Alyssa-
He invaded my space, my private space and now I felt, I don't know, I just didn't feel right. He tried to take a step towards me and I backed up.
"How could you do that?", I asked.
"How could you not show me?", he asked.
"Don't do that, don't turn this back to me", I said.
"Why would you keep those things Aly?", he asked.
"It's just a precaution. If ever he came back and tried to", I stopped and sat down on our bed.
He slowly came over to me and sat down beside me. He slowly reached for my hand. Feeling his hand on top of mine, I pulled away and jumped up.
"I would never let him hurt you", he said.
"That box was before you. I forgot about it till he showed back up. I was going to throw it away, but I got scared and I just couldn't", I said.
I chewed on my bottom lip, pacing the space in front of him, and my hands shaking. I stopped in front of him now, hands on my hips.
"Did you, did you watch what was on it?", I asked.
He slowly nodded. Tears fell from my eyes.
"If I wasn't a cop", I covered his mouth with my hand.
"Stop. Don't finish that sentence", I said, before removing my hand.
He looked down at the floor. Something clicked inside my head.
"Is that why you don't want to marry me?", I asked.
He quickly looked up and stood.
"What, babe", he said.
"You're disgusted by me. You can't and won't marry someone whose been used and", stopping me.
"Stop it", he raised his voice.
"Who else knows about the drive?", I asked, wiping my wet cheeks.
"Seth and Roman", he answered.
"Oh god they watched it, you let them", I said.
I slid down the wall and hugged my legs to my chest.
"Alyssa", he said softly.
He bent down in front of me, his hands reaching out to me.
"Please don't touch me", I cried, moving away from him.
"Nothing has changed for me, I love you with my whole heart", he said.
I shook my head no, he sat down in front of me.
"How could you? How could anyone? I understand why you don't want to marry me now, I get it. I promise I won't bring it up again", I cried.
"You know what, something has changed. My instinct to protect you, it's kicking into overdrive and I'll be damned if I let him near you. If he even puts a pinky on you I will kill him with my bare hands. I don't care if I go to jail for the rest of my life, it will be worth it", he said angry.
"Dean", I said.
"Don't Dean me. I'm a man and it's in my DNA to protect what's mine. I don't like seeing you this way, you don't let me touch you and all I want to do right now is hold you in my arms. Please remember that you are safe with me", he said.
My heart was racing. I willed myself to move towards him, I sat between his legs. His arms wrapped around me tight. My head on his chest and I grabbed a handful of his shirt. He sighed and kissed the top of my head.
"Dean", I whispered.
"Yeah", he whispered back.
"Make love to me", I whispered, lifting my head to look at him.
He wiped my tears.
"Is that what you really want?", he asked.
"I need you to", I said.
He nodded and leaned in towards my lips. The kiss grew heavier and I straddled his lap. He groaned. His tongue brushing against mine. He lifted my tank top off of me, his hands gently slid over my skin.
"Tell me if it's too much and I'll stop", he panted.
I nodded, he watched his hands run over my body. I trembled as I watched his eyes follow his hands. He looked into my eyes.
"Want me to stop?", he asked.
I shook my head no. He stood and took me with him. He laid me down and he removed my shorts. His lips brushed my thigh, I moaned. I saw him push his shorts down and he kicked them to the side and climbed on top of me. Laying his body flat against mine, my legs coming around his waist.
"I know I keep asking, but do you want me to stop?", he asked.
"No", I whispered.
I placed my hands on his sides, he reached down between us and I felt him against me. He slowly pushed himself into me. I arched my back, his lips sucking and licking my neck.
"Dean", I moaned.
He thrusted slow, painfully slow, but it felt so good and I knew he was trying not to hurt me. His mouth near my ear, his panting turning me on even more. I needed him to quicken his thrusts.
"Dean, please. Fast, I need you, faster", I managed to say.
"You sure?", he asked.
I nodded and I kissed him.
"Remember if you need me to stop, I'll stop", he panted.
"Please, just", I moaned louder, my eyes shut.
He quickened his thrusts.
"Fuck, moan louder, I need to hear it", he growled.
My nails digging into his back.
"I, I need to, scream", I managed to say.
"Fucking scream", he growled.
I moved my hands beside me, gripping our blanket in my hands.
"Dean", I screamed.
"That's it baby", he growled and a few quick thrusts later, he came undone too.
He laid his head on my chest. Feeling his warm breath on my skin. I ran my fingers through his hair.
"Shit, how's your head? We weren't suppose to have sex doll face", he said.
"Fine, that was amazing", I smiled.
He kissed my stomach.
"Tell me about it, thank you for trusting me", he whispered.
"Five years together, you've never done anything to hurt that trust", I said.
