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Chapter 11 - CPOV
My mind is racing. I haven't heard anything from Taylor regarding this fucker. The idea of that …man…looking and touching my Ana, makes my stomach turn. I want to hurt him so bad.
How dare he, feeding shit into a young girls mind. Just like Elena did to me. Only I accepted and believed her bullshit.
"If you want I can track him down and put him in jail Ana, that way he can never hurt anyone ever again."
As the words leave my mouth I feel her body get rigid, turning she faces me. He face has a look of horror.
"No! No! Please don't…no, he is evil Christian…he would hurt you…no please don't track him down please." Her body is shaking like a leaf.
"It's okay Ana, don't worry he could never hurt me." I won't promise her that I won't track him down, because the wheels are already in motion. If it's up to me that fucker won't take a step in his life without being watched. He will never come near Ana again. I vow to make his life miserable, just like he did with Ana's.
"Well, you know that you are a beautiful, smart and an incredibly sweet woman don't you Anastasia?"
Instead of answering my question she stands to her feet and extends her hand. "Come let's go back, I'm getting hungry, I never finished dinner." She says with a smile that doesn't reach her blue eyes.
We walk back to the cottage hand in hand. I will never leave this beautiful woman. She is so pure and sweet. It's a miracle that she didn't fall into the wrong friends when she was living in Vegas. Probably calling Ray was the best thing she did.
I would have liked to meet this man. He did a good job in raising Ana.
I'm going have to work really hard on this control issues of mine. Fuck! That's going to be a challenge.
I should warn her that I'm going to fuck up, and that she should be patient around me.
"Do you mind if we order a pizza?" She asks looking shyly up at me. Damn. She is so tiny. I'm used to Mia, who is a lot taller.
"I don't mind, whatever you want is fine by me." I respond.
"Okay pizza it is." she says trying to sound happy, but failing miserably.
We are standing in the kitchen and I sit down at one of the chairs and pull her into my lap.
"Beautiful girl, you don't have to behave all giddy and happy when you are feeling like crap. I want you to feel at ease with me, trust me, and know that I will keep you safe."
"Thank you. I do trust you and I feel safe with you. I was just thinking…we have known each other for five minutes and all I have done is cry. I don't want that. I also want to make you happy" she ends her little speech with a kiss on my nose and smiling sadly.
"You make me happy, when you share your thoughts, troubles, worries and well…everything with me. And so you know…I have never felt happier in my life than since I first met you…so you've already accomplished that baby." I trace the little V that has formed between her eyes, because of the frown on her face.
"Oh, I almost forgot" I say "My mom asked if you wanted to come to dinner Sunday, Elliot is going to be there and he is taking Kate. Mia, my annoying sister will be there too, and my dad."
"You told them about me?" She asks with a high pitched voice.
"Well actually, when Elliot left here Saturday for his dinner with Kate, he called my mom and told her about you. My mom told Mia and the next day they called to verify if Elliot was speaking the truth. So don't think about rejecting this dinner Ana, because my mom and Mia are dying to meet you."
"Um…I don't know Christian, you are from a very wealthy family and I…well I'm not. What if they don't like me? I mean Kate…is Kate…" What? Is she for real? Kate doesn't have anything on Ana. Kate may come from money, but she lacks class and sweetness.
"Ana, stop over thinking things. I know that my parents will love you. I promise." I stand up and smack her behind. "And now for that pizza Ms. Steele."
We eat the pizza's in the living room on the floor leaning against the couch. Our glasses of wine are on the table. This is good. I can get used to this. I'm relaxed, eating pizza with my girl and drinking horrible wine.
As I take a sip from the wine and try to swallow it I see her looking at me.
"What's the deal Grey, you have something on your mind… I can tell" She says with a giggle.
"I was thinking who ever bought this…wine?" I make a sour face.
"You don't like it?"
"Well, let's say I've had better." I say shrugging.
"Okay let's make a deal. I take care of the food, and you take care of the wine from now one, how does that sound Mr. Grey?"
