When we got home Bruce parked the car in the driveway, getting out and pulling me out with me. 'Park Amelia's car in the garage, Alfred' said Bruce throwing the key to the butler. Alfred looked shocked at my tears and the way Bruce was manhandling me but nodded no the less.
Bruce opened the door to our room throwing me on the bed closing the door. Bruce throw his suit jacket on the floor and pulled at his tie. 'I can't believe you! I bet you couldn't wait for me to leave so you could spread your legs! How long did you wait? Huh? Was he the only one?' snapped Bruce pushing his fingers through his hair.
'No, no, no Bruce it wasn't like that' I pleaded with him trying to convince him and see my side. I got up off the bed to stand in front of him. I tried to touch him but he shoved me away.
'No! Don't you dare touch me! You don't get to touch me anymore! Not after what you did!' Bruce screamed in my face.
'Please! Please Bruce listen to me. Just…J…Just let, let me explain' I begged Bruce. I was crying so hard that it was getting hard to breath. I needed Bruce to listen to me. To let me explain things to him.
'Do you have any idea how it felt? How I felt? I went to pick my wife up for lunch but to find out that she was fucking the guy she was volunteering for! Is that what you do in the name of helping people?' yelled Bruce.
'No! I… I… It was just Johnathan. But it wasn't like that. I haven't cheated on you before. I…I…I needed someone and he was just there' I told him shakily trying to breathe.
'He was just there? Are you hearing yourself? It like saying the knife was there so I stabbed myself' snapped Bruce.
'It's not like I wanted it to happen. I tried to stay away from him but I couldn't help it' I told him as I wiped my tears. There were no point because new tears fell from my eyes.
'You know how many women throw themselves at me? Do you? I could sleep with as many women as I wanted but I have never slept with another women! You know why? Because of this! Because I married you! Amelia, from this day forward I promise you these things. I will laugh with you in times of joy and comfort you in times of sorrow. I will share in your dreams, and support you as you strive to achieve your goals. I will listen to you with compassion and understanding, and speak to you with encouragement. I will remain faithful to our vows for better or for worse, in times of sickness and health. You are my best friend and I will love and respect you always' snapped Bruce showing me his wedding ring. He reminded me of the vows we took.
'I remember all our vows Bruce. Every single one of them! Bruce, I love you. You are my best friend. Today I give myself to you in marriage. I promise to encourage and inspire you, to laugh with you, and to comfort you in times of sorrow and struggle. I promise to love you in good times and in bad, when life seems easy and when it seems hard, when our love is simple, and when it is an effort. I promise to cherish you, and to always hold you in highest regard. These things I give to you today, and all the days of our life. I made a mistake! And I'm sorry' I said repeating my vows for him to see that I still remembered them.
'You're sorry!' snapped Bruce looking like he was going to explode.
'Oh, come on! Bruce you act like you've never done anything wrong!' I snapped at him. He was acting like he had never done anything wrong.
'What have I done? Huh! Go on tell me what I did? What was so bad that it caused you to spread your legs for another man' yelled Bruce.
'Oh, I don't know maybe the fact that you were in love with Rachel! Rachel! My best friend!' I yelled pulling at my hair in frustration. 'Bruce, she's my best friend' I mumbled weakly as I began to tremble and I felt the room was getting too warm. I felt nauseous and dizzy. Oh no, I knew what was happening. I was having a panic attack. I had to get away from here. Away from this room, Bruce and this confrontation.
'Dear God! I told you I love you! I chose you! I married you! Why the hell do you have to be so god damn insecure!' yelled Bruce.
I pushed past him trying to get away from Bruce. 'I am insecure! You wanted Rachel but settled for me when you couldn't have her! You left me for eight years Bruce! Eight years! I didn't know if you were dead or alive! If you were hurt! Or where you were! I needed you, Bruce! I needed you and you weren't there! I needed you when…when my parents died' I screamed at Bruce who looked shell shocked. It felt good to let it all out and I didn't want to stop till I told him everything. 'I needed you, Bruce! I needed you! I needed you to hold me close and tell me everything would be okay! I needed you to hold me when I cried! I needed you to hold my hand at my parents' funeral! I needed you to stay awake with me when I couldn't sleep! I…I…I needed you when…When our… our…our baby' I broke off in to sobs. I fell to the floor next to the bed using my hands to muffle my cries.