Hey sorry I was going to update last night, but ended up staying at work a little longer than anticipated. Anyways enjoy enjoy! :)

Chapter 11

The next couple of days passed in a blur, they had returned on a Tuesday. The Ball was going to be on a Saturday, Star Fleet was already busy reporting this to the media. Everywhere one of the crew looked they were on the screen. People constantly asking for their autographs. They were everyone's hero, men and women were offering them their companionship. It seemed like the offers were never going to stop or get any less bizarre. The Captain had got some of the more bizarre offers, such as could someone have one of her eggs. So that they could claim they had a piece of the captain. Which was totally crazy, but Voyager had the media attention. They all wanted interviews, but the one they wanted to score the most was with the captain.

They thought that at the Ball, they'd get a chance to do just that. Everyone was speculating on the captain, but more importantly they were concerned about Chakotay and the Captain. Any insight into their relationship was brought out to public knowledge, which only served to embarrass the two. No one in the public seemed to know that there was no romantic relationship between the two. Never did they suspect that Seven and Chakotay were together.

Phoebe of course had done her research into that matter, and abruptly found the door slammed in her face. None of their adventures had been publicized, everything was consider top secret. There were those in Star Fleet that wanted to keep a low profile till they could assume the crew of Voyager wasn't a threat. Little did they know, that the crew was far from it, unless it endangered a fellow crew mate. The whole crew was very protective of their captain and made that public knowledge.

Threats of course had been made towards them all. Their were those who felt scared by them and those who hated them because they weren't there for the war. Of course with any threat it was always aimed towards a leader of a group. If anything was going wrong in the economy everyone immediately blamed the President of the Federation. Right now the economy was good and a women by the name of Viviana, everyone liked her. She was a very fair women and had seen the war from the front lines. She had been in command of several ships as an Admiral, by the time the war was over she was a hero. She had saved countless billions of life. Everyone liked her, she turned in her pips to get involved in politics. She deemed that the war should've never happened, and was determined to stop it from happening again. It was rumored that the Captain and Viviana were going to have lunch sunday afternoon. Yet no had sought to confirm or deny this.

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Seven stared at her reflection for a long time, the dress she ended up choosing was very fitting. She had thought it to be a little revealing, it was a black dress with straps. Not a satin material like the Captains, yet felt just a nice. Phoebe told her she should let her hair down and pin it back. Yet this still didn't make as much sense as just leaving it up. But Phoebe had offered to help her get ready, which she couldn't turn her down. It was one of the things the sister had in common, people just did not say no to them. Mostly though the two were as different as up and down. Seven could tell the two really loved each other and had been very close in the earlier years.

Where the Captain enjoyed Mathematics, Phoebe enjoyed arts and drawing. What everyone didn't know was that the Captain was just as good if not better. Seven had the privilege of seeing some of her work and she had called it amateur. The painting and sculptures were very far from it, but could tell the two shared that ability. Apparently Phoebe could sing but the captain couldn't, Seven to could sing and one day talk to Phoebe about this ability.

Phoebe had referred to Seven as her niece on many occasion, which didn't bother her so much. Of course the captain it seemed to bother more, there was always a twitch of remorse. But the Captain was a very eligible bachelor, and Phoebe had bragged to Seven that she'd found her a date. Seven didn't know whether to be scared for the captain or happy.

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Yet still Seven had her own problems, Chakotay for one. Her aunt was in a whole other group. But Chakotay always came up first, whether she should leave him or not. He had called her and ask if they'd be attending the Ball together, and before her mind could form a plausible excuse. She looked up at him and saw urgency in his eyes and heard herself say yes. He said he would pick her up and they would go together and couldn't wait till then. He was almost like a child, his voice had seemed giddy. But his eyes they told a whole other story, which was he didn't know if he was doing the right thing. Seven didn't think she was doing the right thing it almost felt like going out with another mans husband. The captain of course said it was okay and she was just being silly, after saying that had gone up to her room. Seven had followed her up shortly afterwards and peaked in her room to say something. The captain was deep in thought and was writing something on a piece of paper. Instead of a padd which Seven had thought was odd at the time.

Kathryn had gone over to visit with her sister, while her mom was away teaching at school. Kathryn thought that Seven was about to go regenerate, what she didn't know was what she really was up to. One might say Seven had become more human by the action she took next, others not so much. But Seven had to know what the letter said, had to know what was so important as to write it down. Seven knew if she was discovered that it would sever their trust in each other. She crept into her room and after searching for a couple minutes finally found it. It had been stuffed in a jacket pocket, as if for safe keeping. It read"

"My Dearest Chakotay, how I wish I could give you this letter. But to me it maybe enough that I write my feelings down. Do you remember when you first transported aboard my ship? How I stepped between you and Tom, I placed my hand up and looked at you. I wish I could tell you at that moment I was hooked. How do I mean hooked, I guess I should say liked. But I was engaged to be married, and somehow had gotten myself thrown to the far side of the galaxy.

