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Secret Admirer
Chapter 10: Old Memories
"Kanaye," Haruka gasped as she stared up at the man in front of her.
His short wavy brown locks were neatly brushed and almost covered his light blue eyes. He smiled back at her creating a small dimple in his right cheek and held her hand to his lips lightly kissing her knuckles. He was clad in a crimson button up shirt with black dress pants and a long black trench coat. A small emerald gemstone embedded silver pendant adorned his neck caught Haruka's eye as she guessed it was a gemstone of his planet.
"You remember me,"
Haruka gazed back up at him "ano, just your name but…" Haruka paused for a moment slowly slipping her hand out of his hold and carefully sitting up on the bed quickly observing the new surroundings she aroused to "Who are?"
Kanaye stood up and sat down in front of Haruka on the bed "You may not believe this since you haven't gotten all of your memories back. The first time we met was at a ball when my father introduced me to you and your mother. I was in Uranus to help out your army not only in protection against outside solar system invaders but if Queen Beryl started invading the Outer planets. We often worked together and after half a year later I asked your mother for your hand in marriage,"
Haruka eyes doubled in size as she scrambled to the other side of the bed and climbed off. "I got married to YOU?"
"Iie, you were my fiancé," Kanaye stiffened quickly glancing down hiding his hurt feelings from Haruka's words.
"But I was going to be forced to marry someone who I didn't love. You were going to force me to marry you, how can you do that?" shouted Haruka furrowing her eyebrows.
"I never forced you to marry me, it was your mother. I thought about calling it off because I didn't want to hurt you but your mother kept on insisting that I should be the one to marry you because I didn't want to marry you for your looks or money or position. She said that I was doing you a favour so you didn't end up marrying someone who wouldn't respect you or didn't love you. Your mother was planning on an arranged marriage because she had a suspicion that you were homosexual and didn't want you getting hurt by forcing you to marry the wrong guy,"
It was silent for a moment as Haruka mentally slapped herself for saying those slight harsh words. She lowered her head in guilt before sitting back down on the bed "I'm a baka for saying that,"
"You're not, you just didn't know,"
"Wow, all my dreams start to make sense and…" Haruka trailed off and closed her eyes as she leaned back on the bedpost. The dreams returned and she began slowly remembering what happened after in those dreams
-Silver Millennium-
As Uranus and Neptune enter the garden they sit by the pond filled with different types of Uranian fish. As they watched the fish jump out into the air they started talking about their duties.
"Has your Deep Mirror shown any new threats coming?"
"Iie, I've only seen Queen Beryl and her army. The inner Sailor Senshi are taking care of that and protecting Princess Serenity. Although I have a feeling Prince Endymion from Earth has been visiting her at night," smiled Neptune.
Uranus chuckles "When will those two admit to everyone they like each other. Hopefully Earth can be part of the Silver Millennium as well even though they are mortals,"
"I don't think Prince Endymion is exactly human though,"
Uranus chuckled again with Neptune joining her.
"Princess Uranus," called out a deep voice.
Uranus gave a sigh before turning her head "Kanaye,"
"Your mother requests you as she has an important matter to discuss with you and that I should escort you there,"
Uranus again exhaled slowly nodding her head in agreement and standing up. She curtsied to Neptune before she followed Kanaye to her mother's study.
"What is it that she feels a need to talk to me about?" asked Uranus avoiding eye contact.
"You'll find out," smiled Kanaye as he kept his eyes on the door in front. He grabbed the knob pulling the door open for Uranus to enter and then shortly followed.
Uranus curtsied to her mother while Kanaye followed by a simple bow to her. Queen Uranus gestured with her hand for them to take a seat on the white cushioned chairs in front of her oak desk.
"Princess Uranus, you have finished your senshi training and soon will be in charge of the Uranus army although you cannot do it alone. You'll need someone to be by your side and support you. You're still only seventeen but after a few years a heir should be born to fill your place when you cannot fill it yourself,"
"I understand. Is there anything else that you have to inform me mother?"
Queen Uranus smiled and nodded her head as she walked around to Kanaye and her daughter. She stood behind them and placed a hand on both their shoulders.
"Young Kanaye has asked your hand in marriage,"
"I'm sorry to say I will decline your proposal as I do not feel the same way," answered Uranus staring straightforward avoiding eye contact with both of them. She started to rise up on her feet but her mother pulled her back down to her seat. She glanced down as she opened her mouth to say something but decided against it and closed it and swallowed hard.
"Princess Uranus, it's not your decision to make. The Queen decides whom her daughter will marry and since you've got a willingly young handsome man asking for your hand, you will take it. And you will consummate the marriage and soon, you must have an heir,"
"But…" a single tear cascaded down her cheek. She squeezed her hands tighter in her lap until her knuckles went white.
