It's been a hectic week for me, exams were starting so when I wasn't cooped up in my flat drilling unwanted information into my brain, I was at school or I was at work. I do have to keep my apartment don't I? I still haven't talked to Renji about the text he sent me, you may think it's childish of me but I just can't get distracted right now. Plus Renji looks like he's in a world of his own this whole time, walking around with a deep scowl and a frown on his face. Which is a complete one-eighty from the goof ball idiot that I knew him to be. I haven't even seen Grimmjow this whole week, though he asked multiple times if I want to hang out or do other dirty activities with him. As a response I sighed heavily and explained that when you study for a subject you give no fucks about, a subject that makes your blood boil with how boring it is, you need all your willpower to stay focused and study for said subject. Which is why I need his beautiful self, mouth and hands away from me for the time being.
My eyes droop as I read another stupid story that serves as an analogy to the way things work today, or in fucking WWII. Ugh, it's like nine in the evening and I can't have any coffee right now or I'll never fall asleep. Maybe I'll take a nap for an hour, I ponder and continue to read, then I saw another ridiculously long Russian name. Make that an hour and a half.
I woke up to banging on my door.
"shit... What time is it?" I mutter as I rub my sore neck, sleeping on the couch was a mistake. I looked at my phone for the time "tch, two AM." sleeping on the counch for a whole of six hours is definitely a mistake. Didn't think I could oversleep so much.
"Ichigo... Open up!" I heared the person behind my door slur.
"Grimmjow?" my brow raised as I reached for the handle, rubbing at my sleepy eyes "Grimm I told you I can't hang out right now. And it's the middle of..."
I pushed the door open, finding Grimmjow holding himself against the wall. His hair was shaggy, and his clothes had mud stains on them.
"hey, what happened to you?" my brows pulled together in worry.
He sighed, and raised his hidden face, looking at me "I'm drunk, I'm high and I'm pissed." he growled.
My eyes widened when I noticed the bruises, his face was covered with them, he even had a cut above his brow with the blood rubbed over his forehead. My hands shot towards his and I saw that they were bruised as well. My lips pressed into a thin line and I pulled him inside, closing the door.
"come on, let's get you cleaned up."
I scratch my head in anger and frustration. As I was making my way to the small bathroom in my apartment I noticed that I wasn't being followed there, that made me scowl and turn towards Grimmjow. He looked dejected, and unfocused. He wasn't even looking at me. I swallowed my spit, my eyes dancing over his frame and around the flat, thinking of what to do. I couldn't explain the stir of emotions I was having, but I knew the more dominant one was worry.
A shaky breath pulled into my lungs "Grimmjow, are you okay?" I ask as I near him.
I heared him breathing slightly harder than normal, his jaw set and he had a dangerous scowl on his beautiful face. I neared him some more, holding his arms and peeking at him from below, so I'll get in his field of vision.
"Grimm, come with me." I slide my palms down to entangle our fingers together and I pulled him with me, getting him into the bathroom at last.
He still didn't talk to me, he looked as if he's thinking very hard about what he wants to say, so I let him. I didn't pick at it for the moment. My hands reached for his coat, unzipping it, and putting it aside. I undressed him quietly, watching as his tan skin showed itself. My scowl dipped when I saw some purple and black splotches marring it. And I saw that tattoo of his again, right under his powerful pecs. I traced it, wondering if it meant something to the teenager that was standing now naked with me in my little bathroom in silence.
"what do you think of me?" I heared him rasp. My hand stopped moving over his heated skin. Confusion taking over me.
"what are you talking about?" I glanced at him with question, he averted his gaze and I saw his jaw getting even more tense. I huffed "let's get you cleaned up and then you'll tell me everything okay?" He turned towards the shower and got in, I gathered all his clothes to wash them "do you need help?" I asked but he just shook his head, water already running over his broad shoulders.
I sat on the couch again, after putting his clothes in the wash. What could have happened to Grimmjow? I know he gets into fights now and then but he was never this shaken. I can't help but be on edge, what was with that question he asked me? My body got up, I better do something to occupy me for the time being, it wouldn't help to stress over things I still don't know. I made some tea, sitting on the couch with a full pot and two mugs. I finally heard the door open, and Grimmjow revealed himself to me, dressed in the clothes I left for him.
"hey, how are you feeling?" I asked softly, getting up.
The blue haired teen pressed his soft lips together "I'm okay now." he quietly answered, his blue eyes glancing at me giving me a small smile.
