Bella's POV:

When Edward had pulled away from our kiss I didn't understand why until I heard whimpering and barking. I then looked up at Edward. His eyes had changed from their usual topaz to an ominous and slightly frightening black. I looked at him warily. He must have felt my eyes on him because he looked up at me. His jaw was clenched tightly. If he had been human it probably would have been broken by now with the amount of force he was using at that moment. All of the self control that he had accumulated over the past few weeks would be thrown out the window all because of a tiny dog.

"Bella go in the house...now!" He demanded. I gave him a weird look, and if I didn't see it with my own eyes I wouldn't have believed it, but Edward's eyes got a shade darker. I stood there as still as a statue. "NOW!" He roared. I quickly ran inside just as Esme's children were running out onto the patio shouting 'Buddy'. I quickly closed the door, but watched as Jasper wrapped his arm around Edward's neck in a choke hold. Edward growled loudly, and flipped Jasper on his back. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Edward. My Edward was behaving like a monster. When Jasper stood up he acted as if he was flipped on his back on a regular basis. I shook my head hoping to get rid of these images but sadly there they were. Standing in front of me. Plain as day. Emmett bent down to a crouched position, and pounced on Edward like a hungry cougar ready to kill his prey. Edward growled and kicked beneath Emmett's iron grip.

"GET OFF OF ME!" Edward roared.

"No!" Emmett shouted. "This is for your own good!" Edward continued to get out of his grasp. I finally opened the door, and walked out slowly. Alice soon came running towards me, and pushing me back inside.

"Alice, let me go." I said calmly to the strong little pixie.

"No!" She stated firmly.

"I need to talk some sense into, Edward." I stated.

"Bella, you can get hurt." She said softly. I shook my head.

"No, I won't."

"Yes, you will."

"No, I won't."

"Yes, you will."

"You know, in the time frame that we just spent arguing, I could have already had Edward acting normally." I stated. She rolled her eyes.

"If Emmett and Jasper can't stop him then what makes you think you can?" She asked putting her hands on her hips.

"I love him." I stated. She sighed heavily, and pulled me over to Edward. I smiled triumphantly, but my smile quickly faded when I saw the amount of pain Edward was in. Emmett quickly turned to look at me and Alice.

"What do you think you're doing Alice! She could get killed!" He shouted at his little sister. She ignored him, and pushed Emmett off of Edward. I then took this opportunity to lean down next to Edward. He was breathing heavily even though he didn't need to anymore, and he was gripping the floor of the patio so tightly that you could see some of the finished wood already starting to come out.

"Edward..." I started softly as I slowly put my hand on his head and brushed away some of his soft bronze hair. He groaned and turned to look at me. I didn't miss the love shining even in his dark eyes. "Edward, calm down." I whispered to him as I continued to brush away his hair.

"The burning in my throat..." He croaked as he tried to speak despite his possibly dry throat. "It-it hurts." He stuttered. I kissed his cheek gently as I continued to whisper to him.

"It's okay, I'm here, and I'll help you get through this." I smiled weakly at him. I hated how my mouth seemed to have a one-up over my brain. I didn't know how I would follow through with this promise, but I suppose for Edward I could try any way possible. It broke my heart seeing him like this. In pain. Trying to fight his natural instincts. For me. As I was lost in my thoughts I completely failed to realize that Edward was now sitting upright and rubbing my hand gently. His eyes were back to their beautiful shade of topaz. He smiled at me. I smiled back. He then closed his eyes and leaned in. I did the same. Our lips were just centimeters apart. My heart was racing. It stopped when I realized he wasn't kissing me yet.

"Thank you." He breathed. His icy breath hit me hard and I nearly passed out. He chuckled softly. Then stood up and held out his hand for me. I took it graciously. Then Edward growled again. I sighed heavily.

"Edward..." I started. He looked at me and smiled.

"Don't worry, love. I'm not going to attack anyone...yet." He snarled as he looked at Esme's children with piercing eyes. "I just want to know who the hell brought a dog into this house!" He yelled. Emmett moved forward cautiously.

"Guilty." He said with a shrug of his shoulders and raised his hands in the air; much like an apprehended suspect would if they were being arrested. Edward paced back and forth and ran a hand through his hair mumbling under his breath. If I wasn't paying attention, I would have missed the several profanities that Edward spoke a tad louder. I expected he did this so Emmett would hear. "Dude! It was an accident chill!" Emmett said. Edward growled.

"Chill? Chill? I almost ate a defenseless dog. My girlfriend was put in danger, and you want me to chill?" He asked incredulously. Emmett shrugged.