"No buts Uranus, after your eighteenth birthday in spring you will marry him," with that she left the room and headed for her chambers.
Kanaye pulled a white soft handkerchief out of his pocket and handed it to Uranus who didn't take it. He then placed his hand on her shoulder and tried to wipe her eyes.
Uranus batted his arm away and abruptly got off her seat facing her back to him. She wrapped her arms around herself as her frame trembled from her silent sobs.
"Uranus," Kanaye made his way to her placing a hand on her shoulder.
In anger, Uranus spun around and slapped him across his face "I hate you, how could you do that after what I told you," she gritted her teeth and glared at Kanaye. She then shook her head and ran out the room.
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Uranus sat in her room in a navy silk robe, her hair saturated from the shower and her face showing signs of pain. She undid the robe to glance at the bruise on her left shoulder in the mirror "Great, now how am I supposed to hide this?"
"You okay Princess,"
Startled by the voice she quickly tied her robe and faced the intruder "You pervert, do you often come into young girl's rooms like this,"
"This was an accident. Your mother told me you should be ready by now. She wants me to escort you to dinner," he chuckled "But looks like you won't be ready for some time and Hitomi-san is with your parents,"
"Great, just turn around while I'll put on my undergarments and then you can help me to get into one of my gowns. I swear if you peek at me while I do this I'll use my Space Sword to cut your ecchi eyes out,"
"Very violent today,"
"I'll be even more violent if you don't turn around,"
Kanaye chuckles as he turns around while Uranus quickly placed on her undergarments. She then pulls out her white gown from her closet and pulls the material over her head. She felt something tangled in the back as she tried to smooth it over with her hands but didn't manage to reach.
"Kanaye, can you help me please?"
Kanaye turns around as he walks over and pulls the dress lower smoothing the crease that had formed in the back of her gown. He then carefully and slowly zipped up the back of her gown.
Uranus swallowed hard as she felt his breath on her bare back she then felt it on the back of her neck when the gown covered most of her back except her shoulders. Her body froze, as she felt soft kissed on the back of her neck.
"I won't hurt you, why would I want to hurt you?"
Uranus glanced away as she felt him take a step back and walked to the door. He glanced back at just as she gazed back at him.
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Princess Uranus stood while the maid was tying up the back of her corset. She grunted as the corset tightened around her chest making it harder for her to breathe. The maid then helped her get into her dress.
There was a knock on the door and the blonde princess couldn't help but roll her eyes. "I'll meet you downstairs mother,"
"It's me princess, are you decent? Can I come in?" called out a deep voice.
Uranus sighed before glancing at Hitomi. "Alright," she answered as she watched the door open. "Make it quick and I don't need you to escort me downstairs. Hitomi will be escorting me tonight,"
"I just want to say sorry about what happened a month ago in your mother's study,"
Uranus didn't pay attention as she watched the maid fix up her dress before grabbing out her jewellery "Is that it?"
"Hai," he nodded before leaving the room. Before he exited he spoke up "You look beautiful by the way," and closed the door.
"You shouldn't be so harsh on the boy, you can't help it that he fell in love with you and pushing him away and hurting him wont make his feelings go away,"
Uranus didn't respond as she slid on her rings.
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Princess Uranus hid by the wall up the stairs gazing down at all the people dancing. Soft music played from the orchestra as they danced while some were drinking rich wine and eating the delicious food cooked from the Uranus kitchen. Her eyes glanced at some of the other princess who stood there with their parents.
The top of her gown was gold before it blended lower with the navy skirt. Her sleeves were also gold but were cut from the elbow to the wrist. On her left hand on her fingers were a few gold rings including her engagement ring and jems of her home planet and Kanaye's.
Uranus descended down the gold stairs, her hand on the stair arm to keep her from losing her balance in her high heels. She then made her way to the princess of Neptune.
"May I have your hand?" she smiled while holding out her hand waiting for Neptune to answer.
Neptune smiled back at her before placing her hand over Uranus "Of course,"
Uranus guides Neptune onto the dance floor and they began to waltz. Uranus's hand rested on Neptune's waist while her other hand softly held Neptune's hand. She brought her closer to her body wanting to be as close as possible with her.
"I wasn't sure if you were coming down to this ball tonight. I thought you'd be upstairs with Kanaye,"
Uranus chuckles "My mother forced me to come down here. I have to go to every ball that's held here,"
They smile again before someone tapped Neptune's shoulder.
"May I cut in?"
Neptune turned her neck to see Kanaye standing behind her. Uranus releases Neptune as Neptune nods affirmative. She then curtsied and left them glancing back at them.
