I woke up with the worst headache ever. I felt so emotionally drained. And my throat was so dry. I slowly sat up and rest my head on the head bored. I look over at my night stand and see Tylenol and a glass of water. I take the pill and sit the empty glass on the night stand. Then I look at the spot beside me where jane should be and I notice she isn't there. I get up and go to the restroom. I look in the mirror and I gasped.

My face was blotchy and my eyes was red and puffy due to crying. I looked hideous, I brushed my teeth and put my hair in a messy bun. I got my phone and I make my way to the kitchen.

I see Jane sitting on a stool at the island with her head down. I walk over to her and whispered in her ear "baby wake up"

"Im not sleep" she said with a bite to it, she tensed up when I touch her. I removed my hand.

"Thanks for the meds I had the worst headache ever babe. Would you like to be presented when I call Garrett" I asked

"Sure" she said without lifting her head. I sighed and called Garrett.

"Put it on speaker" said Jane lifting her head. She took the phone from me, put it on speaker and gave it back to me. Now she doesn't trust me, great.

"Hello"

"Its maura" I said

"Hey babe, what's up" he said, I can tell Jane was getting upset her leg started bouncing

"Please don't call me that, I'm calling to tell you that I don't want to go out with you. I'm love with my beautiful girlfriend and I made a horrible mistake" I said no longer talking to him and looking right in jane's eyes hoping she could see how sincere I am

"Wait did you just say, your girlfriend? You're a lesbian, who is it?" He asked

"My bestfriend" I said

"I knew it, that's why she left. Maura you obviously don't want to be with her. I'll pick you up at 8 still" he said

"No, the only reason I said I would go out with you was because of my mother and I didn't want her to be rude to jane. I refuse to ruin the best thing that has ever happen to me. So with that being said I'd like it if we never spoke again."

"Listen bitch that's fine by me. You and your dyke friend can be very happy together. You probably still the same weird freak you always been" he hissed, jane grabbed the phone and said

"Hey moron you can say what ever you want about me. But you will not talk about my girlfriend that way you. Let this be the last time you say anything to her. Goodbye asshole" she hung up and gave me my phone, then put her head back down.

"Baby?" Nothing "I'm sorry my love, I wish I could take it all back. I wish I could redo it, you have to believe me sweetie" nothing "Jay please don't shut me out, im sorry"

"Your mother" she said, I sighed and called my mother. I put it on speaker.

"Maura dear" my mother said

"Hi mother I called to tell you that yesterday I made a horrible mistake. I'm actually not single, I'm dating my beautiful best friend detective jane rizzoli. She's the one you met last night"

I said

"Maura, are you kidding me?you would rather settle for a blue collar detective. Have you lost your mind? Your reputation is going to be ruined maura."

"Im not settling first of all. Second of all I would rather have jane who cherishes me, love me, holds me when I cry, accepts me for who I am. And those are just some of the things jane does, then to be stuck in a love less relationships, with some arrogant self absorbed, rich snob asshole like garrett Fairfield anyday of the week. Oh and please don't tell me she's after me for my money, because that's a damn lie first of all your not going to disrespect her like that and second money doesn't matter. It really doesn't. Im happy mother, and I don't care if she flipped burgers for a living I would still her. why can't you be happy for me. It's not about you or who you want me to be with its about me and my happiness that's the only thing that should matter to you mother" I said on the verge of tears. She silent for a minute and then she said

"But our circle-" all the pain I feel is replaced by anger

"To hell with the social circle Constance, I'm your daughter!" I yelled, I take a couple of deep breaths and I calmly say" this isn't going anywhere, I know now where I stand in your life and I just want you to know that it hurts a lot, and i wish you nothing but the best in life. And even though you nor father never once told me this, I just want you to know that I love you and I'm always here for you, bye Constance" I said and I hung up and sat ths phone on the island. All I want right now is my girlfriends' arms around me, but that can't happen because I fucked up, again. I need a drink, I walk over to my cabinet and pulled down a wine glass. I walk over to my liquor cabinet and I grabbed a bottle of whiskey and I poured me a glass. I bring the bottle with me and I sit at the island and gulped it down, then poured me another one and did the same thing. By the time I had my third glass jane finally looked up at me

"Maur, its 9 In the morning why are you drinking" jane said to me as she got up and walked over to me she tried to take the whiskey away but I moved it. I started drinking it from the bottle. This time she took the whiskey from me, she put it where it belongs and stood in front of me. I giggled at her

"Why are you *hiccup*taking my whiskey from me" I giggled at the hiccup, im a little tipsy.

