I'm starting to think that maybe for some crazy reason Jared actually want to be with me.

I don't know why it's so hard for me to believe that, I think I might have some self-esteem issues.

Today we have a test, and last night I spent hours trying to help Jared study, he had no idea what was going on in the class. I was so happy when he actually wanted me to help him, he looked kind of sheepish when asking, and I think he was embarrassed.

I always though he walks on water, now I have found his flaw. He can't get good grades. So yea, he does walk on water. He's still perfect.

Damn why can't my flaws be as simple as that.

Jared picked me up and as soon as I was in his truck, I felt happier. Alive

"Morning," he said gruffly. I loved how his voice sounded in the morning, always so husky, it gave me butterfly's.

"Hi," I replied. Ever since that night I've been getting better at talking to him. Because now I know that he won't leave me if I make a slight screw up, Jared's so forgiving and understanding.

Jared's not much of a talker either, but we've gotten to the point where silence isn't as uncomfortable. Until he catches me staring at him, like now.

"What?" he asked touching his cheek with one hand.

I just looked down and blushed.

"Do I have something on my face?" he asked skeptically.

I shook my head no.

"Are we playing the 'guess what Kim's thinking' game again? Because that's a hard game." I blushed. Why does he have to be so god damn cute?

"I'm not thinking about anything," I murmured.

"Sure sure," he said with a smile in his eyes.

We pulled up to the school, which sadly still intimidates me.

He was opening my door for me, man is he fast.

Once I got out of the car Jared immediately reached around me at the same time he pulled me in for a short kiss. His lips tasted like tooth paste, which mixed well with his normal taste. He pulled back holding my backpack at the same time.

"Ready?" he said.

I nodded, I think he can tell I don't like school. I don't know how to feel about that.

He walked me to my locker, he always takes me to mine first and sometimes doesn't even stop at his. Once we entered the classroom he sat down, and I couldn't help but gawk at how graceful someone could be.

He looked up at me, "You joining me?"

Like a robot I obliged immediately.

"You ready for t-the test?" I asked him after sometime.

"Pfh no, but here's to hoping. Kinda want to graduate this year," he said with a frown.

"You will," I said without hesitation. I have all the confidence in him, I know he will.

He stared at me, I felt embarrassed, and this time I don't even know why.

"Okay class, take out you pens and calculators, I don't want to see anything else on your desk," Said the teacher when he walked in.

"Thanks," I heard Jared say as the teacher passed out the quiz.

I nodded my head not trusting myself to say something.

The test was easy; I blew through it in 50 minutes. Jared on the other hand took the whole period and at the end of it he didn't seem so confidant. I didn't like seeing him like that. He should be happy, he's perfect. I took his hand in mine and rubbed circles on it with my thumb.

I was shocked at my blondness, but I still couldn't look him in the eye.

The bell rang a minute later, it surprised me and I jumped and let go of his hand.

I stood up and collected my things and was about to bolt when Jared grabbed my hand.

"See you at lunch?" he asked. I looked up and once I did I couldn't look away. His eyes were like magnets, so beautiful. I nodded my head slowly. He flashed a quick smile and walked away. I made him smile again, oh swoon.

I walked to lunch in a kinda good mood. I got 98% on my test and I was going to go see Jared. My life's never been so perfect before ever.

I got to the table where Jared usually eats, but he wasn't there. Panic set through my veins. I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do.

"Hey Kim, come sit." I looked up and it was Paul talking to me.

I walked slowly towards him, and he patted the seat next to him. I sat down, I was still shocked that Paul was even talking to me when Jared wasn't there.

He just continued on eating and it wasn't awkward at all. I just sat happily actually, waiting for Jared as people where having a conversation around me.

Finally I saw Jared making his way towards us, I felt like my whole face lit up.

When he reached the table he noticed I was there, and he smiled to. I think my heart skipped a beat.

"Hey Kim, I got my test mark." He said to me.

"Year 4 of High School here you come," Paul said with a mouthful. Jared swung his fork at him so fast I was surprised when Paul caught it and laughed.

"No. Actually I got 70%" Jared told me.

"W-wow, good job! I'm proud of you," I said. For him that was an amazing mark, I am always just so proud to be called his. This just makes it better.

Jared cracked a small smile.

"Wow, Kim you turned him into a nerd," Paul told me and laughed. Paul was joking around with me. No one's ever done that before.

Jared was about to throw something else at Paul until I giggled. I couldn't help it.

Jared face softened and he started eating.

Jared dropped me off at home and drove off. I think over all today was an alright day.

I made my way up to the door, unlocked it and went inside.

Well at least I though today was going to be a good day, my parents are home.

"Well hello," my Dad said leaning against the wall.

I nodded my head toward his direction, and made my way for the stairs.

"Hey! When I talk to you, you're supposed to respond!" he said drunkenly and pulled my hair. I yelped and tripped on the stairs and fell.

"Listen you dirty whore," he spit in my face, leaning over me.

"Listen!" he slapped my face. He like it. He did it again, and again. He laughed this way wrong chuckle.

He leaned back against the stair case and took another swig of his liquor. I ran upstairs and shut my door. I was bawling and started to shove my furniture against the door.

Not now, not after everything's starting to get perfect. I don't want to have this happen all over again.

"Open up Kimmy!" He said as he started to shove the door open. I backed up sitting in the corner trying to push myself further into the wall,

"No…no..no" I kept saying but it came out funny mixed with my teary voice.