Kanaye placed his hand on her waist and gently took her hand in his pulling her close "You two were a bit close?" he smiles as he begins to slow dance with her.
"So?"
"I might get jealous, I might think you might be having an affair?" added Kanaye as he glanced at Neptune.
"What would you do if I was?" asked Uranus curiously as Kanaye turned her around giving her an opportunity to gaze at Neptune while dancing.
"Maybe you should ask what would your mother do if you were?"
"Depends if I have my heir or not. If not, kill me for sure, but what about you?"
"Hmmm, I'd be upset but not surprised. I'm not really sure? But as long as I can still be around you," Kanaye leaned forward to plant a kiss on her lips but she turned her head quickly last second so his lips would only brush her cheek.
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Princess Uranus sat in the garden gazing at the moon and the other planets that were in view. Silent tears cascaded down her face and soaked her white gown. The wind blew past her playing with her short strands of hair and lifting up dead leaves up into the sky.
"The moon looks beautiful," whispered a familiar voice belonging to Princess Neptune. She made her way to the stone bench and sat next to her partner.
"Doesn't it always look beautiful," replies Uranus still gazing at it "Almost as beautiful as the princess herself,"
"Hai, that's true,"
They sat there in a moment in silence just gazing up at the moon and the planets around it.
Uranus glanced back down as the tears continued streaming down her face "I don't want to do this. I never signed up for it. Why can't I just live how I want it? Make my own decisions, have a bit more freedom in it?" she said thinking about her arranged marriage.
Neptune's warm hand covered Uranus's as they gazed at each other. Neptune wiped Uranus's tears and let her hand rest there "You'll make it through, don't worry. I'll be there for you, for anything you need,"
Uranus's gave her a weak smile as she reached up and covered her hand. She saw Neptune hesitate for a moment and lean forward. Uranus leaned forward as well as their lips touched. It didn't last long as someone interrupted.
"Uranus," Uranus pulled apart as she gazed at Kanaye. He briefly jogged towards them grabbing Uranus's arm "You're mother is asking for you, she's upstairs,"
She nodded as she let herself get dragged off, she glanced back at Neptune who was watching her trying to decided either to follow her or to stay.
"Are you angry or is she?"
"I'm not angry,"
Uranus gazed at his stoic face as he avoided eye contact with her while leading her upstairs.
-Present-
Haruka opened her eyes and gazed back at Kanaye.
"Gomen ne,"
Kanaye raised his eyebrows in surprise "For what?"
"I treated you badly in the Silver Millennium. I acted like a rich spoiled brat and took things for granted. I didn't even acknowledge your feelings," explained Haruka as her vision started to blur as her eyes started to swim in water.
Kanaye wrapped an arm around her shoulders letting her rest her head on his shoulders "Ssshh, its okay. It's all in the past, you've changed now," he rubbed her arm up and down as Haruka wiped her eyes.
"No wonder I've got so enemies from the Silver Millennium,"
"That's not your fault, it had nothing to do with how you acted towards them,"
"Though there's something I said I'm not sure what it was about. It was in my mother's study and after I was told you wanted my hand in marriage. I slapped you and said 'I hate you, how could you do that after what I told you,'"
"The night before after I told your mother asking your hand in marriage I saw you in the garden. And you told me about your feelings to Neptune," explained Kanaye as he continued rubbing her arm comforting her.
Haruka shook her head one last time wiping her tears off her face again "Anyway, speaking of enemies I should head home. Michiru, she's Neptune and the others are probably worried about me and we still have that guy to catch who's currently stalking me and would love to have my head on a silver platter,"
"No, it's too dangerous to let you go. You don't even have your henshin stick to defend yourself if they arrive. You're going to have to stay here until we find this guy who wants you dead. I'll inform the others and track down the rest of the youmas. After that I'm going to kill the guy who wants to hurt you,"
Haruka furrowed her eyebrows and stared at Kanaye "You honestly think you can keep me locked up here like I'm some sort of princess while you fight my battles. I'm not a damsel in distress,"
"Well actually you are a princess last time I checked and I am going to fight your battles. So you are a damsel in distress right now,"
Haruka narrowed her teal eyes at him "I'm sick of doing nothing, I have to fight and you're not keeping me locked up here,"
Kanaye got off the bed as he walked towards the door "The safest place right now for you is here princess,"
"My name is Haruka and you are not leaving me here," protested Haruka as she leaped off the bed and marched towards him.
"Watch me," Kanaye quickly swung the door open before exiting and slammed it shut behind him. Haruka grabbed the knob as she tried to open the door but no success as he immediately locked it once it was shut.
"Kanaye let me out, please. Let me out,"
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