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Claustrophobic

EPOV

I'm use to getting what I want. I've always had what I wanted without any questions asked. Maybe I deserve this then, maybe I have to show Bella how much she means to me. I took her for granted when I had her and I know now how wrong I was to do that, I will spend every second of my life trying to make it up to her even if she doesn't want my efforts. I know everything is going to fall into place, it has to. If only I had a way to make it fall faster, I need her to give me a chance to fight for her. I need to tell her how I feel but I can see every time I am even close to her, she is waiting to escape. She can't bear to be near me but I have to be close to her. I need her with me. This time I am not giving up. When I get her back, I will make us last forever.

My thoughts were suddenly rudely interrupted.

"Edward, you have to fix this" Alice ordered.

"I'm sorry, what are you talking about?" I asked back. I was slightly confused, if she had broken one of her precious items I would have heard her piercing scream and I hadn't. Maybe I was too lost in my thoughts to notice.

"It's not the time to play dumb, you know what I am talking about" she shot back. For someone so little she can be very aggressive.

"Why don't you remind me then, as I seem to have forgotten"

"BELLA!" she shouted at me. Oh. I should have seen it coming. Alice loves Bella, she would do anything in her power to fix anything that has hurt Bella. In this case, that would be me.

"Alice, it has nothing to do with you" I was angry didn't she think that I was trying?

"It has everything to do with me, you are my brother, Bella is my best friend. Do you really think I am going to sit back and mind my own business?" She was shouting so loud, it made me wince and step back in an attempt to get away from her.

"I was hoping you would" I answered sarcastically, knowing very well she isn't capable of letting people sort out their own problems.

"Well then, you don't know me very well Edward Cullen"

"Look Alice, I have tried. I tried to talk to her yesterday in Biology but all she said was she "can't". How can I fix it when she won't give me a chance to?" I said while remembering that moment. Bella couldn't wait to get away from me, when all I wanted was to hold her and I thought she was giving me the chance to. I thought she would have avoided my grasp but she let me pull her in but she soon escaped.

"You have hurt her Edward, you are going to have to try a lot harder than that"

"Tell me Alice what to do? I need to be able to talk to her but she won't let me. You know how stubborn she is and she won't do anything she doesn't want to do. I can't force her."

"No you can't, but I can" she said and all of sudden all of that anger had drained out of her.

"Alice, what are you going to do? Don't hurt her" I warned. I was worried for Bella, even more than I was already. Alice can be quite drastic.

"I don't think you are in a position to give me that order, do you?" she asked, knowing very well that I knew she was right. How can I protect Bella from anyone hurting her, when I hurt her the most. I couldn't answer her, there was no point denying it because she would hear the lie in my words.

" Now do you want my help or not?" she asked.

"Please" I answered back, knowing that I would do anything I can to get Bella back, even if it means getting Alice involved.

"Well leave it to me, just meet me by the supply closet at the beginning of lunch" she ordered.

" How are supplies going to help me win her back? I'm sorry Bella I hurt you, here have a pen. I don't think she will fall for that one."

"Edward. Just shut up and do what I say" she shouted. I guess I was wrong she still had some anger left in her.

"Fine, I'll be there" I said.

"Good, we better get moving. We don't want to be late for school" she said while walking out of my room. Before she was out of sight I stopped her.

"Alice, I didn't mean to hurt her" I wanted my sister to know that I'm not really this horrible person I have been for the last few years.

"I know that but I am not the one that needs to hear that" she answered back sympathetically.

I have never been in the position to beg Alice for things but at this point I really didn't care. If anyone could fix this it would be her. But honestly I didn't understand the reason why I had to meet her at a supply closet. She was always a weird little thing.

I made my way to school in a daze. I just wanted to go up to Bella and grab her in my arms and never let go. I wanted to kiss her until she felt dizzy and worst of all I wanted to make love to her until she saw stars. I was only use to having sex but that was just meaning less. It was like fun and then you would just leave her but love making is something different. It was like pouring all your feeling's inside of each other. You make sure she was okay before you actually did it and then when the morning came you wouldn't just get up and leave. You would gather her in your arms and tell her how much you enjoyed it and then tell her that you loved her. But it looks like I will never get the chance to make love to the woman I love.

I knew the reason why she didn't want to speak to me but I at least thought that she would acknowledge my presence in a room. When we sat next to each other in Biology I would try to catch her eye but sometimes she refused to meet my stare then others she would just stare at me and I could see hints of Anger,Love and relief? I didn't know why relief but maybe she thought I had given up she was so wrong if that's what she thought.

