DISCLAIMER: I own nothing but the character of Rebekah. Everything else belongs to someone else and I've only borrowed their characters for my own personal enjoyment.

She entered her quarters, Julian right behind her. As soon as the door closed, Julian grabbed Rebekah in his arms and gave her a kiss that reflected all the fear he'd felt while she was gone and everything that he felt for her at that moment. He was in love with her and he wasn't going to return to the station without her knowing how he felt for her; he wanted her to marry him.

"Rebekah, I love you. Marry me," he said between kisses.
Rebekah pulled back and looked at Julian. "Marriage? Given my track record," she said.
"Rebekah, I know how I feel and I want to know that you'll be mine forever. I know your probably scared because of what happened with Wesley. I can't promise you anything except I will love you for the rest of my life. I'll never love anyone the way I love you. It's felt so right from the first moment we met," Julian said.
"I love you and feel the same way, but marriage is a big step. I'm here on the Enterprise and you're on DS9. I'm not going to get into a marriage where I'm separated from my husband again. I know it won't work. I can't have my heart broken again that way," Rebekah said.
"Would you leave the Enterprise," Julian asked.
"I don't know. Could you leave DS9," she asked.

"I don't know," he answered.

Rebekah stepped out of his arms and walked to one of the windows that looked out into the space that surrounded them. "I don't want us to hurt each other. You love practicing frontier medicine and I love the thrill of command and exploration on a star ship. My family is here. You're friends are there. I hate to say this, but if either of us left our positions for something different, we're going to resent the other person because of it. That can't work in a marriage either," she said, sadness in her voice.
"What are you saying, Rebekah," Julian asked. He approached her and she turned around.
"As much as I love you, I don't think we can make it work," Rebekah said.

Julian dropped his head, knowing Rebekah was right. Neither could give up their dream and not have it affect their relationship with the other. All the love they felt couldn't possibly make up for what they'd be giving up. Rebekah had tried the long distance thing in her marriage to Wesley and she wasn't willing to do that again.

The couple shared one last kiss before Julian stepped away from Rebekah and exited her quarters. He cast one last look at Rebekah from over his shoulder. He saw the tears in her eyes and his heart broke. He wanted so badly to head back and take her in his arms and tell her that he didn't care about his posting, he just wanted her. But he knew that wouldn't work. He put one foot in front of the other and headed toward the quarters he was assigned on the ship and decided to hole up in there until he got to DS9.

Bekah watched him leave. When the door finally closed on him, she sobbed. She collapsed on her couch and wept into her hands. Despite the pain she felt, she knew if they tried to make a marriage or even a relationship work in their current situation, they'd both be disappointed. The last thing Bekah wanted to do was hurt Julian. Despite how desperately she loved the man, she knew they couldn't be together. It didn't matter that they were made for each other, they completed each other, they loved each other; they couldn't be together.

Soon after Julian left Bekah's quarters, her door chimed.

"Come in," she said as she tried to gather her composure.

"Sis, is everything alright," Will asked upon seeing his sister.
"Yeah. Just dealing with something now, rather than later. It's just a bit painful," she said, wiping her face with her palm.

"You're in love with Dr. Bashir," he said, more as a statement than a question.

Bekah looked at her brother and nodded. Will wrapped his sister in a hug. "So why are you crying? Why is it painful," he asked as he kissed the top of her head.
"Julian loves DS9. It's his home. He can practice the kind of medicine he loves. My home is here. You're here. The captain and Beverly. Geordi. Data. Deanna. I can't leave the Enterprise. My entire career has been built here and I can't imagine doing anything like I do here out on a space station," Bekah said.
Will took a deep breath. He'd been dreading telling his sister, but given what she was telling him about being in love with Dr. Bashir, he knew he had to tell her.
"Deanna and I are getting married," Will started.
"That's great! Why didn't you tell me sooner," Bekah asked.
"Because we're getting married and then I'm transferring off the Enterprise. I've been named captain of the Titan. It'll be out of dock in a few weeks. Deanna and I will marry. Head to Betazed and have a ceremony before going to Risa. We'll head to the Titan from there," Will said.
Bekah couldn't believe what her brother had just said to her. "You're leaving the Enterprise," she asked.
"It's time, Beks. I've been here for a long time and with Deanna and I getting married getting my own command sounds like a great idea," Will said.

Bekah got up off the couch. "You won't be the Enterprise's first officer any longer," she asked, still unable to fathom her brother's statement.

"Bekah, I'll still be your brother," he said.
"I know. Wow. That puts my whole argument into another realm. Beverly told me in sick bay earlier that she's heading back to Starfleet Medical part time. Wesley is graduating and heading to a ship. Too much is changing. I guess I really don't have anything here for me," Bekah said.
"I think you need to talk to the captain. If Beverly is leaving the ship, at least part time, that would open up a position for a ship's doctor. And I have a feeling that Julian would be more than capable of filling that position," Will said.
Bekah didn't say anything in response to Will's statement. Instead she sat down at her desk and leaned forward on her elbows. Will immediately recognized this as her thinking stance.
"You'll figure it out, little bit. You always do," Will said before getting off the couch and heading out the door. He knew Bekah had some thinking to do and he wanted to give her the privacy to do that. He knew his announcement gave her something to think about. He hated leaving his sister, but he knew they would eventually be posted to another ship. He just wished it wasn't while Bekah was feeling so vulnerable. He didn't want her to feel abandoned like she had when she was sent to the boarding school. He'd spent that last few years trying to make up for not spending more time with his sister when she was younger. He headed to Deanna's quarters to talk about Bekah. He wanted Deanna to speak with Bekah and see what was going on in her head.

Bekah was about to go to sick bay and talk to Dr. Crusher when her door chimed and the doctor stood on the other side.
"Beverly, come in. I was just coming to see you," Bekah said.
"Bekah, I have a question. When was the last time you saw Wesley," Beverly asked.
"Three months ago. Why," Bekah asked.
"You're pregnant," Beverly said.
Bekah looked her with shock. Beverly continued. "And I was trying to figure out if it could belong to my son. Seeing as how you're ten weeks along, I guess that's not possible," she said.

Bekah's jaw hit the floor. "Pregnant," she asked.
"I found out when I did your scan after you were rescued. I needed to make sure you were physically okay after the ordeal. That's when I found out you were pregnant," Beverly said.
Bekah eased herself down on the couch, unable to believe what Beverly had just told her.

"Is Dr. Bashir the father," Beverly asked.
Bekah nodded her head. She didn't trust her voice to speak for her.
"Do you love him," Beverly asked. Again Bekah nodded.
"Then you need to go to him and tell him," Beverly said.
"Pregnant? I didn't think that was possible for me," Bekah said.
"Why," Beverly asked.
"Every time Wesley and I got together, we kept hoping I'd get pregnant. We both wanted children. I figured something was wrong, but we didn't mention anything to you because it wasn't something Wesley wanted to talk about with you. We were going to see a doctor on a star base, but we decided to get divorced before that could happen," Bekah said.
"Well, I can assure you that you are perfectly healthy. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be for you both," Beverly said.
"Maybe. But how am I supposed to tell Julian that I'm pregnant with his child," Bekah asked.
"Just tell him the truth. That's the only thing he should expect from you. Honesty," Beverly said.
"I can't. I can't tell him until I know what I'm going to do with my career," Bekah said.
Beverly got off the couch.

"You'll always be my daughter, no matter what you decide. Congratulations," Beverly said.
Bekah hugged the woman who'd been a mother to her longer than anyone. She hoped she'd figure out what to do and make Beverly proud.