Chapter 11: Tears For You.
"No! Please help me!" Jude's arms flew up, her feet kicking the blankets away, at the unseen assailant that violated her dream scape for the past several weeks. Tommy cracked his eyes open pulling her into his arms against him. "Shhhh, Its okay, you're safe…Shhhh, it's just a dream." He kissed her moist forehead. Tears forming in his Smokey blue eyes. It killed him inside to see her go through this, to know how much fear, and pain she had felt. He wanted to rip someone apart at times. He knew he needed to be strong for her. He needed to help her overcome this. Although it would take time…He knew that together they could conquer their horrid pasts, and be able to live forward with their lives.
"Tommy?" came her sleepy voice. "Yes Jude, It's me, you're safe." "Gosh," She let out a breath. "Why do I still keep having these dreams?" She asked out loud.
"Jude listen, I know that I haven't gone through the exact same thing, but you have to believe that these things will go away. It is out subconscious way of our body trying to let the built up feelings out. The dreams may take some time. I promise you though, Girl they will get better, I promise" Tommy let his tears fall finally, kissing her.
Using her thumb, Jude wiped at the silvery liquid. "I love you Tommy," She enveloped him. Pulling him even closer. She could feel her heart beat begin to go back to normal, as her breathing slowed back down. "I'm sorry Tommy," She apologized, but she wasn't sure exactly why. "For what girl? There is nothing for you to be sorry for. I'm with you through thick and thin girl. Nothing will scare me away from you now. I was scared before. I realized though, what I had been missing. You can't get rid of me…"
Jude smiled, softly kissing his lips. Tender lips, Kissable. She needed to remember those types of things in life, the type of things people just take for granted. She felt like she could see things from an entirely different perspective now. Like everyday was precious, and she couldn't waste a single second. Not a moment in time.
Kristin laid in her bed sleeping still, and crying in her sleep. She had a nightmare that her father had broken out of jail. "No, no, no, no, no." She exclaimed in her sleep. She started shaking. "Stephen?" she exclaimed "Where are you?" In her dream she dreamt that Stephen was with her, but then it switched to her being alone. She finally awoke in a cold sweat shaking. "No." she started crying to herself.
She wished Stephan were really here. Just as the thought crossed her mind, her phone rang. "Who could that be?" She thought…As she grabbed it from its charger with a shaky hand. She wondered who'd be calling her this late. Until she looked at the screen of her phone, and immediately felt a bit of relief wash over her. It was Stephen. "H-hello?" She answered. "Kris babe, it's Stephen. My plane just landed, and for some reason they messed up my rental car. I wanted to surprise you, but I'm kind of stuck here at the airport now. You think you can come get me?" He asked.
"Yeah, umm, sure." She replied, jumping from the bed, she threw some cloths on and ran down the stairs, out the front door. She walked towards her car. "I'll be there soon." She got into her car and drove towards the airport. She then arrived to the airport parking her car and locking it. She walked into the airport and saw Stephen. "Hey." she smiled walking over to him.
She couldn't pull the smile from her face. She'd missed him so much, and everything she had been through lately she needed him more than even now…
Jude noticed Kristin leaving, and smiled to herself. 'Must be Stephen' She thought, She knew he was coming, but definitely didn't want to destroy the surprise for her. Jude yawned, looking at Tommy once more, whose eyes had closed lightly. She snuggled into him, closing her own eyes; once again, hoping the dreams that had been plaguing her lately would just give her a reprieve, just for now. She needed to function. She needed to make music. Her dream, she couldn't let what happened stop her from living.
Once out of the airport, Kristin looked at Stephen. "So what's up Buddy?" he asked looking at Kristin. "Nothing much, just been kind of crazy the last few weeks." She knew she had to tell him what happened but couldn't bring herself to do so right then. "You ready?" she asked looking at him. "Yes Kristin. You want to drive or should I?" She asked. "I'll drive just tell me where to do go." He said softly looking at Kristin wrapping his arms around her and kissing her forehead, she then smiled….
