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CAILTYN'S POV
"Cait, where were you today?" Mitchie asked, wakening me. I opened my eyes, and realized that what I wished had never happen, actually did. There were tears soaked into my pillow. I wanted to die.
Nate and I were skipping together. We were perfect on the lake. He kissed me. I asked him if he was going to ask me out. He said nope. I ran off. I took a hot shower, and decided classes weren't important. I lay in bed to shake off what had happened. I guess I fell asleep. I hoped it was all a dream.
"Are you okay?" Mitchie asked, sitting on the edge of my bed. I shook my head, as tears were brimming my eyes. The salt stung my eyes.
"Brown told me to get you guys for the next campfire game," Olivia said, as she poked her head in the door. I moaned as the door slammed shut. Mitchie rocked me.
"Campfire game. Come on," Mitchie said, as I slowly got up. I was dressed in my comfy pajamas. I grabbed skinny jeans and a green t-shirt before stumbling into the bathroom. I felt crummy.
"What is the campfire thing today?" I asked through the paper thin walls, as I changed. I heard the front door squeak open.
"I'm not sure," Mitchie said, as I was dressed. I walked out of the bathroom, slipped my feet into flip flops, and followed Mitchie out.
"I hate my group," I muttered, as we walked along the path to the lake. It was still pretty light out, but I could see the fire flickering on the serene lake water.
"Just accept it," Mitchie said with a smile, and a wink. She didn't know about Nate. She didn't know about earlier today. I wanted to shrivel up and die. Olivia waved from where she was sitting with Tess and Nate. Just seeing Nate made my heart ache.
"See you later. Good luck," I said, giving Mitchie a hug. She walked off towards Shane, while I went towards two snobby girls, and some retarded boy.
"Hey Caitlyn," Olivia said, standing up, giving me a hug. Brown cleared his throat, and all of the random chatter stopped.
"For this campfire challenge, it isn't really a challenge. It's a way to get to know everyone better," Brown said, as Dee stepped alongside of him. I glared at Nate. I knew him all too well.
"You will all pick a verse, a few lines, the chorus of a song. You can speak it, sing it, rap it, whatever to everyone," Dee said, a smile bursting on her face. I didn't want to do this. I was usually a pretty happy person. If they made me go right now, it would be a little more than depressing.
"Take a few moments to think of a song, make up a song, that expresses who you are, or your feelings at the moment," Brown ended, as the chatter rose again. People were thinking of what to say. I shot Mitchie a sad, help-me glance. She returned it with a smile. I rolled my eyes. I would make up my own little verse.
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Jason: The flower said I wish I was a tree. The tree said I wish I could be a different kind of tree. The cat wished that it was a bee. The turtle wished that it could fly really high into the sky over rooftops, and then five deep into the sea. And, in the sea there is a fish; a fish that has a secret wish to be a big cactus with a pink flower on it. And the flower would be its offering of love to the desert. And the desert, so dry and lonely, that the creatures all appreciate the effort.
Barron: Forgive me if I seem forward, but I've never been in front of anything like you. It's the last place I thought I'd be when I woke up this morning. Is it true that you're always this breathtaking? And you're smart, and you're willing; my god, this is killing me. You're starting to see right through me, and I'm loving every minute of it. It's like I'm born again every time I breathe in. So if you're curious, my favorite color's blue, and I like to sing in the shower, and if you like I'll sing to you.
Ella: Jenny screams out, and it's no pose cause when she dances she goes and goes. Coke through the nose on an inside joke; and, I'm so excited I haven't spoke yet. And she's so pretty and she's so sure, maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her. Summer's all in bloom. It's alright, and it's nice not to be so alone. But, I hold onto your secrets in white houses. Maybe I'm a little bit over my head, I come undone at the things he says, and he's so funny in his bright red shirt.
Lola: I don't know, but I think I maybe falling for you, dropping so quickly. Maybe, I should keep this to myself waiting till I know you better. I am trying not to tell you, but I want to; scared of what you'll say. So, I'm hiding what I'm feeling. But, I'm tired of holding this inside my head.
