A/N: So here's the next chapter. It's a little shorter than the others. But that's because it was extremely difficult to write. I hope you can follow along with me.
Oh and thank you again for the reviews. Your enthusiasm is definately appreciated.
You could keep hiding
Or talk instead
And quell the angry mob
That's inside your head
-I Think You're Hiding Something by Jesse Harris-
"Bella. Bella! Wake up!" Edward and Alice were both trying to shake her awake.
Bella's eyes flew open and she was gasping for air like she'd just ran a race.
"Bella, you're okay. Calm down. It was just a bad dream." Edward said putting his arm around her, trying to soothe her.
Bella looked up at him. Her big brown eyes were wide with terror. He wasn't sure if she was aware of where she was yet. She had stopped screaming, but her breathing hadn't slowed. She was on the verge of hyperventilating.
Suddenly Bella threw her arms around Edward's neck and began sobbing uncontrollably. Edward and Alice exchanged a look of confusion as Edward rubbed small circles on Bella's back and Alice stroked her hair.
Edward hadn't realized the zombie movie would scare Bella that much. But who was Emmett? There wasn't an Emmett in the movie and Bella kept screaming the name Emmett in a southern accent.
"Bella, honey, you're okay," he said softly into her ear. "No one's going to hurt you," he said still rubbing her back.
Bella's sobs were beginning to quiet down. And soon she was just sniffling, but her grip on Edward did not loosen.
"I'm gonna go get some water," Alice said standing up and walking out of the room.
"I'm sorry," Bella said pulling away from Edward.
"It's alright. Are you okay?"
Bella nodded.
"It was just a dream," Edward told her, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.
Bella reached up and placed her hand on his, holding it to her cheek and closing her eyes.
"Zombies aren't real," Edward whispered.
Bella's eyes flew open. "Zombies?"
She looked confused and Edward realized she hadn't been dreaming about zombies.
"You weren't dreaming about zombies?"
Bella's face flushed and she bit her lip. "Yeah, zombies. I was," she stammered.
The zombie movie would've been a good cover up if she had remembered they'd been watching it. The look on Edward's face told her he didn't believe her. But her dream had been so vivid she hadn't even realized she was dreaming. She'd been so embarrassed to wake up and find Edward and Alice looking at her, startled.
She hadn't expected to fall asleep while watching the movie. And as she feared, without Jasper's calming presence the nightmares came back full force. It had been so long since she'd had one that felt so real that she'd forgotten the affects they had on her. How even after she woke up she still felt trapped in that time. And the overwhelming sense of guilt that enveloped her. She'd forgotten how she'd sit in bed and sob for hours at a time after she woke up.
And tonight had been no different. As much as she'd wanted to not react to the chaos in her head, she couldn't help it.
And she hadn't even been thinking when she grabbed a hold of Edward and started sobbing into his chest. She'd just been trying to find relief And unlike times before, it came. Edward's arms around her and his smooth soothing voice had brought relief from the crushing pain she was feeling.
Once the relief came her surroundings came back to her and she was embarrassed once again. And now that she'd flubbed the zombie excuse she knew there was going to be no easy way out of explaining things.
"No you weren't. Come on Bella, you can tell me." She was still visibly shaken, although her breathing had returned almost to normal. Whatever she had been dreaming about had really scared her.
Bella released his hand that she had still been clutching and shook her head.
"Who is this Emmett you were yelling about?" Edward had decided direct questions were the only way to get answers.
Bella blushed even deeper and looked down, but didn't answer.
"Is he an ex-boyfriend?"
"No," Bella said delicately.
Edward saw Alice come into the room and then quickly turned around and left again. He loved Alice. He knew she could sense that he was trying to get answers out of Bella.
"Did he hurt you?"
Bella shook her head vigorously and sighed. "Emmett is my older brother."
"Okay,' Edward said a little confused. Jasper had led him to believe Bella was an only child.
So, Bella was having a nightmare about her older brother. He chose to get her talking about Emmett. Maybe he could put the puzzle pieces together with a little more information.
"So, you have an older brother, huh?"
Bella nodded.
"Jasper didn't mention you had a brother."
"He doesn't know," Bella said quietly.
"He doesn't know you have a brother!"
"It never came up!"
Edward had to relax. Bella was starting to get defensive and she'd never tell him anything.
"Right. It just surprised me. You guys have been together a long time. So, why hasn't Jasper met your brother?"
"Mmm…"
Edward sensed her hesitation. He reached for her hand and rubbed circles with his thumb on the back of it. "It's alright, Bella. I promise I won't tell anybody."
Bella looked up into his eyes, his beautiful green eyes. She felt like she could trust Edward. It was an awe-inspiring feeling. Looking at Edward she realized she'd never even debated telling Jasper about her past. Not even once. And yet here she was considering spilling all of her secrets to his brother, almost a complete stranger to her. She was a terrible girlfriend. Why did she feel she could trust Edward and not Jasper, her boyfriend of over two years?
"Bella?" Edwards's velvet voice was soft, silky and comforting.
"My brother is… away. I haven't seen him in years."
"So, you guys aren't close?"
"We're very close," she said emphatically. "We talk every day."
"But you never visit him and he never visits you?"
Bella shook her head. "It's my fault."
"What is you fault?"
"Why I never see Emmett… Why he can't come see me," her voice was quiet.
"Bella, I don't understand."
Bella opened her mouth and then closed it. She was on the verge of spilling her entire past. Edward was making it too easy for her. This had been her secret burden for so long. Could she really just let it all out?
How good would it feel to finally share her load with someone else? To free herself from even just the littlest bit of ache?
She looked down at her hand which Edward still held firmly in his.
"Please, Bella…" Edward said, using his other hand he put his finger under her chin and tilted her head up so that her eyes met his once again.
Alice stood in the hallway, silently watching and listening. She sighed softly. Bella were perfect for each other. She and Jasper were meant to be together. If she could just get everyone to see that, they could all be happy.
She heard Bella say, "It's a long story."
Followed by Edward, "I've got all night."
Alice smiled to herself. If Bella could talk about her issues maybe she could get past them. And by confiding in Edward maybe they'd feel what she felt. The incredible chemistry they had.
She turned and headed for the guest room. Bella was going to talk to Edward now. If Bella wanted to tell her later, she would.
A/N: Okay so now we're getting into the heart of the story. I have most of the next chapter finished. I have a little bit more to add and then I just have to fix it up some. I'm hoping for a quick update. Looking forward to hearing what you're all thinking.
