At her first scream my cold dead heart twisted in my chest. Why must I keep causing her this pain….
Edward POV
A look of panic rushed over her face. Had she changed her mind? She looked over to Alice for help. This begging and pleading look in her eyes. She just wanted the pain to go away I didn't have to be able to red her thoughts to know what was wrong.
"Edward I can't stand to see her like this I have to go I am so sorry" Alice told me in her mind. I nodded at her. She ran out of the room sobbing. I had to do something to keep the pain down for her. I remember when I went through this; it felt like a fire was consuming me from the inside out. I put my hand on her face trying to keep her cool. I could see the sweat starting to form on her face.
"Carlisle, is there nothing we can do?" I asked. I was so worried about her. I knew that this was going to make her un breakable but the see her small and still fragile body twisting and jerking scared me.
"If you don't mind I can sedate her, it won't take away the pain but it will make her unaware of it" He thought. I didn't look up as he walked away. She turned her head to me. She opened her mouth to say something
"Edward," she whimpered "thank you, I know you didn't want me around but thank you for saving Me." she said between the muffled screams.
What? Silly Bella. Is that why she has been acting so cold? Did she think that I didn't want her around? Ugh. No wonder she thinks that. That's what I told her so long ago. The horrible night that I ripped myself away from my mate. I am so stupid. Carlisle walked up to the side of the table and put a needle into her hand. Her eyes grew foggy and heavy.
"I love you Edward." She managed to get out before she went to sleep for the last time.
My mouth fell open. If my heart was still beating then it would have stopped dead in that instant. She said the thing I have only heard in my day dreams all this months. She really did love me. I had underestimated her feelings for me all this time. I thought because she was a human that her emotions could fade. But I was wrong. Why couldn't I have seen this back then? I could have saved her from all the pain she has been through. If I hadn't of left in the first place then she would have never been down in La push with those filthy dogs. And I would have never had to turn her. I was the stupidest creature on this planet. Had I not only cause the love of my life pain but I had also hurt my family. I could see how much all of them truly loved her when we left. The entire family changed... even rose. I left because I couldn't stand to see them like that. Knowing it was my fault, but if Bella was happy then that was all that mattered to me. I left to find that Bitch of a being Victoria but I wasn't very good at tracking. So I came home, But all I did was sit in my room I could hear Esme's thoughts every once in a while I hate how Edward is hurting, I wish I could help my son. I was hurting all of them. And then I come back to find her hurt. I didn't so anyone any good! If it wasn't for the fact that I had made it in time and that Bella was going to be ok then I would leave right now and end everyone's suffering. I couldn't hurt anyone if I was dead.
"Edward…Edward…don't leave me…" Bella said restlessly in her sleep.
"Carlisle, I am taking her to my bed." I said too quiet even though I knew he could hear me.
I picked her up in my arms. When the fire that was now her skin touched mine her entire body seemed to relax. The cold must feel good on her skin. I walked her up stairs to my room and I laid her on my bed. I took off my shirt and put on a pair of shorts. I climbed in bed with her and wrapped my self around her. The twitching all but stopped and I refused to move until she was done.
Every now and then she would start to scream and Carlisle would come back in and re sedate her. About two days in to her change I realized I needed to feed. My eyes were a dangerous shade of red. Her scent was all around me. My throat burned. Alice burst into the room.
"Go Feed NOW!" she demanded at me. I held my Bella tighter
"She needs me if I leave then she will get hot again. I cant leave her when she is in pain" I said back
"If you don't go then you will kill her. I will stay with her until you get back she wont wake up till tomorrow anyway." It took all of my will power and logic to pry myself away from the bed. As soon as I stood up Alice was in my place. I ran into the near by forest and found the first thing I could and fed. That's when I smelt it. Wet Dog. All of my senses went on over drive. I heard its thoughts
" I have lost her for good. My Bells is going to be a leech. I cant belive I did that. I need to her. I just want one look at her before I lose her forever. If I hadn't of lost control then he wouldn't of come back and she could have been mine forever"
It was HIM. The filthy mongrel who hurt her. I started to charge at the sent. When I reached the end of the trail I found the boy sitting on a log sobbing like the pathic being he his.
"You" I hissed out. His head snapped up. He looked at me like I was the one who had scared her.
"Why did you have to come back? She could have been happy now she is going to be damned." He said.
"I am going to rip out your heart for what you did to her." I yelled at him.
He phased and I got in position to fight. That's when I heard the faintest whisper. "Edward…Edward" I was still close enough to the house to hear Bella in her sleep.
The wolf seemed to hear it as well. He howled in pain and ran off. For now I am going to re turn to My Bella but it's not doe I will have revenge for this" I thought to my self.
I went back to the house and held her till about mid day the next day. Her heart stopped and she gasped as her eyes flew open. I looked down at her face.
"Bella?" I asked as she took a unnecessary breath. Her red eyes flashed up at me. She really could be mine forever…
To be continued