Shane: Even when you're gone somehow you come along, just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack, and just like that you steal away the rain. And just like that, you make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed, sing like a bird, dizzy in my head, spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night. You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe, shine like gold, buzz like a bee. Just the thought of you can drive me wild. Oh, you make me smile.
Mitchie: I see you make your way through the crowd, and say hello, little did I know that you were Romeo. You were throwing pebbles, and my daddy said stay away from Juliet. I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go. And, I said: Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone. I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run. You'll be the prince, and I'll be the princess. It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Sander: Breathe in for luck. Breathe in so deep. This air is blessed, you share with me. This night is wild, so calm and dull. These hearts they race from self-control. Your legs are smooth as they graze mine. We're doing fine; we're doing nothing at all. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me; so won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry…whichever you prefer.
Peggy: I can't believe you made, me sit at home and cry like a baby; wait right by the phone every night. And, now you ask about you and I. There's no you and I. Remember what you put me through? I had to wake up and smell the break-up, fix my heart and put on my make-up. Another mess I didn't plan. And I'll bet you thought you beat me, wish you could only see I got an "I heart question mark" written on the back of my hand!
Olivia: Get to the camp in my limo; everybody's looking at me now. Like "Who's that girl that's rocking heels, she's gotta be from out of town." So hard with my girls not around me; it's definitely not a LA party cause all I see are sneakers. I guess I never got the memo. My tummy's turning and I'm feeling kinda homesick. Too much pressure and I'm nervous.
Tess: Cause I'm too cool. Yea, I'm too cool to know you. Don't take it personal. Don't get emotional. You know it's the truth. I'm too cool for you. You think you're hot, but I'm sorry, you're not exactly who you think you are. Can't tell you what you haven't got, when we walk in the room. I'm too cool for you.
I had my mind set on being last. I remember what everyone sang, yes sang, not one person said some lyrics. They all sounded beautiful, and perfect. I didn't want to sing. I couldn't sing. Though, Mitchie told me I was an amazing singer when I was passionate about what I was singing. I shouldn't be half-bad then. Everyone was looking towards me and Nate. The last two to go.
"Caitlyn," Brown decided who was going. I cleared my throat, and stood up. All eyes were on me. I glared down at Nate. I felt powerful from up here. He couldn't hurt me. I cleared my throat, focusing on the setting sun behind the trees, and the fire flickering on the water.
"I throw all of your stuff away. Then, I clear you from my head; I tear you out of my heart, and ignore all your messages. I tell everyone we are through cause I'm so much better without you. But, it's just another pretty lie cause I breakdown every time you come around," I sang, trying not to focus on how much Nate hurt me. I was not going to cry.
"Nate's turn," Dee said, as I sat in the sand, and Nate stood up. He radiated confidence. I hated him for that. Also, the way he grabbed everyone's attention. Why did I ever think someone like him could be totally into someone like me?
"I never meant to hurt you, and how I tried. Oh, how I tried. I could never give you what you deserved; another man would surely learn. I know these words, they only serve to twist the knife, but I will try to make them heard. Maybe it's better now I've gone away, maybe it's not. Oh, who can say. And through it's hard for me to say, I know you're better off this way," Nate sang, staring at me. I tried to shake off his gaze.
"Wow," I heard Olivia mutter. I got a bit enraged with Nate's stupid song. I stood up.
"So how did you get here under my skin, swore that I'd never let you back in. Should've known better than trying to let you go cause here we go, go, go again. Hard as I try I know I can't quite; something about you is so addictive. We're falling apart. You think that by know I know cause here we go, go, go again," I sang, letting all emotion go. Everyone was awkwardly gawking at Nate and I. He dropped his glance to the ground, as I forced back tears.
"And when I told her I didn't love her anymore, she cried. And when I told her, her kisses were not like before, she cried. And when I told her another girl caught my eye, she cried. And I kissed her, with a kiss that could only mean goodbye. And thought it's hard for me to say, maybe you're better off this way," Nate sang, as his words echoed in my head. Love. Kisses. Another girl. Goodbye. Cried.