A breath escaped me and I rested my face in my palms "shit, you scared me." "sorry." he apologized, but he still looked like he had something to say, his eyes looked around, stalling, then he asked a weird question again "what are we?" he scowled.
I blinked again, unsure "what... What do you mean by that?" He huffed "I... Had a fight with Nnoi, he said that I'm nothing but a man whore, and what we are doing is just fucking around." he scowled, balling his fists "I know I've never taken sex too seriously, you know that, but I brushed him off. He then said that I could never be with someone like you anyway, that a punk like me that didn't even finish high school could never be something more than a 'good fuck' to someone like you." he swallowed hard "I know he's right, that I'm just some stupid kid getting into fights and wasting my life being intoxicated. I mean, Ive had flings with people only due to my reputation, and I know you always hear some fucked up stuff about me, and that some of that stuff is true But... I just wanted to know how true what Nnoi said was." he finished, biting on his lips.
Now I understand, he probably fought Nnoitora, which explains why he's this bruised. And those words, I knew that Nnoitora didn't care much for me, I guess its just because he thought that I'll disappear eventually anyways after I've had my fill or something. Not that I wanted any attention from him, but it is weird when you don't care who your close friend is seeing. I mean, isn't that kind of weird?
I huffed and pulled him down to sit with me. His blue eyes watched me with uncertainty.
"I... We didn't really talk about this haven't we?" I run my fingers through my hair suddenly feeling a little embarrassed "but..." I closed my eyes, taking a mental breath in to actually say the words that are overflowing in my mind whenever I think about Grimmjow.
"-listen... If you wanna stay as we are, but no strings attached, I'll get it. Really." I heared him murmur.
My eyes snapped open and I grabbed his face, shit, why do I always make him feel worthless? My eyes were glaring at his surprised ones. I got so angry I just spat it all out.
"you are the best thing that ever happened to me Grimmjow. How can you fucking say that when I can't even phantom being close to anyone else?" I scowled.
Then I waited, those tan cheeks had a slight pink ting on them, which was pretty unfitting his personality. But I looked again and found that he looked much younger, even cute. I felt my lips pull into a warm smile.
"uh... Shit, 'sorry." he mumbled under his breath, moving away from my hands that were holding him in place.
"and besides" I shrugged "not finishing school means nothing. I don't know your reason for it, sure, but there are endless possibilities for what you can do in the future. And there are even more different paths you could take to get where you want, or even to get to a pit-stop."
I reached over to run my fingers through his hair, I never knew that Grimmjow had these fears, and these feeling of not being good enough. But it's perfectly understandable, these things flow through everyones minds once in a while. I'm just happy he opened up to me like this, he never talked about himself before. I watched his expression as he chewed his bottom lip.
"all I'm saying, is that anything can happen, even the good things that are ridiculously unexpected. And I don't think that being with someone has something to do with said persons career choice, it's supposed to be for who they are as a person." I just wish I knew that sooner. "anyway, I'm happy that you talked to me about this. Thank you." I finished quietly and played with the longer strands of his hair.
"Ichigo." he took my hand and lowered it, facing me. His blue eyes were hard and determined. I felt my brow crease in confusion "I want you to be mine, all mine." he pressed our entwined hands to his chest.
My eyes widened and I blinked to collect myself, I smirked "well, I'm not some property that you could claim Grimm. But I guess it'll be fine if you're mine as well?"
His face lit up and he had that childish smile on his face again as he chuckled and nodded "I've never been before, but I'm happy it's you." I pulled him to me, and kissed him gently.
I'm happy it's you too.
We went to sleep afterwards, I still had to wake up early tomorrow to finish studying. My exam is the day after tomorrow and I almost finished everything. But I didn't wake up from the alarm on my phone, it was something else that stirred me awake.
I felt something brush over my head gently, my eyes flutter open slowly and I couldnt help but smile sleepily.
"morning." the blue haired teen greeted me.
"mmm... Good morning." I stretch in his arms and bury my face in his neck, letting myself drown in his scent.
He held me closer and started nibbling on my ear, licking it afterwards. A content sigh escaped my lips at the feeling. One of his hands, went lower to take a handful of my butt, massaging it and spreading my legs with his thigh. I moaned quietly. I felt like a pile of goo in his hands.
"Ichi..." he grumbled in my ear "I think I know what I need to do for you to feel more comfortable with me." He pressed his thigh to my morning wood, pulling on my ass so I could get some friction on it and sucked on my lobe. My eyes were rolling back closed.
"I need to make you cum as much as possible." he husked with a cheeky smile against my ear.
