BPOV ~After School~

"Ready to go?" Edward asked.

"Yup." I replied as I got in to my car. I watched him as he got into his car and then we got going. I tried remembering how to get to his house while we were driving but as soon as we got to the forrest areas it was way to hard to remember. I got bored though so I turned on the radio and before I knew it, we arrived at his house.

I slowly got out, feeling extremely nervous. I watched Edward do the same and he pulled out a key to the house.

"Got all your books?" He asked.

"Yes."

"Let's go then." He said awkwardly leading me to the house slinging his backpack around his shoulder.

As he opened the door to his house I was just as awestruck as before. It was beautiful. He lead me upstairs again into his room and I ignored the tingly feeling I felt in the pit of my stomach. We sat on his bed and got right to work ignoring the awkwardness.

EPOV

I watched her fill our pieces of papers almost every second. She was adorable. I loved the way she bit her lip when she was thinking hard or furrowed her eyebrows when she couldn't concentrate. I then saw her eyes flicker up to mine but as soon as I saw that I looked down to look like I was never gawking at her in the first place.

After about an hour of working I was bouncing up and down like... well like Alice. Should I bring the subject up now? I knew we needed to talk about this. I wanted to know why she didn't like me or why she was so fidgety around me all the time. I wanted the tension to go away.

"Bella?" I asked as I met her curious gaze.

"Yeah?" She asked a bit uncertainly.

"Can we please talk about this?" I asked her which sounded like the millionth time. I could hear he sigh and then her face turned almost expressionless.

"There isn't really anything to talk about." She replied warily.

"Yes, there is." I answered sternly.

"What? What is there to talk about?" She asked almost annoyed but I could hear sadness underneath it.

"I spilled out all my feelings to you the other day and you said you couldn't be with me. You didn't say you didn't like me. You said you couldn't be with me and you would drag me down. Why?" I asked softly boring my eyes into hers. Her gaze dropped down and I could see her face turn depressed. I couldn't see her eyes though which showed me exactly how she was feeling so I put my fingers underneath her chin pulling it up, ignoring the electric shock I felt whenever I touched her.

"It's... complicated." She said.

"What does that mean though?" I asked confused.

"Alright. You barely know me. You don't know about my back round or my life or my problems. You don't know!" She exclaimed loudly.

"No Bella. I don't. But I would like to." I replied truthfully.

"No! You really don't!" She nearly yelled.

"Why can't you just tell me?" I asked softly. What could be so bad?

"Because! Okay! Just because!" She shouted again.

"Bella. Tell me. Don't you feel that connection between us? Whenever we touch or when we kissed! Didn't you feel that connection? Because I certainly do." I exclaimed.

"Well, yes but-" That was all needed to hear. I couldn't take it anymore so I just kissed her, again. I randomly kissed her, again.

I clutched her face and my lips found hers in an instant.

BPOV

I fisted my hands up into his hair pulling him on top of me. I felt the bed underneath my back and before I knew it he was laying on me. Our lips moved together in synchrony and his hands moved to either side of me trapping me underneath him, but I could care less. His tongue licked my lips begging for an entrance and I gladly opened my mouth. His tongue intertwined with mine as we fought for dominance. He started wrapping his hands around my body holding me close to him in a tight embrace. I hitched my legs over his hips as we scrambled to get closer together. We could have been kissing for hours but after a while we had to stop for air but instead of stopping he started kissing my neck hungrily and after a few seconds they were back up on to my lips. I could feel every inch of him on my body and I could feel my hands roaming all around his body.

"Bella." He sighed happily into my mouth and started kissing me again. I suddenly stopped and froze, but he didn't take notice.

~flashback~

"I love you." James sighed.

"I know. I love you too." I replied shakily. I said what he wanted for he came to my home drunk. If I kept him occupied for a few moments he would pass out quickly. Then maybe I could kick him out my house... again!

His lips found mind and he lazily moved his lips against mine. I was scared but if I pulled back he would probably slap me.

"Bella." He sighed happily into my mouth. Then a few moments later he passed out from exhaustion.

~End Of Flashback~

I gasped at the sudden flashback and stopped moving my lips from shock. I shouldn't be doing this! Edward could be in danger!

I started pushing Edward back with my hands but he kept kissing me. I could feel my struggles getting more desperate. I unhitched my legs from his hips and he finally noticed I was struggling against him. He immediately pulled back and gazed into my eyes.

"What's wrong?" He asked half confused half concerned.

"Edward... I told you, I didn't want to be with you like that. Just friends." I lied trying to be convincing but anyone could see I was lying. I was usually good at lying but I couldn't get myself too now.

"Bullshit." He replied still holding my gaze.

"What?" I asked.

"I said bullshit. I want to know the real reason." He replied sternly.

I dropped our gaze but he clutched my chin and pulled it back so our eyes were boring into each other's. Just then, did I realize how close we were. He was on top of me holding my chin while his other hand was holding my body in a tight embrace. Our faces were so close they were almost touching.

"Look. There isn't really any reason." I said again.

"Bella please!" He begged looking into my eyes sadly. "Tell me please! I will do anything!" He exclaimed sadly.

Just then did I realize this was no crush for him. He was in way to deep.