The next thing Jude knew she'd awoke to the sunlight streaming into her room. She squinted and looked over at her alarm clock. "SHIT! Tommy! We're Late Get UP!" Jude exclaimed jumping from her comfortable spot. She pulled some clean cloths on quickly, running a brush through her slightly tangled hair. She watched as Tommy rushed around the room also, neither caring that they were dressing in front of one another. Darius was sure to rip into them now. "Two hours late!" Jude said, grabbing her boots, she slid them on her feet and ran down the stairs, followed by Tommy. She grabbed a bunny hug, and out the door they went, speeding off to hurry into work.
After a good 20 minutes, and running a few traffic lights, the two riskfully ran into G-Major, slinking into studio A. They thought they'd be okay, until they saw Darius. Someone was with him. A young woman maybe in her twenties, early twenties.
"Jude, Tommy" Darius nodded at them. "I would like you to meet, Alyssa, Our newest artist." Jude and Tommy took turns shaking her hand. There was something about her, a warm smile on her face, and gentle hands, as she looked at Jude. "It's such a pleasure to meet you," She told Jude.
Jude smiled. 'I think I like this girl already' she thought. "The pleasure is all mine," Jude responded.
"Well sorry to cut this short Alyssa, but Jude and Tommy need to get into the studio," Darius gave them both a glare before walking off, to introduce Alyssa to everyone. Alyssa smiled at her, waving before following his wake.
Tommy and Jude had spent the majority of the morning tearing apart chords, and melody for the song she had written weeks ago, during her almost meltdown phase. Jude sighed pulling her guitar strap over her head and setting it to the floor. "It's passed noon Tommy. I'm hungry. Think we can go get something to eat. We did skip breakfast this morning." "Sure Just let me save this." Tommy pressed a few buttons before standing up. He ran his hands over his shirt and pants before joining her at the door.
Jude, and Tommy, ran quickly to the car through the rain, which they were unaware of before exiting the building. "Hurry," Tommy she jumped up and down, as he fumbled with his keys. Finally he managed to get the door unlocked, and they both jumped inside. Jude rubbed her hands together as he started the ignition, and drove off.
"So what do you think of Alyssa?" Tommy asked Jude, trying to make casual conversation. "She seems really nice; I just hope she doesn't get tangled in with Karma. Jamie said he had a new recruit coming in, just never said when…" Jude said. "Hmmm, yeah She seems nice your right, lets keep her away form bitch whisperer." Tommy laughed, Jude looked at him for a second, then caught on laughing herself….
The two drove around for a bit, before settling on Italian food, take out. They knew they needed to be back in the studio, or Darius would have more a reason to chew them out later…..
Kristin drove Stephen to G-major, the record company where her cousin worked. She wanted to introduce Stephen to her Jude and her boyfriend/producer Tommy. She pulled into the parking area and parked her car. She shutting it off, they climbed out as she locked the doors.
"Yeah, so this is G-major." She walked with him and he placed his hands on her hips but she jumped. "No, don't do that!" she exclaimed. She didn't mean to be mean but she wasn't exactly ready for him to do that. The accident was still fresh in her head. She walked with him into G-major. "Yeah this is my cousin Sadie." "Hi Sadie" Stephen said as she shook the blonde's hand. "This is Kwest." She said smiling. "Yo, what's up man?" Kwest said shaking Stephen's hand. "Yeah, so let me give you a tour of G-major."…He smiled at her, letting her lead him around. This place was amazing to him…
When Tommy finally parked the viper back into the parking lot, at G-major, Jude jumped from the car, pulling her bunny hug up over her head, and running ahead of him. She hadn't even noticed Kristin's car there, as she left Tommy chuckling at her carrying their lunch in behind her, at a slow jog.
Once finally back inside, she whipped the cold rain from her hands, and hung her Bunny Hug on a hook to dry. She eyed the food in Tommy's hand; until she saw Kristin and Stephen emerge before her eyes. She's never actually seen Stephen, although, she'd talked to him on the phone…She walked over to introduce herself, but before she could Kristin spoke.