"Does that mean, that I don't have to cook?"
She starts laughing. "No, that doesn't mean you don't have to cook, that means that I will take care of the fridge being stocked to the fullest and you will take care of buying whatever wine you like." She raises an eyebrow.
"I think I can live with that, Ms. Steele. Who knows…I might actually learn how to cook."
She giggles. "Yeah, you might, but I don't know Christian, the way you looked at those vegetables the other day…I think you have a long road ahead of you."
"Are you laughing at me Ms. Steele. Because you know what happens when you laugh at me?" In the meantime I've put the empty carton boxes on the table.
"No, tell me, what happens" She says and tries to stand up.
I quickly grab her wrist and pull her down on the floor and straddle her.
"This happens" And I start to tickle her relentlessly.
"Oh my God, Christian…stop..stop please….I…am going to pee my pants…please Christian….."
I take pity on her and stop my assault and look down. She is breathtakingly beautiful. Her cheeks flushed from laughing, her hair messed up and a beautiful smile on her face. I lean down and kiss her soft lips.
When I release her hands they reach to my hair tugging it.
"I like it when you touch my hair Ana" I say looking at her.
"You know, when you and Elliot showed up here a few days ago and I saw you standing at the door, I had to refrain myself from touching your hair." She says with a shy smile.
"You did huh? Although Sam didn't shy away in telling me that my hair was funny."
"Sam has no filter…he once asked Kate what she had done to her face, when Kate responded with an odd look, he went to her bedroom and returned with her make-up bag, and told her to put that stuff on her face, that it made her look prettier."
"I think I like Sam more and more" I can't help laugh "And you know what they say, what comes out of the mouth of children…."
"I know!" Ana says. "But I felt bad for Kate, he really hurt her feelings."
"Common, he's a little kid, sure she didn't take it serious?" I'm going to treat Sam on the biggest ice-cream money can buy.
"You know, Kate works really hard on her appearance and then this little kid comes up telling her that she looks ugly without make-up. But she probably went on a shopping spree to compensate that shitty feeling."
"Oh I forgot to tell you" she says sitting up "I invited Jose and Ethan over for this coming Saturday. And I was thinking in inviting Kate and Elliot too." While she's talking she is playing with my hand.
"I thought Ethan lived in New York?" I say.
"He does, but he called me yesterday and told me he was coming to Seattle to spend some time with his parents. And since he hasn't seen the cottage I invited him."
"Did you two date or something?"
"No Christian, I already told you. Ethan is like a brother to me, just like Jose. I like you…you are my boyfriend and I would like that you help me organize this little party. Would you like that?"
"Nothing would make me more happy baby. You really want that?" I have to ask.
"I would make me very happy too Christian. So you'll help me?" Her eyes are bright.
"Yes, I'll help you baby. Even if that means that I have to cook, oh excuse me, chop vegetables." I say winking at her.
"Come let's go to bed you look tired."
We are in Ana's bed facing each other. Ana is wearing those sexy boy shorts and tank top.
I skim the swell of her breast with my index finger. I just can't get enough of her.
"Christian, what did you do with those girls. Do you want to tell me?"
Oh Fuck I don't want to talk about that shit. I freeze and lie down on my back with my hands under my head.
"Ana, I don't want to talk about that. If you know what I did with those girls you will leave…and …"
She doesn't let me finish and while straddling me she starts talking.
"I won't leave you Christian, I've told you about number three and I want to get to know you better. From what you've told me that…. Mrs. Robinson character played you and your family. She played on your insecurities and your 'needs' as a horny teenager. You know she is a pedophile right?"
I just nod and take a deep breath.
"I will show you a contract when you visit my apartment again okay? I really don't want to talk about that now Ana." My voice sounds cold and detached.
"You had a contract?"
"Yes and they all had to sign an NDA, that's a Non-disclosure agreement." I answer clipped.