I grunted, my breath became heavier. My hands were fisted in his borrowed shirt and one of them circled his waist with an iron like grip to help me rub against him, feeling his thick manhood against my own thigh.
"Grimmjow..." I huffed as he started rolling his hips sensually, pressing his forehead to mine. Our eyes met, flushed cheeks and hooded eyes. He watched me with something predatory in his impossibly blue eyes and I felt a distinctive pull in my chest. I lifted my leg and pulled him towards me, trapping him between my thighs. I felt so hot, I needed more. Pushing him down, I straddled his powerful hips and pulled my shirt over my head, and was immideately rolled over, having Grimmjow pull on my pants, I had that little fear again in the back of my head, but my boxers were still there and soft assuring lips were pressed to my own.
"why..." I started to ask breathless but his kisses shushed me "why are you still dressed?" I managed to moan out when he palmed my hard on.
A smirk was present in front of me as he sat up and pulled at his shirt "taking care of it as we speak." he joked but I couldn't see the humor as I was feeling incredibly impatient.
I pushed myself up and pulled off his sweats, feeling heat form under my stomach at the bulg in his boxers. I licked at it, feeling it twitch as a response. Couldn't help myself, I pulled them off as well, and pressing my tongue onto the slit, Grimmjow hissed, and that just egged me on. I sucked at the head, tasting the precum on my tongue and slowly went down, I sucked hard and fast, getting all of him down my throat. Grimmjow had his hands in my hair, petting it and moving it away from my face, he moaned and tensed his muscles. Ah, how do I love to get him squirming like that. I didn't really give him any chance to stop me, I carressed his stomach, and squeezed his thigh. His fingers intwined in mine on his chest as he came. Murmuring a curse. I swallowed everything, it was thicker than before, he did wait for me didn't he. Suddenly I was pulled up, with lips smushed against my own in a sloppy kiss, I was still hard and hot. I didn't even feel the hands that were sneaking into my underwear and between my cheeks, the moment I did realize that, was when Grimmjow mumbled against my lips.
"can I?" I couldn't even answer him but I nodded. One slick finger went inside carefully, I held onto Grimmjow for dear life, grabbing at his waist. Then another was added, moving around rubbing me. I jerked when he touched my prostate, I was breathing so hard I thought that I would suffocate in the crook of his neck, he felt that and kept rubbing me going faster and faster. I couldn't control my voice, it's been so long since I've been touched like that. It felt so good, I found myself moving with his hand. Soft kisses were pressed to my shoulder to calm me down if needed, but slowly my vision blurred and I came hard. I could only hear my harsh breathes and Grimmjow murmuring softly.
"Ichigo..."
He said my name over and over again, kissing my flushed face. I closed my eyes for a good second and opened them, Grimmjow looked at me and held me closer. "you okay?" he asked me with his voice still a couple tones lower than it usually is. I huffed and nodded an affirmative, then pulling him down to kiss me. We laid there for a couple more minutes and then we heared my alarm go off. I cursed at the offending noise and got up to silence it. My nose scrunched when I felt the wetness that stuck my skin and boxers together. I turned towards Grimmjow still on the bed, he was looking at me with a warm smile, sated.
"wanna take a shower with me?" I offered as I took my boxers off.
"yes, I would love being wet and naked with you." he wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.
I snorted as a response and went inside my bathroom, throwing my soiled underwear in the wash. We ended up with Grimmjow on his knees buriying his nose in my pubic hair. My moans echoed off the walls very well, I noticed. When we sat on the couch later, drinking our coffee I turned to him.
"I understand you're taking this very seriously." I say as I sip.
He smirked and shrugged "I like making you feel good. And I plan on doing it in various ways." he said and licked his spoon clean of cream.
I just woke up fully and I already came twice, I'm not complaining, not at all. I'm just happy he's doing this, thinking of how he can get closer to me. It makes my chest expand and feel warm.
He put his mug down "can I stay for a while?" he asked, widening his eyes just a tad.
My head turned to look at the time "I gotta finish studying-"
He cut me off "Ichigo I just want to hang out with you, I haven't seen you in forever." he sagged back trying to seem as disappointed as he possibly can.
I tried to stifle my laugh at his childish antics, but failed "fine! You're right, I'm sorry. You wanna watch a movie?" I offer.
"no, I wanna know more about you."
That's all you guys get for this time. Next were gonna go a lil deeper.
Also I wanted to say about the RenShiro part I started doing, I guess that most of you guys weren't feeling it. But it has to do something with Ichigo and Grimmjow. You see? It's all connected. There is reason for everything I do. So don't worry guys, if I've changed this story around I would have said something.