"Stephan this is my cousin and my best friend Jude, whom you've talked to on the phone, this is her boyfriend and producer Tommy," Kristin introduced them. "Stephen is getting a place here in Toronto!" Kristin almost jumped for joy at her excitement.
Jude smiled, it was great to see her happy, she needed it. She pulled Kristin into a hug gently. "I love you Kris, and I'm happy for you, I'm glad he's finally here with you," She whispered into her ear, before she let her go.
"Thanks." she whispered. She looked at Jude then to Stephen as she grabbed his hand. She still was wondering on how to Stephen about what had happened. Sure he knew about it before but it was so much longer since she'd talked to him. He was out doing his own thing and so was she. He had been dating Hayden and she'd been dating Nick and Brody but at the same time she was so happy he was with her finally again.
Jude turned, only to be approached by Alyssa. "Jude, I'm sorry to bother you. Would you mind if I had a word with you, in private." She smiled shyly. "Sure," Jude replied. "I'll be right back guys…Jude waved off as she followed Alyssa into Studio B where she had been working on her own most of the day. New or not Darius had already began working her hard. "So what's up," Jude said smiling, as she placed her hands inside her pockets…..
Stephen looked at Tommy then to Kristin who was watching her cousin walk off. "So Kris, this is pretty cool." "Huh? What? Yeah, I know Stephen." Kristin wrapped her arms around Stephen trying to act normal as possible and smiled at him.
Jude looked as Alyssa turned away feeling nervous. "Hey it's okay?" Jude tried to console, "Is something wrong?" She asked. "No actually, Ummm. I was wondering. I mean. I would be honoured if, well I was wondering if you would do a duet with me for my first single…." Alyssa stammered. "I would be more than honoured if you would."
Jude smiled brightly. "Well if you say it like that, than definitely. I have some recording to finish up, but I promise I will. Let me know when you need me," Jude said, creating a huge smile across Alyssa's face.
"Thank you so much Jude, Thank you. I feel so…Thank you!" She almost jumped in glee. "My pleasure," Jude told her, hugging her before walking away, to get back to what she was doing before now.
Jude watched as Karma bypassed her, giving her an evil grin…. "What does she have up her sleeve?" Jude asked herself, walking over to get a hold of her producer so she could finish up for today, and maybe eat some of that food she's been starving for. Which most likely, was cold by now, oh well?
Kristin stood there looking at Stephen then heard footsteps "Jude?" she asked looking towards the direction where she heard footsteps. She looked at Tommy then to Stephen then heard karma and Darius talking less then 30 feet away behind them.
Kristin nodded her head in the direction of Karma and Darius, as Jude finally joined them. "What?" Jude asked. "Listen," she whispered
Kristin, and Jude stood there listening to the conversation karma and Darius were having. "What did she just say?" Kristin asked quietly. "I don't know..." Jude whispered. I can't hear it very well. But I feel like a sneak. Did she just say something about me?"
"Yeah, that's what I thought." Kristin replied looking at Jude. Tommy and Stephen just looked at each other with a blank expression. "Yeah umn I think she said something like you lip synced at your concert just recently...'' Kristin said.
"Are you kidding me!? What is she trying to do, get me in deep shit, I so did not!" Jude said a little too loudly. "She is such a…" Jude shut up before she made a scene and decided walking away would be a better idea. She turned on her heels and angrily walked back to Studio A where she was previously working.
Kristin followed Jude to the studio looking at Stephen and Tommy. "Jude..." she said in concerned tone. "Jude let it out. Karma is a bitch. She'll do anything to see you fail but don't let her get to you."
"Kris, you think Darius will fall for her shit? I mean I haven't exactly been acting like myself lately…Maybe she is trying to take advantage of that fact. Darius could very well believe her. I swear Kris if something happens because of her I will strangle her! Justifiable homicide, I've seen it on Law and order! Jude yelled wanting to hit something.
