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Part 2 Chapter Six: Seeking the answer is the first step toward finding it
POV: Kuwabara
I sat Kurama up in bed and started brushing his hair. I could never quite get it the way he did but it looked better than if I just let it be. "It stopped raining," I said. "I know your flowers need the water to grow but it's so sad when it rains." Kurama didn't move. Not that I expected him to.
I lifted him up to pull off his night-gown and changed his underwear. I was beyond being embarrassed about that stuff anymore.
Since he was catatonic, I could pose him any way I needed to as long as he was sitting down. He stayed in the same position as long as I left him that way so dressing him wasn't hard at all. Waxy permeability, was what the book called it. It made me sick if I thought about it too hard.
"Are you hungry?" I asked. It was a stupid question but I asked it anyway. He was never hungry and it was hard to get him to eat. I was afraid I would have to take him to a hospital to have a feeding tube put in but if I put the food in his mouth in tiny pieces, eventually his body took over and swallowed it. Soup was out, for obvious reasons, he could drown but soft foods were fine.
Once I had fed him as much as I was going to be able, I set him in his favorite chair by the window in his bedroom. I call it his favorite chair because the only time he ever did anything on his own was when he was sitting in that chair.
Mostly all he did was blink but it was something. Today, he twitched a few times before I started talking to him.
"The sunflowers are almost as tall as Hiei now and the lilies are in full bloom. I pruned your rose bush yesterday, I think the roses appreciated it." Kurama blinked. "The news said that the prime minister of Israel is going to pull all of the Jewish people out of the Gaza strip today. The Americans are still fighting in Iraq and I think they're losing. I mean, how can you change the entire infrastructure of a country and a culture? Doesn't work too well." Kurama blinked again. I always told him what was going on in the world so he wouldn't have to wonder when he finally came to.
"I think Hiei is in love with Urameshi." Kurama blinked really fast three times. "That's my opinion anyway. He seems really confused, don't you think?" Kurama looked up and I could almost swear he was looking at me.
"I already know Urameshi loves Hiei because it's hard not to notice this stuff when you're best friends with someone for so long." Kurama's head tilted as if he were almost about to nod. "What do you think about this? Do you think Hiei's in love with our Yusuke? I sure hope he is 'cause Yusuke's hopelessly in love with him."
I smiled at Kurama. "You look really well today. Radiant, almost." Kurama made a hissing sound. It startled me because he hadn't made any kind of sound since the day with Mukuro. "Then again, you always were the most attractive of all of us. You still are. Do you remember that day at the park when those girls thought you were my girlfriend?" Kurama almost nodded again. Is he trying to speak? "Women these days say that a feminine look to guys is really hot nowadays. I don't know, man, I always thought you were pretty in a way." I scratched the back of my neck. "I guess beautiful is more appropriate."
Kurama seemed to move forward almost imperceptibly. "I hope I didn't just hurt your manly pride… That was sure dumb of me to say. No wonder Hiei's always calling me an idiot. I can't even talk to someone who won't speak."
Kurama didn't have a reaction to that. I thought I was losing him. "To tell you the truth, I always kinda liked you. You know, as more than friends. You probably think I'm weird now. But, you've always been special to me. I mean, in an out of reach sort of way." Kurama blinked like five times.
"Listen to me, I'm babbling. You should scold me for abusing the language." Kurama didn't move. Interesting. When I talk about love, he gets more animated. "Do you know why I stay with you?" Kurama blinked. "It's because I hope that someday, you'll come back and smile at me the way you did when everything was okay. I want everything to be okay again. I care about you so much, I can't bare the thought of losing you. I know you're still there but…" Kurama's left hand twitched.
"Can we make it okay again? Can we make it okay together?" I grabbed Kurama's left hand because it was still twitching.
He squeezed back.
"Kurama?"
His muscles seemed to start waking up for a minute but he froze a moment later. "I can't make it okay if you're not okay. Please, Kurama. Come back. I need you." He started moving again. "Stay with me, please. Don't go away. I miss you so bad. It's breaking my heart." I was crying. "Because the truth is, I have always loved you and I always will…" My voice broke and I started sobbing.
I leaned forward in my chair so my head was almost resting in Kurama's lap. "I love you so much. Please, please, let's make it okay!"
It took me a moment but I finally realized that Kurama was hugging me. "I want to make it okay too," he said.
I looked up at him. "You're back!" I cried.
"I never fully went away, thanks to you. I will never forget all that you have done for me."
"I don't care if you forget as long as you stay with me. Stay here with us I mean."
"I know what you mean. I think the former was closer to the truth." Kurama started stroking my back. "I won't go away again; I promise you. After all, how could I knowing that you love me enough to cry? How could I when I love you the same? The question that you have longed for the answer, do you understand the answer now?"
"Yes, of course. You went away because your heart was broken so the only thing that could bring you back was love."
"Thank you, Kuwabara. I think we can make it okay together."
Yay! K-Rama's back! I know that this was a mean way to end a chapter but stay tuned, kiddies. Next update will come soon.
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