Alex's pov
I haven't seen Meredith anywhere. I get a text from Meredith. I just think she called in. It said Alex I knooow I haven't beeen speaking to you. But aleeexxxx.Iiiii neeeed youuuuuu. right now I really neeeed your hehdhejdbhdjfb. Now she's bothers to talk to me. As I was walking Maggie came up to me."Have you seen Mer, I asked everyone and they haven't seen her" Maggie told me panicked.
"No I haven't, we haven't been talking" I replied.
"Okay Alex, I know your upset with her. Get your head of your ass and help look for her" Maggie grumbled.
I storm away angerily. It's been a very stressful couple weeks. With a mind full of thought. I don't even notice Jo run into me.
"Alex have you seen Meredith. I haven't seen her since I told her earlier"? Jo asked.
"You talked her"? I questioned.
"Yes, Alex now help me find her and I have something horrifying to tell you" She stated.
After hearing the words horrorifying. I look up at her. She hands me a note and told me to flip it over.
It said. "Hello, I guess you enjoyed my present. Don't worry more is to come". Signed person you fear. It continued "It wasn't accident you dumb bitch. And you got away, you will pay for the trouble you caused. This side is just for you. If you say anything about the back of this. I will slit your throat open and watch you die a horribly painful slow death. So if you don't want me to do that keep your mouth shut you stupid slut" signed your special lover.
After I finished reading I was speechless. My stomach hurts. Tears that were in my eyes falling instantly. I wiped the left over tears away and shut the letter.
"Oh my god! We need to find Mer" I cried out.
"Alex maybe we should check her room" she suggested.
I agreed and we head over to Mer's. I used my spare key and raced around the house. There was no sign of her. I go to her room. She wasn't there. I checked the closet not there either. I start to worry. Jo comes up to me. I land on the bed with a plop. Jo noticed a bunch of folded paper fall out. She hands me the pile.
I carefully unfold the paper. I read it and the next. The last one was marked yesterday.10/5 was the date. There was a total of 14 letters. She got the last one yesterday. Jo told me she saw Mer with raw eyes like she had been crying. Now it made sense. Being distant and shutting herself down. She was scared and couldn't tell me. I opened the last one. I was ready for more torture.
"So since you have been a good bitch. I'm giving a day off. But if you tell anyone about or deal you dumb whore. They will watch you die in chains" signed your special lover. I threw down the paper. I was anguished. I had no idea where she was. I raced back to the hospital. Jo said the nurse said she was last seen at the ambulance pick up. I decided to ask Baliey if we could look at the security footage.
"Baliey, I looked everywhere. Jo told me that nurse said that by the ambulance drop off is. Mer was last seen. I'm freaked out, Miranda" I begged as tears raced down my cheeks.
"Yes Alex you can see the security footage" Baliey replied.
We head to her office. We watched the security footage. As I was watching I saw Mer.
She was waiting for ambulance what looks like. As She turns to walk a way. Arms wrapped around her neck. It looks like she tried pryed lose. She tried to kick but someone else pull a blind fold over her eyes. Mer struggled to escape. She kicked the guy. They groan and slapped her. As I watch this I feel my eyes starting to tear up. This time She tried to scream for help. They taped her mouth shut. Someone picked her up and threw Mer into the trunk. They start the car and sped off. That was the end of footage. I wiped my eyes. Jo and Baliey does the same thing. I pulled out my phone and reread her text. She meant help. I don't even know if she's alive or not.
" oh my god, I'm such a horrible friend. I Ignored her text for help cause I was mad" I cried.
"Alex you can't blame yourself. You were hurt and that's how anybody would of reacted" Baliey assured me.
" I know, why do I feel so guilty"? I asked weakly.
"I don't know Alex, we better call the police" Baliey said.
"Yes" I said still powerless.
Baliey calls 911. They come and ask some questions. I couldn't take it anymore. I decided to visit Amelia. I get there. I tried my best to act like nothing was wrong. But somehow Amy show right through the act.
"Alex what's wrong"? Amy said panicked. The tears just fell from my eyes. I weakly tried to explain.
"Mer was kidnapped" I cried.
"What"! Amy shouted.
I just break down.
"Alex , just breathe" Amy says soothingly.
I start to cry harder. I was anxious. I want Meredith so badly.
"You love her, don't you" she questioned.
I didn't respond. I just kept crying. Then it clicked. Me feeling heartbroken when Meredith stopped talking to me. I love her, and not just a friend/brother way. More like a soulmate kind of way.
"I guess Jo was right and so is Cristina"I answered back.
Admitting that Cristina was right was hard to do. Now I have tell her she was right. Ugh this going to be torture. I dialed her number. I was trembling. Her voice it was sounded so happy. It broke my heart to have tell her what I need to.
"Hey, Cris" I said drained.
"Alex, is everything okay, you sound really shaken up"? she asked concernly.
As I was talking to her I tried to blink by the tears. But they continued to fall.
"Alex, is everything okay"? She asked again frantically. I breathed in. I took a deep breath and exhaled harshly.
"Cristina have some devastating news to tell you"I told her trying not to chock on my own tears.