"Umm yes?" He answered questioningly. That's when Edward snapped. He rolled around on the floor with Emmett, both trying to come out victorious. Finally Jasper grabbed Edward and Emmett stood up cracking his jaw.

"Are you honestly, always this stupid?" Edward asked.

"What did I do?" Emmett asked dully. Every one of us scoffed and shook our heads in dismay.

"We're all vampires Emmett, I'm a newborn. Did you ever stop to think how having a dog here would affect me?" He asked. Emmett shrugged.

"I guess not." He then punched Edward playfully almost knocking him over from the amount of force and grinned stupidly. "No harm no foul though, eh buddy?" He asked. Jasper shook his head at his brother's obvious stupidity.

"No harm no foul?" Edward asked. He then turned to look at Jasper. "May I please have permission to knock some sense into him?" He asked. Jasper motioned to his brother without a second thought.

"Be my guest." He grinned. Edward stepped closer to Emmett, who then held up his hands again.

"Look man I'm sorry! I was just trying to lighten the mood a little!" He pleaded. Edward just kept getting closer and growled. "Please, please, please don't rip my arms off!" He begged getting down on his knees. Edward smiled victoriously. Obviously happy at the fact that he held more power over Emmett.

"Next time you do something stupid like this, I can pretty much guarantee you will not have any limbs at all." He warned. Emmett stood up and nodded.

"Got it!" He said doing the 'wink and the gun' at Edward, who rolled his eyes. He then closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose, like he usually did when he was stressed.

"Now get that mongrel out of my face." He demanded still holding his nose. Emmett nodded, and went inside with the dog. His siblings soon followed. Once they had all left, Edward sunk into one of the patio chairs throwing his head back. "I'm sorry, my Bella." He apologized. I raised an eyebrow and sat across from him, taking his hands in mine.

"Sorry for what?" I asked. He looked at me and sighed.

"For having to see that. Me. The beastly, grotesque, hideous monster that became of me just a while ago." I shook my head.

"You aren't seriously apologizing for being a vampire are you?" I asked. He raised an eyebrow.

"Yes?" He answered the same way Emmett had before. I shook my head.

"Edward, Edward, Edward..." I started. He then grinned at me.

"When did we switch roles?" He asked. I smiled.

"Just now."

"Very well. Go on." He instructed.

"I can't believe you're saying sorry because of what you are. It was your instinct, you can't change that. It will always be there."

"But if I wasn't this disgusting thing we wouldn't-" I stopped him.

"First of all. You are not disgusting. Edward you're beautiful and I love you." He groaned and pulled his hands away.

"How can you love me after what I just did?"

"I will love you no matter what." I answered truthfully. He shook his head.

"Do you enjoy putting yourself in danger?" He asked sarcastically. I rolled my eyes.

"I love you, and I would climb even the tallest mountain, swim in the deepest ocean, or walk the highest tight rope to prove it to you."

"Yeah, you definitely enjoy putting yourself in danger." He muttered.

"Edward." I said sternly. I was trying to be serious and he was being sarcastic.

"Sorry..." He began. "I just don't understand why you love me so much, and would put your life on the line for me. I'm not worth it, Bella. I'm not worthy of you." He said looking down. I shook my head.

"Do you want to know what I love about you?" I asked. He nodded weakly.

"It would surely help me comprehend why you're so insane." He noted sarcastically. I rolled my eyes for the umpteenth time. I then moved to his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck, as he wrapped his around my waist. I began kissing along his perfect jaw.

"I love your tenacity. Your intelligence. Your beauty. You're over protectiveness. Your amazingly sweet ways. And your tremendous heart." I said giving him small kisses all over his face. He smiled and held one of my hands. "You're perfect, Edward. I wish I could get you to see that." I said pulling away and looking at him. He shook his head.

"You really are one insane young woman, Isabella Swan." He grinned. I grinned back.

"I am merely insanely in love with you." I said kissing the tip of his perfectly straight nose. He smiled brightly at me and then kissed me sweetly. I gladly returned the kiss. Edward traced the top of my lips and just then the door opened to reveal the eldest brother of Esme's family. We both sighed, but following Edward's sigh was a growl.

"We weren't macking! Honestly do you have to be so crude!" He shouted. Emmett and I gave Edward a confused look. If he had been human I'm positive he would have turned the brightest of all reds. Possibly redder than I have ever turned which was saying a lot. He quickly got up and set me down as he looked around nervously. "I gotta...go to my...umm room." He stuttered as he ran at vampire speed. I sighed.

