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It was 10am when Santana woke up; she didn't really get much sleep last night after everything that had occurred. How one simple night out led to all this chaos Santana didn't know. She spent the whole night lying still with Quinn in her arms; she wanted to remember the feeling of having Quinn pressed against her because she knows that it has to stop.
Santana spent the whole night coming up with ideas of how they could continue onwards and after all these hours she thinks she finally came up with a plan. She didn't want to go to this level, she really didn't, but they couldn't carry on how they were especially not after what happened last night. Everything was too far gone so they had to pull it back a little and start from where they should have in the first place.
Santana looked over to see Quinn peacefully sleeping; she thought Quinn looked beautiful when she slept. She felt she had to get one last good look at her before they stopped everything.
She got out of bed moments later, mainly because she doesn't know if she can do this with Quinn's arms around her because then the plan would not work and she would just succumb to the feelings she has for Quinn.
Santana gets changed first into a simple top and jeans and then walks over to sit on Quinn's bed to at least give them a little space in between them.
She waits patiently for Quinn to wake up, maybe it's because she knows that Quinn needs to sleep as she was pretty drunk last night or maybe it's because from the moment Quinn wakes up it will all be over and Santana has to force out those words that she really doesn't want to. She wants to put it off for as long as she can.
Quinn wakes up about 30 minutes later and for Santana that's far too soon. Santana watches her, like really watches her, she sees how Quinn's arms search for Santana on the bed which just makes Santana want to crawl back in.
"Hey" Santana says, causing Quinn to look up to see Santana sitting on her bed.
"Hey" Quinn replies, Santana notices how her voice is extra raspy this morning, most likely an effect of her drinking ways last night.
Quinn pushes the covers back and sits up to lean against the wall so that she's facing Santana and now Santana wishes she put Quinn in shorts as well last night because she has the perfect view of Quinn's legs which are just too distracting.
"How come you're all the way over there?" Quinn asks.
"I figured we could use some space between us" Santana returns and sees how Quinn's face drops at the mention of this.
"Santana, about last night. Im so sorry, I didn't mean any of it"
"Yet you still said it" Santana bitterly replies. She doesn't want to be bitter about it, but the words Quinn said keep replaying over and over again in her mind. "Look Quinn, I really don't want to talk about it"
"Santana, we have to talk about it so we can put it past us so we can get back to how we were" Quinn says.
It appears to Santana that Quinn still wants them to carry on what they were doing and a part of that gets to Santana because she too wants to carry on with Quinn. She just doesn't want to do it in the situation that they're in right now.
"That's the thing, I don't think we can go back to how we were" Santana announces and this time she sees Quinn's face drop completely, she knows that hers is probably the same too.
"What? Why?"
"Because it's not right Quinn. What are we supposed to do? Sneak around behind everyone's back forever? You have a boyfriend Quinn"
"That wasn't stopping you before"
"No but, I think given the circumstances that we're in now it has to. I think that, for now we should just be friends" Santana says.
Quinn gets off the bed and walks over to Santana to join her and sit beside her on the opposite bed. She places her hands on Santana's cheeks to get her to look at her. Santana closes her eyes at Quinn's touch.
"Santana please, you don't have to do this. We can get through this. Just forget last night even happened" Quinn pleads.
"Quinn, we can't. Last night did happen; this is what's best for us Quinn"
"No, it's not"
Santana can see the tears forming in Quinn's eyes and she hates that her words are the cause of those tears but she knows deep down that this is what is best for them. Too much has happened for them to continue like everything is normal between them.
Santana doesn't have time to think because all of a sudden Quinn leans forward to connect her lips to Santana to try and convince Santana that they're good for each other. She can't show it in her words so she tries to convey that she does in fact need Santana and what they have together does work.
Santana kisses her back, mainly because her lips act on autopilot when connected with Quinn's, like at the slightest touch she yearns for more, she needs it.
She gets lost in Quinn's kiss, which amazes her because no one has ever made Santana feel the way she does when she's with Quinn. She moans at the first touch of Quinn's tongue mixing with her own.
Santana knows she has to stop this now, because she knows that Quinn knows that she can stop any type of conversation by just one simple touch.
She breaks their kiss and hangs her head down whilst trying to regain her breath.
"You can't do that Quinn"
"Do what?" Quinn breaths out.
"You can't just kiss me and pretend like everything is okay, it doesn't work like that. I need you to listen to what im saying Quinn."
"I am listening Santana. I just don't understand what you're saying"
If she's honest, Santana doesn't even know what she is saying either, partly because she doesn't want to say it, but she has to.