"You know I doubt it. But I know how karma likes to crawl under your skin and irritate you. "She replied "Karma is a harmless piece of grass or whatever. Nothing will happen. Tommy and Sadie and I can talk to Darius or something."
"No don't worry about it Kris. It's ok…I have to get out of here. Let Alyssa know she can stop over the house later if she wants," Jude said grabbing her bag, and rushing out of the studio. She couldn't handle this right now. Not with everything else that was going on. She needed somewhere where, she could think. Somewhere she felt inspired to work on her song. Somewhere, away from that conniving little bitch.
"Okay I will." She nodded as she watched Jude leave. She walked out of the studio towards Alyssa. "Hey, Jude said you could stop by the house when you're finished up here if you want; she has a mini studio downstairs." she looked at Alyssa smiling a little bit. "Okay" she replied. Kristin then went to go find Karma. "Hey Karma, can I talk to you outside for a moment?" Kristin asked smiling as karma said "sure, but make it fast Tommy and I have an album to record." she pushed her black her in Kristin's face just about as she turned around.
Karma tapped her foot impatiently. "What do you want Kristin? I don't have all the time in the world you know." Kristin glared at her. "Forget it you fucking snobby impatient little bitch. I had something nice to say, but forget it now." Kristin walked away feeling angry. She hoped that Alyssa would find out quickly how Karma was, or there would be trouble…. Kristin turned looking for Stephen. "Stephen? Where are you?" she asked looking around. She hoped he was maybe with Tommy.
Jude drove away form G-Major trying to calm her nerves. She decided that she wouldn't go home right away. She needed to feel some peace, and maybe some inspiration. She turned her car, and made her way to the beach. She knew a little spot where she could be alone.
She pulled up, stopping her car not to far away, pulling her guitar out with her she headed to the beach. She sat down, taking her shoes off, feeling the sand on her feet, had always made her feel kind of free inside. She looked out over the small waves, as a breeze filtered through her blonde hair. This was definitely the right place. Beautiful…she thought.
Kristin walked into the studio where saw Tommy and Stephen talking. "Oh no, I hope Tommy didn't say anything." She thought worried. Stephen looked at her concerned. "Kris?" "Yeah Tommy?" "Where's Jude?" "I don't know." She replied looking at Stephen and Tommy. "She said she needed to get out of here…" Kristin told him…
She looked at Tommy. "Yeah umn Stephen can I have a few minutes with Tommy please?" "Yeah sure Kris." She smiled walking the rest of the way into the studio. "What's up Kristin?" Tommy asked. "Umn did you tell Stephen about what happened?" she asked looking into his eyes.
Tommy looked at her. "Kris you know I would never do something like that. That is up to you to tell him when you are ready, and not up to anyone else Hun. I would never. Actually we were basically talking about men things you know…." Tommy knew her reason for concern, but he would never do something like that. Not to anyone.
Tommy turned turning on the soundboard, and began listening through Jude's song she'd recorded earlier. He knew it needed work. Although it was hard without her, he tried to analyse it, maybe come up with a few ideas for her.
"Oh, I didn't mean to offend you. I was just asking because he had that concerned look on his face." she replied. "I know I just wasn't thinking, every time I see his concerned look it just makes me scared because I'm not so sure that I'm ready to tell him just yet. "
Tommy turned his attention back to Kristin, while the song played behind them. "I understand completely Kristin. It's not something easy to just come out and say. You wait until you feel you are completely ready. If you need to talk you know I'm here, along as for Jude. You're like a little sister. Trust me, it will be ok. And when you are ready, I'm sure he will understand Hun. If he loves you he will." Tommy finished.
"Yeah, thanks Tommy. I really appreciate it." she nodded walking over to hug him. Little did they know Karma was outside watching them. Tommy kissed the top of her head and she smiled. "Thanks again." Karma watched this and was already scheming on how to break Jude and Kristin up in a sense. Karma moved swiftly away before Kristin walked out… 'Just wait Jude, I always win' she mouthed before walking away quietly.
