Raven's eyes fluttered open as the sun kissed her face. She got out of Beastboy's arms and crawled out of bed. They had made it a routine for him to spend the night in her room, at first it was just accident of them talking till the fell asleep but everytime he had left she would wake shaking in cold sweat, tremors running down her very spine, and screams snaking their way out of her throat. Since everyone else's rooms were two floors below only Beastboy could hear her heartbreaking shrills, since his room was two doors away. This new accommodation did not make their relationship any more physical, but their emotional intimacy grew a hundred times more every single day.

She rummaged through her drawers and decided on an emerald skin tight halter top, with black short shorts, with her rainbow sandals, it was a beautiful spring day in the mid 80's. She entered her shower and began her cleaning process. When she went back into her room with her hair still wet she found her bed done and Beastboy sitting on her bed grinning at her, "I love how you look in green. It suits you."

She walked over and intertwined her arm around his bare green muscular one, "Yeah, I know, I also feel very at ease with it too. Good karma?" she smiled back.

They had breakfast of fruit and tea on the roof and were chatting happily away. Beastboy put his hand on hers and began, "Rae, I think it's time we told everyone else about this. They have a right to know, I mean it's only fair."

Raven stiffened, "What? What do you mean…?"

"The truth Rae, you know? I think they should know."

She pulled her hand away and felt her eyes get hot and her throat get tight, "What the hell do you mean?! They have a right?! I think I get to choose who knows and who doesn't! I thought you of all people would understand that decision!" she cried.

He stood up and went over to her, "Rae, I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you, if you don't want anyone to know about us, it's fine. We can be one of those secret couples," he winked.

Her eyes widened, "Oh Azar. I thought you were talking about…shit…I'm sorry! I…oh my goodness. Of course we'll tell them," she hugged him tightly, "I'm so sorry, will you forgive me?"

"Of course Rae, ha, sorry I didn't realize that I was alluding to that." 'Although I do think it's about time we tell them…' he thought to himself. "So when do you wanna tell them?"

She shrugged, "Whenever you want, I guess."

"Right now then!" he grinned, he picked her up bridal style and ran down the stairs. She clutched at his shoulder, trying to keep herself balanced, surprised at his agility, "Ha, you haven't seen me fight in a while have you? I've figured out a way to only express the abilities of animals, like super speed, and strength, but flight…haha I don't think that's possible." She nodded unable to speak, she felt the whole room spinning.

He put her down when they got to the door of the living room, "Ready?"

She stepped around clumsily still frazzled from the ride, she nodded while she tried to fix her hair, "You look beautiful Rae, don't worry."

They entered not holding hands, but only because Raven had her arms around herself. She felt so out of place, when was the last time she had seen them? When was the last time she had even tried to talk to them? Robin. She had talked to him last, but that was under such a strained circumstance. She felt her cheeks flush, what did they think about her now? A depressed loner that made their life in the tower awkward? What did Robin tell them after their conversation? She felt herself get dizzy and her stomach turn.

"Raven? Raven? Raven? Earth to Raven…?"

She blinked and realized that everyone was staring at her now, and this made her knees weak. Had everyone just been staring at her while she was having an internal break down? She felt a familiar arm wrap around herself and she leaned into it like an old habit.

Beastboy cleared his throat, "So you guys there's something that we'd like to share with you guys."

"Oh! You are expecting isn't it! I can see from Raven's new glow!" Starfire squealed.

Raven's face turned into a crimson red, and she felt herself feel even sicker now.

"No I think Raven just feels a bit uncomfortable Star, and I think you just made it a little worse," Cyborg chuckled.

"Oh, my apologies Raven. Now that I see you clearer I see that you look thinner and paler than ever!" Starfire tried to fix up, but she realized her mistake again when Raven pulled the hoodie of her jacket over her head, "Oh Raven, no I…please what is your news?"

"Yeah guys, what's up?" Robin asked.

Beastboy cleared his throat, "Well we just wanted to let you guys know, that we are an official couple. Just so you guys know, you know?"