"Oh" and she tries to get of my lap but I hold her real tight. I need to feel her.
"You didn't make me sign an NDA' she whispers.
"No I didn't."
"Why?"
"Just drop it Ana, okay! I don't like to repeat myself. .go!" I say through gritted teeth. Why can't she just let it go? The minute she knows what I did to them and why I did it…she'll leave me.
"I…I don't want to talk about it right now baby, I want to enjoy you…us, I have never experienced something like this before." I look into her eyes so she knows I'm telling the truth.
"I'm sorry I asked Christian, we should sleep." She says looking sad and rejected.
Sleep? I don't want to sleep! Fuck sleep!
"What's wrong Ana?"
She is looking at me as if I've lost my mind.
"You need to ask me what's wrong? You've asked me everything about number three and I told you…I never told anyone about it Christian, no one! And now I ask you a question and you get distant and cold, almost dismissing me. I told you this afternoon and I'm telling you again…not only I won't let you control me, but you can't dismiss me like I'm one of your employers. You know what? Forget I asked. Now let me sleep, I'm tired!"
She scurries out of my lap and lays down with her back facing me.
"Maybe it's the best if I leave Ana."
"If that's what you want Christian, go ahead I won't hold you back. Now Goodnight."
What. the. fuck. happened? Do I stay? Do I go? I get up and start putting on my clothes. Ana remains in the same position. Without saying a word, because… what's there to say? I've said enough. I already fucked up, I leave the bedroom and go downstairs.
APOV
He left.
He left.
What was I thinking? Number three was right…No one will ever want me.
I feel the tears leave my eyes. Shit! I don't want to cry.
I hear the front door open and close again…he really left me…
What did you expect? You didn't stop him did you?
I shove my face in my pillow and let it all out. Three days and he already had enough of me.
Stephen Morton is standing in front of me with a smug smile on his face. "I told you Ana, no one would ever want you…you are nothing but an ugly skinny girl, who likes to read books. You're not special…now eat Ana! Eat..Eat Eat..Eat Eat..Eat Eat..Eat…"
"I don't want to eat! You can't force me." I yell.
I see Stephen walk towards me with the brown leather belt in his hands…you know what happens to little girsl that disobey me…don't you Ana….
NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NOOOOOOOOO!
I feel two strong hands touching my shoulders and I try to push them away.
"No, please…don't hit me…please…I'll eat please…"
"Ana…Ana baby, wake up…you're dreaming Ana."
Christian? Christian is here?
"Christian?" I open my eyes and see Christian sitting on the edge of the bed and his face is full of concern. He looks so sad.
"I thought you left" I whisper.
"I couldn't leave Ana…I was downstairs…and I heard you scream…I'm sorry, I'm so sorry…please."
"Just hold me Christian, just hold me."
Christian climbs into the bed with me and I hold him tight. I will never let him go again.
"I'm sorry" I say "I shouldn't have pushed you in telling me those things. I'm just not used to this you know…"
"We both handled things wrong Ana…now sleep baby. I'm here and I won't let you go, you're safe with me….sleep." He kisses me on my forehead and I drift off…
I wake up the next morning, feeling someone kissing my back. I'm laying face down and I feel Christian sitting on me.
"Good morning beautiful girl… sleep well?"
"Hmmmm" just stop talking and keep kissing.
"Ana?"
"Hmmmm"
I feel his hands pulling down my boy shorts and panties off in one swift motion. He is now giving me little butterfly kisses on my thighs while his big hands are resting on my butt.
"Ana, why are you on birth control?"
What?! He is asking me about birth control? He's expecting me to form a single sentence without having a cup of coffee? He really needs to know, that I'm not a morning person. I don't talk, before I've had coffee.
"Ana, talk to me baby." His hands are now massaging my back.
"Christian, please don't talk…it's too early to talk…just continue with the kissing…I like that…" my voice sounds groggy and not sexy at all. UGH.
He has now reached my neck and is licking it…oh my god that's good…I could get used to waking up like this…screw the coffee!
