Mount Justice
October 23, 17:21 EDT

Words couldn't even describe how much emotions were running rapidly inside of me. Ever since the training exercise I have been having these nightmares of my just letting everyone die and it every time they would tell what a horrible team member and how they should have left me at Cadmus. I couldn't blame them, even though it was just a training exercise I didn't do anything to help them. The only thing I did was get in the way and die.

I jumped when I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see Kaldar who nodded to me wondering if I was alright. I gave him a small smile hoping he would think that I was alright. Of course he saw right through me and sat down beside me and I did the only thing I could think of. I had wanted to cry from the time I woke up from that nightmare but no tears would fall and now that they were I knew they weren't stopping anytime soon. He held me for a long time until Canary called him inside of the room. As soon as he got up Robin took his place and sighed. I looked up at him and he took my hand giving it a small squeeze.

"Is this how it feels to be a hero, because if it is I can't do this? I just don't have the heart to risk any of your lives because I don't want to do that to any of you. I may not have known the other that long but I care about them, I care about you and I don't know what I would do if anything happened to you guys." I said as a couple more tears fell from my eyes.

"Unfortunately sometimes the situation will call for us having to do desperate things but when it comes to the Team we would never risk our member's lives no matter what it calls for. What I did was something no one should have do, at first I thought everyone was being Zetaed but when I got into the mother ship everything when downhill from there. I ended up sending everyone to their deaths even you and it hurt so much." He said wiping away the tears the where falling from my face.

Kaldar walked out and Robin helped me up and walked me to the room. He let me go and I took a seat in front of Canary. I knew talking would help me but I just couldn't bring myself to say anything.

"If you're not ready to talk we can talk later." Her voice was so soothing I almost mistaken her for my mother, until I looked up at her. "I really don't know what to say, I myself don't even know what I'm feeling besides pain. I had so many opportunities to help everyone but all I did was chicken out, I should have been the first person to go, maybe all of this would have gone a different way because no one really knows me that well and it wouldn't have affected them. When everyone started dying it was like I was being ripped apart inside, I mean I know I haven't know the Team for that long but there are like family and I can't imagine a world without them." I finally took a breath and looked down at my feet.

"Nina you that's not true everyone here care so much about you, if they didn't you think they would have risk their lives trying to get you back from Cadmus. I know that being the new member the tension is high and you're afraid that you're going to invade on everyone but you're a part of the Team now. You've been so used to not letting your feelings but it's alright no one here is going to judge you." She said putting her hand on my knee.

I looked up at her gave her a genuine smile and jumped out of my chair giving her a hug. She hugged me back and I felt the tears running down my face again. Man I never realized how much of a cry baby I was until now. Back with my father I felt like I couldn't have any emotions but here it completely different and I like it. I love being able to express myself ever if I shed a tear here and there or if it made me wear the biggest smile or saddest frown, I didn't have to pretend to be something I'm not. All I had to do was just be me.

Mount Justice
October 27 15:43 EDT

"Nina have you ever thought of wearing your hair down or trying to put some curls it or something?" M'gann said playing with my hair. I shrugged and continued to work on my stupid science project as much as I loved science it was a pain in my neck. "I think you should, I think Robin would love to see you with a new hair style." I tensed and looked over at her then turned back around and began working again.

Recognized Zatanna Zatara A03
Recognized Robin B01

"Hey Robin how are you?" I turned around raising one eyebrow and watch this girl I have never seen before. I'm going to have to keep my eye on her because she might cause me some problems in the future.

"I'm whelmed what about?" She laughed and I mocked her and continued to work on my science project until I felt someone playing with my hair and I knew it was Robin. "Science project looks kind of confusing, what's it about?" He asked leaning in closer to the holographic computer and my diagram. "You're smart I'm sure you can figure it out." I said getting up grabbing a pair of scissors and began to cut and paste labels all over the molecular DNA model.

"Oh, Nina this is Zatanna she's a magician." I just LOVED the way he said her name, made it sound like she was some sort of goddess. I hope you all are catching the hit in my voice when I said loved.

"Hi, it's nice to meet you, if you don't mind I have to finish this but when I finish we can have the ice breaker conversation and get to know each other more." I said giving her a smile and getting back to work. "That's cool I was going to kidnap Robin for the day anyway." She said grabbing him. She waved and they Zetaed out of the Cave. WTF just happened. I looked over at M'gann who raised her eyebrows and held up a brush and a basket filled with hair products and what looked like makeup.

"Ok, I will let you do my hair but there is no way in heaven, earth, or hell you are putting makeup on this face." I said pushing the basket away from me. "Please Nina with giant cherries on top." She said pushing her bottom lip out. I made the biggest mistake of looking at her because when I did I immediately fell for her large eyes and pouting face. "Fine just let me print out my report and you can get to the making over." I said putting my DNA model in my room along with the 10 page report.

Recognized Kid Flash B03

"How are the world's most beautiful girls doing?" Wally said walking up to the both of us. M'gann started to laugh and I patted his head and he grinned from eye to eye. "Wally we're going to have a conversation that I know you don't want to hear about so leave the room or you will regret it." I said pointing to the door.

He frowned and understood what I was saying immediately. "Well later." He ran off and M'gann began to fluff, yank and murder my hair until she got it how she wanted it to look.

Manhattan
October 23 16:29 EST

"So when did you guys decide to let Nina join the Team, I mean last time I saw here she was in Cadmus but I thought she was the bad guy?" Zatanna asked as we walked down the busy streets of Manhattan.