Jude closed her eyes inhaling the sweet sent of the breeze around her. She felt a sense of calm as she began strumming at her guitar finding chords in her that just wouldn't come out earlier that day. She loved being able to do this. To have the sense of Serenity about her, that things just began to flow with her, and out through her fingertips, and vocals. For a moment she let herself forget about everything that troubled her, and let herself get immersed by the natural sounding music, filling her ears….She felt, more free than she had felt in a very long time.
Tommy tried calling Jude several time throughout the remainder of the day. There was no answer. He began to get worried. When the time had come to leave the studio, He all but ran out the door, Kristin in his wake. They drove to the Harrison home, only to find that Jude wasn't and hadn't been home either.
Hmm" she said looking at Tommy and Stephen. "Should we check the practice space?" Kristin asked looking at Tommy. Tommy nodded, and they flew back into the car as quickly as possible, driving away.
Once there, they filed into the practice space, all of them looking around and calling out for Jude. After about 20 minutes of looking they decided she wasn't there either.
"Hmmm where else could she be?" Kristin asked hoping Tommy would know. "Any special or secret spots?" Tommy tried to think. The only ones that had were places they have already looked. The back of the practice space and all…Maybe she had a few spots of her own, no one knew about.
She looked at him. "God I hope she's okay." she replied looking at Tommy. "Me too. Me too." Tommy said quietly.
Jude looked up as the sun began to settle further down into the sky. She hadn't known how long she'd actually been there. She just felt so much at peace she wasn't up to leaving. She slipped her shoes back on her feet, grabbing up her guitar she headed back to her car. Tommy would probably be worried by now. She started her car looking at the time. "Oh My Goodness! Tommy is going to kill me she thought as she drove away. She tried to hurry back to her house, being caught up every now and then, in the day end traffic. When she finally pulled up in front of her house there wasn't a car in sight. "That's weird" she thought, as she climbed out of her car and made her way inside.
Sadie was most likely with Kwest. "Tommy, Kris?" She called, but no one answered. She shrugged and made her way up the stairs, to take a shower.
Outside The practice place, Kristin saw karma walking up to them after she parked her car. She saw karma talking to them "If you're looking for Jude, try the bar. I saw her drinking it up with some hot stud. 6'5 blue eyes brown hair. I must say she looked rather flirty with him." She said with a smirk on her face. "Yeah right." Tommy said looking at karma. "I know her better then that." "Well if you don't believe me suit yourself." Karma said as she walked away…
'What is she wasn't lieing?' Tommy thought to himself. "What would Jude be doing at the bar, they couldn't find her anywhere, maybe she wasn't lieing…
Jude walked down the stairs scrubbing her damp hair with a towel, just as the front door opened, Tommy, Kristin, and Stephen filing in. She stopped, from the looks on their face something was wrong. She hoped they weren't upset with her for needing the time she took alone….
Kristin pushed Stephen and Tommy out of her way and rushed up to her cousin and wrapped her arms around her. "Jude..." she said as she kept her arms around her cousin. "Are you okay?" She asked concerned pulling her arms away from her cousin. "Where did you go?" She looked back at Tommy and Stephen who were looking at the two girls.
"Kris I'm fine yes. Umm, I'm sorry. I just needed to be alone for a while." She replied, hugging Kristin back, while looking at Tommy. There was a look in his eyes she didn't recognize. She pulled away from Kristin gently and moved towards Tommy.
"What's wrong Tommy?" She whispered, once directly in front of him.
"Jude…Where were you?" His voice sounded distant. "Tommy I just said I just needed to be alone. I went somewhere where I could be alone, what is the big deal?" Jude looked away. What was he thinking? She began to feel angry, not sure why, maybe it was the tension in the room that could be sliced with a flipping knife…
"What? So now I can't be alone somewhere when I feel the flipping need?!" She fumed. "I came home, no one was here, so I got in the damn shower, I don't see what the fucking big deal is…" She trailed off.
