I am begging for forgiveness guys... i haven't updated for so long and i feel so frustrated with myself.
PLEASE DONT FLAME ME FOR MY LATENESS!!!!
I have had a lot of studying for the school certif. Time management wasn't very good plus i had writers block HARDCORE,
I will write as much as i can and thanks for bearing with me guys!
Disclaimer: I do not own twilight
Chapter11
29.5 years later
"Kian" a light feathery voice called in distress.
"DON'T LEAVE ME!" the small figure was in a fetal position rocking back and forth. Her eyes wide open in terror.
She could not die
She could not sleep
This was her waking nightmare
x-x-x-x-x
"Bella! It's okay Bella I'm here, I'm not going anywhere" a frantic voice echoed, she looked up at Kian's golden eyes much like her own and sighed as she closed her eyes...
Time went slow, each small miniscule movement of the clock was scrutinised by her watchful eyes.
Wishing every moment with every fibre in her being that he would come back and whisk her away from her personal hell.
"Bella" Kian whispered, tearing her eyes away from the clock, she looked at him questionably.
"Aro wants to see you" he said in his childlike voice, she smiled at him her throat sore from dry sobbing.
"Ok" she whispered.
x-x-x-x-x
I glided down the hall, as if routine... I had done so for nearly thirty years.
My body not being able to age.
Frozen in time.
Unable to feel the peace of death.
I felt no physical pain, but the pain i was going through now, i would wish for physical pain one thousand times over compared to the mental pain i am experiencing.
I cannot age.
Though i feel as if i am centuries old.
Time passes slowly, but i am living proof that you can survive time... me among others have proved you can defeat every persons demon... time.
Some who are foolish enough to choose this lifestyle, they have defeated time but when time is defeated the only thing left for you to conquer is yourself.
x-x-x-x-x-x
I sashayed into the grand hall, where Aro awaited me on his large pristine throne, i scrutinised eight figures in the distance on one knee facing Aro, I moved forward my face cold.
Why was i called here, Kian was about to tell me of his last lion conquest, i smiled inwardly at myself.
"Isabella Dear!" Aro's papery voice chimed through the grand hall.
I flinched at the volume of his voice and somehow regained my composure.
"I need your council Isabella., do you mind summoning the others, we have a severe crime that needs to be punished and those implicated wish to seek an audience from you".
I nodded and spun around and headed for the vampire hall.
x-x-x-x-x-x
"Felix, Kian, Heidi, Demetri, Chelsea, Jane and Alec". I called into the hall. Invisible blurs flitted to my side, we stalked toward the grand hall. Kian's small hand in mine.
x-x-x-x-x-x
I flung the doors aside with my mind as we made a grand entrance. Our black cloaks billowing behind us, the eight turned their heads in our direction, the Cullens.
I gripped Kian's hand tighter and he squeezed back encouragingly, i was ready to face the world. At least I thought i was.
x-x-x-x-x-x
Kian smiled up at me as we approached the demons of my past.
We marched onward in silence, the sound of our shoes hitting the cold stone, I saw their faces stare back at me and I grimaced inwardly as I closed my eyes.
I felt their piecing gaze burning a hole through my back and I sighed melochanly letting the flood of emotions take over my body and numbing every sense that was of use. They could kill me easily, but they didn't.
Because they don't know how.
x-x-x-x-x-x-x'
*Flashback*
"Edward!" I screamed into the pillow. I felt an ice cold hand stroke my forehead, before I slipped back into semi-consciousness.
*change of scene*
The burning was unbearable, my whole body was on fire and I was writhing on the couch, my eyes squeezed shut as if it would dispel the pain just like an illusion.
I felt a wet towel, cool my head as I opened my eyes to find Jasper's pained eyes.
"It'll be ok Bella".
End of flashback
They thought that I couldn't live without them…
With their empty promises, one after the other.
Helpless
human Bella.
They had always protected me, the day when it all
went away, was the day that I remembered it all, the betrayal, the
pain, the agony and the only comfort which was found in Kian's
small childlike face, it wasn't much, but it was enough.
I had waited nearly thirty years to hear his voice, saying my name, looking into my face.
But it wasn't my name.
And it wasn't my face that his eyes were comforting. His velvet voice caressing her name…
"Tanya" I hissed in my displeasure.
Kian tightened his hold on my hand, "Bella" He warned silently with his mind. I took a deep breath and enclosed myself and Kian in a tight protective coat.
We stopped walking.
"Kian, I can't do this" I whispered.
