I looked up at the blinding sun with my eyes squinted. It was the first time I've seen the sun in a month, and it wasn't until then that I realized how bright it was. I took a sip of the coke can in my hand and thought about Jacob. I think he likes me visiting him because every time I go over, he finds little problems that nobody else would notice about my car. He always insists that he fix it. I like to tease him. I like the fact that he likes my visits, because I like them too. I looked down at the soda, I had no idea why I was drinking it anyway, I hate coke.

I made my way back to Bella's house and dumped the soda in the sink, now that the vampirism thing was out in the open, Bella and Edward seemed much more at ease with us. For example, they would use their super speed for just going into the other room or they would help cool down my coffee in the mornings by breathing on it "by accident." Another thing I noticed is that Edward's family visited more often than they used to, which I didn't mind very much because they all liked to help me with my history homework. Today, though, I saw everyone at least four times in the last 2 hours. My cell phone rang while I was talking to Emmett about the best and the worst movies in the last four years.

"Guess who just asked me out!" Um, you get asked out like everyday, how should I know?

"Um……Morgan Freeman." She loved that movie The Bucket List even though she denies it anytime someone brings it up. I like to mess around with her head. I love that movie too.

"Haha….no. Elliot Jameson!"

"…………………..are you kidding?" another long pause, my stomach exploded, I felt like throwing up.

"No! I'm so happy! You know I've been crushing on him the longest time."

"I thought you were kidding with me." I never told her about our relationship because I knew she liked him and I wouldn't know what to say to her afterwards.

"Please don't go out with him." I whispered. I was in the hallway in between the kitchen and the living room. Even without vampire hearing, everyone could probably hear me.

"What?"

"I said, don't go out with him." Jackie laughed nervously, she thought I was joking around or something.

"What are you saying? You should be happy for me!" I would be if I didn't know the real him. She went on ranting.

"Just because you're stuck in Washington being miserable doesn't mean everyone else should be miserable too." Huh?

"Believe me, Jackie, even if, on top of everything else, I were too shoot myself in the foot, have my head set on fire, and have to baby-sit 12 kids, I wouldn't try to take away your happiness!" I shook my head, speaking louder and louder so the whole world could hear me.

"Then why do you care if I go out with him or not?" My face turned red, I couldn't do it. I felt weak.

"Because he hit me." Jackie didn't talk, whole house was quiet. I wanted to run away.

"He hit you? When? That can't be true, I don't believe you."

"You have too, Jackie! Please, he's not good for you."

"I can't believe you would lie to me!"

"I'm not lying!" my eyes felt hot.

"You guys weren't even friends. You're just jealous" Of what?

"We dated." I said flatly.

"-But I didn't want to tell you because you liked him so much, and I wanted to break up with him so bad, but I couldn't." Jackie didn't say anything, I continued.

" -the first time it happened, we were kissing and he got really rough with me and I wanted him to stop before…I don't know, he hit me when I tried to get him off me. He drank a lot that night so I let it go….but then he started doing it when he was sober too, so I broke up with him." I think she hung up on me, which made me feel stupid because I knew that everyone in the house was listening.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I think she forgives me, but I can't tell.

"I didn't want to tell anyone, it was embarrassing that I didn't see it before." I touched my eyes with the tips of my fingers lightly, they were dry.

"I'm sorry you felt like you couldn't tell me," I grimaced, she didn't understand.

"It's okay, but now everything is out in the open? Can I tell you something else you might not want to hear?" I tried to change the subject desperately.

"Is it worse than your problems?"

"It might not be, but I think it will be a shock."

"What is it?"

"I let you win when we were playing Guitar Hero way back when." I sort of smiled, I wanted to forget Elliot.

"You suck."

"I know."

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I hung up with Jackie a while later, she asked how I was copping, I said I was fine but she didn't believe me. I walked past the living room, afraid that Bella would be sitting there waiting for us to have 'girl talk' or something stupid and equally awkward. Instead of Bella sitting in the living room, I found Edward's mother and his brother Emmett. I smiled at them both politely and grabbed my wallet. I planned to go visit Jake. I needed his quiet calm. I entered the kitchen to find Bella, Edward, and Jasper sitting at the kitchen table.

"Can I borrow your car?" I smiled, like everything was all right. I felt jumpy and sick to my stomach. I needed Jacob.

"Yeah, Hun, I'll get the keys." Bella rose from her seat. Of coarse she leaves me with Dr. Phil and his crazy hot brother.

"Would you like to talk about it." asked Edward. No!

"No." I tried to say it polity out loud, for Jasper's sake. Edward nodded his head. Jasper looked worse than I felt, his hands shook slightly.

"Are you okay?" I asked him.

"Are you okay?" he replied. All of the sudden I felt totally at ease, Elliot and my parents were forgotten and I felt 100 hundred pounds lighter. Jasper stopped shaking and relaxed his shoulders slightly.

"Your anxiety could give you a heart attack." he said a little hoarsely. I nodded.

"Thanks." I said softly.

"It will only relive you until you leave the house, unfortunately" he answered solemnly.

"Still, thank you." I nodded, then finally he smiled at me peacefully.

"Here," I jumped. Bella was behind me with the keys. I smiled at her without looking her in the eyes. I wanted to tell her everything right then and there about my parents and my old boyfriend, now I knew why, I fought it. Don't tell her! I told Edward in my mind. She'll hate me for it.