"Yes, Jude you can but -uh -" He started to get very frustrated then looked at her before walking away into the other room in silence ."What if something happened to her?" he thought and started to beat him self up for not being with her. He understood needing time to be alone but after everything that had happened he worried about her. 'She wouldn't say where she had been either. What if she was at the bar where Karma had said she'd seen her hitting it up with some guy, and drinking? Why would she shower the moment she got home? To get the smell of alcohol off her breath, she did smell mint. Was she drunk? If that why she is so angry now? Tommy began to feel his own anger rise, as Jude followed him. She wasn't letting this go.
"But what Quincy? Now I need a babysitter? What do you think I was fucking doing? What now you can't trust me! Dammit Tommy I don't need this right now." Jude walked angrily from the room, she pulled her runners on her feet, grabbing her Bunny hug, purse and keys, she rushed out the front door once again. She couldn't do this. She couldn't deal with anger right now. All she had wanted to do was clear her damn head, and now all the sudden she was being treated like a damn child.
Jude jumped into the driver's seat of her car; she wasn't exactly sure what had made her so angry. She hated fighting with Tommy. Maybe it was just everything combined; maybe they needed a night apart. She wasn't sure, same as she wasn't sure why she had seen such anger in his eyes. What had she done to make him feel that way? She turned the key, letting a tear slide down her face, and drove off. Not thinking.
Tommy looked at Kristin who looked shocked. "Do you think Karma is right? She did act awful angry. Maybe she has been drinking…"
"Tommy if she has been drinking we just let her take off in her damn car!" Kristin exclaimed, jumping to find her keys. Men are so stupid sometimes she thought to herself as she rushed out the door. She needed to find Jude.
Kristin left Tommy and Stephen to their own devices as she drove off to find her cousin. Kristin continued to drive around looking for her cousin and grabbed her cell phone dialling the number. "Jude, pick up...come on pick up, pick up, pick up." She said listening to the phone ringing. "Please answer Jude." she said to herself anxiously awaiting her cousin to pick up her cell phone. Meanwhile the boys sat back at the house trying to figure out where Jude had went. Tommy sat there fiddling with something because he was so mad at himself. He caused the argument that caused Jude to storm out of there so angrily. "You're so dumb Quincy." He thought to himself. "This is your fault if anything happens to her."
Jude looked at her phone, hearing it ring, she kept an eye on the road in front of her, seeing that it was Kristin, she pressed speakerphone. "Hello?" She answered. "Jude...where are you?" she asked concerned. Kristin spotted Jude's car soon after driving for a while. "Jude...you're drunk...pull over please." She exclaimed but tried to calm herself down because she was worried that Jude was going to crash into another car. "Pull over Jude. Please do it. We don't have to go home but let me drive you."
"What!" Jude exclaimed loud and clearly. "Kristin do I sound fucking drunk to you? Where to hell did you get that idea?!" I am not flipping drunk!" Jude said into the phone. She pulled her car over. "Fine, I'm pulling over, you can make me walk the damn line, or if you want, you can take me to the police department and we can ask for a breathalyser, only to be laughed at," Jude was angry. Why would Kristin even think she would do such a thing? What did everyone have it out for her today?"
Jude shut her car off and got out. She paced the ground beside it, waiting for Kristin to pull up.
Kristin followed suit and pulled her car over behind Jude's. She turned it off after setting it in park. She got out of her car and looked at her cousin. "Jude, relax. I'm only saying something because I'm worried about you. " She continued looking at Jude waiting for her reply. "Well...Karma said something about you going to the bar and getting snockered, while flirting it up, with some guy." She replied in a concerned tone trying not to piss off Jude anymore than she already was.
