CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER TEN
I sat on my bed pondering on what was to come. I was stunned. I was still trying to process what had happened only minutes before. I had three options. I could tell Shane the truth, but that would affect the entire family. I could pretend like nothing had changed, and go about things as if they were normal, or I could break up with him. But truthfully I didn't want to break up with him, but I knew that if I didn't sooner or later I would have to tell him the truth. But what then? He might accept me for what I am, and for what my family was, but what if he ran away in fright? What if that didn't bother him, but what bothered him was that I lied to him? I wanted to scream! This was too hard, and I wished I didn't have to deal with it.
I lifted myself off my bed slowly and walked down stairs. "Alice? Rosalie?" I called. Maybe they would know what to do. They were always supportive of my relationship with Shane.
"In the kitchen!" Rosalie called from the other room.
I slowly walked over and jumped up on the counter and sat down. I adjusted myself so I was facing Alice and Rosalie who were studying a cookbook. "Umm, guys? Why are you reading a cookbook? Last I checked you didn't eat food." I asked skeptically.
"Oh, Esme wants to cook you a new meal or something, and she asked us to go to the store and pick up the ingredients later. I told her that she should send Bella because she would know her way around the grocery store, but I think your mom was busy or something so we got volunteered for the job." Alice sighed.
"Oh." I starred at the two vampires reading the cook book. "I need your advise." I stated.
"On what?" Rosalie asked, not really paying attention.
"On Shane and Jacob." Both of their heads snapped up, and turned all of their attention on me, as they slid the cookbook aside.
"Okay, were listing." Rosalie smiled. Apparently ready to be my psychiatrist.
"Well I talked to Jacob today, as I'm sure you know." They both nodded. "Well he brought up a good point. I have to tell Shane the truth one of these days, otherwise I can't be with him. And no matter what, one day we will leave." I was starting to cry as I said the words out loud. "I just don't know what to do."
"You should stay with Shane!" Rosalie explained, nearly cutting me off.
"Now Rose, you didn't even think about it." Alice looked at her. "Well…" she turned to face me, "in my opinion, I think you should stay with Shane because you love him. And you don't have to tell him the truth right away. Spend some more time with him, get to know him better. And if spending the rest of your life with him is the right choice then tell him. But remember, just because he loves you know doesn't mean that when he knows the truth that he will be okay with it."
"And remember that unless he was to become a vampire, you couldn't spend the rest of your life with him." Rosalie looked up at me. "Now I would choose Shane any day over that dog, but-and I hate to admit this- the mutt will stay the same age forever if he wanted to. And for you, he would."
I thought about it for a little bit. It was true, the only way that Shane and I could be together forever is if he were to become a vampire, and besides my mother and creepy, obsessed vampire wannabes, humans generally didn't want to give up their mortality. "So you think I should stay with Shane?"
"Yes." Rosalie blurted out. I think she would want me to be with anyone besides Jacob.
"Follow your heart, not your head." Alice said. That made sense. My heart told me that I loved Shane, but my head told me the reasonable choice was Jacob.
"Thanks guys." I walked out of the room and into the living room where my dad was sitting listing to music. I went and sat next to him thinking about the advice I had just received.
"Yes Rose would agree to anyone who wasn't Jacob." Dad said pulling me out of my reverie.
"What? Oh, yeah you're probably right." I laughed. It was silent for a moment. What should I do Dad? I thought.
"Well Alice's advice was good. You should follow your heart. Believe me; I left your mother once because my head told me that logically your mom would be safer away from me. But if I had followed my heart, I never would have left." He smiled a small smile.
But my heart says stay with Shane. But I can't be with him forever, so what happens when we leave?
"Well before I sound really negative, I want you to know that from what I heard Shane thinking the two times we've met, I like his thoughts a lot more than Jacobs. He keeps his "fantasies" very quite."
"Eww! Dad, please, don't." I stopped him, practically yelling.
He chuckled. "All I'm saying is that from what I could gather, he really likes you. Now please don't think I'm trying to pick a side here, but think about this: you're only in your sophomore year, although we should have made you a junior…. But the point I'm trying to make is that you have three years-unless we move in two- to figure out your relationship with Shane. And believe me if it doesn't work out, Jacob will be right there waiting for you." He laughed.
Thanks Dad I smiled at him, then leaned over and gave him a hug. Then I got up and walked outside. I started running back to my house to go sleep. It was getting late, and I needed rest for tomorrow. Everyone was leaning towards me staying with Shane; I just hoped that if that was what I chose it would be the right choice. I did love Shane, but what if it hurt too much to leave him?
I laid in bed thinking about the coming morning. What was I going to do? Follow my heart, or go with logic?
A/N: I know its short, and not my best writing. It was my weekend with my mom this weekend, so i was not near my computer. :( So when i got home Sunday afternoon i tried to escape to my room, but my dad wanted to spend time with each other. But i wrote something! Anyway, please review and tell me what you think!! :)