"Hey boy, I would have thought that when you left me, I'd be broken with my confidence gone, so gone. Hey boy, I would have thought that when you said you don't want me anymore, I'd feel ugly, and sense something was wrong. Standing in front of the mirror, my skins never been clearer, my smiles never been brighter. I look so good without you. Done with your lies, baby, now my tears dry. You can see my brown eyes ever since you said goodbye. I look so good without you. I look so good," I sang. With that said, I ran off towards my cabin, my vision blurred my tears. They were coming on hard. At least I held them off till I was done.
I ran all the way past my cabin, all the way to where the dock to the lake was. The moon was shining so bright, so surreal. It was sort of soothing to my shaking shoulders. I ran to the end of the dock, and then I didn't know where to go. I paced up and down the dock a few times before I heard someone heavily breathing. I was ready to dash off. I didn't want anyone to see me crying like this. My eyes were probably red and puffy. I knew I had some makeup running down my face. I could barely breathe.
"Caitlyn?" A male voice asked. He was taking deep breaths, obviously a little winded from racing after me. The voice was too deep to be Nate's. I took comfort in that fact. I closed my eyes, tears still seeping out, and tried to stop all thoughts. I tried to remember how to breathe.
The guy was walking on the dock. I heard his careful footsteps coming closer and closer. I listen to his rhythmic breaths, taking in huge gulps of air. I didn't let myself open my eyes. I didn't let myself think. I didn't let Nate into my mind. I tried to keep my composure. Arms engulfed me in a hug. He was taller. I just stood there, and let him hug me. I put my head into his chest. A hand smoothed my hair.
"It'll be okay," He said, as I listened to his heart beat. I allowed myself to open my eyes. It just felt comforting. I wrapped my arms around his waist.
The owl who-ing, the moonlight shimmering on the lake, the water lapping on the dock stilts, his heartbeat, my back being rubbed, the crickets making their noise. All of it seemed to soothe me. The tears slowly stopped cascading down my face. It seemed like we were embracing for hours. I didn't want to let go. I felt safe here. Nothing could hurt me.
"Are you okay now Caitlyn?" He asked, letting go of me. I felt cold without his body pressed to mine. He took a step back. In the moonlight, I realized it was Jason. The clueless dude was surprisingly comforting and protecting.
"Better than I was," I softly said, kicking the dock with my converse.
"Brown told me to make sure you were okay. And, he wanted me to tell you that you are a really gifted lyricist," Jason said, as I stumbled into him. I wanted to feel safe. I shivered. He held me.
"Thanks," I said, "You're like the big brother I never had."
"I'll tell Brown. And, thank you. I just want to make people happy," Jason said, and I could almost see his ridiculous smile, "Well, I have to get you back to your cabin, lil sis. Mitchie seemed very concerned."
"Okay," I said, frowning upon the thought of going back, "Let's go big bro."
"That's the Caitlyn people should know," Jason said, referring to my smile. We walked off the dock and onto the sand.
"I know," I said, laughing as we walked onto the path that led straight to my cabin.
"Since I am your official new big brother, you can come to me anytime, with any problem. I can just listen, if you'd like," Jason said, a meek smile on his face.
"Thanks. Can you just hold me, and we don't say a word?" I softly asked. I didn't want to seem into him. I was far from it. He just made me feel protected.
"Like just before?" Jason stupidly asked. I fought back a smile.
"Yes," I said, before I rapidly added, "You make me feel safe."
"Then of course," Jason said, as we reached the bottom of the steps to my cabin. Jason gave me a short hug.
"Thank you so much brother," I sincerely said. If it weren't for him following me, I would probably be somewhere among the trees crying my eyes out.
"Anytime little sister," Jason said, as I started to climb up the steps, and he walked off into the dense forest.
All of the lyrics used in this chapter, aren't mine. If you'd like to know what lyric is from what song, just leave it in a review or PM. I'll be sure to get around to telling you. I'm sure just Google-ing it would work too. Whichever floats your boat.
I know this chapter isn't that great, but I really wanted Jason / Caitlyn to have a brother-sister relationship. Leave your input with what you thought about this chapter. Please and thank you.