Stand by your man
part 11
SUMMARY : THIS IS MY TAKE ON STAND BY YOUR MAN (JUDY'S RAPE ) IF SHE AND TOM WHERE IN A RELATIONSHIP I LOVE THOSE TWO TOGETHER
Tom's Apt.
"Tom I can't I can't I am sorry but no!" she sat next to Tom wrapped tightly in her robe he turned to face her.
"Look Judy between the two of us we have dealt with this kind of thing many time before trying to convince a victim to follow through with identifying their attacker. I know it's going to be hard but I will be there with you and you know he can't see you and besides it might not even be him" she glared at him with disgust in her eyes. "I am sorry to have to say it like that but it's true they found him up in Newton County."
"It's nothing up there but private cabins and high end nature resorts and la te da camps for rich kids." Judy thought about what Tom was saying to her and deep down she knew it made sense but it didn't erase her fear of having to see him.
"WELL WILL YOU DO IT?"he asked impatiently.
"Well I don't have a choice do I? I want him off the street but damn I never thought about it from the victims side this is what all of our victims go through Tom it is so sad."
"I no Judy but with the support system you have you will be fine you have the force behind you, jumpstreet, Fuller, Doug, Harry form a far of course, your counselors, and last but not least me." he took the extra towel that was around her shoulders and rubbed her long damp hair.
"I am really sorry about earlier." he stood quietly and waited to see where her head was at.
"I am not mad at you literally I am mad that I am this way, I am mad that I am so afraid when there nothing to be afraid of, I am mad that I am ashamed to let you see me nude when just the other day we where making love in this very bed, all night long." she rubbed her hands on her lap as if to warm them.
"You have nothing to be ashamed of I will keep telling you that until you believe it damn it! Look at you. You are smart, you know that its not the outside that matters all of this will go away eventually." he placed his hand on her lap on top of her own as he squatted down in front of her. "Do you think that I will not want to make love to again someday just because of some blemishes? I want this and this to heal way more than some bruises. He pointed to her head and heart as she teared up again."
"What's wrong did I say something to upset you?"
"No you didn't it's just the opposite you made feel so warm inside and happy for the first time in days" she wiped her face with tip of the towel. "You said you want to make love to me someday."
"Yes I do what you thought I wouldn't want to? If that's what you thought you where wrong baby." he leaned in and put his head in her lap. "No pressure of course he added from her lap. You take as long as you need to recuperate Jude"
"Thank you Tom she whispered thank you for everything you have done for me." she ran her fingers through his hair and thought for a second, before speaking again.
"Tom you know I can't bend all that great and you know how I am about my skin care"
"Yes I know" he sat back up
"Can you moisturize me legs and back please? I can do the other spots"
"Are you sure baby?"
"If you don't mind."
"No I don't mind" he added softly as he got up to get her toiletry bag. While he got her bag from the bathroom she untied her robe and undid the towel that was under it. She was nude except for her underwear. When he returned from the bathroom she was sitting on the bed waiting for him she was nervous he could tell she sat a Lil hunched like she was no longer proud of her beautiful body. " her self esteem was gone" he thought to himself. "Are you sure sweetie"
"Yes I am you said no secrets right?" she asked holding her head down.
"Yea but I don't want you to feel pressured by anything." he walked t her slowly and gave her the bag so she could take out the right stuff for him to use. Her hands shook a little bit.
"Are you comfortable? Do you wanna lay back or sit in the chair so you can have something firm to support your back?"
"The chair would be better I think" she eased up as he put her robe around her bare shoulders and let her walk over to the chair on the other side of his room. He turned his halogen lamp on in the opposite corner to try and keep the bright overhead lights from shining on her imperfections so harshly. He watched as her robe fell from her shoulders again. He was so disgusted by this whole left turn their life had recently taken. It tore him to see her in this light but he could do nothing but be loving towards her as always. "Let me know if I am hurting you ok?"