He smiled at me.
"Daddy", we heard Maddie call to him.
He chuckled.
"See what you did, you woke our kid", he said smirking.
I giggled and got under the covers. He grabbed his shorts and put them on. He walked out of the room and I laid back and felt so tired, my eyes shutting.
"Falling asleep on me Darlin?", I heard him ask.
"No, just resting my eyes", I said.
I heard him chuckle and climb into bed. I moved closer to him and snuggled into his side. He always let me do that, his hand resting on my side, his thumb making small circles.
"I love you", he said.
I smiled.
"Love you too", I said yawning.
I felt his lips leave a small kiss on my forehead.
Dean-
I got a text from Seth early in the morning telling me not to go into work. He told Hunter I had gotten sick and Hunter texted me to let me know it was okay to stay home. Alyssa was still pressed to my side.
"Are the kids up?", Aly asked.
"Don't know. Oliver hasn't come in yet, so I'm assuming no", I chuckled.
She stretched and sat up, hugging the blanket close. She got dressed and tied her hair up. I watched her.
"Are we okay?", she asked.
"More than okay darlin", I said.
She smiled and crawled over to me, kissing me. Our bedroom door opened and Maddie walked in, wiping her sleepy eyes.
"Hey princess", I said.
She climbed into our bed and laid down. Alyssa kissed her head.
"I'm gonna start on breakfast", she said, walking out.
Her phone dinged and I knew it was a message. I reached over and picked it up. The name said Dolph. I opened it.
"I don't know if this is still your number, I hope it is. I just want to say that I hope you're okay. Like I said if you need a lawyer, I'm here. I really hope your husband catches the man or woman who did this to you. I really hope we could get passed what happened between us, I want you in my life. I miss you baby.", he wrote.
I hit dial on his number. I looked down at Maddie who was watching me.
"Kiddo go downstairs for a second will you", I said.
"Why?", she asked.
"Just need a moment", I said.
"Grown up stuff?", she asked.
I chuckled and nodded, she got out of bed and ran out.
"Hello, I'm glad you called Aly, listen", I stopped him.
"No you listen. This is my girlfriend, my family and I want you to stay as far away as possible. We don't need your help, got it", I said angry.
"Girlfriend huh? Not wife?", he asked.
If I could see his face I knew he would probably be smirking. Getting ideas on how to win Alyssa back.
"She doesn't want you. You really think she would go back to you after what you did? She's not an idiot", I said.
"I never said anything about getting her back, but it sounds to me like you're afraid of her leaving you. Like you know you aren't good enough", he said.
"Stay away from my family", I said, before hanging up.
I tossed her phone on our bed and sighed. I went over to my sock drawer and pulled out the pair in the back. I could feel the ring box, I checked to make sure no one was coming. I pulled the box out of the sock and opened it. I could still remember what the girl who sold it to me said.
"Sparkling and romantic, honor her on that special day with this exquisite diamond engagement ring. Expertly crafted in 10K white gold, this ring features a squared cluster of shimmering round diamonds at its center. A halo frame of smaller round accent diamonds surrounds the center cluster, while additional diamonds line the ring's split shank. Designed to take her breath away, this ring delights with 1/2 ct. t.w. of diamonds and a polished shine.", she said.
I had seen it several times while walking by the store on my way to the gym. Something in my heart told me she would love it. A part of me did want to ask her, but then there was that other part of me, the part that kept telling me marriage was a lie.
I didn't want to marry her only to find out that things have changed and that she doesn't want to be with me anymore. Like I've said before, I'm not good enough for her. I closed the box and put it back in my sock. I pushed the sock all the way to the back of the drawer and closed it.
"Dean, breakfast is ready", Alyssa yelled from downstairs.
"Coming babe", I said.
I walked downstairs. I glanced out the window and I noticed a black car parked across the street. I grabbed my black hoodie and put it on. I walked out front and sent Randy a nod.
"What are you doing out here man?", I asked.
"Just keeping an eye out", he said.
"Don't you have work?", I asked.
"I called in sick. I heard you did and so, I thought maybe something happened. Cena is partnering with Seth today", he said, taking a sip of his coffee.
"Come on in Orton, have some breakfast", I said, opening his car door.
He laughed.
"Alright", he said.
He got off of his car and locked it. We walked back into my house and he followed me to the kitchen. Alyssa saw him and smiled.
"Hey Randy", she said.
"Hey sweetheart", he said, going over to her and kissing her cheek.
"What are you doing here?", she asked.
"Just thought I would come and check on Dean. Heard he was out sick", he said.
"I hope your hungry", Aly said.
He nodded and sat down at the table with us. She served the kids first and then us. Once she served herself she sat down beside me.