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Kenny's P.O.V.

I walked into the little inn that was away from town. I looked around for my black haired angel and found her. I saw Wendy get up from her chair and walk over to me. I smiled and kissed her once.

"I am so glad you could make it! Did you have a hard time sneaking out?" Wendy asked.

"No, nothing can keep me away from you." I said.

I pulled Wendy closer to me and she started to giggle. I kissed her once again for a long time. Wendy pushed me away after awhile. I growled and tried to kiss her again but she pushed herself away from me.

"We have time later to do that. Right now I want you to meet my little brother. Joshua."

"Yeah, yeah. Let's get this over with so I can continue where we left off."

"Be nice! He is the only family I have left."

"I got it. You told me about hundred times now." I said rolling my eyes.

"I just want to make it clear that you know to be nice to him."

"I will, promise."

Wendy took my hand and led me over to a small table in the corner of the inn. I really did not want to meet Joshua but Wendy begged me to meet him. There is no way I can say no to her.

"Joshua, I want you to meet my future husband, Kenny."

I froze on the spot when I saw Joshua. He looked nothing like his older sister at all. He had blond hair that was messy. He wore a blue tunic with black boots. He had the bluest eyes I have ever seen.

"It is nice to meet you, Kenny. Wendy has told me so much about you." Joshua said, smiling.

My mouth felt dry and I just stared at him. He was beautiful. I have never seen anyone like him. He could pass as a girl if he wanted too.

"Kenny?" Wendy asked.

I snapped out of my daze and looked at her. All the lust I had for her before was gone. Right now I would be begging to go up stairs so I could have my way with her. Right now, I wanted to take Joshua. I wanted to be alone with him and if I got lucky he would be begging for me.

"I am fine. Never been better. It is nice to meet you too, Joshua." I said.

I walked closer to him and held out my hand to him. Joshua took my hand and we shook hands. His hands were soft and felt like Wendy's. I knew I was supposed to love Wendy but I was in love with Joshua. I had just met the kid and I was totally in love with him! As wrong as it was I didn't care at all. Joshua was the one I was looking for and I was going to have him.

I woke from my day dream. I groaned and rubbed a hand through my hair. I had been doing a good job forgetting Joshua but now Butters comes into my life and screws everything up.

"Damn it." I said, getting up from my bed.

I look at myself in the mirror. I looked like shit. I growled and tried to fix myself up which did little. I sighed and gave up on trying to look decent. I put on my new hoodie and left my room.

I wanted to see Butters but I didn't know if he wanted to see me. After the way I treated him I wouldn't be surprised if he never wanted to see my face again. I really hoped he would want to see me again.

"Shit. I am treating him like Joshua." I muttered.

"I thought you forgot about him." A voice said.

I turned around to see Cody leaning against a wall a few feet behind me. He was looking at me with a blank stare. I just looked at him.

"How can I forget about him? I can never forget what happened to him…" I said.

"What happened to Joshua was not your fault." Cody said.

"I guess… I still could have stopped it! I could have saved him if I was stronger!"

"You can't dowel on the past. You have to let go of the past. In a way you have Joshua back."'

"How? How do I have Joshua back?"

"Butters. He looks just like him. I think he acts like him too."

Now that I thought of it Butters did act like Joshua. The thought made me smile. In my head I saw my Joshua smiling at me. Then I saw Butters with the same smile on his face. I sighed and rubbed my hair looking away from Cody.

"You are right. Butters and Joshua act the same."

"Do you believe in reincarnation?" Cody asked.

"No. Not really."

"I think Butters might be Joshua reincarnated."

"That's stupid. Joshua is never coming back. Butters just seem to be a lot like Joshua but he is not Joshua."

I started to walk away from Cody before he started to speak again.

"Fine. Believe what you want to believe in but you are falling for Butters and you know it. I just want you to be careful and not get hurt again."

I walked away from Cody not wanting to hear any more. I tried to get the words he said out of my head but that was easier said than done.

