I woke up the next day in the hospital. I had a IV drip by the side of my bed which was attached to my arm. I hated being in hospitals. I couldn't even remember how I got there, I looked down and saw that I was wearing those horrible hospital gowns that you are required to wear that doesn't even cover up your body properly. I looked over to the corner and found Edward sat in a chair with his head against the wall sleeping. I stared at him for a while and saw black circles under his eyes. It was obvious he didn't sleep at all so I was glad he was now. I remained silent while I caressed my stomach and made sure my baby was okay, I wasn't even sure how many months I was as I haven't had time to make a doctor's appointment. The door swung open then and revealed Dr Carlisle Cullen. Edwards father. "It's nice to see you awake Bella" he said to me. "How long have I been out?" I asked him. "Well Edward brought you in at 8 last night after you fainted and it's now 10am. So roughly 14 hours" he answered. I gasped no wonder Edward had black circles under his eyes. "Now I want to ask you what made you faint." Carlisle asked me. "Um I'm not quite sure, I've been feeling ill for a while but last night I felt really bad and I guess I just blacked out" I replied. "Is there anything you should tell me Bella?" He asked me. I shook my head as I replied. "I don't think so.." I answered. "Bella I know you pregnant" he told me in a whisper so quiet I had trouble hearing. I gasped. "How.. How do you know?" I asked him. "Well when I ran a few tests I got confused as I couldn't see it probably so I ran an ultrasound. Did you know your about 3 months pregnant?" He asked me. I again shook my head. Tears pooling in my eyes. "Does Edward know?" Carlisle asked me. "No, I only found out 2 days ago I haven't told him yet" I answered. I looked over at Edward still sleeping peaceful on the chair. "I don't think I can" I whispered to Carlisle. I looked at him, "I don't want him to know, we have just finished high school. He's going off to college I can't do this to him" "what are you saying then Bella?" I looked at him, "when the baby hits 6 months I'm going to leave him. And you're going to help me, we'll say that I am ill and that I have to go away for a couple of months in order to get better, no-one can know apart from you! They have to believe that I am ill. We'll get a place in Seattle and I will stay there till my baby is born, after a while I will come home and tell everyone the truth. But for now you have to keep this a secret! They can't know where I am going to be" I told him tears rolling down my face. He nodded. "I'll only do this if I can be your doctor and come up to Seattle every weekend to make sure you're okay and if only I am there for the birth of my grandchild." He told me "deal" I said. Edward began to stir so we shut up. "Bella" he said I turned to him and smiled, he ran up to me and gathered me into his arms as best as he could considering the wires attached to me. "I was so worried, what happened Carlisle wouldn't tell me until he had spoken to you" "I think it's best if he explains" "well Bella fainted because we found out she has a very rare illness, it only affects 1 in every 10 women and she so happens to have it. Don't worry though it isn't serious as we caught it very early on; if things get bad the worst she will have to do is go to a hospital that specialises in this. We cannot tell you where it is because the patients that are recommended there have to have no contact from any friends or family. The most she will have to be there is up to a year but we will find out in about 3 months' time if she will have to go" Carlisle said so confident I almost believed him. I looked at Edward and saw pain and grief cross his eyes. "Look at me baby" I told him. "If I have to go to this place then I want you to carry on with college. I want you to make me proud so that when I come home you'll be waiting for me. If at all during the time that we are apart you find someone else that you want to be with then it won't bother me, I don't expect you to wait for me for a year" I told him holding back the tears. "Bella what are you talking about, I love you and only you! There will never be anyone else." He told me, I just nodded and gave him a chaste kiss thinking of how I only get 3 more months to do this.

2 months and 3 weeks later.

I have about a week left until I have to leave everyone. I told them about what happened and how I have to leave them because the illness has gotten worse. I remember them crying and telling me things will all be okay! If only they knew the truth I told myself. Edward has started college and we began to slowly drift apart, I knew it was his way of coping with everything but it still hurt that I needed him. He started to stay in college late and wouldn't return home until I was asleep then he would be up early in the morning and leave before i got up. I haven't seen him properly in 3 weeks and I didn't know if I could handle it any longer. I went to his college that day to try and find him so we could talk. As I walked down the corridor I saw Edward talking to a familiar blond. It was Tanya. I started to walk towards him when I saw her kiss him. I stood their frozen as I watched it. Tears flowing down my face. I turned to walk away when I bumped into someone and fell over. "Are you okay?" He asked. "I fine" I choked out. I looked at Edward and saw him directly staring at me. "Bella I.." He started to explain. I glared at him. "Don't even think about it" I told him then stalked off. I pulled my phone out and rang Carlisle. "Hello Dr Cullen speaking" he answered, "Carlisle" I said, "Bella what's wrong" he said panicked. "I need to go now Carlisle. Have you set the apartment up?" I asked. "Yes" he replied "when do you want to go?" He continued. "Can you pick me up in an hour?" I asked. "Yeah I'll be there as soon as I can" he answered then hung up. I hurried home and packed my two suitcases with clothes, and personal things. I grabbed a few of Edwards's clothes and stuck them in my suitcase then sat down with a pen and a piece of paper as I started to write a note for Edward. 'Dear Edward. By the time you will have gotten home I would be gone. It seems like déjà vu that I am leaving you again like this but this is something I need to do. I realised that I am holding you back from doing things in your life and I don't want to do that, I am leaving with Carlisle now to go to the place. I am sorry that you won't get to say goodbye but this is easier. I love you so much that I am willing to let you go. I know you told me you wouldn't move on but maybe that what you need to do I wouldn't blame you. I will miss you but you can stay here you don't have to move out. I spoke to mom and she said you can stay. I need you to promise me one last thing that if you do move on that we can still be friends. I am leaving you your ring as I hope that you can give it to the girl that you fall in love with. I will miss you! Yours Bella.' I placed the note in an envelope and addressed it to Edward. I took the ring off my finger and slid it in the envelope too then sealed it with a kiss while I left it on his pillow. I grabbed my suitcases and went outside to put them in Carlisle's car. We didn't talk on the way to Seattle but I can see he was concerned about me. We arrived at my new apartment and took everything inside. It was already furnished and had a spare room filled with stuff for my baby. We found out I was expecting a little girl. Carlisle helped me set up my new home then left promising me he would visit that weekend. I sat down on my new sofa and started thinking about my new life here for the next year or so. I had enough money saved from my mom and Carlisle had given me a few hundred to keep myself going while I am here. I grabbed the computer and started to find online courses for college. I found an English literature one and started to fill out the application. Seeing as I couldn't go to college I figured I might as well do it from home. About an hour later I sighed and sat down on the sofa. This is going to be a long year.