Janes POV
She stares up at me from the ground and I swear the world has frozen.
"I'm sorry." she whispers looking up at me
Her words startle me and I take a step back.
"Why are you sorry."
"I didn't mean for it to happen. I just...I should of been more careful."
The look on her face is completely heartbroken.
"I'm sorry..." her voice is even softer now.
I'm bewildred because what on earth is she apologising for?
Alice leans in close to my ear and whispers for only the two of us to hear.
"A similar incident happened with Jasper...and thats why Edward left."
I'm startled. She's blaming this on herself. She shouldn't be. Its all my fault.
"Isabella.." I say as I crouch down next to her "Its not your fault."
Her eyes lock on mine and I glance down.
"Its my fault." I say quietly.
Just then I feel her hand grip mine.
"Its okay."
I yank my hand away as if I've been burned.
"No its not! I almost just killed you."
"But you didn't."
"But I could of." I say more harshly than I intended.
Her hand finds mine again and her eyes stare into my own.
"You wouldn't of."
"If Alice hadn't been here, I would of. I'm a monster."
Her hand tightens around mine.
"You're not. You controlled yourself."
"Barely."
"But it was enough."
I don't answer her and I just stare at the ground.
"Why." she suddenly asks?
Her voice startles me and its an odd question.
"What?"
"Why did you leave?"
I pause for a moment and then my eyes search for Alice but she is nowhere in sight. I don't know how to answer.
"I..." I trail off
"Don't do it again." her voice breaks
"What?" I breathe out
"Please don't leave again."
She moves closer to me and I stiffen.
"I left because I thought thats what you wanted."
She looks confused,
"Why would I want you gone?"
"Because you agree with him about everything." I say bitterly "You think I'm a sadist and a monster. You think that Aro has screwed me up so much that all I am is his slave. When the truth is..." and then I stop myself because I can't say what I was going to.
"Is what?"
"Never mind." I mumble
She grips my hand even tighter
"What is it?"
"The truth is I won't leave again." I say
A small smile crosses her face.
"I don't want to go back." I say softly "I'm sorry for everything but I can't go back to being his slave."
"You don't have to. Because I don't agree with any of that stuff Edward said."
"You should." I say angrily
"Aro is a monster. You're not."
"I alomst just killed you." I say exasperated.
"But you didn't! And that counts for a lot. Jaspers just like you, unstable around blood, and he would of killed me given the chance. You gave that chance away."
"What if I ever used my gift on you?" I say in a whisper, "What then?"
She seems confused,
"You already tried."
I shake my head,
"Thats why Aro was going to kill me. I never even tried to torture you."
She just stares back at me, shock written all over her face.
I clench her hand tightly.
"I couldn't bring myself to do it. Not then and not ever. Thats why I saved you."
As soon as I say this she leans in gently and presses her lips to mine.
I can't comprehend whats going on. Isabella Swan, the beautiful, perfect human, whom I am madly in love with is kissing me. The entire world doesn't just stop, it fades completely away so that the only things left are me and her. Because in this one moment she is becoming my world. Its as if everything is gray and she is the only think left in a beautiful vibrant color. Her lips are soft and comforting and they taste sweet. A taste that is even more delicious then blood. I lean into her and kiss her gently back. I'm scared of hurting her and scared because this is my first kiss and what if I'm doing it all wrong? But her hand just grips mine and she captures my lips in her own.
When we finally pull away my eyes meet her soft brown ones and I smile slighlty.
"I think..." she trails off
"What?"
"I think that you are a much better kisser than Edward."
I laugh slightly and she smiles back at me.
"And I think that I like you." she says blushing "a lot."
I stay where I am, frozen.
"Really?"
She nods.
I can't help the huge smile that crosses my face.
She laughs,
"Your smile really is very pretty." she says "Have I told you that before?"
"I think so." I say breathlessly
Suddenly her eyes flash with worry.
"Edward..."
I pull my hand away from hers,
"What about him?" I say coldly
"He'll be able to ready your thoughts."
I smirk. I only wish he could read my thoughts right now.
"We shouldn't have done this?" she winces
"What do you mean?" I say angrily
"I'm with Edward."
It takes all I have not to break down right there.
"Do you want to be?" my voice breaks
She doesn't answer and her gaze lowers.
"...no."
And now it takes all I have not to let out a shout of joy right there.
"Then its okay that we did it."
She nods,
"I'm just...confused."
"About what?"
"All I've done is be with Edward. We were meant to be soulmates. To share forever. And then you come along and...the only person I can think of is you."
My voice softens "I'm confused too. But we can figure it out. I promise we can."
She smiles slightly
"We don't have to tell anyone anything for now." I say
She nods, agreeing
"But we will?" I ask jopefully
She smiles soflty at me
"Of course. As soon as we figure this all out, we'll tell everyone everything."
I allow my fingers to interwtine themselves with her own and I grip her hand tightly. I can only hope that everything will be figured out soon.