I started to make my way to Butters room. I was trying to avoid the humans. They didn't know that I was staying in the castle or that this was my home and I wanted to keep it that way. I finally reached Butters room. It felt like I was walking forever but I was only walking for like five minutes.

I was just looking at the little wood door trying to work up the nerve to knock. I was debating weather or not I should just walk in or knock. After while I realized I couldn't work up the nerve to knock to I just opened the door and walked in.

That was a really bad idea on my part since when I walked in I saw Butters only in his underwear. His hair was wet telling me he just took a shower. Butters and I looked at each for awhile. Butters face was bright red and I had a faint blush in my cheeks.

"Uh…Kenny?" Butters said.

I gulped, "Y-Yes?"

"Can you close the door?"

"Oh! Um, yes!"

I felt stupid that I forgot the door was wide open. I quickly closed it and refused to look at Butters. I leaned my head against the door trying to stop blushing. I listened as Butters quickly got dressed. I didn't dare turn around and look at him.

"I-I'm done now." Butters said after awhile.

I was so happy that he was finally done. I turned around to see Butters fully dressed. Butters till had a light blush on his cheeks. I thought he looked so damn cute. Joshua use to blush like that.

Joshua. Why couldn't get him out of my head now. It seems now all I do now is think of him. It sucked. Why did Butters have to look like him? Act like him? Even talk like him?

"B-Butters… I-" I started before Butters cut in.

"I'm sorry!" Butters shouted.

"…What?"

"I shouldn't have asked about your past. I was wrong and I am sorry. Please don't hate me anymore!"

Oh…my…god. Joshua and I had a fight like this before and he said pretty much the same thing as Butters. I felt my mouth go dry and all the words escape me.

"Kenny?" Butters asked, almost sounding scared.

I gulped, "Y-Yes?"

"Do you forgive me?"

"I-I…yes I do but you didn't have to say sorry. I was in the wrong. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that. Joshua is just… a hard subject to talk about."

"I understand. I won't ask about him anymore."

"Thanks. I… think you should know that Joshua was a very important person to me."

"Ok."

"Yeah…"

I didn't know what to say now. I looked at Butters shyly and I saw Joshua standing there. He held out his arms to me and smiled at me.

"Joshua…" I whispered.

I walked closer to him and pulled him close to me. I buried my face in his hair and smelled it. It smiled like the forest that was near my home. I took Joshua's face and pulled it close to me. I leaned down and kissed him. It felt so nice to be kissing him. I have missed his lips.

I slowly pulled away and then looked down in horror. Shit. I was daydreaming about Joshua and kissed Butters.

"Shit, Butters…I… god, I'm sorry." I said backing away from him.

Butters had blush on his face and then slowly touched his lips. Fuck, I screwed up big this time. Butters is never going to forgive me now!

"Kenny, its fine… I don't know what you were thinking but it is fine."

"No it isn't. I just fucking kissed you."

"Yes but it is really fine."

I said nothing else but I looked away from Butters.

"Kenny?" Butters asked.

"What?"

"You said a name…I think it was Joshua."

I winched at his name.

"Were you and Joshua…more than friends?"

"I thought you were not going to ask about him anymore." I said, coldly.

"Right…sorry I forgot."

"It's fine. Maybe…maybe one day I can tell you about him but not right now."

"O-Ok. If there is anything I can do please tell me."

"Fine."

I started to make my way to the door but I quickly looked at Butters. I looked at for awhile before I opened the door and left him.

I leaned against the door and hand my hand over my face. I just stood there thinking how stupid I was. I really hated myself right now. God, I even hated the way I felt.

Believe what you want to believe in but you are falling for Butters and you know it

Shit. Maybe Cody is right. Maybe I am really falling for Butters. I thought I would never love anyone like I loved Joshua but now Butters has found a way in my heart. I didn't know if I was falling for because he looked and like Joshua or that I falling for the way Butters was.

I slide down the door and sat there. I just sat there trying to figure what was wrong with me and how I can make these feelings stop.

So there it is! I know it's kind of short by its better than nothing, right? Please review!