"I better see if he's okay," I said to Emmett who nodded and stepped out of my way so I could get through. I jogged up to Edward's room. I at least figured it was his room since it was the only one whose walls were covered in CD's. "Edward?" I asked as I knocked on the door that was already opened all the way. I heard him fumbling around in his bathroom and then curse as something fell down.

"Come in!" He yelled. I sat down in the middle of his bed, when he came back I noticed he was in a different shirt than before. Probably since his other one had been ripped in several places from beating up Emmett.

"Are you okay?" I asked. He smiled softly as he sat down next to me. Then he leaned me down on one of the pillows and he laid down next to me as he played with some of my hair. My heart was beating wildly but I managed to ignore it for the most part as I waited for Edward to answer.

"A little." He smiled baring all of his teeth. I rubbed his arm gently. Then he sighed closing his eyes.

"Bella there's something I need to tell you." He said moving a bit closer. My breath caught in my throat but I managed to nod. He sighed once again. "I can..." he started off in a whisper. "I can read minds." He said. My eyes bugged out.

"You can what!" I shouted as I stood up. He winced a little then smiled.

"Not the exact reaction I was expecting..." He started. I huffed.

"Well did you expect me to be jumping up and down?" I asked. He shook his head.

"Not really but, there's also something else I need to tell you."

"Oh yeah, what now? You're also psychic?" I asked sarcastically. He rolled his eyes.

"No of course not. Don't be silly, Bella. I...I..." He mumbled the last part. "...I can't read your mind." He said. Relief struck me.

"You can't?" I asked. He shook his head.

"Not even in the slightest. It's infuriating." He grumbled as he threw his body against the pillows again. I laughed heartily as I laid down next to him on the bed on my stomach as I traced patterns on his chest. His eyes were closed tightly. "I want to know what you are thinking like everybody else, but I can't. Your mind is closed to me. No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to read you. You're a closed book to me, Bella. This frightens me a little because it makes me that much more attracted to you." He said sheepishly. My heart was pounding in my ears. My throat constricted.

"Really?" I croaked. He grinned his infamous lopsided smile and sat up, pulling me with him.

"Really." He said huskily. At that point I was sure that all function in my brain had stopped completely. He grinned a stupid triumphant smile which I was beginning to hate. "Want to know what it is that I find the most attractive?" He asked. I couldn't speak at that moment, all I did was touch his cheek. He relished in the warmth of my hand on his cold skin. He grabbed my hand and entwined our fingers together as he began kissing my neck carefully. "There are so many things I could name that I find attractive in you, Isabella. Your beauty is one though. You are extremely radiant. You become lovelier each and every day. It's hard to keep the man and the beast in me to keep from ravishing all of you. You are the most dangerously tempting creature on the face of the earth, and I will never be deserving enough." He said as he kissed my pulse point for quite some time. My breathing stopped completely and I could feel Edward smirking against my skin.

"Breathe, Bella." He said. I took in a shaky breath and he chuckled. "You really are something else." He said with a smile. I laughed.

"I think that has been established already." I said with a grin. He grinned back. We looked at each other for a while drinking each other in. We then both leaned in slowly again much like we had earlier but this time our lips actually touched. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he leaned me down against the bed. Much too quickly Edward pulled away and growled looking at the door. Standing there was the little pixie that actually tried to stop me from helping Edward before. He got up from the bed. Alice clapped her hands and jumped up and down.

"I saw this happening! I just knew it!" She chirped. I had no idea what she was talking about. I figured Edward didn't either because he stood up from the bed and held up a finger signaling that he would only be a minute. He reached the tiny vampire and pushed her out the door with ease and slammed it shut. I couldn't hear anything so I decided to look through Edwards CD collection. He had a wide variety of artists ranging from Baby Bash to Imogen Heap. He mostly had classical CD's. All of whom I barely ever heard about but remember being mentioned once or twice. Beethoven, Mozart, Debussy. Debussy? I questioned to myself. I've never heard of him before. I looked at the back of the CD to see the title of the songs. Just then I heard a loud noise like large boulder being smashed into a wall. I jumped in fright.

"WHAT!" I heard Edward yell. Before I knew it he was back in the room but didn't fail to forget to slam the door in Alice's face and knock down a wall of CD's. I cringed when they all fell with a loud crash. Edward threw himself onto the bed and mumbled. I went over to him and rubbed his back gently.

"What's wrong?" I asked softly. He groaned. I laughed. "I'm sorry I don't speak 'Uggggghhhhh!'." I joked badly. To my surprise he actually laughed and turned over to face me. He sighed heavily.

