Petra is never selfish.
She never asks for anything. She doesn't beg for anything either. Petra is not selfish and yet Levi wishes she is.
He doesn't know why he thinks as such. Isn't it only normal for someone to desire something in life? They're all human and he knows Petra is no stranger to that. So, he would sometimes ask her, mostly at late night when she's about to leave his office just right after bringing him some tea for the night.
Tonight is not most nights.
He asks, not lifting his face from the huge stacks of paper. "Is there something you want, Petra?"
Only then Petra would look back at him, confused. A reaction he got used to. After all, it is often he would dwell on other's wants such as a quick break from duty but of course that is something he doesn't permit. He isn't just a Captain of their squad for nothing.
"Should there be something, Captain?' she would reply.
Levi then clicks his tongue and sighs. He drops the pen from his hold and folds his arms, annoyed.
"Don't lie to me." He frowns at her.
"Captain?" she looks confused, lifting a brow at him.
"Don't look at me like that Petra, I know you have something in mind don't you."
Petra looks at him silently, as if reading his thoughts and when he thinks he almost got the answer right out from her, she shakes her head and turns her back from him. "It's nothing you can give me, Levi."
And there it is, the initial shock that comes through him upon the statement and before he was able to gather his thoughts, she leaves the room, not another word.
That night when he sleeps, he does not turn or twist in his bed, rather he stays quietly still pondering on what the copper haired girl truly wanted, if anything, from him.
{few weeks later, right after the 57th expedition and after reading the letter her father gave him, Levi wonders if he should have given in to his wants instead.}