"It'll be okay Bella" He answered back, my eyes widened in shock and agony,
It'll be okay Bella
It'll be okay Bella
It'll be okay Bella
It'll be okay Bella
It'll be okay Bella
It'll be okay Bella,
It'll be okay Bella
I nodded reluctantly and cut off the supply of energy to the protective coat as we joined the others who had stopped in mid-step to wait for us.
"Bella!" cried Emmet, who instantly stood to greet me, only to be hit back down by one of the Volturi guard, who now held a sword to his throat, I waved him off and let go of Kian's hand, Emmet rose again, his face serious.
I glided over to him and embraced him tightly. "I missed you so much Emmet!" I cried into his coat, as he rubbed soothing circles into my back.
The council stared at me. They had never seen me like this before. I didn't think I would ever be like this again.
"Rose". I whispered, she darted in my direction and pulled me into a tight hug. I was to shocked to respond.
Esme caught up to me and also gripped me in a tight embrace, in which I relaxed into, Carlisle placed a kiss upon my forehead, and murmured about the stars blessings, I looked at Alice next.
She meekly smiled at me, I smiled lightly back, I wasn't ready to forgive her, not yet.
I nodded at Jasper, Edward and Tanya acknowledging their presence.
Jasper nodded back, and Edward did not even notice my presence… bastard.
I moved smoothly to where Aro was seated.
"Today we hear the account of the Cullen family and Tanya Denali, in which they are to respond to their accused allegations. One count of exposing us to human" He paused an nodded at me.
My eyes widened in shock and anger. "Aro" I hissed warningly. He held out a palm at me. I closed my eyes.
"And another account of impregnating a human". I hissed at Aro, was he joking. Aro glared at me.
"Are you questioning me Isabella?!" he asked incredulous.
"I'm just trying to reason with you, this can be sol-" I stopped at his angry glare.
"Jane". He nodded meaningly. Crap. "Isabella, I do not want to do this, but since your dis-obedience is out of hand, I shall deal with it accordingly." He smirked at me.
I nodded and let down my mental shield, Jane grinned at me, and I felt everyone's eyes on me. I closed my eyes.
I felt the tearing sensation rip through my body, and in my head millions of torture voices screamed in my head, I fell to the floor, writhing i pain, this was worse than the last time, Jane was laughing in her girlish peal.
She sent another wave of pain at me, stronger than the last, My silent scream rang in my ears, the hole was open again and she was carving deeper around the edges.
"STOP!" a glorious voice rang through the hall and the pain stoped instantly.
"Edward, baby. Sit down" a voice whispered in his ear. I sobbed and opened my eyes, Demetri and Kian flitted to my side.
Demetri glaring at Aro and Jane and Kian gripping my hand sobbing, I held Kian in my arms and let him finish sobbing, Demetri cooed calming words in my ear, as I rocked Kian back and forth, "It'll be okay Kian". I whispered.
Edward was watching us with pain in his eyes and a twinge of... Jealousy.
Jeez that is low, Jealous of a kid.
He stares intently at me, clenching his jaw. Tanya stroked the crook of his elbow trying to look seductive. He payed no mind. I giggled lightly and held my hand over my mouth in shock.
"Shall we begin then?" I said loud enough to echo within the walls of the grand hall.
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Carlisle stood preparing to make a practiced speech, i smiled encouragingly at him and gestured him to begin.
"My family and I and Tanya, have come here today to explain to you why Edward has chose to live without Bella".
"Isabella", I corrected politely, Edward flinched "It's not like that" he growled.
"Edward had decided that it would be best, to leave Bella, because of the dangers that had been presented in her human life" Carlisle was interrupted.
"But she is a vampire now, a perfect match for you, yet you choose the low life Denali". Aro stated pointedly as many of my council nodded in agreement. Tanya looked indignant.
I smirked. Of course i was the ideal mate, i snorted at that idea.
Edward stood up, i presume to defend Tanya.
"It's not like that Carlisle". He said angrily.
"Edward, calm down" Carlisle reasoned.
"No! You know what, this whole mess is because of me. Bella left because of me, because i was going to sleep with Alice". Alice placed a dainty pale hand over her face in shame.
"Edward stop!" Carlisle said angrily.
"And then she ran off with Jasper, and then Jasper came back and she came here" he sighed.
"There i said it, it was my entire fault".
I released a breath i wasn't sure i was holding in. My eyes filled with adoration, he stared into my eyes and i stared back into the endless waters that were his eyes.
"I still love her" he said quietly. The Volturi gasped and some snickered. He looked at me and i stared back.
My dead heart was aching.
Was it possible for the universe to start spinning again?