"I hate that little midget." He said as he looked up at the ceiling. I raised an eyebrow.

"Well that's a pretty snap decision don't you think?" I asked. He shrugged.

"I guess you're right. It's just...Ugh! I can't stand Esme's family." He said. "...or their powers." The last part had caught my attention.

"Powers? What do you mean?" I asked curiously. He ignored my question and kept rambling.

"That stupid little fairy just had to see into the damn future!" He griped. I rolled my eyes.

"Care to explain?" I asked. He sighed once again.

"Alice saw..." He started. Then took in an un-necessary breath and let it out shakily. "Alice saw us..." He trailed off and I sighed.

"Please get on with it already, Edward." I pleaded. His frequent need to pause was getting annoying at the moment.

"She saw us having sex." He finally said. My stomach flew to my throat. My heart fell into my stomach. I just then realized that I had stopped breathing and Edward was looking at me warily.

"Bella? Bella please say something." He nearly begged.

"Sex." Was all I could say. I cursed myself repeatedly for being such an air head. Edward chuckled. I raised an eyebrow at him.

"Do you think this is funny?" I asked. His eyes narrowed and he shook his head.

"N-no, I'm just..." He stuttered.

"You're just what?" I asked. He looked down sheepishly.

"I'm just laughing at the fact that I would never have sex with you." I looked down sadly. Was I really that hideous? I felt a tear stream down my cheek. Edward shook his head.

"No Bella that's not what I meant." He said in a panicked voice. I clenched my jaw tightly.

"Oh then what did you mean? That you could never sleep with a hideous ugly thing like me!" I snapped. He seemed to be taken aback by my tone.

"No, no, no. Of course not my precious." He said as he kissed away my tear. I shook my head not being able to understand what he was getting at. "What I meant was that I'm not going to have sex until we're married." He said. My heart stopped beating and the room was spinning wildly. We got married. We got married. My eyes were bugged out.

"We get married?" I asked. He grinned at me.

"Of course..." He began. "Isabella, you are the only one who has ever given me hope for the future. Before you came, my life was dull and boring. Living day after dreary day. I wasn't happy. I don't think I have ever been really, truly happy until you showed up in my life. You gave me a reason to get up and get dressed in the morning. When I first saw you...you took my breath away. I have never seen someone so beautiful and adorably clumsy as you. When I got home that day I was grinning like a fool. Something I never did until I met you. As stupid as this may sound, I started singing in the shower. You gave me meaning. And now. Now you challenge my limits; you see past the hideous being I am now. You trust me even though you know very well I could kill you at any given moment. Words cannot describe the elation I feel whenever we are together. They do not do any justice. I want to marry you Isabella Marie Swan. I want to make you my wife. There is no doubt in my mind. I know we are meant to be together. Forever." He said. I looked up at him and caressed his cheek. I couldn't say anything. Words wouldn't do my feelings any justice at all. Besides, I could never explain myself as well as he did. He had such a way with words. I did not. He took my hand and kissed it.

"Bella dear, please say something." He said softly. A bit of urgency lingered on his words. I took in a deep breath and let it out slowly.

"I do." I said. He raised an eyebrow.

"You do what?" He questioned.

"I mean I do want to marry you as well." I muttered. His eye bugged out and he pulled me onto his lap to face him.

"Bella, are you serious?" He asked. His beautifully shapened brows furrowing inward. I smiled and nodded.

"I am one-hundred-percent serious." I answered truthfully. There was no doubt in my mind either. I knew we were meant to be together as well. For all of eternity. Before I could get lost in my thoughts I felt him kissing me roughly but still sweetly. I kissed him back with the same amount of rough passion. He started leaning me back on the bed. He then straddled me, but made sure not to put any of his weight on me. I tangled my hands in his hair and a low moan escaped passed his perfectly cupid shaped lips. This erotic sound made my suddenly warm skin even warmer. Just then I felt my mouth being pried open by something cold. His tongue. I opened my mouth willingly and let our tongues fight for dominance. His hands crept up my shirt, and I fumbled with the buttons on his. Before we could do anything else I felt his lips curl upward, and my hands held in his.

"Bella..." He started as he shook his head.

"What?" I asked.

"We can't." He said. I groaned.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Because we're not ready."

"Yes, we are."

"No, we are not."

"Yes, we are."

"Damnit, Bella! We may be ready but I think we should wait until we are married." He said. I looked down suddenly feeling self-conscious. He sighed and shook his head.

"My love, you know I want you but we can't." He said kissing my cheek trying to dazzle me. I moved my face away.

