He knew the only way to move past his child's death was to tell someone, and he owed Cody and Rex that much. He also wanted to hear why the believed their actions had been their only way to get him to sleep.
He wanted to trust them again, they had saved him-not that they wouldn't have, but they had gone against Anakin- Both of them telling Anakin on no uncertain terms he could go Kriff himself and they were going to save him themselves if Anakin didn't put a hurry on it.
He was eternally grateful to them for getting him when they did, otherwise...Well, he was certain that beast of a man would have raped him.
His doorbell buzzed and he allowed them into his rooms. The last time they had been here he'd attempted to kill himself, had told them he wasn't their concern.
That was about to change. "You wanted to see us General?" He sighed and motioned for them to seat themselves. "I have realized that I've been quite unfair as of late, and I wanted to apologize for my behavior. It has been unbecoming of a Jedi."
Rex and Cody shared a look. "Why are you apologizing, we should be apologizing to you. We were trying to help you and only ended up hurting you instead." Cody said it was clear this topic weighted on him.
"You asked me if I had wanted to die or if I was just harming myself. At the time I. I wanted to die." Both went pale at his words; "Because we hurt you?" Rex croaked out, pain radiating from both of them. He shook his head. "Actually it had to do with that plant creature that tried to eat me. It apparently hadn't been trying to eat me after all." They both puzzled over that for a moment.
"It turns out, it was attempting to impregnate me. It gave me a womb, and it had genetic material from someone who saved me and impregnated me with that genetic material."
That actually felt silly to say out loud. "Only you Kenobi." He snorted; "Yeah, only me. But, well. That wasn't what made me want to die, I rather stupidly decided it would be alright to go into combat...I lost that child."
Cody cursed; "When you were thrown by that blast, I wondered why you were acting so injured when it didn't seem to have really wounded you that badly."
"Wait, you said that the creature used genetic material from someone who saved you..." He nodded, seeing as both of them had pulled him out of the creature. "Oh kriff, Obi-Wan." He shook his head; "They could only narrow it down to being a clone...One of you."
That threw them and they reeled in that news. He sat back, it should have felt better to get that off his chest but he'd just thrown that all at them so quickly. First that the child died and then that one of them would have been the father of said dead child...
Cody had tears running down his face, Rex was attempting to not cry but his face had turned red and his eyes glassy. "Could we explain our actions towards you?" He nodded, he wanted to hear their reasons.
"It was because we;" Cody grabbed Rex's hand; "We care about you, I'm pretty sure we've fallen head over heels for you and when I realized you weren't getting sleep." He let out a shuttering breath; "I wanted to help you, and we planned what we would do. At first, I wanted to confront you, when I did that by myself and you...You blew me off I knew something more direct would have to do."
This wasn't good, he was a Jedi, he couldn't have attachments unless he chose his work over them every time he wouldn't be a Jedi. The council would find out and banish him, he didn't want that. He was a Jedi, there was nothing else for him.
But, he'd certainly grown fond of them. He couldn't lie about that...He'd formed a bond with these two, it saddened him because he couldn't. He was Jedi and he couldn't act on any emotions because of it. Satine had died because of him, he didn't need to be the death of these two as well.
"You know I am not allowed attachments." They nodded; "Didn't stop Anakin though did it?" Didn't mean that he was going to be like Anakin and break that rule. "If I was the reason you died, I don't think I could live with myself, honestly that kind of blow could turn me into a sith, the very thing I fight against." They nodded; "I think we're a bit late for not being attachments though, I doubt you would have told any of this to us if you didn't care for us the way we care for you."
Perhaps not, but he would always be a Jedi first. "I'll never leave the order, I'll always uphold the ways of the Jedi. That means I can never be open with any relationship I have." They nodded; "We can work with that, as long as you want us, we'll be there for you."