Most of Sunday I was organizing my clothes to go to Amsterdam. Missing two weeks but I was too impatient. It was summer but I also needed a jacket in case I encountered a cold day. What weather would have there? My jacket was a disaster ,was missing a button and I had it for five years. Could borrow money for a new to mom, but I decided to take my savings. With what little money I had left after buying the ticket to Amsterdam I wanted to buy a new guitar, but I would have to wait a little longer. I took the money I had in my purse and I headed for the center, I should hurry before the store closing.

I went to Mrs. Eleanor's store where had the most fashionable clothes, knowing that my economy was so bad.

Upon entering I headed straight to the sign of 'offer'. There were a few cute jackets but had some worthy of a bum too. I stared at them for a while.

Should I spend my budget? While I was immersed in my thoughts I heard someone talking behind me :

- It seems that these prices are not for the working class, ah?

At the turn around I saw Cynthia, impeccable as always and wearing a navy blue and white set.

GINA: It seems not … Are you going to buy one?

CYN: Yes, Is said that Germany is so cold and I must go prepared

GINA: oh … you will see John , I guess

CYN: yes - said with a smirk of love - I have really wanted to see him …. And I guess that he also want to see me

I also missed him …

GINA: George told me he's having a great time

CYN: I know, but I have something that only me can give it to him - said with a wink.

Just her? Holy innocence ….

GINA: So, John will be very happy - I laughed falsely , burning inside with envious

CYN: Well, you want me to help you choose a coat?

I felt uncomfortable looking for clothes precisely with John's girlfriend, but I knew that if she could help me, would be better.

GINA: Yes, please.

We spent quite a while, none of the coats seemed appropriate until Cyn Showed me a perfect red coat . - this - I said.

CYN: Well Gina, I must go now, I left a letter from John at home waiting to be read.

Would he have written to me too?

GINA: Ok, see you Cynthia, thanks.

Cyn: Bye!

I paid the coat and I hurried home to go directly to the mailbox.

Quickly , I opened it but it was empty. I went to the dining room to see if mom had picked up the mail and dropped on the table as usual, but I only found some paper and a pen. Disappointed I went to my room to hang my coat when I saw two envelopes perfectly placed on my bed. My heart skipped a leap.

Mom left them there.

I closed the door and grabbed the envelopes throwing on the bed to read quietly and without interruptions.

I was anxious to read John's letter first.

"Fucking Dear , Ms. Butter,

I wasn't expecting a letter from you at all, but I must admit that I liked.

I don't understand your false statement about my supposed obsession with blondes, if I remember well I liked some brown hair girls, isn't it?

I also miss bother you from time to time … And I'm sure we have MANY things to talk about, and I can't wait to do it.

We are all okey,

I take your kiss and I send you another, hope to give it to you in person.

John "

If Bee had seen my face when I read "hope to give it to you in person" would make one of her typical comments to make me look ridiculous, but … he had taken the trouble to write me and that was a lot for me. I was brimming with a feeling of wellbeing but then a little worried about the game we were playing, me and John , was it right?

Cynthia was looking forward to see him, while he was saying me things like that …

I kept John's letter under the pillow and taked the other. There was no name on the envelope, only Sweet silver Beetle.

"Hi Gina,

We are enjoying Hamburg a lot, although I must admit that sometimes we are so tired that we can only be thrown on the bed.

Stu is starting to leave the band a part for their summer affair with Astrid, I don't give them more than 5 months.

Don't worry for Pete, he's talking all day about Jules, indeed, I think that one of these days I'll put a bottle in his mouth to quiet him.

I hope that Liverpool is like as we left .

Give my love to the girls and enjoy your trip to Amsterdam , you see? I remember it.

Kisses,

George "

I was really happy for Stu and Astrid, he deserves the best and maybe deep down I feel guilty for using him to make John jealous, which didn't work …

There were only 2 letters. That meant that Paul hadn't written to me … but why? I thought we solved the misunderstandings at The Cavern after he gave me the note, "I miss you too."

I preferred to believe that his letter had been lost on the trip or anything else that the fact that how much I missed him and that he didn't respond.

Jules was thrilled to see Pete, she looked so happy and inspired me some tenderness and jealousy at the same time. All the girls were paired and I was caught between a nasty and tempting teddy boy and a sweet and (now) somber guitarist . Good picture …

It was two days to go to Hamburg . Jules and I were alone because Bee was on holiday in Scotland. We went to the field near the suburbs to watch the training school of the mounted police. As there was a fenced enclosure, we climbed a tree to see better. We used to go there because it was a nice place and we were able to have good views of young scousers.

JULES: What good day ah?

GINA: Yeah

JULES: I'm nervous about going to Germany … first of all, because I've never traveled alone, and … I have a fear of meeting Pete different from the guy who left Liverpool last month.

GINA: Don't worry, George says he doesn't stop talking about you all day …

JULES: Oh, he said that? seriously ?

GINA: Yes!

JULES: Oh … that's reassuring. You see, before he left … Pete asked me to go to Yew Tree to show me the house he had inherited from his uncle.

He said he wanted to make love to me before he left but … oh Gina, you know what I mean … if I refused and he still wanted to be with me It would mean that he really mattered.

GINA: Aha, and … did you do it?

JULES: No, I refused. Was I wrong?

GINA: Of course not!

JULES: I want to check if he really want to be with me or if is just a temporary romance, if he loves me he'll wait for his return to Liverpool or … in two days.

How clever and romantic was Jules at the same time .

From time to time, the sunny day turned gray, it started to rain and we went to our respective homes under the rain. I carried a small bag on my head that even saved me from getting wet from top to bottom.

I went home, leaving a trace of water in the hall and went to the bathroom. I took off my clothes and put on my pijama although being very early, our house smelled of Edge Hill, I would miss the smell during the summer after my departure.

I put the record player, sounded "No milk today" ( watch?v=LesWfbkJJlQ) and sat on the desk, tired and a bit chilly because of my wet hair ready to answer the letters of the boys, well, only to John and George … I felt sad when I remembered that Paul hadn't replied me .

I took my chair back, thinking where to start. Then I thought about what Jules had told on Pete, her intentions and what she planned to do. "if he loves me he'll wait for me"

That made me think. John had confessed that he liked me and even rejecting him, our fights, having a girlfriend and my story with Paul… he was still there, dangerously interested in me.

Really?, Was he interested in me? . That idea terrified me and I liked it. But I had to find out it ,I wanted to know if John actually played with me or he really had feelings for me.

Feelings …

** phone call **

JULES: Hello?

GINA: Hi Jules, hey, at what time are you leaving to Hamburg?

JULES: At 5 am on Friday. What about you?

GINA: At 5 am on Friday.

JULES: Don't you were leaving on Monday?

GINA: No, I'm going to Hamburg with you.