"We can, you just find me hideously disgusting." I mumbled. He chuckled and shook his head.

"That sentence couldn't be anymore incorrect. You are just the complete opposite of hideous. You are the most beautiful, amazingly gorgeous creature my eyes have ever beheld. I would take you right now-" I cut him off.

"Then why don't you?" I asked.

"Silly Bella. Marriage is key. I want to be married before we give ourselves to each other. I want this experience to be one that we share as man and wife." He said as he brushed away my hair and kissed my face.

"You aren't making this any easier when you do that." I said. He chuckled softly and pulled away.

"My apologies." He said smirking. I rolled my eyes.

"You are very moral for a vampire." I said. He chuckled again as he cradled me to his stony chest.

"Silly, gorgeous, loving, Bella." He chastised. I smiled at him.

"I love you." I whispered.

"I love you too...My Bella." He said possessively. Chills ran through my body. The tone in his voice made me even more disappointed that we had stopped earlier. Just then I heard a familiar voice.

"Edward, we're home!" Carlisle yelled. Both Edward and I looked at each other with shocked expressions on our faces. We quickly hurried up off the bed just as Carlisle entered the room with an equally shocked expression on his face. We were both frozen. Suddenly I felt myself being pulled by Edward.

"I'm going to take Bella home now." He said hurriedly. Before I could protest Edward already had me in the car. My head was spinning out of control. I felt like vomiting. I felt Edward eyeing me carefully. "Bella, are you alright?" He asked. I nodded softly.

"Give me a minute." I said through heavy pants. He laughed and backed out of the driveway. The ride home was unusually quiet but I was very tired and worn out from today's events. I actually ended up falling asleep. When I woke up I realized I was in my room. I figured Edward must have carried me.

"Morning sleepy head." Said a velvety voice. I jumped and saw Edward lying next to me smirking.

"Hold on, I think I just had a heart attack." I said holding onto my chest. He laughed loudly then I put my hand over his mouth as he gave me a weird look. He took my hand away. "What on earth are you doing, Bella?" He asked. I rolled my eyes.

"Charlie can hear you." I noted. He merely chuckled at me.

"Bella your father left a note for you stating that he would be home later on tonight. Something about filing some reports." He said with a shrug of his shoulders. I sighed in relief and laid back down on my pillow. Suddenly Edward started smirking.

"What?" I asked.

"You were very animated this evening." He grinned idiotically. I felt my cheeks burning. "You were moaning my name and gyrating against me. I take it you had a very pleasant dream then?" He asked raising an eyebrow with that dumb grin still plastered on his face. Stupid vampire. My face turned completely red. Edward smiled and brushed away my hair.

"Do not be ashamed, love. We have all been there." He smiled kissing my cheek. Suddenly I felt a tad better. Then I realized I wasn't in my pajamas yet. I stood up from the bed.

"I'll be right back. Don't leave." I warned him. He smiled brightly.

"I shall be here when you return. Don't worry darling." He smiled. I blushed again and grabbed my things as I headed into the bathroom. I took a quick shower and threw on some old sweats. I sighed heavily looking in the mirror. I didn't know what Edward saw in me. All I ever see is a plain Jane. I shook my head ridding of the thoughts, and then went back to the room. Edward was there reading a book. I smiled and decided to creep up on him.

"I know you're there Bella." He said grinning. Never taking his eyes off of the book. I groaned and hopped on the bed.

"How did you know I was even there?" I asked. He smirked.

"You're kissing is exquisite. You're sneaking has something to be desired." He said. I rolled my eyes then yawned involuntarily.

"Time for the little human to go to bed." He smiled as he tucked me. Just as he was about to leave I pulled him back down.

"Stay." I ordered. He climbed under the covers and held me tightly.

"I'll stay as long as you want me to." He said kissing my hair. My eyes closed and I suddenly fell into a deep sleep.

A/N: Sorry I haven't posted in ages everyone! I have been so busy lately. I promise I will go back to updating everyday as I did before. :), I hope this chapter made up for it all! :P, Thank you to T-Pain (touched-my-heart) and Cassie (kevin-j-is-my-mufasa) for being the best Beta's ever! I love you girls!

I bet you're wondering how Emmett could have a dog right? Well he's more controlled than Edward is since Edward is a newborn, so he is able to control himself around animals and people.

& Edward knows they are vampires because Carlisle told him before, and Esme told her children. Carlisle also told Esme that Bella already knew. :), Hope that cleared up any questions you accumulated reading this chapter. XD, Alright well I'm out!

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