He eventually got in my room, and slowly walked towards me. Was he trying to drag this out? To make it worse?

He got on his knees in front of me and grabbed my wrists, it burned because of the healing scabs on them.

"Oh do you not like this?" he said in a baby voice as his breath washed over my face and I was going to throw up.

He stood up then and started kicking me and punching me. A beating, do I need to explain it in detail?

"Ring ring' the phone went off.

"Fuck, I'll be back. Stay." He told me as if I was a pet. I stood up and grabbed my backpack and shoved my favorite stuffy, my friend, into my bag and jumped out the window. It wasn't high but it still hurt when I landed. I was scared and I didn't know where else to go, he is all I know.

I ran all the way to Jared's house and rang the doorbell and waited. There was no answer, there was no way this was happening. I sunk down onto the pavement and cried.

I don't know how long I was there till I saw I figure coming towards the house. He was shirtless and shoe-less. As he got closer I could tell it was Jared.

"Kim? Kim is that you?" I heard he yell. Then he started running toward the house.

"Shit Kim what happened? Babe?"

I looked up and he saw my face. Whatever was on it must of scared him shitless

"Come on," He helped me off the ground; I was still a blubbering mess as he unlocked the door and took me inside.

He took me over to the couch.

"Sit down," He told me with worry In his voice.

"N-no I'm a-all mes-ssy," I blubbered.

"Doesn't matter," He left the room. I started to cry harder. I was seriously pushing his boundaries.

"Hey, hey now, drink some of this," he sat down next to me and handed me a glass of water.

He pushed my hair out of my face.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked.

"I-I didn't know w-where else t-to go-o," I sniffed out.

"You're always welcome here Kim, you know that." He told me. I felt a little bit better.

"I w-was at h-home and I-I …was hit and I.. I can't s-stay there J-Jared," I cried.

He started to shake, and I felt like I said something wrong. He's going to think I'm far too much work than it's worth.

I looked up at him, "You can stay here tonight." He told me.

"T-thank you," I murmured into his shoulder.

We sat like that for a while till he spoke.

"Kay, let's get you cleaned up and then we can watch a movie or something. Sound good?" he asked.

I nodded. I was to spent to really take charge so he helped me get up and led me to his bathroom.

"Take a shower and I'll be back with something clean for you to wear, kay?" He asked and I nodded. He left and shut the door.

I was just supposed to take a shower in his bathroom. I was a bit embarrassed, I don't know why though. I stripped and turned on the water, I slowly got in, testing the temperature.

I just stood under the warm water for about 10 minutes till I looked for some soap, I grabbed whosever soap it was and started to clean the blood and dirt off my body. After a while I realized that it must be Jared's soap because it smells like him.

After I got out I wasn't sure what I was supposed to put on. I wrapped the towel around me and crept outside. I just stood there, unsure of what I was supposed to do. But I didn't expect to run into someone.

"Hi," said an older woman. I assumed to be his Mom.

She sounded cruel and mad. I just stared.

"Hmpf I really wish he'd stop bringing whores home," She said and continued chopping up vegetables.

I couldn't help it, I started crying all over again. That's when she looked up, shock written on her face. Jared came around the corner at the same time.

"Come on Kim," he led me to his room.

"Here, you can uh put these on, they will be huge on you. But it's the smallest clothes I got, I'll wait outside." Jared walked out of his room and closed the door.

I looked at the clothes on his bed. It was a pair of boxers and a shirt I've seen him wear before. It was the one that was so tight you could see each muscle protruding out from underneath.

I put on his clothes and he was right, they were so baggy. I saw myself in the mirror and I understood what his Mother meant. I was just a gross ugly whore in her sons clothes. I looked away from the mirror before I had another crying episode.

I walked to the kitchen because that's where I heard voices coming from.

"She seems a bit different from the usual whores that you bring home," his Mom commented.

"Don't talk about her like that," Jared growled. I was shocked as I stood still in the kitchen, that's when Jared whipped around to look at me. His eyes softened as soon as he saw my face.

"Hey," he walked towards me blocking my view of his mother and wrapped his arms around me and whispered in my ear, "Feeling better?"

I did0'nt know what to say so I did nothing.

He backed away and appraised me till he spoke up.

"Kim Meet my mother Lian," He introduced.

"Mom this is my girlfriend Kim." He spoke with...pride? I think that's what it was.

I waved slightly while looking at the ground.

I heard a gasp then I looked up just in time to see Jared making his way over to me again.

He grabbed my wrist and stared.

Shit, I forgot to hide those. This was so embarrassing. He is defiantly going to leave me now.

"Kim what's this?" He asked while shaking.

His mother walked closer and gasped and tried to look me in the eye.

"N-nothing," I said and tried to pull my hand out of his grasp.

After a couple of tugs he let go. Silence followed after.

"Why?" I looked up and I couldn't believe it. Jared had tears in his eyes. I didn't know what to do. I was such a horrible person.

"Why what? I asked.

"Did... did you do that to yourself?" he asked me with a shaky voice.

"Why? Why not. I'm worthless." I stated. It was a fact, I didn't understand why I had to explain this to him. He must know, and I sure him Mother would agree. After all I'm just a wanna-be-whore.

Please R&R and if you have any ideas of what you think should happen, let me know!