish you will be, the love of a man, everything. That fact is the only thing that makes me suffer. I don't want you to be sad… Lucy I love the way you smile, your laugh, everything. The fact that it will be gone because of me is something that I… will regret that I want to be burn for eternity.

Lucy I may never hear your answer in personal but at least tell me your answer. The remaining letter will determine your answer. If you will open the 'Yes' it would mean you accept to forget about me. If you open the 'No' it would mean you will not forget about me.

The letter you didn't open, I would like you to burn it. Lucy be sure to think about it.

Beloved,
Natsu Dragneel

Lucy smiled sadly, knowing that in the end, he kept thinking about her, much that made her happy.

"Natsu… your really an idiot." Lucy murmured. "On the day I knew you will die, I started to think about it. Will I be happy without you? Will I be able to stand up without you? From the looks of things, I don't think I could… and now here that your gone, you made this letter to open a path for me. A path where I could move on without you or stay with you."

Lucy put down the letter and took the two envelop.

"Natsu… this is the decision I will never regret." Lucy said before putting down the envelop she didn't choose and open the envelop she had chosen which was her answer. The envelop saying 'No'.

There is a letter inside and beside that there's a necklace which she could tell it's a handmade one. Natsu made this for her, a necklace of a Ruby, reminding his flaming fire magic. Lucy took the letter as she hold the necklace and opened it.

If you are reading this now, that would mean you had chosen not forget about me. Lucy I'm really worried about you and I wanted you to just forget about me but knowing you and already reading this letter, I can no longer stop you right? In any case… for some reason… I wanted you to choose this at the same time didn't. Just what am I thinking?

Lucy… I'm really grateful that I had met you. On the day we first met until now, you are always with me, it's really fun Lucy, being with you. I wanted to do more quest with you, with everyone else. On the day you confess to me, I realized I actually had fallen in love with you, I just didn't notice until you voice it out for me. I'm really thankful, thankful that you made me realize that. I'm sure you know how oblivious I am right, which now that I think about it, I feel like all this time I'm such a big idiot.

You already know this too but… let me give you that necklace I had made for you. I hope it's good on you and you would like it. I want you to have that, a reminder about me. I created it with a use of my magic, which is why it's red. Can you feel the heat? It's me, telling you I'm just beside you no matter where you are.

Lucy I love you, that is why please smile for me, live for me and become a shining star for everyone. Show them that my death is not the end of everything. It will take time, I know but I know someday, everyone will be able to move on without me.

Lucy I am so glad that I had met you. Always remember Lucy… I love you in both mind and heart.

Your most beloved person,
Natsu Dragneel

Few tears fell down to Lucy's eyes but wipe it out. She stares at the necklace and wore it. She could feel the warm coming from the necklace. Indeed, Natsu is here.

"Thank you… Natsu"

Few days had past ever since the death of the Dragon Slayer, only few people able to come back to take a job, some still haven't showed up such as Gray, Gajeel and Erza. Mirajane wasn't happy as she used to be. Mira only drink few, no longer enjoying it because of the atmosphere and much more only accompanying Wendy and Carla. Elfman was quiet and Lisanna was same. Happy now was always beside Lucy to accompany each other.

Makarov was glad, seeing Lucy was recovering little by little, now he's worried for the others.

Levy went to Lucy, "Lu-chan it's been a while has it." Lucy nodded, "How had you been Levy-chan?"

"W-well… still blaming myself actually. If only… if only I able to find a way to save Natsu in time… he… he wouldn't have died." Levy said, still showing the guilt she was unable to save him.

"Levy" Happy whispered. He too was still guilty, unable to do anything for his best friend and partner, he failed him. Lucy who could understand the two gave comfort, "Don't cry now… I'm sure that if Natsu is here with us, he will shout so loud that he would say 'cut the despairing atmosphere and just fight me'… something like that."

Both turn to Lucy who was giving the smile of comfort which made them smile.

"You have gotten strong Lu-chan but don't force yourself okay." Levy said, worried for Lucy that she might be forcing herself to be okay. Lucy shook her head, "I'm fine Levy-chan… just that… I found this necklace. It's like its telling me Natsu is still with me… telling me to smile and live."

Lucy showed her necklace which widens their eyes. It was beautiful and as they stare at it, they could feel Natsu is inside and telling them to smile already.

"Natsu left you such wonderful gift Lucy." Happy said with a smile, already been cheered up.

Lucy smiled, "Yeah"

For a whole week, Lucy cheered everyone. The smile and laughter was slowly returning back and Lucy was always there for them whenever they feel down once again. For everyone, they did the same for Lucy when they notice her become sad or about to cry. They supported each other, until the day Lucy felt something weird about her.

Vomiting, being picky in foods which never happened before and morning sickness. Lucy with Loki made a check up about the sudden changes about her. Porlyusica was the one who checked her, finding the result, she smiled for her.

"Lucy you're pregnant." She blurted out which surprise Lucy. Pregnant? For real?

Loki who was beside her was shock, "Lucy is pregnant? Are you sure?"

"Do you think I'm lying?" Porlyusica said in glaring tone. "Those symptoms you had told me and when I checked her, there is no mistake, she's pregnant."

"That… shocking." Loki said before turning to Lucy was beginning to realize who had made her pregnant.

She smiled, "Natsu… our love had shown a fruit." She cried from happiness and sadness. Happy because there will be a child who will kept reminding her about Natsu and their love and Sad because he won't be here to witness the child growing up and will never feel how it feels like to be a father.

The whole guild soon received the news and decided to look after her, knowing she needs support in time of pregnancy. Loki with the Celestial Spirit was there too to support her. Happy was always there for her. Lucy was happy, that even Natsu wasn't beside her, everyone was there to help her out. She will make sure to give the child much love and life. The only life Natsu left for her, she will always precious it.

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Everything turned out right… until…

A month after the Dragon Slayer's Death… They all had forgotten about him… more like…

Everything about the Dragon Slayer's existence vanished.

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