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In the darkness of her living room, Bella sought comfort on the depths of Ben & Jerry's. She needed a sweet treat to assuage the bitterness betrayal had left on her mouth. Eating also helped in postponing the tears of humiliation and the soreness of her heart. As long as she kept her mouth occupied, no anguish would occupy her mind. So, a second carton followed the first and when it was over she had run out of ice-cream.
No longer able to avoid the feelings swirling in her heart, she cried. However, her tears weren't the pathetic lament of the helpless; they were the angry oath of the strong, promising retribution. The sobs rising from her soul didn't mourn the loss of a loved one; they grieved for all the stolen time that could never be restored. Bella realized that she wasn't crying for the man, but for the person she had become: a woman who had annulled herself for the dubious honor of belonging to a deceitful man.
It would be easy to lay all the blame on Edward, but that would have been childish and counterproductive. Bella acknowledged that her life was the product of convoluted choices and if she was to change the path of destiny, she would have to own up to her mistakes and try to do better next time.
She was weary and unhappy, but bravely held herself together, because the ball was in her court and the next move would have to be carefully planned.