"What I'm saying is that we can't be together any more, you have a boyfriend Quinn and I don't want to get in between that anymore. What we had was fun but we can't anymore. All we can be is friends right now"
"We were friends before, why does it have to change?"
"Friends don't kiss, friends don't have sex. Please Quinn, just please do this for me"
Santana can see in Quinn's eyes that she doesn't want this, but they have to do this. They can't continue sleeping together because they want to, not when they have, or well Quinn has another person in her life. Santana knows that she wasn't bothered by the whole situation before, but that was before she developed feelings for Quinn, not that she didn't have them before, they were just smaller than they were now.
"Why are you doing this?"
"Because it's the right thing to do Quinn. I don't want to sneak around behind people's backs anymore. You have a boyfriend who you're not set on leaving for me"
"How do you know I won't leave him?"
"We've been doing this thing for a while now Q and not once have you tried to break up with him. So now you don't have to, you can have your perfect relationship and who knows maybe I'll get one of those too but it won't be with someone who's in a relationship already"
Santana hopes she got her message to Quinn clearly, she wants Quinn, of course she does but she won't continue what they have while Quinn is with someone else. Last night Brittany told her that she should maybe see someone else to help distract her from Quinn and she thinks Brittany's right. She's been so focused on Quinn lately that she hasn't even given anyone else the time of day, so now she and Quinn have ended things she too can maybe get into a relationship with someone.
She and Quinn have basically acted like they were a couple since they started things, so Santana doesn't think she can and doesn't really want to go back to just sleeping around. She's grown to like the couple stuff, sharing a bed with someone, doing things together, or maybe she's just grown to like those things with Quinn.
Things could potentially be different with another person but she won't know if she doesn't try.
"So this is it? You're just ending things? Do I even get a say in this?" Quinn says, she doesn't want to stop what they have to wants to carry it on for as long as Santana will have her, but by the looks of things Santana doesn't want her anymore. Quinn can't help but feel like this was all her fault; if she didn't let her jealousy get the better of her none of this would be happening.
"This is it, but this doesn't mean that we can't be friends. We can still go out, hang out with each other we just won't take it any further than that"
Quinn sighs; she knows that she's not going to get what she wants and that tares her apart because she's fallen in deep with Santana so she doesn't know if she can bounce out of that so quickly for them to be just friends.
"Okay" she softly whispers as the tears in her eyes gather up ready to fall at any minute.
Her head hangs low as she doesn't want Santana to see her so upset; she's devastated that what they had between them is over. She never wanted this, just last night she was jealous because Santana was talking to another girl and now she's lost her completely.
This was never her plan, her plan was to go to university in New York with Puck and Rachel and they would all be living the dream because they were in a city full of possibilities. Then after this she and Puck would go on to get married and live happily together, maybe start a family. But now, her plan had changed; her plan had changed because she met someone who made her feel excitement, who made her feel like she could be anyone she wanted to be. Santana made her see that what she had with Puck was mediocre. Santana made her feel alive and now it's all so fucked up because that excitement is gone and now she has to go back to the same old dull relationship from before.
She doesn't know how she's meant to do that when Santana is so close to her but yet she's so far away and that kills her.
Santana sadly smiles at her, they both hate that it's over but it's for the best.
Quinn can see that Santana is about to stand up to leave.
"Wait San" she puts her hand on Santana's arm to stop her. Santana stops straight away and turns back towards Quinn.
"Can I have one last kiss?"
"Quinn" Santana exhales. One last kiss means she has to feel Quinn's lips on her again. How is she supposed to let go when Quinn is making it so hard for her to do so.
"Please Santana, one kiss and then we'll stop"
Santana looks into Quinn's eyes, which was probably a bad idea because once she looked into those hazel eyes she's was gone.
"Okay"
Quinn stood up of the bed so that she was face to face with Santana. She placed her hands softly on either side of Santana's face. Santana's hands found place on Quinn's waist, if she was going to have a last kiss with Quinn she was at least going to make it a good one.
She moved in so that their lips were hovering over each other's until Santana leaned that extra bit forward so that their lips were now touching. It brought fireworks to Santana's mind straight away and it made her wonder if anyone else could make her feel this way.
She outlined Quinn's bottom lip with her tongue silently asking for entrance to which Quinn granted straight away. At the first touch of their tongues mixing together with the others, they both moaned into each other's mouth.
Quinn now wrapped her arms around Santana's and Santana wrapped hers around Quinn's waist so that there was no space between their bodies.
When breathing became an issue for both of them they reluctantly let go of each other, but not too much. Their foreheads were leaning against one another's, each of them trying to catch their breaths from the heated kiss.
For Santana, it was the perfect way to say goodbye.
"So, friends?" Santana whispers.
"Friends"