"Maura" jane said

"Jane I'm not ashamed of you, I did it to protect you. But you don't believe me." I sighed then giggled when I almost fell but jane caught me "you are so strong janie. I guess you want to break up with me, right? I'm sorry that I hurt you, I'm sorry baby I'm really *hiccup* sorry. I hope we can still be friends because I need you in my life." I kissed her one last time then gently pushed her out of my way I grabbed my phone and I went into my room. I crawled under the covers and put my phone on the night stand. I silently cried into my pillow. I feel the bed dip on jane side, she gets under the covers with me and spoon me.

"Stop crying" she whispers in my ear and kissed it, I calmed my self down "It's going to be okay, I love you" her hand traveled to my ass and squeezed it. I moaned and she slapped it.

"Fuck jane"I whimpered "stop it "

"Why" she asked

"Because you're sending me mixed signals." I whispered

"Look at me maura" she asked, I turned my body around to face her. She moved her hand down to my thigh and lifts it up and rest it on her hip. I move closer to her I thread my fingers through her hair. She leaned in and kissed me, I sighed against her lips. The kiss was way to short for my liking, I whimpered when she pulled back.

"I love you so much maura, I love you with all my heart, and relationships are not perfect. We are going to have our share of argument some worse than others, but I believe in us. I believe in our love. There is going to be times when we're so pissed off at each other. There is going to be times we hurt each other, we're human. But you know what at the end of the day, our love will bring us back to each other. I love you and I want to spend my life with you. I want us to work, we're going to make it maura." She kissed the tears I had away "no more crying beautiful, we are going to be okay" she kissed me

"I love you jane, im so sorry, I cant say it enough. you're way to good for me. I know i have to earn your trust over again and I will, I promise I wll" I said

"Im not going to lie, I don't really trust you. You don't trust me because you think im going to do something to hurt you the way you hurt me. But you know what, we will work on it okay" she said

"Do you forgive me" I whispered

"I remember what dr Carter said, the only person I hurt by holding a grudge and not forgiving someone is me. I forgive you maura. I do I truly believe that I forgive you. And you know what I forgive everyone who has ever hurt me. And you know what maura it feels really good, it feels great" she said with the brightest smile I have ever seen "You know life is to short, and we may have trust issues but I'm confident that we will work through it. I'm going to take a leap of faith here" she jumps off the bed and runs out the room two minutes later, she came back in the room and walked over to me. I moved to the edge of the bed and she kneeled down infront of and pulled a black velvet box out of her pocket and opened it. I grasp and covered my mouth.

"Baby" is all I can say

"I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you. It may be years on top of years before we are ready to get married. But I still want to ask. Will you marry?"

Im socked, I never thought I would get here again. I mean just a few minutes ago I wasn't sure if I had a girlfriend. And the ring is beautiful. It looks like a Crimson Rose 1.58 ctw. Rose Cut Flower Diamond. Wait a minute this is not my ring.

"Baby the ring is beautiful, but this isn't my ring. I like the one you gave me the first time." then I gasp"I threw it at you, I called it cheap, oh baby im so sorry. I loved that ring."

"No, this new ring represents our new beginning. So I'll ask you again, will you marry me maura Dorthea isles?

With tears rolling down my face and with a smile, I whispered

"Yes, I'll marry you baby"

I know we have long road ahead of us, but I'm confident we'll get there.

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(well this is the end guys :( I hope you enjoyed the story. Sorry for the mistakes) P.s there's a sequel to this story and I'll post it real soon :)