Well, here's the next chapter… just like the last one, didn't really plan out, just typed it up. Hope it isn't too terrible… bear with me on the fact that I'm trying my best to chose where to go with this all.
Disclaimer: don't one glee, never will… unless some type of fake miracle ends up that way. Or maybe the end of the world ;D
Santana soon made herself comfortable in Kurt's hold. She had one arm around him, and her other hand was by her face lying on his chest. The area was silent, but the feelings were the same.
Kurt had both his arms wrapped around her shoulders and connected behind her. His fingers locked into each other, and his thumb would rub against the side of her arm every now and then. It also helped him take his mind off the sound of his heart racing.
He knew, after reading that note, Santana was upset about something… he wasn't sure what about, but it just really upset him. To know that she was frustrated and hurt… the thought upset Kurt more than anything. So even though what he was doing probably made no sense to Santana, he didn't care. What he never knew is how Santana felt and thought during this time.
Santana stayed in his hold with her eyes closed and listened to his heart beat. Right away, she started to feel her heart beat at the same pace, and she started to calm down.
After being pulled into Kurt's arms, everything seemed so much better to Santana. At first, whenever she saw Kurt, things were different; her heart would race up to the point where she felt she couldn't breathe, and her body would just lose control and start to shake.
Once Kurt was there with her, as close as he is now, her heart beat would clam down, and she felt like all troubles were gone. What upset her was, part of her knew… once this moment was over, she wont have another feeling like this. That thought was enough, it was time for her to do something.
Santana lifted her head off Kurt's chest to look at him face to face. Kurt looked down at her after feeling her lift her head. His expression was slightly confused. Santana ignored all the many thoughts that were running through her head, along with the look Kurt gave her.
She leaned her face close to his and placed her lips onto his in a soft, quick kiss. The kiss was feather light, and too quick for Kurt to react to. Santana pulled away as soon as her senses came in and got off of him as quick as she could.
"I'm sorry," she started to ramble as she tried to get all her stuff together, "I shouldn't have done that, I had no right and I understand that you may not want me around right now. You shouldn't be able to forgive me if I stay, so I'm just gonna go… that was so wrong of me to do! I'm so sorry…" she just started saying over and over… lines around those words.
Kurt sat up and watched her practically have a panic attack while grabbing her things. He was still in shock; there was no way that just happened.
"I even understand if you decided that you hated me…I mean you were so close, and so clam and things just felt so right, and then I had to take advantage of that."
"Wait, what are you talking about?" Kurt asked with the confused look still on his face. It was hard to believe she did something like that, but it wasn't bad or anything… at least not to him.
"Kurt, I'm so sorry, I know that it would never work out between us…," Santana looked at him with a sad look, "just… please don't think of me less like you did that one night… it would kill me."
That was the last thing she said and she hurried to the door. It was just too much right now; she was upset about how she actually ignored all those feelings and thoughts that were screaming at her, and reacted on what she thought was right for the time. It was stupid of her… and right now was not a good time to be rejected.
"Wait, you think that I would hate you?" with that sentence, Santana stopped before the door to exit. Did she really hear what she thought she just heard?
"I wouldn't do that…," Kurt started again, "you're too nice of a person, and really, that wasn't exactly something to be so sorry about. Don't worry about it," his voice started to become louder as he walked closer to her.
"Kurt…," she started and turned to face him. "It was wrong of me… and I'm sorry because, I know that nothing like this is going to work out…" Santana looked down and Kurt knew what she was going to say next. "Because…"
"Because I'm gay," he finished for her. Santana closed her eyes to keep the tears she felt that were building. Kurt sighed with a smile that she couldn't see, and walked over to her placing his hands on her shoulders. "That's another thing you don't know about me," was all he said.
Before Santana could say anything, she just gave a confused look that turned to shock when she saw that Kurt was leaning closer to her. He kissed her quickly, but firmly, a lot more of kiss than what they shared before. At that moment, Santana could have sworn her heart skipped a beat.
Okay, there you have it. I'm not sure if this means that they're together or not… it could be though. Just got to wait till the next chapter… well… once I figure it out. I hope it wasn't so bad, and please don't flame at me? Reviews would be nice, along with any suggestions! I really do need some help with this ^^"