"Nina has to be the greatest person in the history of all people, she's not a bad person it's just she was being controlled and manipulated by the people she thought she could trust. If we would run into each other while she was The Black Hunter she would always tell me about her issues and I would try my best to cheer her up or make her smile. Even when we were at school I would always try to make sure she was happy." I said l taking out my phone and looking at the picture I took of her.

"Man she's so pretty and she doesn't even have to try, does she always keep her hair up in a ponytail?" I nodded and put away my phone as we walked passed a pizza parlor. "Hey we should go get a pizza." The both of us said in sync, we looked at each other and began to laugh as we made our way into the pizza parlor. Oh man Zatanna is going to cause me so much trouble I can already feel it.

Mount Justice
October 27, 17:24 EDT

"I'm almost done the last thing you need a little blush to give your cheeks a nice rosy glow to it." M'gann said brushing on some dusty powder.

Recognized Black Canary 13

Oh man just what I need, people seeing me while M'gann plays dress up with me. "Wow, don't you look good, who's the lucky guy?" Canary said walking over to us.

"Well I wasn't planning on doing anything today but finish my science project and study but M'gann decided that she wanted to play makeover with me." I said shrugging. I hoped she was doing a good job as much I didn't want her to do it, it would be nice to look good.

"Doesn't she look so pretty, now all we have to do is get her into a dress and she'll be perfect?" Canary nodded and crossed her arms across her chest. "And that's where I draw the line, I love you in all but me and dresses just don't go together. I don't know if you ever realized this but I'm not that graceful, I could never pull of a dress. Now you on the other hand, you can put on anything and look absolutely beautiful." I said getting off of the chair.

M'gann handed me the mirror and I couldn't believe it was me. I had no clue how she did it but she did, I looked like my mother's school pictures back when she was in high school. She was known as one of Gotham's most beautiful woman after winning 27 beauty pageants. "How did you do this, I didn't know I could look so beautiful?" I said still staring at my reflection.

"M'gann where did Ro…hello beautiful I'm Wally West it's nice to meet you." Wally said taking my hand and kissing in. "Wally it's me Nina." I said pulling my hand out of his and pushing me away, he raised his eyebrows and stared at me then his mouth fell open. "What happened to you, you look so amazing?" I punched him in the shoulder and frowned.

"M'gann wanted to make me over so I let her and this is the finishing product. I'm guess I really look great." I said giving them a small smile. I wonder what Robin would think if he saw me, maybe he would think I looked better than Zatanna. She was gorgeous and she doesn't even have to try, unlike me.

Recognized Robin B01
Recognized Zatanna Zatara A03

Oh know he's back. I gave M'gann the mirror and ran to my room making sure Robin didn't see on the way there. I made sure my door was locked and I sat down on the bed picking up my phone and dialing my mother's number. I couldn't remember the last time I heard her voice but for some reason I needed to hear it.

"Hello."
"Hi, mom it's Nina your long lost daughter."
"Oh, Nina your alive the news lied they said you had died in the explosion at Cadmus where are you are you alright?"
"Yes mommy I'm fine I'm just calling to say hello since I never really did it before and now I can say hello without dad being a jerk about it."
"Oh, your father is such a character I'm so happy we got a divorce but I am sorry that he got custody of you, if only I had just left like your grandmother told me to everything would have gone so much better."
"Don't blame yourself mom you did what you thought was right it's not your fault that dad is nothing but a jerk face and I'm glad I no longer live with him."
"When can I see you angel I've been wanted to see you since your father took you away."
"Unfortunately I can't do that but if you want to see me make sure you want the news I might be on there saving people."
"Oh you, it was wonderful to hear your voice angel face but I have to get to work. I got a new job working at Wayne Tech they even gave me a new house with wonderful security. I also got to meet the great Bruce Wayne himself and boy he sure is a cutie."
"Mom you do realize he's like 10 years younger that you?"
"I can dream can't I?"
"I hope to see you soon mom I miss you."
"I miss you to baby make sure you call more often it's nice to hear your voice since I can't see you. I love you and stay out of trouble."
"I love you to mom and I'll make sure to call you more often I promise. I'll talk to you later."
"Bye baby"

I threw my phone somewhere and a knock on the door scared me out of my mind. "Who is it?" I yelled walking up to the door. "It's me." Man why does he have to be the one to come and check on me. "Hold on a second." I looked in the mirror and fluff my hair making sure to fix any hair that was out of place, I unlocked the door and sat down at my desk pretending I was looking over my project. "Come in."

The door opened and I kept my eyes glued to the paper that was in front of me. "Whoa, I'm liking the new hair style." He said looking over my shoulder at whatever; I was too afraid to look at him because he would see my makeup covering face. "Thanks M'gann told me I had to be her Barbie doll for the day she's still trying to get me into a dress. He sighed and I heard him sit down on my bed.

"Why don't you want me to see your face?" He said playing with one of the curls on my head. I felt my cheeks heat up and I looked the other way. "It's not that I don't want you to see my face it's just I don't feel like looking at you right now." I said crossing my arms.

He pulled my chair over to him and I looked down at my lap and he just chuckled at my childish antics. His hand lifted my face up and I met his electric blue eyes. "M'gann did a wonderful job but you're already beautiful without the makeup. I'm not going to lie though that hair style really fits you I like it a lot better than your ponytail only because it's more fun to play with." I knew I was probably the color of a very ripe tomato but I didn't care Ro…Dick thought I was beautiful just being myself just like Canary had told me. Maybe I should listen to her more often she seems to know what she's talking about.

He pulled me closer and gave me a kiss on the corner of my mouth. Oh yeah I should really listen to whatever Canary says to me.