I walked in not bothering to go to the lunch room because I was late anyway. I made my way to Music. I didn't pay attention to what the teacher was saying. I couldn't stop thinking about Bella. Okay Cullen think of something that doesn't involve Bella. Oh I remember that time when Emmett had to dress up as Barbie and go around singing the Barbie song. Alice was so funny for making that up. Oh yeah and then Bella was there and she couldn't stop laughing it-. There you go again. I knew it would never work because Bella was in my every thought night and day. She never left my head.

I was pulled out of thoughts by the teacher.

"Mr. Cullen class is over" the teacher said. Wow I didn't even hear the bell go of.

"Sorry" I said and got up and made my way to English. Whilst I was walking I was stopped by Megan. She was brunette and was a complete utter Bitch but I had done her once. Trust me worst experience of my life!

"Hey Eddie" she said trailing her finger down my chest. I removed it.

"What do you want Megan" I said trying to keep a good amount of space between us.

"You" She said seductively. Silly silly little girl.

"No" I said and went to walk of but she stopped me by grabbing my arm.

"You know you want this" she said gesturing to her body. I didn't want her but I knew some guy would. She was very pretty and just not my type.

"Nope I am sorry." I said sincerely although it came out kind of muffled because of my laughter that I was trying to hide.

"Yes you do" She said.

"Don't tell me what I want okay. I do not want you at all. Get that in your head. You were only a one of. Megan go find some other guy and try to stick with him and try not to remain a bitch." I said. She nodded and walked of. Then suddenly something hit me. Is this what Bella felt like when I was harassing her? No probably not.

I made my to English. I just sat there thinking not moving a muscle just going over the events of the last week. It was amazing you know it was like a ride you didn't know what was coming next. It was just a amazing feeling to feel her lips upon mine. But I ruined all of that by being a dick. Nobody knew how much I blamed myself.

It was lunch.. I made my way to the supply closet and stood there waiting fro Alice. What could she have planned?

BPOV.

I woke up with the same feeling today. I couldn't be bothered to go to school. I would just spend the day pondering what could have been between Edward and I. It was just so annoying to have to think of that every time I saw his face.

The day was full of things I did not want to do. I didn't say a word to anyone other then my friends. I saw Edward at one point talking to Megan. She was a horrible bitch. He didn't see me because I was behind him. I had my doubts about whether I was just a game to him but then he pushed Megan away so I walked of smiling because he pushed her away because that meant that there was hope. I smiled all the way to the lunch room. I didn't bother getting lunch because I wasn't hungry so I just sat down and waited until everyone came. When they sat down Alice started talking to me about something I did not want to talk about.

"Bella can you believe that the prom is in a two days" She said. Oh god I forgot about that.

"Yeah cool" I said back trying to put as much enthusiasm in as I could.

"I already got your dress you are-" She was saying but then a look of realization came on her face.

"Bella will you come with me please" she said in a way that meant I didn't have a choice. I followed her down the halls, she seemed excited and I was scared.

"Alice where are we going?" I asked my voice coming out barely as a whisper. She looked at me, her eyes glistening and tapped her nose as a way of letting me know it was her secret.

"Fine, but if you are kidnapping me. I won't go without a fight"

"As if" she laughed back whilst grabbing my hand. She was right, if there was a fight-she would be the one to come out without any scrapes and bruises. Alice started walking faster and I had to run to make sure I kept the same pace as her. I wasn't in the mood for her games but Alice lived for them, so who was I to take her fun away? I was starting to worry about where we were going and then I saw him. He was standing by the supply closest searching the halls for someone and then he saw us and smiled. Oh please let us just be walking past him, I don't think I could deal with him today. I closed my eyes, I didn't want to see his face. Then Alice suddenly stopped, I opened my eyes to find myself staring at Edward. I squeezed Alice's hand as hard as I could but it didn't seem to have any effect on her. She was smiling at me and I gave her a sarcastic smile back and tugged my hand out of her grasp.

"Hey Edward" Alice said full of cheer

"Alice" Edward nodded. Sometimes he can sound so formal. "Bella" he greeted me whilst smiling. I looked at the floor unable to meet his eyes.

"Alice, can we-" Alice had cut me off before I was able to beg to go where ever we were going.

"Bella, can you please go in the supply closest and get me something please?" she asked

"Why can't you do it yourself?" I asked. I was annoyed, she was my best friend wouldn't she understand that being anywhere near Edward at the moment could make me break down.

"Shut up Bella please, can you just do it" she said fiercely.

"Fine, what do you want?" I shot back slightly confused.

"You will see it when you are in there" she said whilst I reached for the handle. While I walked in I could hear her speaking to Edward.

"You might need to go and help Bella" she ordered Edward. No I don't need his help, I will manage. I need to be away from him. I can't be near him. It is too soon after I confessed my love for him. What if he touches me or pulls me in for hug again, I don't think this time I will be able to resist.

"Alice, please" I begged hoping she would understand my plea.