"Ok. Tom I love you" she said it so suddenly he wasn't ready for it he wasn't expecting anything like that from her right now especially with her being self conscious.
"I love you too Jude" with that he began at her feet and worked his way up to her calves and up. He kept a constant eye on her facial expressions as he worked in the sweet smelling lotion that she gave him the room seemed to be alive with the aroma. If it wasn't for the horrible situation in there lives at the moment this would surely be an opening move that would lead into one of their all night lovemaking sessions. Tom hands eased up and down over her bruised thighs ever so gently.
"Are you ok? Am I hurting you?"
"No you are fine Tom just relax she told him. You can't hurt me anymore than what has already been done." so with that he went on with what he was doing. He felt so close to her, she was letting him see her most vulnerable side. Tom did not want to violate her private areas so he stopped between her thighs and knees. "Ok now lets get to the back she scooted to the edge of the seat and waited to feel his soft hands against her body once again.
"This feels so good." She said calmly this is so relaxing who knows this might help me sleep like a normal person. Tom are you ok?"
"Yea why do you ask?"
"I know this is hard on you. Seeing my body like this."
"Well I am not gonna lie hell yea I wanna beat the shit out of him but there is no need for me to keep going over that with you. You know how I feel I just figured you where tired of "Evan" monopolizing our complete time."
"I feel you Tom just promise me that you will see the dept. shrink ASAP"
"I tell you what" Tom says as he is finishing her back, I will make my appt the same day and time as your with your counselor and when I am done I will come and get you. I don't want you out driving by yourself." he wrapped her pink satin robe back around her as he kissed the back of her neck gently as she stood up.
"Lets go raid the fridge just you and me" he asked her trying to bring some fun back into there lives.
"Ok I am really not that hungry but I will eat something"
"One turkey sandwich for you my lady and 2 slices of pizza for me do you want some tea or soda?"
"Tom honey I am not totally inept I can get my own beverage" she stated as she walked slowly to the fridge.
"I know I just wanna make sure you want for nothing," he popped open a beer and took a big gulp.
"Judy I forgot to tell you that when I talked to Doug earlier he said Dorothy wants to stop by and visit."
"That would be nice I guess. I just want to get myself together and let this sore rib heal. I tell you what I will call her tomorrow."
"Do you wanna watch a movie after we eat?" he asked Judy as he finished off his first slice
"Na I am really sleepy I just wanna make it through one night without him!"
"Ok" Tom sat back and watched Judy pick over her sandwich.
"You have to eat something Judy come on you have to keep up your strength." they talked while she ate half of her sandwich and drank some herbal tea. He knew that kind of tea was her favorite so he picked up some while he was out earlier. After they talked for an hour in the kitchen he noticed that she could barley keep her eyes open so he closed up the kitchen for the night and walked to the bedroom.
"Let me help you to the bed you look so damn exhausted."
"I am trust me I just need sleep." as she sat down on the bed she thought about good it used to feel having Tom hold her in his arms. She felt so sexy, safe, loved ,happy, and secure, when they where in each others arms.
"Ok you are all situated know I can get comfortable for the night." with that he went to leave out until...
"Can you stay with me tonight? I know that we had sleeping arrangements set but I used to feel so safe and secure when you used to hold me after we made..."
"Love Judy? Its ok to say the word." he walked up to her and put his hand in her's. "We made love and in time we will again baby if you are ok with me staying and if that's what you want than who am I to say no?" Within minutes they where in bed and comfy at least he was. She on the other hand was dealing with her discomfort in her own way, thinking pleasant thoughts and hoping for a full nights sleep.
"Are you ok Judy?"
"As fine as I am gonna be Tom don't worry my pain killer should be kicking in soon."
"Goodnight baby."
"Goodnight Tom" she nestled in next to him and closed her eyes. He laid still and listen to the peace and quiet breathing pateren of the woman he loves and will always love.
"Sleep well my love." Tom whispered in her ear as he yawned and drifted off on his own.