Disclaimer: If I did own Twilight it would have been gayer.
A/N: I feel like words are just flowing out of my right now and as long as they're flowing I'm going to keep writing.
Tanya's P.O.V.
Throughout the rest of the night Bella would periodically say Edward's name, but I couldn't really be mad about that because she sounds like she was in so much pain. One time the pain became too much and she started crying. I wasn't exactly sure if she was awake or not, but regardless I was there for her. I rubbed her back and ran my fingers through her hair as I whispered calming words into her ear until she was calm again. This seemed to have calmed her down rather quickly.
I hate seeing her in pain because she doesn't deserve it. Why would Edward cause her pain like this? What did she ever do to him for him to just pick up his whole family and abandon her like she is nothing? I want to be angry, and I want to go find Edward and tear him limb from limb, but I can't because Bella needs me. I need to prove to her that I'm not like my idiot cousin. I would never leave her because that would cause me more pain than it caused her. I wonder if that idiot ever told her what it was truly like to be mated to a vampire.
I'm startled out of my thought by hearing Bella's heart rate increases. A sure sign that she is starting to wake up I can't help but smile as I pull her closer. I want to cherish these last few moments of peace before she wakes up and reality sets in. I'm going to hold true to what I said. I'm not going to force her to talk to me, but I am going to make sure I drill into her head that I am here for her and I'm not going anywhere.
I sigh as Bella starts to move around a sure sign that she's now awake. "Good morning angel," I'm trying to sound happy, but I'm honestly worried she's going to try kicking me out. Lucky for both of us Charlie left about an hour ago.
"No," she says sounding grumpy as she snuggles into me more. Aw she's not a morning person so adorable.
"Bella it's almost 10 o'clock are you hungry or something?" I know humans have to eat eventually.
"I don't want to get up. Please don't make me." She sounded so sad in that last sentence.
"Is there something wrong?"
"Reality sucks and so do my dreams. So I just want to lie in bed right now and apparently you are the one thing that can make things better. Therefore you are going to stay here with me and we are going to talk unless you have other plans that is." I didn't think it was possible to be happy and confused all at the same time. Of all the things I thought she might say this morning that wasn't one of them.
"I know you were outside of my house most of the night. So what would be the point of telling you to leave? Vampires are very stubborn creatures apparently." She says as she rolls away from me and stands up.
"Should I be offended by that?" I ask as I also sit up and move back to the headboard.
"That's entirely up to you. Now why were you outside my house last night?" I wonder if she meant interrogation when she said we would talk. Either way I will answer her questions it's not like I have anything to hide.
"I wanted to make sure you were okay. It's not like I wasn't trying to stalk you or anything creepy like that."
"Why do you care?" She said with more venom in her voice than I think she intended as she turns around to face me.
"I told you I care about you. Why don't you believe me?" If she's getting to ask questions so do I.
"Because you don't even know me! We've only known each other a couple of days! How could you possible care about me when the Cullen's clearly didn't!" I honestly thought it was going to be harder than that. Makes me wonder what exactly she was dreaming about last night.
"I know enough about you to know that you need somebody to be there for you right now. I know that you are stubborn when you want to be, and I also know that you are going to try and block everybody out because you're heartbroken which I understand. I wish I could tell you why the Cullen's left you, but sadly I can't right now because I don't know. All I want is for you to give me a chance to be your friend nothing more nothing less." Only I do want more, but for now I will settle for friendship because I want her to trust me.
"Forgive me if I have a hard time believing you. My track record with vampires these past few days having been that stellar, but you already know that." I honestly don't know what to do here because her trust issues set in faster than I had anticipated.
"So you have decided not to trust any vampire?"
"Well yes...no...I don't know. Why do you care?" How many times is she going to keep asking me that same question?
"I'm not inclined to answer that question again considering you're not listening to what I'm saying." I watch as Bella starts pacing back and forth from her bed to her window.
"That's because I don't believe you obviously!" She shouts as she stops in front of me.
"So tell me what I have to do." New approach I'm just going to let her set the ground rules for everything because we're just going in circles right now.
"What are you talking about?" She says as she takes a seat on the edge of her bed as she hangs her head looking rather defeated.
"I want you to tell me what I can to help you." She looks up at me still confused. "What can I do to help you understand that I do truly care about you?"
She sighs deeply, "Honestly I don't know Tanya. Right now I just feel like my world is falling apart. The people I thought were my family left me, and the man who constantly told me that I was his mate left me in the middle of the goddamn woods! So right now I don't know!" I had to suppress my want to growl when she said that Edward called her he's mate when she clearly isn't! I want to tell her that, but I think it's best if I leave that for a later date. Right now I'm more concerned with Bella looking so broken and trying to fight back tears.
"So what would you like me to do Bella? All I want to do is help you through this. You make all the rules." I'm not going to lie I like having control and the fact that I'm willing to give all of it to her is truly saying a lot.
"Right now what I want is for you to stop talking. You somehow manage to say the right things, but I don't know if I can trust those words."
"How about you go take a shower and I'll go make you some breakfast." I can tell that I am pushing her too much in such a short period of time so I'm just going to give her an out.
