I don't even care if part of me thinks he shouldn't be there and we shouldn't be doing this, all that registers in my brain is the remnants of the nightmares and Peeta's arms around me. I lay back in the bed and bury my face in his chest, trying to shut out all the dream left me with. Peeta rubs my back and whispers to me. "Shhh Katniss it was only a dream, your alright, everything is alright." It soothes me, and at the same time reminds me of when he was having attacks and I said the same thing to him.

I lay there for a while before I slowly pull off of his drenched shirt. I'm not crying anymore, but I'm still so scared to be left. "Are you okay?" He says softly. "Probably." I say. "Do you want to talk about it?" "No."

How could I tell him most of my nightmares were about losing him? What would that say to him? What does that say to me? We lay there a few more minutes before Peeta starts to stir. He sits up, about to leave. I don't want to be alone! I grab onto his arm, halting him. "Stay with me?" I say, you hear the pleading in my voice, even if I don't want it to come out. Peeta turns and places his hand on my face. "Always." We lay back down and he strokes my hair just like he did in the cave back in the arena of our first games. Slowly but surely, I begin to fall asleep.

~
Again I wake in my room. This time aware of what had happened the night before, or so I think. I look around the room and find myself alone. It was a dream. I jump up and plunge into a shower. It was so real, I wanted it to be real. I have to rethink this, why am I getting so attached? This is the very thing I was trying to avoid! It's been made clear, Peeta and I will never, ever, be anything more than friends. The end.

Grabbing a towel I head out to my bedroom and get dressed. Buttercup is nowhere to be seen, I must be more alone than I thought. I walk down the stairs and head to the kitchen to grab some food, on the counter I find a note.

'Katniss, meet me in the meadow at 11. DO NOT come anytime before, its a surprise. I mean it. ~Peeta'

I set it down. I can't see him, not after the dream I had last night. In fact, I don't think I can ever see him again. It hurts too much to see something I can't ever have. I look at the clock, its 10. I have a whole hour to try and tell him that I can't see him anymore. This is going to be hard.

I dawdle for a while before I finally make myself go. Walking out of the house I make my way to Haymitch's to see if he's alive. His house smells better than it did. Hazelle has done a good job keeping it clean. Haymitch is passed out on the floor so I step over his body into the semi- clean kitchen. Opening the cupboards I see that he is out of booze, not good. I guess I'll make a trip to town to get some before he wakes up.

Exciting the house I make my way around town, the cold winter air bites at me. I find a new store in town and grab the bottles. The man at the counter gives me a questioning look. "It's for Haymitch." I say. I see the recognition in his face and he nods his head. Taking the bottles I walk back to Haymitch's house and put them away in the cupboards. Before I leave I place a little note telling him to let me know when he needs more. Looking at the clock it's almost 11. Good job talking to Peeta, Katniss. Now we have to do this the hard way.

I make my way to the meadow where I see Peeta sitting there in a bubble. Looks to me like something from the capitol. The bubble is big enough to hold several people, but instead of people there is a blanket and basket on the ground. Speaking of the ground, inside the bubble you can see green grass and flowers, outside of the bubble is snow that had just fallen. It was like its own little spring bubble.

Peeta sees me staring at the bubble wide eyed, I see him laugh but don't hear anything. This is weird. He motions for me to come closer. I walk, but stop short of the bubble. I raise my eyebrow at him. Suddenly his hand reaches out from the bubble and grabs mine, and he pulls me in. Inside, the air is warm, just like a spring day. "How's it going?" he asks with a smile. I can't even say anything. He laughs. "Here sit down, I have some cheesy buns to eat and then I have a surprise for you.

I sit and have something to eat. The better this gets the worse I feel. I can't keep doing it, it hurts too much. I finish my food and try to get the courage to start speaking. Before I can get a word out Peeta grabs something from behind his back. I freeze. "Okay, I have something for you but you have to close your eyes." I obey, but I feel the stinging in my eyes from the tears that are there. Something gets placed on my lap. "Open them."

On my lap sits the most beautiful painting I have ever seen. It is the most perfect picture of a dandelion. He knows that is is my favorite flower and I have a lot of things in my house with the dandelion theme. I can't help but gasp at how real it looks. It makes me tear up even more because it yet again, reminds me of something I can't have.

"Don't you like it?" He says gently. I look at him with my teary eyes. "I love it Peeta." I say. "Then why are you crying?" I look away. "I don't think we should see each other anymore Peeta, not as friends, not as anything." It comes out coldly, but it's all I can do. "Is it because of last night?" He says.

"Last night?" I say. "Yeah, I mean it probably wasn't the best Idea for me to just barge into your room and all. I realised that this morning. That's why I left before you woke up, I didn't want you to be mad." It's true? He actually came last night? I don't know what to think, I don't know what to say, so I just sit there. Finally I speak, "What were you doing out so late last night? I mean, how did you hear me?" He looks shy. "I uh, couldn't sleep. So I decided to go for a walk. I heard you screaming when I walked past, and I couldn't help from running in to help you."

I set the painting down and hug my knees to my chest. I don't even know what to think about any of it anymore. It's all so confusing. Maybe I should just be honest. "Peeta, it's not about you coming in last night. I mean, it kind of is, but that isn't all of it." He looks confused so I continue. "Its just that lately things have changed between you and me and I think it's just me thinking that and not you." He still looks lost. "I guess what I'm saying is that you mean a lot to me, and as much as I've tried to ignore it I.. well you mean more to me than you should." Suddenly I see a smile on his face. Now I'm the confused one. "It's okay Katniss." He says still smiling.

"No it's not, it's not okay! I shouldn't have to depend on anyone else. I shouldn't be feeling the way I am!" My voice is rising. Doesn't he understand? I can't see him anymore! I start raving more, my voice almost to a yell. Suddenly I'm silenced, and there is only one thing that could silence me at that moment. A kiss.

A/N: Well what do you know! I told you guys things would be changing soon! ;D I have some good ideas for future chapters, but its difficult to try and connect what is happening now, to what I want to happen! Sorry I haven't updated, life has been crazy busy with school, plus this last friday I had my sweet 16th birthday party :3

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