A/N- YAY! Update! I had a request for a female singer, and this song fit, so I was going to squeeze a song in. I'm trying to get to everyone's requests!

Go ahead and write some songfics yourself if you have an idea. Tell me when you write them! We really need more Christian stories. :)

Disclaimer: I do not own "Safe" by Britt Nicole or the 39 Clues, but I think we all knew that!

Natalie's POV

I woke a few hours later, still thinking about the same subject.

I wanted to. I wanted to badly.

But I was scared. That was the real reason. I know this sounds completely absurd, but I was scared of love.

And that reminded me of a song.

It's sad that I know songs off the top of my head. Amy told Ian of a singer that I might like, and he took my iPod, without telling me, and downloaded the songs. The singer wasn't all that bad; I just couldn't relate to her songs. This was one that I could.

I quietly grabbed my iPod out of my overnight bag and put the earphones in my ear.

You keep trying to get inside my head
While I keep trying to lose the words you said

I've tried to forget what God's telling me to do.

Can't you see I'm hanging by a thread
To my life, what I know, yeah, I'm losing control and

Oh no, my walls are gonna break
So close, it's more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love just isn't safe

To me, love isn't safe. My parents never loved me. Most love I have received has also been stripped away.

You're not safe

I'm strong enough I've always told myself
I never want or need somebody else

I really thought I could make it on my own. Especially when Isabel left.

But I've already fallen from that hill

I was so wrong about that.

So I'm dropping my guard
Here's your chance in my heart and

I need some sort of love…

Oh no, my walls are gonna break
So close, it's more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love just isn't

Everything you want, but it's everything you need

I want it, and I know I need it.

It's not always happy endings, but it's all the in-betweens

I never even thought happy endings were possible…

It's taken so long, so long to finally see
That Your love is worth the best

I have been a little stubborn of letting God come into my life, but now I see all the good in Him. His love is worth everything.

Oh no, my walls are gonna break

Oh no, my walls are gonna break
So close, it's more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love just isn't safe

Oh no, my walls are gonna break
So close, it's more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love just isn't safe

To me love isn't safe, I'm scared of it. That's coming from a Lucian!

You're not safe, and that's okay

To me, right know, He really isn't safe… But that's perfectly fine with me. I need Him.

I took my earphones out, listening to the quiet night, or really morning, right now, thinking it all over. Should I really-

My thought was cut off by a low rumbling. Wait- was that thunder?

A/N- I know its short, but I haven't updated in a while so I thought I might upload one quickly.

Prayer Request- Pray for a little girl named Cassidy Clark. She's about eight years old, and she's been fighting leukemia since she was three years old. It looks like she's going to be with the Lord soon, and she's ready to meet Him. Pray for the Clark family, please!