"What?!! Kristin why would you even begin to believe a word that comes from Karma's mouth?! I was at the beach, You remember the little nook we used to go to as kids to be alone…I went there. I finished my song, that's all I flipping did. I can't believe you guys would even listen to her!" Jude Looked at Kristin, this was the first time she felt anger towards her since they fought over toys as kids…Jude looked down. She did kind of just disappear…
"Yeah Jude... I do but with all that's been going on I don't know you seem distant from everyone. " she looked at Jude placing her hands on her hips for a moment the biting one of her nails. "I'm sorry Jude; I should've never believed her." Kristin felt like an idiot. She looked at Jude hoping her cousin would forgive her. She was so fed up with karma she wanted to beat the crap out of her. She swore if karma ever did anything more she'd kill her but didn't say that to Jude.
"I'm not trying to be distant. I got upset today. I just needed some time to myself was all. I mean honestly do I look drunken Kris? Jude said, standing directly in front of her. Lowering her voice, "Look we can't stand here arguing, the last thing I need is the media…" Jude trailed off.
"Yeah, I agree we can't and I don't want to fight. I hate it when we fight Jude. And no you don't look drunk." She replied sighing again she felt like a complete idiot. "Want to go back to the beach? And maybe talk." She asked looking at Jude.
Jude nodded. "Yeah, but first I'm starving, going to stop and grab something to eat, you hungry?" Jude calmed herself. She couldn't blame Kristin for being worried, and Karma was a scheming little bitch…
"Yeah, I am actually." She smiled looking at her cousin. "Where can we go to eat?" she asked looking at Jude as she grabbed her keys from her pants pocket. "Taco Bell?" Jude said looking at Kristin, then burst out laughing… "Wow what a day. Why don't you park you car at the Practice Space" Jude said pointing. They were right across from it. "We can go in my car, and come back and get yours later."
"Okay." Kristin walked back to her car and got inside of it and put the keys in and started it driving into the parking lot, putting it in park, then turning it off then walked towards Jude again pressing the lock button so her car couldn't be touched. She crossed the street and walked to the passenger side waiting for Jude to unlock it. Jude climbed in, unlocking the passenger door for Kristin. Kristin got in, they both buckled up as Jude drove off.
They drove up through the drive through of Taco Bell, and ordered their food. Then took off back to the beach. Jude parked her car in the same spot it had been earlier that day. They climbed out bringing their food with them, and walked to their special little nook, they have kept for a secret since children.
Jude sat down, looking out at the sunset. "It's beautiful." Jude said. "Do you ever miss those days Kris? The days when we felt like we could rule the world sometimes? At least between home and here…" She trailed off.
"Yeah Jude, I do miss those days. When life was simple when it wasn't hard and things weren't so complicated." She looked at her. "But you know if life were simple then it'd be boring. Right?" "True," Jude responded softly, throwing a small rock into the water in front of them, she turned to the bag of food they'd set between them and opened it. She handed some to Kristin before opening her own, and beginning to eat. She watched the sun before her. It looked as if it was actually touching the water. She'd always felt peace here, a sense of oneness with herself and nature…
Kristin took hers and ate some of her cinnamon twists. "I love these things almost as much as the Cinnimelt and monkey bread." she giggled a little bit. "Remember the first time you had those things?" She laughed because had gotten her cousin addicted to at least a Cinnimelt.
Jude giggled, "Yeah I do. I love those things…" "Kris I guess sometimes I feel just so caught up in things, that I feel like my feet refused to even touch solid ground. Everything turned into such a mess. I always thought it would be easy as It was when we were little. I guess not everything is what it seems…."
"Yeah, I know what you mean, everything including love. I remember watching movies and thinking love was just like it was in the films. It's so hard sometimes. "She said softly looking at Jude and smiling. "I think when mom made that monkey bread you totally ate most of it because that's how much you loved it." She giggled herself. Jude laughed. "Yeah, I had such a stomach ache after. I'll never do that again."
"So Kris, I take It Tommy thinks that I'm drunk also? Is that why he was so angry?" She asked pulling her eyes away from the beauty in front of her to look at her cousin….
