So, this story is just gotten out of control. But I love it : D And I hope everyone who reads it loves it too.

Except ya'll may be a little shocked about this chapter. In fact, that is why I changed the tags to Romance/Hurt/Comfort. For this chapter.

Updated: 2-8-2012

Please don't hate me for this chapter.

[[This chapter has two possible titles. I couldn't decide so I put both. "I love you, not him (a broken Benny) but you can't put parathensis (sorry if that's misspelled) in the title, so that's why there's the x's. Just felt I should explain that.]]

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"Yes… Benny… I love you."

Ethan watched Benny, fear running through him. He had just admitted his feelings for the taller boy, and he was scared he would hate him.

"Benny… Please say something."

"You… love me?"

"Yes. The day I left, you kissed me goodbye. It made me think about you. Then I borrowed Jane's iPod and there was this song, "A Year Without Rain," or something like that, and it made me realize, I love you. I hate that I realized it after I had already left."

"A Year Without Rain…?" he whispered, looking at him with his still dead eyes. "You … love me?"

"Yes."

"No you don't."

"What?"

"I don't know what you think, but you don't love me," Benny said, staring at him.

"Benny, trust me. I love you."

"Just go Ethan, I'll talk to you later," Benny said, falling back on his bed and closing his eyes. Ethan nodded but grabbed Benny's hand, giving it a gentle squeeze, sending himself into a vision.

*Vision time!* [Okay, these are like bits and pieces of visions. Just letting ya'll know.]

Benny smashing his fist into a mirror, breaking it.

Tears streaming down his face as he held his bloody, glass filled hand.

The hospital, his hand getting looked at.

Him lying in a hospital bed, skin pale, eyes closed.

*End vision*

"Benny, I really do love you. Please don't do anything that could hurt yourself," Ethan whispered, letting go of Benny's hand and leaving the room. He headed towards the living room, where Sarah and Lily were talking.

"How is he?" Sarah asked, turning around to look at him.

"I… I told him about me and Luke. Then I told him I didn't love Luke like I thought, but him. Oh God, I told him I loved him," Ethan said, falling into a chair and holding his head.

"What did he say?" Lily asked, coming to sit on the arm of his chair.

"He didn't believe me."

"I was afraid of that," Lily said, rubbing his arm.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, when you began to date Luke, it not only affected you, but Benny also, in case you didn't notice."

"I noticed. Why'd it do that?"

"Because you loved Benny so much, and he obviously loved you back, that when your love for him was gone, his love just kind of … died."

"But I do love him."

"I know Ethan," she said, frowning at him. "But as long as you continue to date Luke, Benny will continue to suffer. He'll suffer until, well…"

"Until what?"

"His body will just give up trying to survive."

"You mean… he'll die?"

"Yes, and Ethan, Luke's influence is still strong enough on you that if you call him, he could easily convince you that you love him still."

"But I don't. I love Benny."

"I know. Just… give Luke's influence a few days to wear off before you call him and break up with him."

"A few days? Benny could be dead by then!"

"Not if you continue to tell him how much you love him. Eventually, you'll break through … I think." Before Ethan could respond a loud smashing sound was heard from the bathroom, followed by a loud sob.

"Shit. Sarah, go start your car. Lily, come with me," Ethan said, getting up and running to the bathroom, Lily right behind him. He opened the door, not surprised by the sight in front of him. Benny was huddled on the bathroom floor, tears streaming down his face as he looked at his hand, which was bleeding from multiple cuts. "Lily, find me a couple of washcloths." She nodded and started rummaging around the bathroom until she found some. "Thanks."

"Ethan… You saw this didn't you?" Benny whispered as Ethan began to wipe up some of the blood with a washcloth. "You told me not to hurt myself."

"But you didn't listen," Ethan said, wrapping the other towel around Benny's hand. "Come on, get up. We're taking you to the hospital."

"Why?"

"Because you have glass in your hand. Now come on." Benny nodded, allowing Ethan to help him up.

"Why are you so good to me?" he mumbled as Lily came on his other side, helping him walk.

"Because you're my best friend, and I love you."

"You're delusional."

"Whatever Benny. Come on, start walking. Sarah's waiting." When they had gotten to Sarah's car, Ethan and Benny were in the backseat, Benny holding his hand to his chest, just staring out the window, eyes dead looking still.

"What did he do?" Sarah asked as she drove towards the hospital, worry in her voice.

"Smashed the bathroom mirror with his fist," Lily responded, looking at her phone.

"Idiot," Sarah mumbled, pulling in to the Emergency Room entrance. "Go get him signed in and stuff, we'll be right in." Ethan nodded and helped the taller boy into the hospital.

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Benny POV: [I thought we needed this, that way ya'll can see how he's feeling]

"Benjamin Weir?" a lady in scrubs called out, looking around. I sighed but stood up shakily, looking at Ethan.