I heard her gulp. She took a big breath before relying.
"Alex what's happened"? She asked nervously.
"Mer was kidnapped, we think it's her stalker" I confessed as I chocked on my tears.
Cristina stays quiet. In the background I could her crying. It was heartbreaking. Earth shattering cries. I have always hated watching or hearing women cry. I didn't hear her say anything.
"Cristina, are you okay"? I asked.
"Yeeess, I'm okaaay" Cristina answers with a shaky voice.
"Cris do you want me to fly out there to pick you up"? I offered.
She clears her throat. "No,no I can get back to Seattle" She states.
"Okay" I said unsure what to say.
"I will see you when I land, this time don't forget to pick me up"Cris states still shaken.
"I won't, see you when you land" I replied before hanging up.
After I hang up, I just sit there in silence. I started to think of Mer again. All I wanted was to find her and hold her in my arms. While protecting her. This feeling was still fresh. I start to shut my eyes.
The next day
There was still no word on Mer. Even though it feels like weeks, it's only been a day. And I was missing her like crazy. My phone started ringing. I pick up the phone.
"Hello" I said.
"Alex I landed, can you pick me up"? She asked.
"Yes,I'm on my way" I replied. She hangs up.
I leave the house. I was at Mer's because Maggie still couldn't take care of the kids by herself. As I was driving. I kept thinking about Meredith. Lately I haven't been able to stop. It's over powering. I wish I could just tell her. This is a never ending nightmare. I pull up to the airport. Cris gets in the car and sits in passenger seat. I put the car in drive.
After 20 minutes of complete dead silence. I could hear little cries. I look over and see Cristina in tears. I pull the car over. Cristina notices the car has stopped. She looks over at me with her desperate pleading eyes. I move closer to her and wrap my arms around her. She leans her head over my shoulders. She continues to cry. Her tears kept falling. After 3 more minutes in dead silence she finally lifts her head from my shoulder. Which was now soaked with her salty tears. She looks up. Her eyes were bloodshot and red. She doesn't even bother wiping them away. I took my two fingers and gently wiped the falling tears away. She smiled a little bit. It was a small one, but it was more pleading. She clears her throat.
"Alex, thanks for letting me cry I really need it" she said with a small smile.
"Your welcome, I will always be here when you need me" I smiled softly back.
I put the car back in drive and we head to Grey Sloan. We were greeted by Jackson, April, Baliey, Webber, Owen and Amelia in her wheel chair. I was pulled into a group hug. Cris looked like happier. She actually hugged Amelia. I was surprised along with Owen. Amelia had tears in her eyes. Owen gave her paper bag to breath into. She eventually calmed down.
It was time go pick up the kids. Cristina and I hugged everyone goodbye. We were both pulled into the group hug again. This time the group hug was filled with tears. Jackson, Webber and Owen cried too. I was all out of tears. We pulled apart. I waved goodbye. I picked up the kids. Zola runs up to me. Baliey keeps asking about Meredith. I have no idea what to say to them. Maggie hands me Ellis. Ellis giggles when I tickle her tummy. Cris laughs at me.
"If your going to laugh, why don't you play with her" I snapped playfully.
"Maybe Fine I will" she laughed.
She grabs Ellis in her arms. Ellis is two years old now.
"Dada" Ellis giggles.
My face turns white. She's never called me that before. Cristina notices the look of shock on my face. She comes by me.
"Alex, it's okay, your the only father figure she knows. Your not replacing Derek. And I can tell you truly love these kids like their your own" Cristina said in a sensitive tone.
"So I have to tell you something that is hard to admit. You were right. I'm in love with Meredith. I don't know how long, I have had these feelings about her" I regretfully said.
I saw a huge smile brighten up her face. It quickly turns into a smirk.
"I knew it, evil spawn you finally passed my test. I'm retiring evil spawn nickname. You have no idea how happy this makes me" Cris expresses with a huge smile.
"I think I have some idea" I groaned regretting telling her.
"No you don't. Alex I have known for a while now that you have loved her. I just never brought it up. Alex, Derek's gone. He can't come back. I know that Mer loves you too. She just scared to finally let go of Derek. He made Meredith bright and shiny. Even how much I didn't like it. I was happy, she was happy. Now she's dark and her old self before she met him. But you bring the bright and shiny out of her too. I never seen her so happy, when she's with you. You make her smile more ways her I thought was possible. So don't give up, Alex. Fight for her. You tell her. Jackson told me what Mark said to him before he died. That's why he told April at her wedding. Don't you want to have her and her have your children. Even if it's not my fantasy. Go be happy. Your not happy with Jo. You act like you are. But your not. I can see you are just dying in this relationship with Jo. Personally I never liked her" Cristina encourages.
" what if we never find her or when we do find her, she dead"? I cried.
"Alex, don't think like that, stay strong" She replied.
I start break down. Cristina throws her arms around me and pats me softly. I start to cry harder. Everything was rushing at me. I was so emotionally exhausted. That night I cried myself to sleep. Why can't I have a happy life? I have had a tough life since I was 6. Cristina lays next me and falls asleep also.