"So no talking huh…turn around baby…I want to look in those beautiful eyes…"
I turn around and see that Christian is completely naked and his hair is damp. Did he shower?
"Did you have a shower already? What time is it?"
"It's early baby…but no talking remember…" He says giving me his beautiful smile.
He takes of my tank top and is now massaging my breasts. He leans down and puts his mouth on one nipple and sucks and pulls…with one hand he is holding my other breast. Pulling and pinching my other nipple.
I let out a moan.
"Do you like that Ana, tell me baby do you like that?"
"No talking remember Christian?" I feel him smile while sucking on my breast.
"Right…I forgot…no talking…".
With every little movement he makes, I feel his erection rubbing at me. I feel his hand leave my breast and skim down to my sex. He gently brushes his fingers through my folds.
"Oh baby, you are so wet already…" He pushes two fingers inside me and makes circular motions and slides in and out slowly…Oh that feels so good, but I need more.
"Christian….Christian…" I push my pelvis up to get more friction…
"Yes baby…you need to tell me what you want…talk to me Ana…".
"Just fuck me Christian…" As the words leave my mouth I hear him gasp…
"Your wish is my command Ana…open your legs baby." I open my legs and he spreads them wider, before I have a chance to think he has already filled me.
"Oh fuck…oh…yeah Christian…move please"
"We …aim…to please …Miss. Steele… ".
He starts to pump into me relentlessly…his hands lift my butt and it's like he comes deeper now…
I hold on the headboard so I don't knock my head.
Oh this is good.
One hand leaves my butt and he start to rub my clit.
"Ana…I…need…you …to ..come…I can't hold…much longer…come for me!"
And I do…I mumble his name and he screams mine while shooting his semen into me…the veins on his neck are tense and his body has sheen of sweat covering it….
When he comes down from his orgasm he opens his eyes and smiles.
"Well, I prefer this above a cup of coffee anytime Mr. Grey" I say.
"Do you know?" He withdraws from me leaving me empty "I will make a mental note." He says smiling.
He lays besides me and pulls the sheet to cover us. "How are you this morning Ana…did you sleep well?"
"I did after you came in my bed, thank you for taking care of me…and sorry..I.."
"Shh it's okay Ana…we'll talk later okay baby? I promise." He tucks a tendril of hair behind my ear.
"You are so beautiful Ana..so sweet and soft…I can't get enough of you..when I woke up this morning an saw you sleeping…I took a shower…to let you sleep a bit longer, but then I couldn't control myself anymore..and now I need another shower…want to join me baby…or do you really need that cup of coffee."
"I think I'm awake now…let's take that shower."
We walk to the bathroom and Christian turns on the water and reaches for my hand.
Inside the shower he holds me close to his chest and kisses the top of my head.
I'm enjoying the feeling of his strong arms around me. The hairs on his chest tickle my cheek.
"Do you know, that I find you chest hair incredibly sexy" I whisper.
"You do? I thought woman didn't like chest hair" He says smiling.
"Well I don't know about other woman, but I like this..a lot."
"Then I have a confession to make baby, because I like this…and tugs slightly at my pubic hair, and this and his inserts a finger in my sex….and this…he withdraws his finger and reaches for my breast."
He leans down and kisses me pushing me against the shower wall.
"Turn around baby and put your hands on the wall, we are going to try this now." He reaches for my clit and starts rubbing it "Spread your legs baby and stick that beautiful tight ass of you out…I'm going to take you from behind Ana…it's going to be hard and fast…hold on tight…"
The moment I feel him enter me I can't suppress a moan.
"Are you all right baby?" He asks. His finger is still rubbing my clit, but without giving me enough pressure.
I nod
"I'm going to move now ... hold on" He begins to pump into me with long firm strokes. His face is in my neck. He's kissing and biting me.
"Oh Fuck Christian."
I hear his breathing and his moaning. Oh what is he doing to me?
