Chapter 11
Joey's p.o.v
It has been a couple of days since Lauren told me Ryan is coming back soon and i have been spending pretty much all my time out of the house cause i don't want to risk seeing her it hurts to much. It just constantly reminds me of what could have been. I heard from uncle Max that Ryan is going to be here earlier than they thought he is going to be here on Friday that is in 2 days time instead of in a couple of weeks time. The thought of seeing them together makes my blood boil i have no idea how I'm going to cope when he is actually here. I'm going to have to try and avoid him as much as i can or i might not be able to stop myself from telling him what happened between me and Lauren.
End of Joey's p.o.v
Lauren's p.o.v
Ever since Joey found out about Ryan coming here sooner than expected he has been avoiding me i think he has changed his mind about the whole me and him thing. The worst thing is that while he has been ignoring me it has made me realize that Joey is the one i really want to be with and that I'm falling in love with him. Hell i have already fallen in love with him. I think i have always know that i was falling for him but things being like this between us has just forced me to accept it. I'm just going to have to get over it and try and make things work with Ryan though cause he is coming here for me after all and at least i know that when Ryan says he loves me he actually means it.
I'm just hoping things between me and Ryan are as good as they were before. When i spoke to Ryan yesterday he told me that he has already got us a flat here although i will be spending most of my time here so i can help my dad take care of my mum at night and sometimes during the day when he is at work. My mums treatment is nearly over now I'm just hoping and praying that she is going to get the all clear again I'm trying to act strong around her but inside it kills me to watch her go through this again and well the thought of losing her just kills me even more.
End of Lauren's p.o.v
Tanya's p.o.v
I'm really worried about Lauren i have been for a while now ever since that day at the hospital she just hasn't been the same she has just been so quite lately which scare me cause the last time she was quite like this she was drinking all the time. I'm not sure that it has anything to do with my cancer though. I think it might have something to do with Joey maybe they has had an argument or something cause one minute they are best friends and are always together and the next they won't even be in the same room together for more than a few minutes.I think Lauren might have feelings for someone other than Ryan i don't know why it is just a nagging feeling that i have i just hope that I'm wrong cause i know how much drama that will course and that one of the things Lauren doesn't do well with.
End of Tanya's p.o.v
Lauren's p.o.v
Ryan is coming home today i can't believe how fast the past couple of days have gone. His plane is due to land in 2 hours. I have spent most of the day cleaning and anything else i could do just to take my mind off of Ryan coming back the thought of having to pretend like nothing has changed between us and my feelings are still the same is really starting to scare me i mean what if he sees right through me i have never had to try and hide how I'm feeling before not with Ryan anyway i have always been able to be honest with him that is why we have always been so close. Joey is still avoiding me and it is really starting to get to me i know nothing can happen between us again but the thought of him never talking to me and never being able to be in the same room as me again devastates me.
I walked into the living room to start the hovering when i saw Joey stood there looking at the pictures on the wall he must of heard me though cause he turned round at looked at me for a second before heading for the door.
"Is this how it is going to be between us for the rest of our lives just pretending like each other don't exist " i questioned stopping him in his tracts.
" I'm not pretending that you don't exist. I just think its best if we stay out of each others way as much as we can and get on with our lives" he said turning round to face me.
"That's going to be hard don't you think considering we live in the same house" i said.
"It won't for me. I just think it is better this way" he said sighing.
"Oh right i guess I'll see you around then " i said trying to hold back tears as i ran from the room and up the stairs into my room before collapsing on my bed in floods of tears.
It hurt a lot more than i thought it would for Joey to say that he wants us to continue being this way around each other. I thought he loved me how can someone who loves me just ignore me and tell me that he thinks its best if we have nothing to do with each other i know i couldn't. With every day that passes i fall a little bit more in love with him and if he really felt the same way about me he wouldn't be able to stay away from me.
I had been layed on my bed for a while just thinking about how i managed to make my life such a mess and before i know it a hour had passed and i was on my way to the airport to pick Ryan up.
I'm hoping that seeing him and spending time around him might help take my mind off of Joey.
"Hey" i said out of the window as i pulled up outside the airport. Ryan was already there waiting for me.
"Hey yourself" he said getting in the car before pulling me into a hug.
"So do you have the key for the flat cause i feel really tired after that flight and could do with some sleep before i go to your parents if that is OK" he questioned smiling.
"Yer i have here you go " i said forcing a smile on my face. It turns out the flat that he is renting is Joey's dads flat so we already had a key for it.
"Thanks babe your staying over tonight aren't you " Ryan questioned.
Oh no i didn't even think that he would want me to stay with him tonight i had to think of something that would get me out of this so i don't end up hurting his feelings.
"Sorry i can't tonight i have to help my dad" i lied.
"Oh OK what about tomorrow night " he questioned.
"I don't know it depends if i have work or i need to help out with my mum" i said.
He just smiled at me before squeezing my hand and looking out of the window. I just couldn't face spending the night with him not when i know what he is probably going to want to do. Ever since i slept with Joey just the thought of being with someone else makes me feel like I'm cheating on him somehow. I really need to sort my head out and fast before Ryan starts to get suspicious .
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