"Edward just do what I say" Alice said trying to prevent herself from shouting. I moved aside, allowing some space between me and Edward. This could be very quick and not painful if I don't think about how close we will be in this small space. He walked in and I was dazzled, I don't know if he will always have this effect on me, I hope not. His sweet scent surrounded me and I felt dizzy and I had to hold on to the shelf just to make sure I didn't fall. While I was trying to recover I heard something slam.

"You two are not coming out until you talk" Alice shouted. I realised than that what I heard was the door slamming.

"Alice let me out" I shouted whilst banging on the door. How could she do this? I really wish I took her fun away earlier.

"No Bella, I have locked the door and I will be back in 10mins to see how you are doing" she said

I turned my back on the door and sat down with my knees up and my head in my hands. I couldn't do this in such a small space. I had no way to escape.

"Well I didn't think Alice would have done this" Edward said whilst bending down to sit on the floor opposite me. He was too close, I could feel myself tearing apart. I didn't say anything I couldn't, I didn't want to take the risk.

"Bella, I am so sorry" he said

"Just don't please, I don't want to hear this I can't. Can't we just go back to the way we were two weeks ago when all you did was ignore me. It would be so much easier for me." I said and stood up to put some more space between us.

"No Bella, I don't want to. I want to talk to you" He said and he sound like he actually meant it.

"Well we can't always get what we want. Oh wait you can. But not this time" I said with as much as much sarcasm as I could come up with.

"Just give me a chance" He pleaded

"I don't want to give you a chance, I can't Okay? Why can't you just leave me alone?" I said I was trying my best not to shout.

"Because I can't, trust me Bella I wish I could give you what you want but I am selfish so I won't leave you alone" He said. He was actually not going to give up.

"For once can you try and not be selfish? I have made a fool of myself over these past two weeks. I told you how I feel about you can't you just let me suffer in silence." I said. My hands were in my hair as I was pulling it out of frustration.

"Bella I care about you" He said.

"Of course you do" I said sarcastically

"Bella I am serious" He said because he could tell that I didn't believe him.

"So am I"

"Fine be like that Bella. But I won't give up, I'll show you if I have to" what did he mean by show me?

"What are-" I said but I was interrupted.

His lips were suddenly on mine. I didn't know whether I should pull him off of me or let my self have this. His lips pressed harder to mine trying his best to get a response out of mine. Before I could grasp what was happening I was pushed up against a wall. I pushed him off of me because this was making it harder to forget him. He suddenly got the message and pulled away. I slid down the wall.

"Edward" I said whilst crying with my knees up to my chest.

"Bella, I am sorry I was trying to show you how I feel about you. Bella I never meant to hurt you" he said trying to comfort me but I just cried louder.

"I am not 5 years old you can't kiss my bruises better" I managed to get out between sobs. After a couple of seconds I managed to get my self together.

"No, I don't think you understand. I was-" He was about to say something but I interrupted him. I stood up.

"Edward, please just don't. I won't be able to take it please just leave me alone" I said trying my best not to cry.

Suddenly the door opened.

"Hope you two are fine now because-" She cut of mid sentence. She looked between Edward and me. I took this as my Que to leave. I walked out of the door but I turned around and said something to Alice.

"Don't ever and I mean Ever do anything like that again." I said and then walked of back in the lunch room. I sat down at our table.

"You Okay Bella?" Rose asked. Oh god I probably have red puffy eye's.

"Yep fine" I said sitting back. A couple of seconds later Edward and Alice came in. Alice came over while Edward gave me a pleading look and walked to his table.

"Bella? You mad at me?" Alice asked.

" No I know you were just trying to help" I said. She hugged me and then went in to a conversation with Rose.

I was not mad at Alice. I knew she was just trying to help but I knew this couldn't be fixed. I loved him and he didn't love me back. It would make it uncomfortable if we became friends. I just wanted it to go back to the way it was before. Him ignoring me and me well..? I wish I could take back what I told him. I wish I didn't tell him I love him because all it has done is break me and it was never this bad but seeing him every day and then him telling me he cares when he doesn't. It just makes it so hard to do anything. It hurts to have the man you love not love you back. So you just forget him. I thought that it would be easy but it is the hardest thing I have ever done.

I got up to say good bye to everyone and went to walk out of the lunch room.

Guys are so annoying.

EPOV.

I was sitting with my boys. I was so upset that I did that to Bella in the supply closet but what are you went to say or do to the woman you love who is hating on you? I knew the one thing I had to do. I had to call of the bet.

"Mike I don't want to do the Bet anymore" I said. He looked up pleased.

"You didn't mange to sleep with Bella" he said smirking.

I was about to answer when a loud smack made me turn around.

The person that was standing had heard everything I had just said. I gasped at who it was.