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Clary's POV:
I stare over the edge of the cliff lying on my stomach, fear jumping into my chest as I stare down at the mind-boggling drop below me. The wind whips my hair back and forth but the sun shines through the cloudy sky and its rays warm me from the cold.
I hear a sound behind me and turn around, smiling, expecting to see the russet wolf but it is only a squirrel crawling up a tree. Disappointment hits me like a large weight and I shake my head and turn back to the cliff-side, however, I let out a small scream when I see the wolf sitting in front of me.
"God, you scared the crap out of me." He pants happily as if laughing at me with his tongue lolling out of the side of his mouth, while I place a hand over my rapid heartbeat and glare at him.
He seems to understand my troubled expression and lies on the ground, resting his giant head on his paws and looking at me with sad puppy-dog eyes. I sigh and lay on my stomach again, staring at the city that moves around with activity on a bright Sunday afternoon.
"I ended with him," I say suddenly and see the russet wolf raise its head up as if in surprise. "I walked in on him having sex with some other girl. Can you believe that?"
The wolf whined softly, as if he understood every word I had said. I shake my head, slowly. "I know, I am so stupid, I thought we were going to be together for—well— like a long time." I shake my head again. "Jacob was right to say that I was blinded by all the years we have been together because our relationship did not mean as much to Zach as it did to me."
I rolled onto my back and looked up at the sky, folding my hands behind the back of my neck. "You know it is strange, I feel almost free as if a crushing weight has been lifted off my chest. I use to sit and doodle Mrs. Zachary Steale into all my notebooks like a lovesick little girl when I was in high school. How dumb is that? And now I think about all the times he was a jerk and how much of an idiot I must have seemed for always going back to him."
I hear the wolf moving and then I feel heavy warmth on my belly and glace down to see him resting his head there. Carefully, I brush my hand against its fur and look into its dark eyes.
"Jak," I whisper. The wolf's eyes seem to dilate at my words with its whole body stiffening, waiting. "I think I will call you Jak because your eyes…" I trail off; blushing even though I know the wolf would not understand my embarrassment. "They are beautiful and they remind me of someone I barely know but…"
I bite my lip and look at the darkening sky. The russet wolf, I mean Jak, let out a sigh that quakes my whole body but he seems to relax again.
I think about all of it for a moment before continuing. "He would try and push my buttons all the time, I would get so mad but then always forgive him. Even when he tried to push me for sex, even though he knew how I felt about it.
Jak was silent for a moment, as if processing all of what I said, and then he let out a low growl from the back of his throat that rumbled my stomach. "Hey, it is okay. I never let him push me too far," I say quietly. I run my fingers in the space between his ears and scratch softly, he closes his eyes in contentment.
After a few minutes he lifts his big head and licks the side of my face, I grimace then smile at him while wiping from my cheek to my temple. "That was disgusting, Jak. Yuck."
A thunder rumbles in the distance and I see dark clouds rolling in above us, before I know it rain begins to fall. I hold out my hand to catch some of the droplets but do not move because I am oddly not chilled by the rains frigid wetness that is drenching me through.
I peer down at Jak and he looks back at me before raising his head off my body, which chills my entire body instantly. His nose nudges my side but I make no point of moving. His nose nudges my side again and he lets out a soft whine.
"Alright," I say laughing at his persistence. I get up and walk into the woods not expecting him to disappear off into the woods like he always does but instead he walks with me. I smile up at him.
I make it to the break where the road meets the woods and I glance back one more time, but the russet wolf is nowhere to be seen, before running through the rain towards my dorm while the rain pours down.
Jacob's POV:
Jacob phases back as soon as Clary steps onto the road, staring after her as he hides in the mask of thick trees and bushes so he is not seen.
Placing his hand on the branch above his head, Jacob thinks about the feel of her heartbeat pulsing in her belly as he breathed her in while he was in wolf form. How he waited for her to start to cry but the tears never fell from her eyes, and from the looks of her cheeks it did not seem like she had been crying earlier.
How her sad eyes lit up when she laughed when he licked the side of her face, tasting her smooth, creamy skin. And thinking about how just hearing her speak, just looking at her and listening, caused his heart to race just a little faster.
But then there was always the pull to stay away from her, to ignore the imprint now that she had broken the shackles that bound her to Zach for all those years. I still loved Bella, and Clary—although very beautiful—she was not his Bella. But maybe if she could distract him enough, he could forget all about Bella and move on.
Maybe this is what it took to begin healing…