"Wait, what? That's it you're not going to try giving me a speech or something of the sort?" I can't help but smile because that is actually something I would do. I start sliding out of bed and move in front of her and kneel so we are eye level.
"Right now you have a lot on your plate and me trying to force you to believe something is going to push you further away. So I'm going downstairs to make you breakfast or more like lunch now." I say as I look at the clock and see that it's a quarter to noon. "While I'm cooking you are going to go take a shower or do something that humans do, okay?" I added the last part trying to save myself. I don't want her to think I think she smells or anything.
I kiss her on her forehead simply because I couldn't resist. I then stand up and start walking towards her bedroom door. I walk out of the bedroom with nothing left said between us. I told myself I was going to be patient, and I am determined to hold true to it no matter what.
Bella's P.O.V
Tanya was right I did feel better I took my shower, and she was nice and me eggs and bacon, Nothing too over the top because I know vampires have a tendency to go overboard somethings, but she managed not too. She is actually really sweet and wasn't at all weird when she sat down with me while I ate. We didn't really have anything to talk about besides the giant elephant in the room that I know I can't avoid forever.
"We don't have to talk about that is you don't want to Bella." It's almost as if she could read my mind.
"But I can tell you want to know." I say as I watch her remove a piece of strawberry blonde hair that fell in her face.
"Only you want to talk about it. I told you before I'm not going anywhere." I still can't decide if what she says is genuine or not. I really want to believe her because her eyes look so honest.
"Okay how about this. If you stick around for a week I will talk to you about whatever you want." I have a feeling I know what she's going to say.
"Whenever and whatever we talk about is up to you Bella. I don't know how things went do with you and Ed...I mean your ex, but whether or not you wish to tell me is up to you. If you want to I'll be here to listen." I noticed how she stopped saying his name the moment she saw me start to tense. The pain is still too fresh and I don't know how I'm going to handle it.
"Thank you," she is being really patient about all of this. I feel like I can talk to her, but I just don't know how right now.
"Anytime angel," she says with a cheeky smile. I can't help but smile back. Then I had an epiphany.
"How about we play 20 questions?" She rose a perfectly eyebrow at my random question.
"Would you like me to start or should I?" I enjoy the fact that she is willing to go along with this. I feel like this will maybe help me trust her more.
"I would like to start. What's your full name?" I didn't want to start with anything too heavy.
"Tatiana Veronika Denali, but as you know I go by Tanya." She says without hesitation. Wait, Tatiana? That sounds Russian. Well that would explain the accent I think I keep hearing.
"You would be correct I am Russian but over the years I have learned to drop my accent. Did you know that you have the tendency to think out loud?" I can stop the blush that breaks out across my face as I hang my head to hide my face. "Please don't be worried it's perfectly okay, and I do believe it is my turn. What's your favorite color?"
"I have three: black, white, and purple." I could never decide which color I liked more out of the three.
"You know some people would argue that black isn't really a color."
"Unless those people can explain to me in great detail without a single shred of doubt or question that black is a color I don't want to hear it. I'm somebody asks me what color my shoes are and I say black I don't see how it's not a color." Okay so might have just hit a nerve. I don't see how black isn't a color and a sexy one at that.
"I see you are very passionate about the color black. Good to know. Your question," she says and I can practically hear the thoughts running through her mind.
"Okay what's your favorite food?" I can't help but smile when she gives me such a look of confusion.
"What are you talking about? I don't eat food."
"True, but you do eat animals based on your gold eyes. Which one is your favorite?" I enjoy the fact that I could confuse a vampire with one question. Must be all that time I spend with the Cullen's paying off. I felt a pain in my chest when I thought of their name, but I don't feel like I'm going to have an episode like yesterday.
"Are you okay angel?"
"Why do you call me that?" I don't know how to answer her question and I choose to ignore it for now.
"Which question do you want me to answer? Also you skipped my turn." She says trying to lighten the mood that I accidently darkened, but right now isn't the time.
"Please?" Is all I say knowing she will understand.
"Because you are as beautiful as an angel," She says looking me in my eyes. I can tell there's more to that, but that was all I needed for now.
"Would you like me to stop calling you that?" In my head without thinking about it I said no. I enjoy when she calls me that, but I'm confused as to how I feel towards it.
"No, I strangely enjoy it when you call me that." I decided to just be honest with her.
"Really?" She says with a smile that lights up her beautiful face. Wait, beautiful face? Where did that come from? What is going on with me today?
"Yes really. Now it's your turn unless you would like to stop playing." I really hope she wants to keep playing.
"I don't mind playing. I want to know as much about you as I can."
I don't what has been going on with me today, and I don't know what this feeling is in my chest. I feel like I should be comatose since Edward just left me and he is supposed to be my soul mate, but right now with Tanya in my presence it doesn't feel as pain. Not to say I don't feel my heart clench when I think about him or any of the Cullen's, but with Tanya I don't think she would allow my world to fall apart around me. I'm not sure how I feel about this.
A/N 2: I was going to go with the classic Bella going comatose and hating the world around her but I've decided to take a different more entertaining route. So just in there with me and I promise it'll be worth it.