He puts more pressure on my clit at the same moment I feel him tense. He shudders and I hear him whisper my name.
When I open my eyes I'm sitting on his lap on the shower floor.
"You are so responsive Ana…we are so good together, I can't get enough of you baby." He says while licking and kissing my neck.
"Let's get clean" I say standing up "I really need that coffee now."
I'm downstairs enjoying my first cup of coffee when I see Christian come into the kitchen. He is wearing a black suit with a crisp white shirt and a black tie. Shit he looks hot.
"Do you have time to have breakfast?" I ask without taking my eyes of him.
"I have to leave in one hour, so I have time. What are you making?" He says while kissing my neck.
"Hmmm, if you don't stop that, I won't be able to make you anything" I giggle.
He stops immediately. While gesturing towards the stove he says "The kitchen is all yours milady."
I fix him two bagels with cream cheese and some cut fruit. I place it before him and refill his coffee.
"Aren't you eating?" He asks
"I will eat later, I promise. It's still too early for me to eat. I'm not much of a morning person Christian." I look at him and blush.
"I've noticed" He says while winking "But I think that my persuasion techniques worked pretty good.
Look Ana, I don't want to control you…but please promise that you'll eat."
"I promise Christian, don't worry about me okay. I have been taking care of myself for a long time now. I will be okay."
"But I want to take care of you now." He says while pulling me on his lap. "I want to make sure that you eat healthy, that you are happy and safe and that you have anything that your heart desires, I want to do that for you". He's says while looking into my eyes.
"You do, you take care of me, you make me feel safe, and I am happy when we are together. As for wanting things, I'm not very materialistic…" I kiss his neck.
"Ana, if you keep doing that I won't leave…and then I will have to tell my management staff that my girlfriend was seducing me… Can I come here after work and spend the weekend with you Ana?"
"I would love to" and I stand from his lap "Finish your breakfast Christian and please call me when you arrive in Seattle."
"Why do you want me to call you?" He ask and takes a bite of his bagel.
I shrug.
"Ana…why…? I mean it's no problem at all to call you, but you are so persistent about it." He's searching my face for an answer.
"When Ray had his accident, he…he was going to call me when he reached the lake…and I forgot about it…until I got the phone call from the hospital the next day…"
"Oh Ana…I'm sorry…it's okay I will call you. And if you think that I don't call you soon enough you call me."
He leans down and kisses my lips. He tastes like cream cheese, coffee and Christian.
"I really don't want to leave, but I have to get going baby. What are your plans for today?"
"I don't have any plans. Since my bike is still at your place I think I'm going to take a walk to the market, buy some flowers and figure out what to fix my hot boyfriend for dinner. At what time will you get here?" I ask him.
"I will leave as soon as I can, but I missed almost two days and I have back to back meetings today, I will call you as soon as I leave Seattle okay."
"Okay and when you arrive in Seattle" I remind him
"And when I arrive, I promise." He takes my hand "Walk me to the door?"
Leaning against the frame he takes me in his arms and kisses me.
"Lock the door from the inside when you're alone Ana." He kisses me one more time on my forehead and walks to his car. He opens the door, waves and winks. I blow him a kiss and wave until his black car is a tiny spot.
CPOV
As soon as I enter the car I dial Taylor. He picks up immediately.
"Good morning Sir'.
"Taylor, do you have the information I asked you 2 days ago?". He should know better, than to leave me waiting.
"Sir, I have some information, but I'd rather discuss this in person and not over the Phone".
Well, fuck if Taylor doesn't want to discuss this over the Phone something must be off.
"I'll arrive at GEH in one hour. Ask Gail to prepare some clothes for the weekend. I'll be staying at Miss. Steele's. Her motorcycle needs to be delivered at her cottage by this morning, and order two boxes of wine to be delivered at Ms. Steele's home also by this morning".
"Of course, anything else Mr. Grey?".
"No Taylor, that would be all" I end the call and speed dial Andrea.