It was just my luck I guess, I have never been lucky in love. I have always lost out, but with you I knew I hadn't missed out. Did you know I actually looked forward to fighting with you, how you would tell me I couldn't do something. Just because you told me I couldn't I had to try. Sometimes I'm just to hard headed for my own good. When I went to make you First Officer, Tuvok thought I was off my rocker. Which I guess wasn't far off. Did you trust me when you first saw me, for some reason I did. Every fiber of my Star Fleet training told me not to and to keep on my toes.

All I had ever been told was that I was being sent after a criminal, but my dear you are not. I know that now, I knew it in my gut then. Everything you have ever done has been to help your people out. When we were stranded on New Earth and you made me a bathtub, I have to say that's the kindest thing a man has ever done for me. Everyday I was there with you, I kept falling more and more in love with you. Oh, I knew you loved me to. But all I could think of was Mark waiting for me back home. I have never been a cheater, but I'm not going to lie you are to restrain from. I had to keep working to stray my mind away from those thoughts. Then the ship came back for us and I knew it could never happen.

Where did I ever read that a Captain couldn't have relationship with a member of her crew. I believe it has never been written in stone, but its always been implied. You sat next to me through every crisis, you held my hand while I talked about Kes. How I missed her, how I still do. It never seemed fair to me that she be taken away from me. But wasn't I always a mother hen to my crew. I spent all my time in my new 'project' as the crew like to call her.

Were you jealous of the relationship I had with her? I took her under my wing and taught her how to be human. You know Chakotay, you could've been involved in helping me. But of course we to anger with each other then. I was just to blinded with wanting to get home, I wasn't thinking rationally. But here I am sitting alone, I'm scared now.

All I can think of is you and Seven getting married. It makes my stomach churn, but I will not destroy your relationship. B'Elanna called me today you know, wanted to see how I was handling the news. Most of the crew I guess were shocked to learn this, but were keeping everything in the family. If I were to tell you one thing it would be for you not to hurt Seven. My sister jokes around and calls her, her niece. It would help if that statement was far fetched, but its not. I will not let anyone hurt her, not the Borg, and defiantly not a man.

What more could I say? Not much. Chakotay, your touch sends chills up my spine. The way my heart feels when your near-by, oh I do love you I have. I'm sorry I never can tell you this. Life has a funny way of destroying things for us. I thought you'd wait, but of course you couldn't. But I should've assumed I'm not someone to wait around forever on.

With all my heart and all the love I can give, Kathryn...

Seven looked down at the paper and felt ridiculous, she didn't love Chakotay, but the captain did. Now she had gone off and ruined everything. The world felt as if it was spinning off the the axis. She quickly put the paper back and reorganized the room to its previous state.

Right now all she needed was someone to talk to, but no one would understand. As soon as she said she'd gone through the captains things she'd be in trouble. What Seven didn't realize was she was having a panic attack. With all these emotions the procedure has now allowed to slash through her system. She didn't remember passing out from sheer exhaustion from the emotions. Or the Captain calling the doctor, but she does remember waking up.

The Captain was standing beside her, holding her hand, but herself still asleep. The doctor was talking to someone in the background, who Seven had no clue at that point. Seven started to flex her leg, which made the Captain stir.

"Seven," it came out more grumble

"What happened" was Sevens quick response

About that time the Doctor strolled in, with Chakotay and Gretchen in tow.

"Ah you've awaken, how are you feeling?"

Memories came rushing back to her, trying on the dress again and changing out of it so she could talk to the captain. Seeing the Captain in her room writing on paper. The the Captain leaving and her reading the leader. Guilt surged through her system at this new found knowledge.

"I am not certain, what happened," Seven tried to mask the guilt in her voice

"It seems you had a panic attack and couldn't handle all those emotions. I did tell you to take it easy for awhile and break in the emotions. Not let them all come tumbling out at once. So may I ask what caused this attack?" The doctor looked very intriuged to have this knowledge, but Seven refused to allow it.

"I see and it was nothing, is there anything else?"Seven asked

"Seven I really think you sho-" Chakotay started

"I need to regenerate," and with that she got off the couch to do just that.

End of Chapter 11...

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