"Oh wonderful news!!" Starfire squealed and flew over to give Raven a bone crushing hug, making Raven even more uncomfortable and a need to leave. She hadn't let anyone else touch her since the incident and even though it was only Starfire she felt completely terrified, and began to struggle out of the embrace, Starfire let go with a hurt face and Raven immediately felt terrible, "Oh Star, I'm sorry I'm just a little sore…" and she gave her a smile.

"Well I'll bet," Cyborg chuckled.

Raven's face turned red once more, she stormed out of the room feeling completely tired all of a sudden. Did he really think that she would put out so simply? Is that why those jerks had taken advantage of her, cause they thought that she would have eventually fucked someone anyways? She felt herself shake, but she heard her Garfield yelling on the other side, "What the fuck Cyborg? Unlike you, we have control over ourselves okay? We don't come in the early hours of the morning from Titans East's tower or make the whole tower shake when you're simply fucking each other. And now thanks to your perverse thoughts you made Raven feel like crap, so next time before you go off and judge think about who you are talking about and think about your own flaws before you go off and judge us." Beastboy shouted. Raven felt herself go weak, now, she had caused an argument, everywhere she went she caused trouble and she ran off and flew away from the tower.

"Sorry man, I… I wasn't thinking," Cyborg apologized, "I really am, you know me…I…sorry."

"Well congratulations to you two, I know you guys are familiar with the rules," Robin said.

Beastboy nodded and ran out of the room to go look for his Raven. But he didn't find her anywhere when he looked out the window he saw that the once sunny sky was now covered in dark massive clouds, and then he heard thunder and saw a crackle of lightning. 'Please, don't tell me she's out there." He thought to himself but he knew she was, something told him she was.

He went out looking for her, thinking hard at the different possible places she could be. He should've waited to tell them, but no, in a way he had wanted to boast at the wonderful girl he could call his. But now he lost her somewhere but he was going to find her, he had to, he would not rest until he did. For two hours he looked with no luck but he soon felt for some reason an impulse to go to the old library. Something told him that she would too, she was connected to it whether she liked it or not. But not in the way she felt it, no, the way he saw it, it was proof that she was strong enough to fight off any evil she encountered.

Sure enough he found her there, sitting on the roof top fingering something in her hand. She was drenched and was shaking, whether or not she felt it he knew she was freezing. She didn't hear him come next to her, it wasn't until he touched her arm that she jumped startled. She gave him a scared look and turned away. He grabbed her hand and looked at what she was holding and a smile spread across his face. It was the penny he had given her three years ago…how did she find it?

"What do you think I've done for the past hours?" Raven said, answering the unsaid question.

"Rae, lets go home."

She shook her head, "No."

"Why? Cyborg didn't mean it, you know he'll do anything for a joke and Starfire, well you know how she can slip up."

"That's just it, why is it that they both implied that I was so easy to fuck? Do I really give off that message? Is that why this all happened? Because I looked like an easy fuck? A girl that was gonna spread her legs anyways? Is that why!?" she was sobbing now, shaking uncontrollably. Beatsboy pulled her into his arms, "No Rae, no. If anything to me, you seem like that girl that respects herself enough to know when she is ready. And Raven, what those shitheads did, that didn't count, it doesn't count until you choose that's when it means something okay?"

She nodded into his chest, she felt so numb and so confused, but she promised herself she would figure out why this all happened…maybe that's it. It just happened. A spur of the moment type of thing, something she couldn't stop. That's all it was…did it hurt? A hell lot it did, but she couldn't stop it as much as that pained her to realize. Some people really are just sick and don't have any sense and do that to people, she was not the first and she knew she would not be the last, but she would not let this damage her friendship with everyone she had worked too hard to lose it all again.

"Lets go home Rae?"

"Yes…I wanna go home."

He swung her onto his arms bridal style and ran home, and under his breath he sang,

"I was a quick wet boy

Diving too deep for coins

All of your straight blind eyes

Wide on my plastic toys

And when the cops closed the fair

I cut my long baby hair

Stole me a dog-eared map

And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?

Flightless bird, jealous, weeping

Or lost you?

American mouth

Big bill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat

Cursing my sore blunt tongue

Watching the warm poison rats

Curl through the wide/white fence cracks

Kissing on magazine photos

Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean

Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?

Flightless bird, brown hair bleeding

Or lost you?

American mouth

Big Bill looming"

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