5 days later
Casey walked out of his office, mad as Kelly kept walking behind him. He knew he had been absent with his mind during the last call and that was really bad. Really bad. He understood where Kelly was coming from but he was on edge, cranky and stressed. Gabby was coming home this afternoon and there was so much to clean up and fix in the house. Well, most of it was cleaned up and fixed. He just hadn't had time to do the dishes. He shouldn't worry so much, it was all going to be alright.
''Where were you with your mind the last call?'' Severide asked again as they were almost in the common room and Matt ignored him, went to get coffee. On the call, he had asked Matt to keep an eye on the car moving as they had tried to free the guy but when the car had moved, Matt was somewhere else with his mind and it pissed Kelly off, because it could have hurt the guys from squad.
''Matt, you are not here with your mind. What is wrong?'' Kelly asked angry, everybody in the common room looking at them and Matt turned around from the coffee machine, angry.
''Look, I said sorry, what do you want other than that? I wast paying attention, sorry. But nothing bad happened!'' Casey said mad as he poured coffee in his mug.
''You could have put us in danger.'' Kelly said angry.
''I didn't.'' Matt said as he turned around an looked at Kelly. He knew he had been with his mind somewhere else and that bad but nothing had happened and he just wanted Kelly to shut up about it.
''Neither did you pay attention.'' Kelly said, mad, as Matt didn't really seem to be listening to him. Well, Matt was listening but he didn't seem to realize what Kelly meant and that didn't seem like Matt, because he was always very precise and passionate.
''Stop nagging me!'' Matt said then as the threw his mug on the table, snapping as he was so annoyed and angry. ''I got enough on my mind right now with Gabby returning from the hospital and the last thing I need is you walking behind me, telling me what I do wrong and not stopping about it!'' He yelled angry. The coffee was dripping off the table out of the mug that had fallen over.
The common room was silent and Matt's blood turned cold as he realized what he just said. Getting red in the face he ran out of the common room, into his office. He tried to stay calm as he realized he had just snapped. Oh no, oh no. Gabby was coming home this very afternoon and he had snapped.
There was a knock on the glass of his office door and Kelly opened it.
''Matt, I am sorry. I shouldn't have bothered you like that.'' He closed the door behind him.
''What is wrong with Gabby?'' Kelly asked worried. He hadn't known better than her being with her family in the Dominican republic but Matt had clearly said she would be coming home from the hospital and hopefully nothing bad was up.
''Nothing.'' Matt sighed and he sat down on the bed. Kelly didn't know what to do about his friend, especially now eh didn't want to force Matt into talking so he left the office. The door opened again and Matt didn't even look up at Shay entered and sat down next to him, laid her arm around his shoulders.
''I told them.'' Matt said as he looked to the floor. His shoulders started to shake as he tried to keep himself from crying.
''I did. I told them why she was in the hospital because they were worried. Matt, don't tell her. I will take the blame.'' Shay said. He had told them because she knew they were worried about Gabby, they would never be mean or judgemental that she had had a breakdown because of the job.
Matt tried not to cry as he knew he failed Gabby really bad by this. He hadn't wanted to tell it in the common, not at all. But it snapped. he just said it without thinking and now they all knew.
''I had to tell them, but it is my fault, Matt. I told them why she was in the hospital.'' Shay said again, hoping that Matt would put the blame on her because she didn't want Gabby to get upset with him as he had done so much for her when he was in the hospital and he had missed her so bad.
Shortly after they left the station, Matt with a nasty feeling inside as he knew he couldn't blame Shay. It would make him feel even worse and it was not honest. It was his fault, not Shay's. Slowly he drove to the hospital and saw Gabby waiting outside. She jumped in his arms and kissed him, long, after the weeks they couldn't kiss any longer than a short peck. She was almost crying as he put her down again and looked at him with an emotional smile, so glad she was finally going home. To their home.
They got in the car and Matt drove home, trying to assemble all his courage to tell her but he couldn't. They walked into their home and Matt excused the mess.
''It's barely anything. Just doing the dishes and it's all perfect again.'' Gabby smiled and Matt nodded. He was so glad she was home. Maybe he wouldn't have to tell...no, he had to. She would find out anyway as soon as her first shift. He could better tell her honestly.
After doing the dishes they sat down on the couch to watch a movie and Gabby laid against his shoulder. His fingers played with her hair and he closed her eyes, so happy he was finally home but the burden of his secret was pushing on his heart and mind and he knew he had to tell her.
''Babe...about starting working again...'' He started.
''Next shift I return to 51 and it will be like nothing ever happened. Except for therapy three times a week, but I will plan those outside of shift.'' She said with a smile as she looked at him, expecting Matt to smile back but instead he looked guilty.
''They don't know...right?'' She asked fearful.
''I...I snapped and I...I am so sorry.'' He said as he looked at her. He wanted to hug her but she stood up from the couch and walked away, crying.
NOTE: Matt snapped by accident, but can Gabby forgive him? Will this cost each others trust and the friendship between Shay and Gabby? Can Matt make it up to her? Or do you think she shouldn't be angry because nobody at 51 will ever blame her? But is Gabby really doing as well as she tells Matt or is she still experiencing things she shouldn't?
Thank you so much for reading. At first it wasn't my intention to have Matt snap, but I think it is an interesting side of their relationship to explore because they of course both want to stay together but can they even now Matt broke Gabby's trust by accident? I hope you still liked this although it is maybe not what you wanted to see but i hope you still want to follow the story - otherwise it would also get very short. Please tell me what you thought by leaving a review! Thank you!