"Good morning Mr. Grey" Andrea's voice comes through the speaker.
"Andrea I need you to contact Mac and let him prepare the Grace for Monday. I want him to arrange a spot in the Bainbridge Marina".
"Of course Sir". I end the call and embark the ferry. I have to come up with a quicker form of transportation. Maybe I can fly up there with Charlie Tango, that would really save me some time.
When I enter GEH I see the stupid blonde receptionist staring at me with a ridiculous smile on her face. If I wasn't in such a good mood, I would rip her one. Her job is to work, not to stare.
I enter the elevator punch in the code and get my phone to call my girl. She picks up after the first ring.
"Christian?" Her sweet voice sounds in my ear.
"Yeah baby it's me. I just arrived at the office"
"Okay, thank you for letting me know. Have a nice day…".
"You too baby…I.. L …I'll see you later…bye".
"See you later bye Christian." And she's gone.
Holy. Fuck. I almost told her that I loved her. The elevator doors open and I manage to walk out of the elevator. I'm standing there looking at my phone which I still have clutched in my hand.
I love her…I Christian Trevelyan Grey…love Anastasia Steele. Fuck!
"Mr. Grey, are you all right Sir" Andrea asks.
"Couldn't be better Andrea." I look at Olivia who has opened up one button to much on her blouse.
I nod at her and enter my office.
I sit behind my desk and fire up my laptop. I look at my schedule for today and see that I have an hour until the First meeting starts. But first things first.
"Mr. Grey" I hear Olivia's annoying voice "What can I do for you".
'My office now".
Olivia enters my office and I let my eyes scan her outfit. Her breasts are almost popping out of her shirt, her skirt is too short and the pumps she's wearing are suitable for a night club and not for the office. She has put so much makeup on her face that it would make a clown jealous.
Add to that, that she is constantly ogling me. I need to stop this behavior and if she think she can't, then she should find another job.
"Take a seat Olivia." I say pointing at the chair on the other side of my desk.
In the meantime I check my phone incase Ana called me. I know that by stalling this she is getting nervous, but I really don't give a fuck.
"Olivia" I start "How long have you been working for GEH?".
"Three months Sir" her voice sounds meek.
"And how do you like it so far? Did you learn a lot? Is it what you expected it to be?" I'm holding her gaze with my eyes. I know that I look and sound cold.
"Uhm I learned a lot Sir…".
"What's the most important thing you've learned Olivia?".
"I couldn't tell you Sir…there are a lot of things I've learned". She says avoiding my eyes.
"Why is it that you wanted to work at GEH Olivia?" I look at my watch…ten fucking minutes spend on Olivia…
"Um, because it would look good on my résumé Sir?" She says.
I stand up from my chair and walk to the window. I need to put a distance between her and me, because she is not going to like me very much after what I'm going to tell her.
"The way I see it Olivia, and by all means, interrupt me if I'm wrong, you haven't learned much in the three months you have been working here. You don't fuck up more often, because Andrea is checking up on everything you do. And don't let me start on your clothes. What you are wearing now, and what you wear almost every day is not suitable for the office. If I had a daughter, Olivia, I wouldn't even let her leave the house dressed like that, and as for your makeup…didn't anyone tell you that less is more?".
I see her bottom lip trembling. Well great, now we get the waterworks. Just peachy.
"I am willing to give you another chance Olivia. But I will make myself very clear. If you show up another day dressed like that here in my office I will let you go". I keep silent, so that she is able to process what I just said.
"Do you have any questions Olivia?"
"No Sir, it's perfectly clear". She says staring to the ground.
"Good, go home for the day and think about what I've said".
She is standing now and pushing her skirt down. Yeah…that won't work.
"Tell Taylor to come into my office in five minutes".
"Sir". And she leaves my office. Thank. Fucking. God.
I hear a knock on the door and Taylor enters my office with a file in his hand.
"Taylor sit down and tell me what you have". I brush my hands through my hair and prepare for bad news.