"Yeah, I believe so." She replied looking at Jude. "Yeah well I miss my mom and my brother." She said looking at the street as she ate her food. "Yeah that was pretty random sorry."
"No worries, Random is good sometimes…This is just great, this should be fun," Jude said sarcastically, standing up. She dusted her cloths off. "I miss my mom too. I guess we just can't choose someone else's destiny in life, no matter how much we want to." Jude said walking towards the edge of the water. "Maybe we should head back Kris, so I can at least try to explain to him. I really can't be fighting with him, it hurts too much…"
Jude and Kristin pulled up in front of their house, finding that Tommy's vehicle was still there, Jude rushed from her car. She needed to talk to him, and now before anymore thoughts had chance to cross his mind. She opened the front door hastily, revealing Tommy who was just getting ready to leave. Blocking the doorway, she let herself catch her breath.
"Tommy…." She breathed. "I'm sorry. I just needed to be alone. I didn't mean to worry you, and I'm sorry. I promise you I am not drunk, just ask Kristin, honestly. Please don't listen to her. She is trying to ruin me I swear."
"Jude, Jude calm down. I'm sorry girl. I don't know why I even gave it a thought. You were just acting weird. I didn't think girl. I'm sorry. I know you have been through a lot lately. I just wasn't thinking." Tommy pulled Jude into his arms kissing the top of her head.
Jude let a few stray tears fall down her cheeks, as she held tightly to him. "I hate fighting with you Tommy. I love you too much….I'm sorry" Jude said, sniffing some.
"Shhh girl it's okay, I promise. I jumped to conclusions you have no reason to be sorry," Tommy said pushing her away enough to capture her lips in a soft kiss, before leading the rest of the way into the house.
"I have something to show you…" Jude said softly before pulling out her Guitar and sitting next to Kristin on the chesterfield. She looked at Tommy silently waiting until he sat in front of her.
"It's called Rescue Me," She told them, before she began to strum her guitar, introducing the song.
What do you do when you're scared inside?
When all of your feelings just seem to collide
Emotions just seem to let go
All of your tears always follow
All of these things that you're feeling deep down
And you realize that you're calling out loud
[Chorus
I love you,
I need you to,
Rescue me
Shine your light lead me home
Baby all I need is your love
I love you,
Please,
Rescue me
Shine your light lead me home
baby all I need is your love
Rescue me, rescue me
What do you do when the path leads nowhere?
When you need someone to be there
Now you're afraid of what's going to come
and now there's nowhere to run.
All of these things that you're feeling deep down
Then you realize that you're calling out loud
[Chorus
I love you,
I need you to,
Rescue me
Shine your light lead me home
Baby all I need is your love
I love you,
Please,
Rescue me
Shine your light lead me home
baby all I need is your love
Rescue me, rescue me
[Bridge
Oh it's love's sweet sacrifice
With you I'm Blessed beyond belief
We can get through anything as long as it's you and me
[Repeat Chorus
I love you,
I need you to,
Rescue me
Shine your light lead me home
Baby all I need is your love
I love you,
Please,
Rescue me
Shine your light lead me home
baby all I need is your love
Rescue me, rescue me
Jude finished strumming the sweet melody that matched the beauty of her voice, and raw emotion….She set her Guitar down waiting approval, as Tommy made his way to her, to show her instead of saying the words, he pulled her into his arms.
"Girl, as long as I live, I promise to love you, I promise I'll never let you go." He held her taking in a sweet, familiar sent, that he'd hadn't the chance to come to his senses in a while. She smelled like the ocean….Like the sunset breeze….He closed his eyes reveling in the feeling, as Jude silently gave her response.
Jude let herself smile, for almost the first time today, as she felt his arms wrap around her. She needed this. She held onto him, until their silent love stream was interrupted rudely.
Sadie stormed into the room. "Ummm, I don't know what's going on but what I was just seeing is not good, not at all….I think some people have some explaining to do!" Sadies eyes where hot as she set the laptop in front of them for all to see, what she'd come across….