"I'll be out in a minute." He just nodded and I walked towards her, my hand still wrapped in the now bloody towel.

"Follow me," she said, turning and leading me down a long hallway with multiple doors. We stopped at one where my name was on the outside of it on a piece of paper. "Wait here, someone will be there to check on you shortly." I just nod and go in.

…

"Are you Benjamin?" a kind voice asks me. I must have spaced out, because glancing at my watch, I see I've been in here for almost 10 minutes.

"Call me Benny," I mumble out, looking at the older woman. She had a tray in her hands, probably to get the glass out.

"So, looking at the sheet you filled out, you have glass in your hand?"

"Yes ma'am. My …. Friend was worried about me, so he brought me here."

"Well, let me take a look at your hand," she said, pulling on those annoying gloves and moving towards me. I offer the still towel-wrapped hand to her, which she grabbed gently, still making me wince. Looking at it, she lets out a low whistle. "Woo boy, you did a job on this. This will take a little bit to get all the glass out. Looks like you lost a lot of blood too; I may need to run a couple of tests to make sure you're okay."

"That's fine. Take your time," I say, wincing as she begins to pull out all the shards of glass with tweezers. My thoughts drift to what Ethan told me. He said he loves me. I want to believe him, I really do, but … he's dating Luke. How do I know that jerk isn't just using his controlling on Ethan to make him say that to me? Then I say I love him back and get my heart broken more than it already is? No thanks, not gonna happen.

"There we go," she says, wrapping gauze and tape around my hand. "If you don't mind, I'd like to take some blood, make sure you didn't lose too much."

"That's fine." She nods and gets to work, letting my thoughts drift again. Ethan said he knew he loved me after he heard the song "A Year Without Rain." I didn't tell anyone that I heard that and realized I loved him … that has to mean something right? I'm just grasping at loose ends, like Sarah said.

"Alright, I'll be right back with the results of your blood test," she says, dropping the vial of blood into a bag with my name marked on it. "Please wait here." I just nod again, lying back on the examination bed, closing my eyes.

Ethan, if only you really loved me.

…

"Benny?" a voice called, waking me. I must have fallen asleep. I open my eyes to see the doctor looking at me, worry in her face.

"Sorry, I just got tired I guess," I mumble out, sitting up. "What did my results say?"

"Benny…" she said, biting her lip and looking concerned. "Would you like someone in here with you before I tell you? It might be better."

"Oh. I guess… I have a few friends in the waiting room. They can come in if they want." She nods and walks out, going to get them. Soon enough, she's back with Ethan, Lily, and Sarah in tow, all looking worried.

"Okay. Well, Benny, first off, do you mind that I'm going to tell your friends as well as you?"

"Not at all. I would just tell them myself once I found out."

"Okay… well Benny, after looking at your blood-work, it seems that… your body is shutting down. Something happened that's causing your body to just … quit working right. I'd like to keep you overnight, keep an eye on you."

"I'm … dying?"

"I'm hoping we can change that," the doctor said, looking at me. I just nod, feeling like everything is falling apart around me. "I'm going to go check on your patient room. I'll be back soon." I just nod again, looking at my bandaged hand. As soon as the door closes, arms are around me.

"Benny…" Ethan mumbles, looking at me, eyes glassy.

"Why do you look like you're going to cry?"

"Because the person I love more than anything is dying, and it's all my fault."

"It's not your fault Ethan," Lily said, walking towards us. "It's Luke's. He did this to you both."

"You're right. It is his fault. That's it. I'll be right back," Ethan said, leaving the room. I look at Lily, confusion on my face.

"When Luke forced Ethan to love him, you felt it to because you loved Ethan as much as he loves you. You're still suffering because he's still with Luke."

"Oh." I suddenly gasp out, my hand moving towards my chest. I'm feeling a new agonizing pain engulf me, making me cry out in pain. "Wh-what's happening?" I mumbled out, tears running down my face.

"Benny? Oh my God, are you okay?" Lily asks, running towards me and wrapping me in her arms. I can't say anything as I feel the emptiness in my heart begin to fill up with some feeling, I'm not sure what it is. I look up as Ethan walks back into the room. He rushes over to me, wrapping me in his arms as Lily moves away.

"Wh-what did you do?" I gasp out, holding my aching chest.

"I broke up with Luke."

"W-why?"

"Because I love you, not him." I cry out in pain before collapsing in his arms, everything going black.

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End of chapter! Made me sad writing this. Poor Benny : ( He'll get better in the next chapter … I think. I haven't written it yet so I don't know… But I can't kill Benny off. I just can't.

Anyway, yeah this story isn't ending anytime soon. I have a couple of ideas for it still ;)

-JustMe133